some random pictures.laugh your asses out of us , admire us , hate us , love us. i don't give two fucks about you.(= thank you.









check out the professional ah beng , bird (=







made in india , alicia and eunice (=







crazy bitch always lazy.haha (=







gay partners' birthday , pusstit;oblivion;polly;crazy;my woman;nicole;son (=







i can put my two fists in my mouth , WANNA SEE? eunice (=







boo hoo you. -_- , crazy (=







spastication , crazy;my woman (=







black and white parteh , ian;elane;sean;polly;crazy (=

he'll be back for me , i promise.




that's what i use to pray for everyday.i use to tell myself , he'll realised how much he actually loves me someday.but that day never came.you know why?i bet you do.cause i'm an oblivious fool.i didn't see that big slap coming.false hopes high , indeed.sometimes , i just wished you knew.i wish you knew how i felt , how i , everything.you drive me crazy.i wanted you so bad.so bad that no one knew how bad it was.i just wished me prayers were answered.well ,if that's the way it gotta be then , so be it.if only you were with me.i would have shown you the world.how love should be.bottomline is , i woulda have loved you right.

I'm not trying to get emotional but I am getting emotional again.you may ask why , but I'm sorry I have no answer for that.its like I have this everlasting pain.it's indescribable.It's not as if i'm trying hard to let go of you.but i just can't break through.To me, one night with you is like,one step closer to heaven.I can't get this heavy load of my chest no matter how hard i try.I think even a forklift wouldn't help.I haven't cried for 2 weeks now.I really don't want to either its a record i'll keep going for as long as i can.eternity would be even greater if i could.i'll be just fine pretending that i'm all devil-may-care.right now , my teachers see me as a rebel.my friends , a clown.my mum , a devil.the man, he's oblivious to everything i've done for the past 4 fucking donkey years.my achivements,my failures whatever it was he was never there.if he wants to now , i think it'll be a lil' to late.i've grown up.to the man ,you've missed my childhood.the bottomline is ,you were never there.why am i holding back tears again just cause i promised myself that i'd never cry again?why are promises made when they're always meant to be broken.it's hard to say how much i've fallen in love with your beautiful side.but i don't love or like you anymore at least that's what i'm suppose to be feelin.but you'll always be that special someone to me.like when i was on the way home just awhile ago , i picked up a flower that had just fallen from a tree.it was beautiful , it was flawless.it was everything he is that i'm not.then i threw the flower in the air to me it signifies that i've let you go.i now that sounds crazy but that's me crazy.i'm a sentimental person but not OVER-sentimental like lizardo.when i'm alone my train of thoughts would fly like the wind i'd think back of stuff that just happened awhile ago or a long time ago.i don't know what i'm talkin about no more.so i think i shall stop here.g'bye for now , you.

I'm not trying to get emotional but I am getting emotional again.you may ask why , but I'm sorry I have no answer for that.its like I have this everlasting pain.it's indescribable.It's not as if i'm trying hard to let go of you.but i just can't break through.To me, one night with you is like,one step closer to heaven.I can't get this heavy load of my chest no matter how hard i try.I think even a forklift wouldn't help.I haven't cried for 2 weeks now.I really don't want to either its a record i'll keep going for as long as i can.eternity would be even greater if i could.i'll be just fine pretending that i'm all devil-may-care.right now , my teachers see me as a rebel.my friends , a clown.my mum , a devil.the man, he's oblivious to everything i've done for the past 4 fucking donkey years.my achivements,my failures whatever it was he was never there.if he wants to now , i think it'll be a lil' to late.i've grown up.to the man ,you've missed my childhood.the bottomline is ,you were never there.why am i holding back tears again just cause i promised myself that i'd never cry again?why are promises made when they're always meant to be broken.it's hard to say how much i've fallen in love with your beautiful side.but i don't love or like you anymore at least that's what i'm suppose to be feelin.but you'll always be that special someone to me.like when i was on the way home just awhile ago , i picked up a flower that had just fallen from a tree.it was beautiful , it was flawless.it was everything he is that i'm not.then i threw the flower in the air to me it signifies that i've let you go.i now that sounds crazy but that's me crazy.i'm a sentimental person but not OVER-sentimental like lizardo.when i'm alone my train of thoughts would fly like the wind i'd think back of stuff that just happened awhile ago or a long time ago.i don't know what i'm talkin about no more.so i think i shall stop here.g'bye for now , you.

I don't know what's the matter with this fucken world.If you're not musically inclined , please stop tryin just cause its the 'in' thing now.please its actually kind of down right disgusting.As in seriously ,it actually makes you look like a fool to older more sophisticated musicians.wonderin why this sudden topic?I was watchin top fun on channel 8.yeahhs, and the people who joined it can't sing their way outta a paperbag pls and the rappin?IT WAS HORRIBLE.i'm not tryin to sound intellectual here but yes , the level of sophistication there was , ZILCH.i don't mean to be frank here but i just can't help it.one of the girls who sang 'ai ni' by the cyndi wang sounded like she had permanent helium in her system.try thinkin about it , am i wrong to say yuck?Singapore as a matter of fact are giving everybody false hopes about how the industry is going to bloom in the future as a matter of fact , it definately won't with people like sly winning 2nd place in the Singapore Idol , i don't see why we should even bother learnin how to sing or play an instrument.we can just sing in our 'in the shower' voices and smile like a mongoliod and do hands signs that are basically wrong.gawwd ,it's so mean for me to say this but , if you don't know how to please don't do it.you are embarassin yourself on national tv.GAWWD, then why do people have to try so hard to have their own sense of style or paying for vocal lessons when we have so called 'music' like techno which is simply wrong.we can just talk and record it and at some sounds to it and there you have it , music.in the dictionary the meaning of music is ,' the arrangment of sounds MADE BY INSTRUMENTS or voices in a way that is pleasent or exciting. " first of , they already said made by instruments and in techno they just use this turn tables or whatever ready-made shit they have.secondly , they said pleasent or exciting which btw techno is missin every bit of.so why have techno?i say we should just burn all the techno cds away an dump it in outer space.(=

i'm a bad person.
i'm a selfish person
i'm going to hell
i'm a very fuckin borin person
i've got alot of great friends
i've got a weird disfunctional family , well sorta
i lie alot
i swear alot
i'm a bitch.
you should stay away from me
you should hate me
i'm very fat.
i'm very dark
i'm very ugly
no one likes me
they're just being friends with me
out of pity
i'm pathetic.
i'm gonna grow up to a taxi driver
i'm gonna be a spinster
i'm prejudice
i'm racist sometimes.
i'm not a people person
i'm a wannabe
i can't sing to save my life
i'm so untalented.
thank you , you don't wanna know me.
BYE

HELLO , today once again is , Sunday.todays' Sunday is not just any Sunday.It's bible Sunday not only that , it's 'the mans' birthday.what can say , ain't it just so special.right now , you've probably sensed the sarcasm.if you haven't , you're lost dude you truly are.anyhows , today's a pretty weird day for me as in seriously.i don't know.its like one minute i'm sleepin and the next moment when i wake up i become almost emotionless.in church i was feelin emotional and no , i didn't break down and cry.i was suppose to meet best friend.i waited for almost an hour.i figured she fell asleep so i went home.this time , i wasn't even angry.there wasn't even an inch on wrath that can be detected within me.i just went home feelin blank.bought food and went online.todays on hell of a fuckin boring day i must say.

hello , i'm weird.
thank you goodbye.

I feel inferior to you , physically hate the fact that somehow , to me ,I am better than you in alot of ways.not sayin i'm perfect.but its the fact that its always so easy for you.but its so hard for me.he gave me all this gifts.but i can't do nothing with them.i feel deprived.i hate this situation i am in.'the mans' birthday is on Sunday another day to feel depressed about.i'm havin lunar rhythms now which is makin every situation i am in seem worse.why am i pretendin that nothin is happening when everything i wished would never happen is happenin.its like my nightmare with deja vu.i'm so fuckin fustrated and i feel faintish.my mind is so painful.i can barely type.my eyes are turnin so fast.i can feel my brains twich a lil.its drivin me nuts.i hate the fact that there's no one for me to love.i hate the fact that i have this gut feelin its cause i think there ain't gonna be no one as perfect as you.i hate the fact that everytime i see you i still cant take my eyes off of you.i hate the fact that everytime i think of you i cant breathe.JESUS SAVE ME.

today's a sunday.yes , sunday.yesterday was a weird experience for me.shan't talk bout it to save a friends face.went out with momma the whole friggin day.met up with siewhwee and phoebe.waited for a fuckin hour and they didn't even call to tell me that they didn't know the way.worst of , they asked me to meet them at topshop and when i got there they weren't there.so i had to walk to a pay phone to call them cause i dont have a fuckin phone.but when i met up with em.i was too pissed my whole day got ruined by em.so i just left them i was fuckin angry and fed up.i mean hello , who doesn't know where wheelock is?fuck this shiat , forget it.the more i think about it , the more pissin it gets.anyhows , at home now.trying to get emo.yes , again.its becomin so cliche.i think i'm a melancholic.sorta , haha.i've promised myself that i will get through this.yes i will so i'm pretendin to like someone now.which to you guys ,is pretteh crazy.cause if you like someone , you like someone.how can you pretend right?!oh wells , its cause i have no one to write songs about so i'm just using this person but i'm still writing about the other person.okay,complicated.don't get me?go figure.=p.it feels like its raining in my head.raining with thoughts that is.alot alot alot and a hell alot of thoughts.i realleh want to talk to someone as in SOMEONE.but i have no idea who.i missed how things use to be as in when i was still that love sick puppy chasin you around as in, everytime i see you.my stomach would be filled with the butterflies.my shoes would grow wings and i'll start floating around in my mind.but i guess that butterflies flew out cause i dont get that funky feelin anymore i mean i still do but not as much as before.i use to wish for the fever to break.now i wish i wouldn't fade.cause i really do love you miss you and will always cherish you.so if i have said some weird stuff in the past , please forget i even did that.cause when i'm around you everything i'm tryin to say comes out wrong and its hard to come out right.so bye for now , i'm gonna take on the world.

