It sucks living life knowing you could've done something better.Yes , I'm talkin about the everyday perfectionist , me.I wanted it to end that night.But you wouldn't give me a chance.I even wondered whether my words even got to you.You were never meant for me, yes I know that.But at least let me clear things out.Why do I care.You don