i dont know whats wrong with me.i think i'm a freak.why does it feel like there's an earth quake in my head.idon't understand.
to think i wanted to know you.i tryin my best to let go ya' know.but its so hard.i was thinkin maybe it'd be easier if i had
someone else to like as like what lizard said , ' friends with potential '.but somehow there ain't anyone i can love , as in
if i wanted to turn crook it'd be so hard cause ya see the thing is everyone i know has someone to love example , eunice-princess,
bird-rachel,lizard-you-know-who,tanny-jeslyn,alicia-i dont know,phoebe-haojie,and the list goes on.i mean i want to ask anyone to spend like 2
weeks with me i just wanna know how it feels like to really love someone again.the last one wasnt counted cause it was in primary school
which was stupid goes to show you shouldn't have relationships when you dont understand love yet.anyhows , i realleh wanna know who does
it feel to love someone else treat the person right,i swear i'll be the sweetest thing ever , not bein thick skin.but yeahh.i'm realleh sad
cause i ain't got anyone to love.i love you still but thats different cause i'll never have you.i'm tired of runnin after you.jealousy just
slapped me in the face like that.its hard for me to get this over with and let go.in simple words , i cant break through.i need someone to
love i sound desperate but yeahhs.i really do.i wanna do things i've always dream of doing and no , not SEX.i know i've said this before but
i wanna give a person my all and make the person love me for who i am and break up with the person so i can hurt him or her.but i know i'd
prolly love the person cause i'm really not that kind of person.cause i know whats it like to be hurt.and you know whats the saddess thing
ever , its the fact that you still dont know me and never took the chance to and i never really got to know you well but from all i've heard
yer the greatest thing ever.but if i look on the brightside thanks to you i've matured alot over this period of time.which i would realleh like to
thank you for.




it's not that bad , you're just the best i ever had

ok i know i've been sorta of a sober person for the past few days i still am but i think i've sort of cheered up.well , that's cause i've been listenin to happy songs more to the swing kinda songs.if you've got exsquitsite taste you'll prolly know who's cole porter.yeah , i'm listenin to his songs.they're jazz songs but more to the swing.very beautiful music and beautiful lyrics.very witty very very good.really helps me extenuate things.eally not in the mood for tv.so i'm gonna miss my thursday routine.i think old songs are really good as in the lyrics music everything the lyrics nowadays are so explicit but i'm not sayin i don't listen to em.i do alot.just sayin how stuff use to be so , pure.i know it sounds weird.but yeah.pure.like how stuff use to be like bein oblivious to almost everything.you hate bein oblivious to things but when we know about stuff.we start thinkin how stupidity is bliss.anyhows , i'm actually kinda glad i'm kinda over the 'in love with someone' stage because i cant make sense in what you've done when i start to cry and start to run you actually didn't do anything to hurt me.no , actually you did.just by bein yerself has hurt me alot.why do you have to be so perfect.i think i was actually over you but i just really didn't wanna let go cause i was afraid and i didn't know what to do.it still hurts me when i listen to sad songs just thinkin about the past , you my dad , my mum , EVERYTHING.so for now , just look ahead and i'll try my best to smile without hiding a billion tears.(=

as you fuckers can see in the below entry , i've officially become boring.yes , boring like how thing were before , BORING.'sides the friends factor that is.you know wanna know what to do when the one you love is with somebody else , technically he ain't but its realleh obvious he's still loves jayne.what do you do when there's nothing you can do about it.its plain easy.its actually common sense.3 words.deal with it.yeahhs.the way i deal with things is by running away.yes RUNNING AWAY.its just always like that.and after running away from the problem situation shit thing whatever.i'd start reminiscing bout it and be filled with regret like , why didn't do this the other time or that or whatever.i'd ponder on it and the more i do the more fucked i get.whatever , the word most commonly used in my vocab.thats what you guys know thats all.you guys think whatever means i'm running away but i'm sorry to dissapoint you but your fuckin hell wrong and neither does it mean its a no strings attach kinda whatever.my whatevers always have a meanin behind it like , case senario one , yes it sounds like some scientific shiat.bear with me alright?so anyhows , example when eunice and or or lizard are teasin me bout my skin colour or whatever when i say whatever i means its either so cliche cause they've said it a billion zillion times and its not funny anymore or it really has hurt my feelins and i'm just smiling and sayin i'm ok when truth is i was then , hidin a million tears.yes , i do have feelings.i know i'm fat ugly dark and fully indian or whatever but i do have feelings.well, cause you see the thing is you guys realleh don't know me.you guy never did still dont and will never know me.unless i tell you guys that is if i'm drunk or something.which apparently will never happened.when i tear its either cause i'm tired or emo.if you realleh know me you will know when i'm actually crying which you guys obviously will never be able to tell apart the tears.and this time 'round will never get the chance to cause after my last cry , i promised myself i'm never gonna ever forever as long as i can cry.

i've been tryin for the past hour to get emotional yes , weird?but hell no i ain't weird.cause you see the thing is , i'm actually quite an emotional person.i think i get jealous easily.basically its usually cause i'm realleh not a beautiful person as in physically.mentally i dont know.people think i'm a person that never takes anything or anybody seriously but the truth is i realleh do.see you guys realleh don't know but sooner or later you guys are gonna see right through me.if you dont i'll eventually open up.i'm a realleh confused person.right now , i think i'm sorta back to square one as in not the in love square one.as in i've got nobody to love not as in i have a boyfriend i dont like anyone.its back to the days i randomly selected tricia to like and true enough i realleh fell for her beautiful side see when i like someone their flaws are so insignificant to me already.i don't know man.i realleh wanna fall in love with someone.but this time without sheddin tears like what you, the past , had done to me.i wanna realleh fall in love with someone.i'll realleh treat the person right.but well i guess , i'm just gonna grow up to be a spinster.to him it realleh didnt matter how i felt inside.this life is sucha game sometimes.just that i'm always on the losing side as in im always the one endin up hurt.love is selfish love is blind.it makes me jealous makes me go outta my mind.jealousy.tsktsktsk , jealousy.well this time its what helped me realised that things between me and him are realleh not go any furthur.well then to love , i say goodbye.i'm not gonna cry anymore or feel emotional.i'm gonna be this cold person and the party animal everyone expects me to be.ok so well , fuck you all. (=

just came back from alicia's parteh it was realleh good actually on account that it was a last minute planned parteh.the turn out was actually great yeahhs.the parteh started out not exactly great.but slowly the moood started to change we started socializing and everthing.met some people like , sean tan which btw is esther tans' brother yes , what a small world indeed , sean , kun yao , ian , mark , russell , derrick and alota other people.i was realleh suprised that esmond actually turned up alicia's right as in the people we expected to turn up realleh didnt and the people we didnt realleh did.well , life is unpredictable.anyhows , the drinks were great.great job mixing the drinks eunicey.hahaha.lucy and lizzie.nevermind i shall refrain from embarassin.there are to much stuff to say about the parteh yeahhs.i think one page just ain't gonna be enough.yeahhs.stuff indescribable happened.actually the entertainment wasnt that bad it was only the dancin yeahhs no one realleh wanted to dance cause there were tooo many guys.yeahhs.but actually thats not the point about dancin its not to show off how great you can dance.dancin is the voice of yer inner soul.yeahhs.some people wanted to dance actually wanted to dance example , ian.but by the time he wanted to , everyone was beat.hahaha stupid ass.esmond said something that got me like all ponderin, ohs wells.anyhows , the kun yao and the tents thing was damn funneh and the spellin game with him when he got wasted was realleh fuckin funneh.they are realleh nice people.the 'bondin' at the so called back yard will truly be remembered.hahaha.gawwd, i sound like im goin to die.but seriously , alicia , it was nice (=

when i was listenin to this song just now it realleh made alota sense to me as in every mornin i wake up i put on this face thats gonna get me through the day it doesnt realleh matter how i feel inside right?i doesnt realleh matter how your friends is feelin on the insides as well.we all put on this big fake smile or our normie faces so we can get on with our lives and so our friends will not ask us are we a'righht or whatever but realleh deep down inside you just wished they could see yer real side.i think i've decided to quite the detergent commercial act and get on with reality im gonna express myself the way im suppose to which right now i have no idea how to.well , you see the thing is the stuff i've sad above isn't realleh bout you guys its mostly me yes mock me call me a selfish bitch its all about me yada yada yada but i think the bottomline is we or i realleh need to open up.thats it.g'nighht my friends

Some days I sit , starin' out the window
Watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for
I almost break down and cry
Sometimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wastin' my time?
Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leanin' on me
'Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then he comes back to me
People make jokes cuz they don't understand me
They just don't see my real side
I act like shit don't phase me
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into his eyes




too good to be original
i got it from a song just edited it a lil
g'nighht fuckers (=

today was GREATT (=
first of i had a not
like every other year's
depressin father's day
cause i celebrated with
meh grandpapa (=
anyhows , then met up with
kristle and MY WOMAN
which btw is VICKY (=
anyhows , eunicey alicia
tehknee phoebe bird nerz
and esmond were suppose to
come.but in the fuckin end
did not but we had fun anyhows.(=
so i wont hold it against em'
anyhows , we went for the
ROCK ON SINGAPORE FEST
yesterday and today (=
it was ROCKIN GOOD FUN!!uh-huh
the malays there were sultry.HAHA
i have a current fetish yer malays.
i dont know i just think they're cool
by nature.so funky.wanna be one
i can sure be one if want to
cause of my ultra brown skin colour.
and no one will think i'm a poser.
yeahhs.anyhows,i think fatskunks
electrico and rolnin are realleh cool
although the guy from ronin looks
like sly but has a nice bod but realleh
cannot dance to save his fuckin life.
and the guy that i think who's pretteh cool
didnt smash his guitar so that i can have
a piece of it.but overall they're realleh
ROCKERS with the capital R (=.
vick and i danced our friggin hearts out
oh yeahhs saw beatrice with nikk at
topshop wisma too.yeahhs, i know what yer
thinkin dudes but no , they aren't together
anyhows,as i was sayin yesterday at the fest
vick went on stage and head banged
correction , body banged hahaha.
she was pretteh cool indeed
i think she should have won
against that indian girl yeahhs
so they made it a draw.
but whatever so long they had fun
plus the prize was fugly
anyhows , we wenta yogadi bearodi luciferishy
which btw is , eunice yong 's house
hahaha , vick said it was
like a pettin zoo
and eunice of course had to be the animal
then i started havin wild imaginations
of her actin like a gorilla . yeahhs
haha i know weirddddd.LMAO
anyhows ,




CHEER UP EUNICE (=

today once again is
FATHER'S DAY
which apparently i celebrated
with my grandpa (=
HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!<33
every year i dread this
particular holiday.
but this year i guess,
it was pretteh a'righht (=
that's a first. haha
anyhows , today is the
rock on singapore part two
yeahhs cant wait.((=

life is so unpredictable




this morning when i woke up
correction , this afternoon
when i woke up i called my
bestfriend who i shall not
name because its best that
i keep this low profile
for awhile till she's
ready to open up.yeahhs.
so as i was sayin.
one minute we were all jokin
the next minute she recieved
a phone call sayin her dad
had passed away.this sounds cliche
but life is so unpredictable
i'm realleh worried bout her
but as for a dad ,
i'm realleh happy for him
if God thinks its his time
so be it righht?
cause ain't he gon' be in a
better place after all
he doesnt have to experience
the end of the world
which btw, i think is coming
which is good righht?
as for my best friend ,
i think what she
realleh needs now is
moral support,and obviously
the magic word , LOVE.
from this i've learnt
never say never
cause you never know what
the future holds.
like when you were in primary
school.does BEST FRIENDS FOREVER
sound familliar.its so cliche
but the term is used
but never actually practiced
cause once yer in high school
you start to drift apart
and the term has totalleh taken the
back seat in the yer life
the term has become so i
nsignificant.
but as time passes ,
it will be used again
yes , with yer new best friend
but this time you never know
whether forever is for real ,
cause the bond is stronger
and as i have said
life is so unpredictable




GOD , GRANT BEST FRIEND STRENGTH (=

wassup china.
vick , yer parteh
was radical.IN THE END.
no offence though.
but i realleh love you anyway (:
i aint got no flo tonight
so night ya'll ((=




yo vicky its yer burfdeh ,
its yer burfdeh we're gon'
parteh like its yer burfdeh

wassup folks(=
today is one of days
where i'd stay home and start to sober
yes , fuckers sober
people always have this fix image in their fuckin
screwed up minds about me
they always think i'm this party animal
with no emotions and sober
will never be a word i'd have in my vocabulary
well guess what fuckers you're wrong

AND SO I SKIPPED HOME




BACK HOME FINALLY
YES FUCKTARDS I SKIPPED HOME
SOMETIMES I'M SO UNBELIEVABLE
TODAY I WOKE UP A LIL SAD
BUT HAD FUN THE WHOLE FRIGGIN DAY
THANK YOU CHINAS!! ((=
ANYHOWS.we were suppose to go
ta veekees' house today
but we didn't we ended up goin
to eunicey yongey the bear's house
anyhows.had alota fun
sulynn siewhwee and phoebe
came along too ((=
after that wenta grapevine
met up with an na her sista
which i have no idea whats her name
its either nicole or nicola
she's pretteh cool i guess
anyhows met up with alicia
rachel and celeste(spell?)
yeahhs.vick siewhwee and rachel
went home ahead.yeahhs
went home with alicia and celetse
yeahhs.skipped home pretteh high
HAHAHA.no idea why either
anyhows. HOME SWEET HOME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKY!!!
i love my sweet gay partner((=
i'm beat. fuck you ((=

TODAY WAS A'RIGHHT I GUESS
THE DAY STARTED OUT PRETTEH BAD EH
yeahhs.but shall forget bout it
dont wanna make myself depressed
WELCOME BACK POK!! ((=
i've missed you dude.
if you darn fuckin readers dont know
what the hell am i talkin about
its cause i havent mentioned that
i wenta see jenny at the airport
with bird wenta see rachel an-na
and dionne too.((=.totalleh fun
THANK YOU BIRD!! as in for the day
it was fun.i was a lil` depressed at first
anyhows. had alota fun my china. ((=
DUDE!! where's my car..
cant stop shufflin yer hair
its gettin pretteh addictive
hey phoebe , siewhwee cheer up my besties ((=
LURVEE YA GUYS.

yesterday.woke up at 10
called vick about 5 times
to wake her friggin hell up
damn it she sleeps like a dead log
HAHAHA.BUT I LOVE HER!!((=
wenta meet bird and zoe at the station
wenta sentosa together
but before that we wenta get some stuff
like apples ((= sushi and drinks
and VICKY'S breakfast.HEH
when we got there we met up wit
amanda sijia kristle and glynnis.
we swam for like i don't know
how many damn friggin hours.
we tanned . yes people .i tanned too
i got new tan lines ((=.YEAHHS.
kris sijia and birdeh got tanned like
friggin hell man.HAHAHA.esp. kris ((=
after that brought birdeh kris and vick
for some job interview thing
later , met up with the rest at grapevine.
oh yeahhs! HAHAHA forgot to mention bout'
the walk back to the mrt from sentosa
damn friggin hell funneh i tell ya.
vick and i were playin our so called
'dare game' hahaha.i made vicky eat some plant
HAHAHA.she made me bite some divider crap.
we both chased buses cars lorries u name it
anyhows.we played pool at grapevine ate
wenta phoebs house after that then
HOME SWEET HOME ((=
called up phoebs and all
i'm sorreh eunice. HAHAHA
kept on teasin her.
its actually quite fun.
but i don't hate you ((=
I LOVE YOU TOOO MUCH MAN!! HAHAHA

today
woke up late
didnt go for trng
dont know whether i'm gettin the job
at the soup spoon. siewhwee got the call
i didn't i feel realleh angry at myself
like what the hell went wrong
i prayed and everything
i hope i get the job realleh want it
and i realleh need it.=/
gonna meet the rest at 4.30
to study ((=
then we're goin for my church crap
then after that fetch jenny from the
airport.CANT WAIT. I'VE MISSED HER.
been missin dorry too.
gonna miss candiceHO too ((=
HAVE FUN MY FRIENDS LMAO

sometimes i wonder
should i walk away from this life
should i forget about you
must i let go
must you walk on by
if only you could tell me why
why did you hurt me
why did you let me go
when my heart started to flow
if only you could tell me how
how this shit started
how did it get this far
i've said this once
i'm gonna say it again
STUPIDITY IS BLISS
if you were dumb
you won't know how lurvee feels like
and i wish i never found out
gawwd.i hate this friggin life
i wanna walk away from it
start a new life
as someone else
but that'll never happen

missed the ' midnight affair '
filled regret now.
thanks to nerizza. =/
HAHAHA. kiddin
cause she made it sound sooo good.
but anyhows.chillin wit
hwee alicia lizard and eunice
was realleh fun too.
thanks alicia for the skirt
so damn sweet.HAHAHA.
ate sushi.was sucha rip off.
hahah. and the ' shake it up baby '
taxi uncle was pretteh cool
alicia's house is damn nice.
town was fun.
the conversation on the phone
wit eunice and siewhwee was fun too
OUR LIL SECRET HAHAHAHA
wenta study wit phoebs
eunice siewhwee and yinwen today
didnt study much
compass sucks totally.
HOME SWEET HOME =))

ALL ALONE




and so i told you
this is how i drown my sorrows
crying my eyes out , totally givin in
i don't want this shit anymore
get outta my mind , get outta my life
i'm paranoid is it me or does everyone
just want a piece of me
i never thought life would be this harsh
never thought i'd be alone
this life just needs throne
a throne one would wanna be on
a place no one would wanna be marooned on
but ain't got no choice
just had to be.
i hurt , i hurt alot
sometimes i wished you'de just spare a thought
you are my misery , you are sucha mystery
why does this life hafta be so bleak
sometime i wonder what is it i seek
i know this sounds cliche
but here goes
although i may be surrounded by a thousand
i feel alone , i stand alone
and will walk alone i wish
you would have never left me alone.




SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE.

Soon yer gonna realize there ain't no place like home



back from camps
church camp and sec 3 camp
had lunch wit hwee phoebs su
lizard and eunice. ((X
had fun the whole week.
but durin the church camp
it was a lil' depressin
cause there was this guy
who realleh looked like you*
he had sucha familiar face.
his build was like yers too.
the way he talks was like you
he seemed so you.
durin the sec 3 camp
the other camp was playin
true , by ryan cabera.
it was sooo depressin
it was at nightt too.
the stars were out.
everythin was so DEPRESSIN
i cried when no one was there
they were all takin their
stuff from the tents
i'm listenin to it now.
feelin emo now.=/
'you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
i'm afraid to move
i'm weak
its true
i'm just scared
to know the ending'
its sooo true.
i'd do anything to be wit ya.
i dare not pray fer reverse phsycology
i dare not wish fer it too
its as good as black magic
to me that is.
its as good as forcin ya to lurvee me.
sometimes. i dont even dare ta hope for it
but what the fuck am i suppose to do.
wait!? i've waited toooo long.
i'm stuck at this stage which realleh sucks
the process of healin is back to square one
i hate this shit i realleh do.
i don't trust my hopes anymore.
i've always wanted to go to yer place
tell ya everythin
but i dont have the guts.
so i stay home and cry
i wanna cross the line.
i dont wanna hide anymore.
but i can't
no guts no glory.
gonna go fer the
meet-the-parents session
to add to my depression.




GOD , GRANT ME STRENGTH

today was GREAT!
i had a TRIPPIN` good time.
shall blog tmr.
damn fuckin tired now
heh heh heh
i somehow miss ya'll
hahaha,as in
julia siewhwee fangs
eunice lizard phoebs.((X
LIZARD AND PHOEBE
TOGETHER FOREVER ((X
BLEAUGH .

just got off the phone wit
jenny julia lizard and kye
went late fer trng this mornin
i woke up at 6.35
prayin for it to be 5.35
yesterday was my grandma's burfdae.
she passed away bout' 12 years ago?
anyhoos,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!! ((X
anyhoos,
i realleh hope tomorrow will be fun
kinda lookin forward to it ((=
today i went to town
went wit phoebs lizard hwee fangs ((=
had fun though.lizard is sucha fool
lizard and phoebs and the umbrella crap
was realleh realleh funneh!! HAHAHA
ohhs.nvm lets lizard some face yeahhs?
found out some weird stuff.
damn weird.DISGUSTIN
i mean how can you-know-who go wit her?
LMAO.tt's not hot atall'
sides' why her?she's not even popular?
what a person she used to spike ---. =/
damn.i miss ya'.i hate it yer kinda
draggin meh down.cant seem to move on.

today was pretteh borin i guess.
side` the fact i was almost
a period late fer class.
and 'pick on xiaolong ' crap
and 'laugh at phoebe ' crap.
pretteh nothin much happened
oh yeahhs. almost forgot.
sorreh lizard sorreh kye.
its all our fault.damn.
english man ENGLISH.
i dont know but
when i have fun the day before
an exam i wont be able to cocentrate.
yeahhs.anyhows.
HERES MY PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MDM CHONG!
i'm sorreh for stickin my tongue at ya
it was an act of impluse.
you were provokin me wit
yer dumb fuck face.
i'm sorreh fer laughin at ya
like , all the time.
i'm sorreh fer mockin ya ` wit
OTHER classes.
i'm sorreh for always askin ya
whats wrong with ya `
cause ta me smth ain't righht boutcha
i'm sorreh for laughin at
yer tatoo-ed eyebrows


-prolly cause ya` shaved it off.
-maybe cause yer gettin old.


yer ugly dressin


-prolly cause yer alrdy an ah-lian
so ain'tcha fault.
-yer dumb fuck blind
yer lips


-prolly cause you don't know
how ta wear lipstick.tsktsk
-maybe you wear lipstick in the bus
-or maybe you use crayons.
-maybe you have spastic hands.
-maybe yer an alien.


yer way of talkin


-prolly cause yer a typical cheena fucked up bitch




TSK TSK TSK I'M SORREH =/ BLEAUGH

outta my friggin` mind




i stuck my tongue at mdm chong
i totalleh lost control
dont blame me.
she kept starrin at me and phoebs.
so i just stuck my friggin tongue.
damn!i hope i dont hafta say sorreh
i wont even mean it.FUCK IT.
she's such an ah lian
and she has sucha annoyin face
HATE HER!!! anyhows. got donations
today.wenta study too.
sorreh vick couldn't stop trippin ya `
BLEAUGH ((X


BLAH blah BLAH

its all right with me




damn today was borin.
i should have just stayed home
maybe study or kick of the shoes
and lay back silly.=/
went to town wit siewhwee and pris
phoebs was suppose to come
but she didn't cause she wasnt dressed up.
RAHHS.anyhows.we went there as fast as
we came home.wasnt realleh in the mood.
sorreh guys if had ruined it for ya.
back home.was watch raisin helen.
damn nice.i was thinkin deep and everythin.
based on the amts of my unwritten philosophies.
has it ever ever ever occured to meh
that i am already over ya
maybe im just havin that 'old crush' flush hahas.
damn my crap.

WHATTA BORING SATURDAY MAN.
SURE it was fun.
but in a realleh borin way
anyhoos.i woke up around 12
HEH HEH HEH.YEAHHS.I KNOW.
MARISSE YER SUCHA PIG.
HEY I WAS PLANNIN TO WAKE UP AT 2
LMAO.anyhoos.
watched VCDs wit my momma
then went to mac to study wit phoebs
saw birdeh wit some other sec 2
dont know her name.=/ sorreh
i realleh studied today so weird righht?
anyhoos.plannin to study somewhere else
like grapevine or cafe cartel or smth
more studyable.heh heh heh.
went swimmin wit hwee at phoeb's place
NO LIZARD I DID NOT CAUSE A TSUNAMI ((X
swam about 15 laps.not bad ehs?((X
anyhoos.we were suppose to watch saw.
but phoebs bro kept chasin us away
his reason's cause its gon` rain
BUT I SOMEHOW DONT BELIEVE HIM
im sorreh phoebs =/
but true enough.i rained .
it rained real bad.
it was rainin cats and dogs.
LOL.when reached the mrt station
we called PHOEBE LAUW.GUESS WHAT!?
she was to lazy to come down.
ALL THE BEST MAN!!!!PFFFT
anyhoos.we called lizard.
thank god i still remember her no.
i'll just kill myself cause
me and hwee's phones are down
yeahhs. THANK YOU LIZARD!!
for lendin me the UGLY umbrella.((X
just playin wit ya.thanks cayse
i realleh needed it
i had to walk home
i was outta cash
i walked home bare footed
cause my flip flops were killin meh
got home took a looonnnggg shower.
now i feel soooo good. HAHAHA
gawwdd.i sound like some ad. =/ BLEAUGH
once again




THANK YOU LIZARD!! ((X

F LI N TY

yeahhhs.i guess tts how i feel today
i'm havin a whole lotta thoughts
runnin in my fucken brains now.
SHALL WE DANCE & SOMETHINS GOTTA GIVE
IS SO FUCKIN NICE!!!((X
it makes me sad watchin things
that some how are happenin in my life
watch as in the movies anall
i know its ' purely conincidental '
i know i'm dramatic or whatever
but gawwd, cant help but think
GOD ARE YOU SENDIN ME A SIGN!
HAHAHA.GAWDD.im hysterical.
well.tt's me.nothin i can about it
today's been pretteh weird i guess
been thinkin boutcha the whole darn day
i all outta lurvee.
i think im havin a total drain out AGAIN.
i hate it when this crap happens.
i just wanna have a lonnggg sleep
havent told vicky bout the dumb thing i said
its realleh dumb.i made a DUMB mistake.=/
i think im gonna change for the better
say BYE to marisse guys.she DIED today.
i think.=/
-gone

PFFFT.

YEOW

today was weird.
like seriously, WEIRD
yesterday i slept at 6
and woke up today at 6
i didn't come late.YES
SURPRISE SURPRISE HAHAHA.
anyhows.saw people doin jumpin jacks.
credits go ta me and hwee. * WINKS
we kept goin late fer class today.
total retardation
we were like let us all die together
HAHAHA.FUCKIN CRAP.
durin i was like i have a headache
can i go to the toilet and wash me face
like its gonna help my fuckin headache.
i just wanted to get out of the class
i have a short attention span
but its not as bad as JENNY PEK!!HAHAHA
anyhows.we kept playin volleyball today
we're officially addicted to it
today was seriously weird
i seriously have nothin to say
oh yeahhhs.HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGXIU!!
oh yeahhs.when i was walkin back
i was starin at the sky thinkin
[when im alone i tend to think deep]
i was thinkin.the sky seems so peaceful
yet it ain't i mean ..
i don't know what i'm sayin.hahaha.
-gone.

I HATE CANDICE HO!!!HEH HEH

SUCK MY TOES.

today's like any other day.
i went to kovan to study.
bought mother's day gift.
took neoprint.
gawwdd,i feel like some
typical cheena fucked up bitch.=/
anyhows.bottom line is.
TODAY WAS BORING.
cleared up some stuff wit xiurong.
so we can be friends. HAHA.
got some donations from richie and wan yi.
THANKS A MILLION DUDES. oh yeahhs
not forgettin janice and ai ping[ spell? ]
ohs wells.i saw ah-hems. yeahhs.
i literally felt like pee-ing. HAHA.
and so i did. i was TREMBLING
I FREAKED OUT.I REALLEH DID.
I BECAME VEREH COLD.I LOST TOTAL CONTROL
ALL THE BEST MAN.HAHA.
today was reall borin i think. hahas.
anyhows. i miss you so so much
the more i see you
the less im whole.
-gone

utter madness.

thursday was fun.aft school was walkin around with hwee and pris disturbin pple.hahas.but it was fun kept bullyin shiyun altough she bullied me too. hahas. =/ she's so frggin mean lar!! hahas.anyhows.went to town with fangs birdeh hwee pris grace siva and mel. =)) hope i didn't miss out on anyone.=/anyhows. vick and ner[realleh weird but heck] were also i town.but they went to ps.we went to heeren and cine. we were suppose to watch house of wax but they didn't have it at cine but at lido.and were all pretteh lazy to walk there.so we had lunch and a hole lotta fun.went home aft that.


friday was GREAT.went out to sentosa with the autistic family.hehs, originally we were suppose to be called the FBTs.sounded pretteh weird.HAHA.so we kept changing it and stuck with the zi bi family.[ autistic family ].but phoebs lizard and eunice didn't come.so it was me charlene julia jenny kelly hwee fangs and pris. =)). had fun didn't we?! we kept crappin but ALL THE BEST.ALL THE WAY.and BLAH blAH bLaH.HAHA.we were damn friggin crappified.we saw esther's clique,rozand's clique.stacy's clique there too.alotta pl pple.anyhows. we swam and played volleyball.yeahhs.anyhows.there was this guy who kept on followin us.he was FREAKY,we touched kelly's boobs.prolly by accident but better to be safe than sorreh so we told the life guard.he was damn sick.he was bleedin and we were like , hey you're bleedin and , he was like you know dracula?then we were like , yeahhs. and he was licked his blood.like,EWW.sicko.anyhows. he got the hint initially.so whatever.lazeh to blog already. so yeahhs. FUN FUN FUN. -gone

TRAGIC STATE.

yesterday's letter is DAMN NICE.
thanks LIZARD =)).
so emo now. FUCK THIS SHIAT AGAIN
i'm so messed up right now.
the joke they played on me
its not funneh , no
not lizard and eunice.
but juping and all.
my heart literally pounced.
i cant be that i..
NO.NO WAY.cause
i'm still in lurvee wit you!?
i cant forget you.
i cant let go of you
i'm trying so hard to hide my pain
i think of you so much. till
there isn't any space fer studies
in my fuckin mind.
FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKK.
i feel so stressed out.with what?
you.studies.home.lurvee.EVERYTHIN!
do you see all the pain yer givin me?!
its killin me slowly.im dying
im puttin on weight LOADSSS of it
do you even know how much pain i feel?!
I FEEL ALOT OF IT.AlOT!
sometimes i just wished i never met you
sometimes i just wished i never had emo
sometimes i just wished i never LOVED YOU.
SPARE ME WOULD YA?! I GOTTA MOVE ON
BUT eveytime im on the verge of a break through
i just have to see you. or get reminded of you
YOU! YES YOU!! GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!
i'll be lookin forward for this friday.
need a holiday and time away. from the world.HAHA
- gone

I GET AROUND.

HAHA.today was great!\i guess.
went to town with phoebs siewhwee
lizard kelly charlene and eunice. =))
had fun yeahhs? altough i PMSed awhile.
sorreh guys if i destroyed the mood.=/
jenny and julia were suppose to come
but jenny's mum didn't let her outta the crib
cause she slammed the door by ACCIDENT!! LOL
we were suppose to catch a movie. coach carter.
but we didn't cause we didnt wanna sit infront
there weren't any nice movies too.
talk about this crap tmr.
but before i go,

CHECK OUT LIZARD!! HAHA. MOLEY MOLEY MOLEY!! HAHA

the last day.

when will it come.
i miss you like crap
the feelin is fadin
i should be happy right?
but i feel like crap
i dont want the feelin to fade.
i wanna see you
and when i do
im all outta words.
the other day when i saw you
as in to pass you the gift.
i felt like vomitin seriously
i felt like cryin seriously
i think i was realleh nervous
like now, my hands are tremblin
i dont know why. just hopin
you'de get to see this.
i'm tearin up inside.
in retrospect.i wish i never met you.
i wouldn't have loved you
i wouldn't have hurt so much
i wouldn't have cried so much
i wouldn't be so emotional
i wouldn't have changed.
i'm cryin again just typin this crap
well. lookin at the brightside
at least i loved deeper
at least i have loads of songs now
at least i got to know someone
that's almost perfect.WHY!?
i tell everyone i'm over you
but the truth is , i never got over you
sometimes i realise
i don't have anyone to realleh talk to.
i'm tryin so hard to get over you
sometimes i wonder.
was there ever reverse phsycology?
cause you were always there
when we were still talkin-talkin.
i feel so lost. i feel so bad.
yes, i'm still in lurvee with you.
i wanna let go cause. i dont wanna hurt
i dont wanna let go
cause i know yer worth it.
but i should let go cause
you're outta my leugue.[heck the spellin]
its been a year and half now.
fuck im so caught up.
-gone

FRIDAY. YADA YADA YADA.

seriously, i've nothin much to say
just felt like bloggin
came late fer school again.
i'll have to do 100 jumping jacks
on monday or tuesday. - LAUGHS
gonna look like some fool.
anyhows. was late fer maths.
mrs thurai kept naggin.bitch shutup.
she kept hinting me she was gonna
send me to ms gan. i was like
WHATEVER MAN. like i friggin ` care.
i just kept on readin archie. -LAUGHS.
i was practically engrossed in it already. - LAUGHS
anyhows. the clique has a sudden obsession wit
volleyball.HAHA.we're even plannin on
going to the beach on labour day. - LAUGHS
i think my mommas gonna slash my fucken brains out
i'm goin out fer the whole weeken which mean
SPEND SPEND SPEND. SOMEBODY STOP ME AND SLAP ME!!
HAHA.anyhows. the whole days pretty good.
after school went home to get ready fer art fest.
phoeb's came too. then went over to her place
met up wit lizard.she's damn retarded pls.
anyhows.we took a cab down to school.
when we were there we were like.
OH MY FUCKIN GAWD. we are so over dressed. -LAUGHS
we looked like we were gonna go to town pls. HAHA.
met up wit jenny then hwee and fangs.
lizard kept runnin away from ms gan lar.
cause of her fuckin hair. HAHA.
anyhows.we went in the hall for the concert.
then we met up wit su cher azilah and eunice
saw the others too. ahahas , damn funneh. argh nvm
pretty drained out now.
lizard is damn mean lar.
she was like LOOK at THE BIRD! - LAUGHS.
she said it so fucken loud pls.
even the mrs goh wannabe turned around.
after that went for supper.
me hwee phoebs fangs jenny lizard and eunice.
we crappin like fuck
we were bored like fuck
and we didn't wanna go home.
damn but im home now.
- gone

I SEE DEAD PEOPLE

a'rightts. i don't.
but i want mrs thurai dead.
nahhs.she can't YOU KNOW WHY?!
CAUSE SHE'S SATAN!!! SHE IS!
SHE BLOODY FUCKING HELL IS!!
She drives me FUCK NUTS.
today i was bein so pessimistic
my instincts told me she was gonna
scold me today.AND SHE DID.
oh wells.i'm not exactly psychic cause
i know she'll get me for everyhing i do.
I HATE HER!! I HATE HER!! I HATEEEE HER!!
right at the start of the period.
i just turned around to ask fer a friggin marker
and she said.STOP DISRUPTING THE LESSON.
LIKE WHAT THE WORLD IS FUCKIN WRONG WITH MIND.
I STARTED ANSWERIN BACK. I WAS LIKE 'I'M NOT'
she said ' then why is yer book not on the table'
what the fuck it was.is she fuckin blind!?
she's already wearin glasses for cryin out loud
i was like ' HERE! HERE! CANT YOU SEE IT !? '
and she threw me her dumb fuck look
and i was like ' whatever '. HAHA.
then she said
' everyone has is doin their work but me '
GO FUCK YERSELF BYOTCH.
no one was doin their fuckin work
not even VAL! SHE'S JUST A FUCKIN BLACK FOOL!!
HATE HER !she's so fuckin biase
i swear i think she's out to get me.
anyhows. then sulynn was like. 'NOT EVERYONE IS'
then she was like sayin smth to ME.
then i was like ' i didn't even say that '
she was like ' but yer actions show it '
like what the fuck.that's sucha lame excuse.
for her dumb assness.
she's makin me sinful.byotch!
anyhows. then she was like sayin some stuff
that were dumb fucken out of point
then i told her.'yer so out of point'
she asked me to repeat it 3 times.
what is she that fuckin hell deaf?
then she said my attitude was out of place
out of point again.
then she just count. her lesson
then i purposely irritated her again HAHA.
i slept !! HAHA. then she was like
' what is yer problem ? '
i was like ' allergy '
i wanted to say allergic to you!HAHA
but somehow fuckin forgot
then she said ' im allergic to you '
i was like ' im allergic to you too '
then she was like ' one more excuse out you go! '
i was prayin fer her to send me out of class
at least then i can study smth else
or wonder around or go fer my own recess.HAHA.
anyhows.aft school suppose to go to the gym
but ended up playin in school with hwee.
we played baseball. damn lame. HAHA.
then we ate. i bought milo wit PEARLS.HAHA
then AW came she drank up alot my pearls.
till i didn't even wanna drink it no more
so started playin wit the drink
i poured away the milo filled it with water
i looked like barley. then started askin pple
whether they were thirsty. damn funny fuck shiat.
HAHA.anyhows.
hwee and i went to sit at the table
wit su lizard eunice and beacon. damn funneh lar
they cant stop singing.
lizard's face so damn fuckin
CONSTIPATED.HAHA. anyhows. went home. slept.
YADA YADA YADA.
HAHA.I KNOW WHO LIZARD LIKES.
FINALLY HAHA.
knew it damn long ago
but she kept denyin it.
BITCH.HAHA.KIDDIN.
anyhows. tsktsktsk. - gone

HEAL ME.

i dont know what to do now.
i'm soooo sad.i'm heart sick.
frankly , i'm not despo.
but seriously , i dont know why
i dont seem to wanna let go
its been more than a year now.
i've become more sober and deep
gawwwd. that feelin again.
i hate it.it feels like..IDONTKNOW.
it makes me feel bad.
it makes me wanna cry
but the tears are gone now.
to top it all of.i listenin to emo.
HAHA like whats wrong wit me?!
i feel sooooo tired.
tired physically tired phsycologically
totally drained out.
i'm even afraid to see lizard.
i'll have to make a sarcastic remark back
im so drained out i can barely think.
i'm gettin into so much friggin trouble.
i'm like a fugitive in the school
always runnin away from teachers.
but its not my fault they see me as a rebel
assume assume. thats all they do
has it ever occured to em that
im sick of them too?!
i'm so messed up right now.
i dont know.i mean
i like you soooo much.
but im not fuck sure if you still know it
i hate this crap.
anyhows.HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

gone without much <3

WELL WELL WELL XX))

the past few days hav been realleh fun
KINDA FORGOT what happend recently
guess its cause im drain out already
or maybe cause lizard drain me out of
my sarcasm or maybe the past hangin
out with those so called ah bengs
made me so tooo cheena to think
and no , that doesnt make me an
AH - lian no offence. yeahhs.


GONE and DRAINED -

what more thang.

DIE PEOPLE DIE

INNER CONFUSION.

don't know whats goin on wit me
for these past frggin days.
i mean.i've been so high
but seriously, deep down inside.
i keep thinkin and thinkin
about so many stuff
i'm so CONFUSED.
i don't know.i LOVE you.
but i don't know if you know it.
so shitified. BOO HOO YOU!!HAHA


-think think THINK!!

gone

FRIDAY.

i think i practically
spent the whole friggin day in school
anyhows, it was pretteh fun.
LIZARD has to STOP CALLIN PHOEBE
AH LIAN.[ can ya see the msg?]HAHA.
she isnt.seriously.ah lian just
ain't gonna fit in her friggin style.
yeahhs.anyhows.wenta the concert
it was pretteh radical man!!.
WOOHOO.did'nt realleh expect much
outta it.anyhows.i think that
velvet roses ain't so bad yeahhs?
but BITTER LIBRETY ONE AUTHORITY AND SURREAL.
REALLEH ROCK!!OHGAWWDDD.
the eye candys were realleh CANDY.
HAHA, i know am not makin sense but
HELL CARE ANW. =)) - high
went to the concert wit
SARAH.FANGS.HWEE.PHOEBS.CHARLENE.KELLY
didnt miss anyone out right?HOPE NOT!
we met up wit a few peeps there
like su.alyssa.cant realleh remember
but i remember JESSLYN.HAHA.
SHE'S SERIOUSLY RETARDED.-LAUGHS.
after that went fer supper
then HOME SWEEET HOME =))


SATURDAY

went out wit delicia.phoebs.paul.=))
it was mad fun.altough i was a lil ` pms-y
sry guys if i destroyed the mood.
tuition my kuzzin first before going ta town
the pacifier was some funny fuck man!HAHA
i'm soo lurvvin the show.
anyhows.we were like sooo retarded.
we were suppose to go ta somerset rightt?
but we ended up going to paragon
and posed wit all the statues from the
fashion show.some funneh shiat man.=))
anyhows.then we went str8 home.
DEL.MEH.PHOEBS. dropped at serangoon
poor paul had to go kovan.sorreh GF.
dont be sad no more ok? LURVVE YA.


TODAY.


todays pretteh alright
wenta cat class in the morning
then went str8 to this parteh at the church
so friggin far away though
but it was all simple fun i guess.
anyhows.it was a missionary i think
anyhows.i was infested wit bees.
but din get stung by em `
yeahhs so i guess it was alrightts.
then went fer mass.
it was so friggin hot
i felt soooo lethargic.[spell?]
ahahas,when were suppose to say
PEACE BE WIT YOU.
everyone was like PEACE!!
then they did the hiphop sign
so retarded pls.
then we sang the easter song
the part which were suppose ta sing
ROCKS AND HILLS.
they were like " ...rocks and RILLS."
ahhas.retarded pls.
anyhows.went str8 home after that
nice bondin wit momma.=))
anw.just woke up from a pretteh long slp

-gone

" insert title "

today was pretteh fun
yes , pretteh fun indeed.
I WORE FLIP FLOPS to school.HAH!
anyhows , the NAPFA part was
realleh FUN!!! kajsdndjkasd
who the fuck would'nt agree
accpect the help tini part.pffft
anyhows , the helpin part was pretteh ok
but HOLDIN THE UMBRELLA PART WAS FUN!!!
ms chan and ms hazelin are sooo nice
SUP IS SOOOO LAME.
what's with the HAZELINSNOWCREAM crap.
HAHA.anw we played ball after that
it was FUN. we won.i realleh did'nt expect that
to happen it was so unpredictable.HAHA.
anyhows , after SU fell [ CREDITS GO TO QY ]
we all sat in a corner me , hwee , fangs
lizard , su , MEL , mari..OPPS. i mean grace
and suying yeahhs we were all talkin about HER*
* cause don't wanna hurt anyones frggin feelins.
yeahhs.i'm SOOOOOO nice pls.HAHA.
anyhows , then we started talkin and talkin
yadayadayada.
then we also talked about
YOU KNOW WHO abt her perverticness.
HAHA.i had loads of fun i guess
anyhows , kinda lost my 'flow'
i think my blog needs re-vampin

- gone

WE'RE GONNA GIVE LIZARD A PAN!-LAUGHS

WHATALOTTALURVEE.

NETBALLCAMP.
i hate to admit it but.
THE CAMP WAS VEREH FUN.
i think we got alot closer.
there's no doubt about that.
see.i dont even mine lizard's.
DUMB comments anymore.HAHA.
my group didn't sound so fun at first.
but in the end i was wrong.
ONLY WICKED PPLE JUDGE.-guilty
anyhoos.amazing race was fustratin.
but then again realleh fun.HAHA.
our group could'nt stop laughin
sometymes we'd laugh fer no pratical reason.
HAHA.i got to know alot of pple in group better.
for some i did'nt even know exsist.HAHA.

KIMBERLY -full of funny shiat.
SHABANA -no comment.HAHA
AMANDA -crazeh fuck that could'nt stop laughin.
ISABELLA -she's like amanda's long lost twin.
CHARLENE -pure sweetness with alota lameness.
LINETTE -she's realleh deep in a freaky way.

I'M NOT JUDGE-IN AND NOT SHOWIN FAVOURTISM.
linette.seriuosly is freaky i mean.ohhs.nvm
wanna know?just ask me why.
shall harp about it another day XXD


AVRIL CONCERT!!!!

WOOHOOO
lurvve it.it wass totalleh rockin.
she's so damn friggin pretteh.
she's so damn friggin sweet.
you can tell.and PUG JELLY
was the openin act.
so FRIGGIN COOL.
the rawkked.
left the place.
SAW MASASHI.
got his autograph
wrote a song.
HOME SWEET HOME =))
-gone

FALLIN TA PIECES.

i don know whats happenin to me.
i realleh dont know who i am not anymore.
call me nuts.mock me.hate me.whatever.
but i think the end of the world is seriously coming.
but theres so many things i wanna say.
so many things i wanna do.
when i was thinkin about it
yesterday.i cried.weird.but i dont know.
i guess i'm pretty scared.
i mean honestly ,
tell me who in the world
ain't scared of death.
i talk about it so much.
but im realleh afraid of the pain.
how im gonna die.
i still hav alota things on my mind
that i wanna say to you.
i mean sometimes
i wanna tell ya
those three words on my mind.
but i cant.
i dont wanna aggravate the situation we're in.
gawwd.i feel like cryin again.but i wont.
everyone sees me as this
tough girl that no one can bring down.
but truth is, the ain't the facts.

- gone

NETBALL CARNIVAL.

it was really fun and lame all together.HAH
guess what was our warm up?*ah-hems.NOTHING.
we played 7 games won 5. pretty good.
didnt expect us get that far.yeahhs.=))
but we didnt get into the finals.
all because of the shooting percentage.
=((.nevermind.HAHA.
shall tok more about it another time.
kinda lazeh.

- TIMMY ROCKS!!


THE FUNKY.

the band is made up of
two farters.
one market auntie.
one salesman
one gold digger
one merlion
and one crazeh uncle.


HAHA.

incase yer wondering

went for this mosaic thing.
while listening to timmy
there was this uncle dancing like nuts
tt's how we met him soon..
there was this stupid funky smell
tt's how we met the first farter
we had to get away.
we went to sit at the seats.
then this china guy came and sat with us.
and started spittin into the sea
tt's how we met him , the merlion
on the way home.
i found out my mum was a salesman
she CHEATED!!hahas.her card had
insufficent funds fer the train
and still went in with us
when we were in the train
we met the gold digger
he kept diggin his blardee nose
and flickin his money at gwen
SO RICH RIGHT!?still throw his money around.
SICKO!!tt's how we met him
so had to get away.
we went away to the next section of the train
then we smelled somethin funky again
tt's how we met the 2nd farter.
then when we got out
had to top-up my friggin card
we met the uncle
tt's how we met the market auntie
kept naggin bout not stick stuff on our cards.
THAT's the band.

farters and merlions incharge of the music
like. fart , spit , fart , spit , fart , fart
the indian music for drums.ya ` dig
the dancers are the salesman and the crazy uncle.
salesman just keep walkin in and out of the mrt for free
the gold digger is the DJ.
spin the disc in his nose.ya ` know turn tables.
the rapper is the market aunty
raps about ezilink cards and stickers.


YUP.i know i have real lame jokes.
but what the heck right?HAH.


-gone


marisse

AH-HEMS.


cher's burfdae had fuckin fun.
we went to escpae theme park.
or whatever its called.
we played everything.
from wet games to GO KART!!
GO KARTS!! im lovin` it.
THERE'S THIS REALLLEH HOT GUY THERE!!
OHMGAWDD.I'm not guy crazeh or anything.
but he is sooo hot.
he actually looks like rahman.
just alot better.
WE WENT NUTS. at the parteh.
im sorry guys.kinda lazeh to talk abaout it now.

HAPPY BURFDAE CHERYL!!!

HAD FUCKIN FUN TODAY!
did alota lame stuff toddayy.
shall type tmr bout the dumb escapade.
hurhhs hurrhs =))

-gone

HAPPEH BURFDEH BEI YI!!!=))

the parteehhh.


it wasnt so bad
the playin "police and theif"
was DAMN LAME.
FUN but completely lame.
HAHA.LIZARD really cannot
shut up for a minute
NO WAIT!!!!
not even for a SECOND
seriously.man!!
HAHA.but it was all for fun
those lame jokes bout my colour.
it'was a'right cause i din even feel anythin
i know what colour i am.
i gotta face reality and not
act like im some ghostly china women
anw,damn funneh man yingjun sing
SO FUCKIN FUNNILY CUTE
anw,i drank like 8 cups of punch
feellin a lil' high i dont know why
the police and theif game damn fuckin funneh
first game juniors were the "POLICE"
hahahs.we ran left or smth two ways.
BOTH DEAD ENDS.FUCKED UP MAN!!
HAHAHA.ANW.the others ran back
but sarah me lizard n tanny or su
hid behind the cars. damn funneh
qinyi damn pa jiao can.
HAHA.anw,2nd game damn funneh
we ran right instead .
me sarah n lizard ran right into the church
and hid behind the cars.
HAHA.then slowly got bored.
decided to get out.
we ran behind those damn bushes.
HAHA.LAME SHIAT RIGHT
YEAHHS.then we walk towards the juniors.
then lizardd was like
"when we reach the white car we run OK?"
HAHA.and of course we could only say YES.
hahahs.anw.then she like
"one two three four five"
and we ran like a bunch of retards.
HAHAH.behind the bushed at first then me sarah
ran back to the church.LIZARD LAR.DUMBASS.
she was so dumb she was runnin on the road.HAHA.
anw.crap bout tt.then they went home sec2s
lizard tanny and su.i think.anw.
then bei yi started to sing those s.h.e. songs.
hate em' but she sang pretty good.
anw.jiajun's dad gave a lift home.
now.im back to my crib =)).

-out

marisse =))


ps. TO ALL PEICAI BALLERS.CHILL.DONT BE SAD YEAHHS?there's always next season.HAHA

YEAH.

finally got my so called
'inspirational flow'
anw.back to the point.
THERE'S A ROCKFEST this sat.
cant wait.WHEEEEE `
its cher's burfdae too on tt day
man gonna miss the first part.
but well at least i'll be there awhile and all
yeah.its from 4-10.=))
simple plan's coming to town ya'll
the tix her reall cheap its only 50 bucks
AVRIL IS COMING TO TOWN.april 2nd
the standing tix are 125 bucks.CANT WAIT.
yeahhs.kinda bored.i've been really moody
fer the pass fuckin days.
teachers keep scoldin me fer no fuckin reason
stop assumin bitches.esp tt tini.
BITCH.get a fuckin life
you ask questions and expect us to answer em`
when we know what you wanna here.
i feel like slappin yer fuckin face
you fuckin byotchy-fied fucktard.
u wanted to slap me face?
why din you then i could punch yer
fuckin face as a form of retaliation
how could you make caroline run cant
you fuckin see her leg is not workin
YOU COLD HARD HEARTED BITCH
MAY YOU BURN IN FUCKIN HELL
dont fuck with me bitch.

-gone

rottin on a saturday.
i hate it when this happens.
well tt's life.
i havent got any inspirational flow now.
well till then

-out
marisse `

So this is how it goes.


my week. is AWfUL.

AWFULLY FUN!!

HAHA.kept gettin into trouble.
WHEES!mrs thurai.YUCK.
i hate her pls.
keeps scoldin our clique.
whatever for?
NOTHING.
is she afraid we cant hear her voice or smth.
SERIOUSLY,
she sent me outta class.
BUT GUESS WHAT!
i could still hear her annoyin voice.
with her repeated oks and alrights.
she seriously need to get a frggin` life.
man she sucks.
she's out to get me.
luckily jenny came out of her class.
told me smth bout ` mrs tng.HAHA.
it WAS pretty lame.but hey
better then nth.
and tt funny shit about the two lizard ' successors.
which btw is me n SIEW HWEE.
hahs.anw. gtg.
- gone

my first week.

it was alright
all the teachers are alright
I HATE MY MATHS TEACHER!!
yeahhs. tts about it.
luv the OBLIVIONS!!

first day of school.


hmms..what can i say.
it was the usual thing.
BORING.STEAMY.BUT..
a l r i g h t.HAHA.-__-".
anw. met phoeb's at S11 this morining.
ate breakfast there.
went to interchange to top up my card.
BUT. IT JUST HAD TO BE CLOSED!!!
HAHA.anw.we were this . close to bein late.
but we came just on time.hahas.
anw.skool was alright.
buut the talks were so damn bloody long.
the handphone thing too.Hai `
anw.the discipline talk kinda ok.
hahas. ms gan ROCKS!!!
givin me the special pass.
man.then those ****ing teachers can get off my back already.
HAHA.anw.late now.gtg.
-gone

heys `


went shopping with phoebe the other day.
bought loads of stuff spent a bomb.haha.
nxt day went to watch KFH with her n stacy.
ate at suki sushi.
TODAY.


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!~

hmms did nth much
went to town to stone
could hav done that at home.
damn.
went to cc for the dumb countdown.
but there were fireworks that was nice.
yeahhs.
kinda bored.
so gonna go.
-gone

my new year's resolution


*dont eat at macs.

*study harder.

*do more sports.

*insult less.

*lose weight

*stop hiao-ing too much

*eat enough

*slack less

*want less

*compliment pple more

*don't 'gush' too much

- heex.=))


PULAU BUKOM TRIP


it was alright.
yeah.
it was kinda fun
although the toilets were freaky
HAHA.
when we got there
i swam with HANNAH JEWEL TREEESSHHHHHHHAAAAAAAA
jeremy tiara and geneva.
from the names you can tell that
JEREMY WAS THE ONLY GUY!!!
AHAHAHAHA.
just for the record.
I HATE TITA MALU!!!.
mothafuckerish BITCH.
quit think i wanna eat would ya.
FUCK YOU.
anw. the pool was so fuckin deep.
jewel drop my shirt in
we had a hard time gettin it up.
but we eventually did anw.
thank GOD.=))
anw.am bac now.
so fucking tired.
HAHA.
gonna go sleep soon or smth. yeah.
` ya dig ?

-gone

CHRISTMAS DAY

yesterday was my uncle's wedding.
HAHA.i've got more relatives now.
HAHA.*crap.
anw.got loads of ang poh.
which means another shopping spree fer me.
HAHA.anw.


MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION.


1.criticise less.
2.eat enough.
3.be more active and enthu.
4.gossip less.
5.be less superficial.
6.get over you.
7.
SHIT
gtg
another day..
-gone

NETBALL OUTING.

day started out bad
but turned out fine.
went to beach at sentosa.
walked for ages looking for them
was so friggin pissed.
lucky saw jenny n siewhwee
Haha.
nvm.
anw.played volleyball.
was alright
so tired and worked up
yeah.
tmr.
-gone

heys `

SHOPPING.


went shoppin ` wit
phoebe su pris siew,etc.
HAHA.
went to town.
bought clothes
ALOT of clothes.
tw0 shoes.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
the hol` r alright so far.
tmr is genevas ` burfdae.
gonna hav fun.
anw.watched alot of movies too.
so bored.
gonna sleep.
-gone

CANT BREAK THROUGH.



YOU dont know ME and YOU NEVER WILL.


its not the rejection that hurts me most
its the fact that when I get to know you better
its really hard for me to break through
and the fact that you dont know me
and sadly,you never will.


people are superficial.
EVERYONE is.
so dont you fucking lie.
I'm BIG FAT and UGLY.
but hey do I care.
i'd be lying if i were to say no.
I hate me.
If anyone were to fall in love with me.
it would be a miracle.
I think i'm gonna be a spinster.

tsk.


-gone.

heys `

watch without a paddle
its real nice
gtg.
peace out.
hahas.


-gone

my ' so called ' week.


monday.

sec4 fourwell.


as i predicted.
i screwed up.
but i hope the seniors still enjoyed it.
can hear the sec 3s at the side
with those retarded remarks for example.
lizard :' R[a] ah.
HAHA.
anw.am i cranky?juniors said.
thanks fer bein' sucha cranky senior.
oh man ya guys broke my heart.
tt's gonna stick with me fer a long long time.
HAHA.just playin wit ya.
mum bought me USHER's CD.
i bet she's up to smth.
HAHA.




tuesday.

cant really remember though
HAHA.
i think i just stoned at home the whole day.



wenesday.



hannah slept over.
watched sing. idol
and..
WOOOHOOOO!!
taufik won as i predicted.
iiimmmmmmmmm phhhhyssiccccccc.
HAHA.
mum said to call two times
but i call twenty times
couldnt resist my temptations.
sinful am i.
well heck.
its fer taufik anw.
HAHA.
hannah n i were like sooo whacked.
HAHA.
i started callin pple n laughin at em'
fer callin fer sly.
its not tt i hate him
but i think taufik is hot
n of course not to forget.
versatile.
HAHA.



thursday.


HORROR.
i went for waxing n threadin
hannah said i look nice wit my new eyebrows.
but i look evil.
oh man.
HaHA.
i was soar tt day from the wax.
went to phoebe's house at 1.00am
HAHA.
did nth much.
but we kept laughin.
like retards.
her air con broke down.
it was steamin
but i forced myself to sleep
woke up at 8.12
went over to my house
to..
sleep
HAHA.
we took a cab to my house to sleep.
HAHA.
woke up at 1.00
HAHA.




friday.



when we woke up
we did the usual things
ya' noe
bathe eat.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
HAHA.
anw.
went over to cici's house wit jiaxin.
we played BOARD GAMES.
HAHA.
and card games too.
but surprisingly
i had fun
HAHA.
we coundt sleep.
its 0816 now.
but i still cant sleep so decided to blog.
so till then.
peace out.
-gone.

heys `
HAPPY BURFDAEE!!!
GRACE AND STACY!!
HAHA.
had loads of fun
with my partner in crime
*TADA*
phoebe
ok
i know
-______________-'' right?
HAHA.


grace's parteh______________


it was great
her house was great
pple were great.
the cake was great
it was just
GREAT!



stacy's parteh_______________

her animals were so cute
Oh mY gAWD
the cats the dogs the rabbit and chinchilla
sooooo cute.
but sadly there wasnt any cake
but at least it was fun
pple were fun too.



yeah im outta here.






-gone

back to yesterday.
TWOheartPOUNDINincidents
ok make that 3
MAN.this ain't workin fer me.
think i'm gonna die young.
HAHA
first offff
i saw PUG JELLY
in PS i'm sure of that.
then I HAD NO PAPER.
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT!!
HAHA
second of all.
i saw *you.
i totally made a fool of myself online
i mean what was i thinkin
saying that to you
GAAAWWWWD.i cannot be BORED.
phoebe just had to make it worst.
MAN.we can me the idiot sistas or smth.
HAHA
lastly.
ESMOND made me feel like some fool
mr-ASSmond.hahas.
felt like flushing his brains down the toiletbowl.
WELL.it WAS running around.
HAHA.
HATE YOUUUUUUU
HAHA


_______________________________________



TODAY


was alright i guess.
OH YEAH
HAHA
we hav this new club called.
the lil' borin old club.
OK
im just playin.
HAHA.
went to skool early to realise
NOT a single SOUL was to
BE FOUND.
HAHA
anw
so I decided to go to sihui's house to look fer her
when i was walkin there
i SPOTTED HER.
tough shit.
HAHA
anw.
had lunch wit sihui fangs lizard amirah n CARIN.
HAHA.
my personal PRIVATE joke.
HAHA
what spasm
anw
then we went back to skool to practice
then we went over to sarahs house to watch MOVIES.
hahas
dogdeball was great
HEY EVERYONE
it's BYOTCH not BIATCH
hahaha
watch mean girls fer the seventh time
sick.
hahas
OF IT ok? OF IT
hahas
gtg
peace out

gone_________________

heys `
TODAY is OFFICIALLY my
UNLUCKY DAY
with the capital U.
HAHA.
like WHADDAHELL.
gtg.
bye
another day.

just watched jersey girl
it was a great show.
i'm stonin ` at home today.
sooo bored.
gotta go to church later.
i'm so glad the netball dance thing is done
coulda died coulda died.
but nonetheless it was great.
yeap.the things we came up with.
are so Lame with a capital L.
oh man.i'm talkin` like im some bim.
hahas.anw.TAUFIK RAWKS!!
i'm sure he'll fine the whole damn thing.
hahahs.he has my FULL support.
hahahas.i compose a new song.
its called.umm.dear you.
its about this girl who just broke up.
with this guy.its nice. although it didnt` happen
ta me.but it doesnt matter.as long as it is nice.
right?RIGHT?hahas.whatever.
gtg.
*peace out.

heys `


JIA JUN


HUI FANG


LIZARD!



i can cook!!!


i just cook alfredo.



ahhas.





out-

Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, What's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus:
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
And she can't find her place
She's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh
She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh yeah





just love her.just love this song.
What great lyrics.

i've been kinda happy
for the past few days.
since the day i had fun
doing? NOTHING!!
haahas,anw.
deepavali.or however it spelt as.
SINCE i'm multi-racial.
I celebrate it too
i went to my grans.
had fun.
went fer sing. idol.
yesterday the netballers met up
we tot of some steps.
NICE steps of course.
not lousy boring stiff ones.
hahas. today?
hung out wif my old frens
from the neighbourhood.
had loads of fun.
hahas.
we put make up on
as in those like.
fake blood n all tt crap.
took photos it was simply.
FUN.
hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

lookin' back at the fun i had.hurrs.

milk n oreo.ain't they cute?hahas.but their gone.

[from right]:me,esther,alyssa
[below]:sherylene n sarah.
DO WE LOOK NICE OR WHAT!!

[from right]:zai,me and jas.
zai'a a princess.isnt she cool.hahas.long story.dont ask.

[from right]:me,esther,sarah,alyssa.

[on top]:me,stacy
[below]:serene n calista.
those were the days..hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

yesterday..
i went fer the sing. idol thing.
it was kinda fun.
queue so long my legs almost melted.
hahas.TAUFIK RAWKss!!
hahs. anw.dont feel like typing so much.

Had fun today.
doing NOTHING.
hahas.dont believe me?
ask fangs lizard n jun.
dont ask carin.
she's always doing something.
hahas.she's plain weird.
i asked her what sub she taking next year
she said.NOTHING.
hahas,RETARD!!
cause she heard it as THINKING.
dumbass.
hahas,dont blame her.
SHE'S JUST BORN THAT WAY.
poor gurl
anyway.woke up late.
AGAIN.
suppose to wake up at 9
cause suppose to me sihui they all
anw.i woke up at 11.
hahas.
but i still went anyway.
we thought of smth.
BUT ITS GONNA BE KEPT A SECRET.
hahas.
anw.the main team had training.
SO.sihui gave us the keys to her house.
we went to her house.
me,fangs,jun,lizard n carin.
we went there to do simply NOTHING.
hahas.anyway.
we EVENTUALLY got hungry.
hahas.so we decided to get a drink
we searched the kitchen fer like
HALF AN HOUR.
we found milo eggs tuna bread baked beans.
hahas.so we drank milo and cooked eggs.
no LIZARD COOKED EGGS.
hahas.she is really bad at it.
or maybe its just the lousy pan we used.
i cooked too.
it was doing fine.
till the pan caught fire.
hahahas.YEAH FIRE.YEAH THE PAN!!.
hahas.like how retarded is that.
to extinguish it
i quickly put it in the sink.
GUESS WHAT!!
the fire got bigger!!hahas.
when i was criticising lizard for her bad cookin
i said cannot cook when the pan is wet.
i go put water on the pan.
hahaas.how dumb of me!!!
hahahahas.this shows pride comes before a fall.
hahas.anw.after that.we went to hav dinner.
the rest had to go home.
so me fangs lizard
went together fer dinner.
we were talkin about the crazy pple in our skool.
hahas.n other stuff.
anw.it was so retarded.
anw.i gtg.
so.
till then..

to whoever that is reading my blog.

LIZARD IS a VERY BAD COOK!!!!

i've not been ballin' fer like
2 months.
Oh man..
i feel sooo sinful.
hahas.
my today was whacked manx.
hahas.
cause i PAAARRTTTEEHHEEDDDDDD!!!
hahas.ok it was a
class parteh.
key word *PARTEH.
but it was great.
hahas.
first off.
i came to skool wearing
filp flops.
hahas.
how dumb of me.
well.cause i just had to forget.
just when i saw
cumar.
i remembered
im not suppose to wear it.
hahas.
ass luck right?
BUT.
GOD saved me.
there was tt canteen thing there.
ya know
the one where we put our dishes in
i hid behind it.
*phew.
she didnt see me.
hahas.
THEN.
the vice-prefect or smth.
had to appear outta nowhere.
LUckily
there was a toilet next to me.
i ran in quick.
hahas.
talk about luck.
hahas.
anw,i walked through the canteen.
THEN.
i saw mrs lee talking to mrs tay bee kee
[ya noe,ollinda's neighbour]
at first
i didn't even know it was her.
i walked somewhat
across her from the canteen
then i realised it
WAS her.
hahas.
then i ran quick to the..
BASKETBALL COURT.*TADa~
then i cut across the grass area
near the D&T room.
and GUESS WHAT!!
IT WAS MUDDY!!
like.ewww.
hahas.
but anw.
at least i was safe.
hahas.
had fun at the parteh.
i kept dropping stuff.
hahas.
i even drop a whole lot of chickens
when i was like BBQ-ing.
hahas.
how retarded.
hahas.
anw.
the presentation thing
was like ok.
the skit.
OH MAN.
dont remind me.
COULDA died there.
hahas.
THE SINGING
sounds like will. hung
only a lil' better.
but it was overall.
alright.
rushed home to watch.
THE CHAMPIONS!!
hahas.
anw.
gtg.
SO.
till then.
*peace out.

i'm like sooo bored.
i'm cashless.
i'm so sad.
-out-

i hate you
i really do.
i dont know.
i'm



sad..
cause i know i'll never get you.


hurt..
cause i'm lost without you.


depressed..
cause i'm bleeding inside


devastated..
cause i love you like.



there's no tomorrow.


your my eye candy.
your the one
i know it
i just know it
its like were meant to be.
but do you care?
i doubt so.
i guess its no use
i'm screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do.
god must hate me.
maybe you should pray for me
im breaking down.
and there's no one there to save me
its scary everytime i think about it
what if i wake up one day regretting
every little thing i did fer you.
Fucking hell.i wanna freak out and let it go.


i'll be waiting here fer cause i dont wanna miss a thing.





perished n burned alive is what i actually feel inside.
i wanna say i'm here fer you.
no matter what u do.
livin life to the fullest.
is how things work fer you.
im bleedin deep down inside.
next time i'll be the one to say move aside.



-gone-

catching a fallin leaf can bring you good luck.
hahas..hmm..
i cant belive me n phoebe were so bim
to try to catch one for two hours!
anw.been swimming alot lately.
GOSH when did become such a beach bum!
hahas.anw.i got this bloody tan again.FUCK
now when i play hide n seek.
ican just lie on the damn road.
Got caught in the hall fer taking
like is tt a fucking crime now.
hello?!im human.fuck this shit.
anw,i was playin wit jiajun i wanted to see her wallet.
just for that..
i had to clean the whole hall.
with some other pple.
plus,i had to do it with pple i cant click with
i mean please their not even in my year.
incase yer wonderin they are.
lizard.jeanne.natalie.i think yolanda or smth.
anw.how fucked up is tt?
its not like i hate them or anthin
but i just dont know them well enough.
to you know.be RETARDED.
anw.went swimming again.
i swam 12 laps.
when i was in the water.
i kept imaginin things like.
how im gonna die.
n some other retarded stuff.
I feel so BLEEK.
i dont know I feel sad.
i dont know why i guess its cause
i havent tok to *you in like months.
i think im gonna die of my toxins.hahas.
im sad.confused.devastated.

heys `
lurvve my blog
yeapx.
love 1985.
anwww,
had training yeshterdae
webt home and slept the whole blardee day
till todae.
wahahas.
anw.
so bored.
cheryl, sulynn ,phoebe
are at my house now.
anww,
gtg entertain my guest.
*grinz* yea right..
write anader day.



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its OFFICIAL today is GOD-MUST-HATE-ME day!!
it started in the morning with mum.
she sucks!hate her `
i had to get a dumb hair cut.
now i look like SUPER-NERD.
the superhero that saves nerds.
hehs.
anw,after tt.
i got caught fer my uniform
like hello?
i was gonna go up on stage.
DUH!?
of course i would cry.
its like the end of my social life.
haha.ok.i'm just being hysterical.
but anw.i was long high n tight.
I look like a walking fucktard.
like if i walk around pple will walk around n point at me n yell.
FFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKTTTTTAAAAAAARRRRRDDDDDDDDDD!!!
*crap.
anw gtg.
fuck this

OMG!!
am i dreaming?
did I,marisse.
actually go fer the alicia keys concert.
it was unbelivable.
her voice is fantastic.
Her vocal range is good.
she plays the piano well[the keyboard player too.]
OMG!
the concert was rockin.
altough i went wit my mum.
but her frens were great.
they were very very spunky
AND UNLIKE MY MUM
they like OUTKAST!.
hahahahaah.lOlx.
anw.im tired now.gonna go sleep.
see ya.

heys `
trying to sign up fer that dumb photobocket thingie.
damn.must sign up at 2.so fucked up.
anw.sulynn,cher and phoebe just left.
I'm rotting again.
I cant believe i wasted 3 bucks on tt damn show.
DAMN!shit show.SOUL.what a lame show.
Im not even freaked out.
Anw.Exams now.so easy.
Just abit nervous fer tmr.MATHS.mrs tng surely set until damn hard.
anw.diane more lil' gurl.all tt serene's fault.tt lil' biatch.
anw.I shall not butt in.hehs.wa lao.
tt mdm chong really really sucks lor.
I HATE HER!May she burn in her lipstick.hehs.
what i just said doesnt even make sense.haha.
Anw.Our Clique's name is right click.like..
WWWWHHHHAADDDDAAAHHHHEELLLLLL!?
haha.thanks to shalini.haha.LMAO.anw.
We are going out after the exams gonna watch
Art of the devil and whitechicks.they dun even mix.
haha.anw.So fucked up lor.damn the fucking exams.
haha.OH YEAH!!you know the song by simple plan!!
WELCOME TO MY LIFE?its like sooooo nice!!hehs.
its so matches me.listen to it.ANNNNIIWWWAAEEE`
i feel so fucked up without *you.YEA.i haven gotten over u
I'm breaking down.FUCKING HELL.and my mum.she's so stressin me
its not like she's takin the exams.fucktard.anw.at least ..
I'm going fer the alicia keys concert.YES.I'm proud of it.
I'M GOING FER THE ALICIA KEYS CONCERT!!
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!
my mums like so bugging me to learn singing from her.
she's crazy i tell u!she's yellin vulgar.like how?
how?am i suppose to sing with anger.
Hate her.
anw.im proud to say my voice has to grown.HEARD TT ESMOND?
.dotx.
oh yeah.WHY CANT I.Its a really nice song.sO devastatin'.well.wth.
hears the lyrics.


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

But this just the beginningWe're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about youI
t's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginningWe haven't fucked yet, but my head’s spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'Out of this that
we can't control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you




nice.yea.i know.anw.i gotta go.till then..




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I lurvee ` my new blog.anw.gotta run.mums yellin`.cya.



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my mums turning the extra room into a studio.*cool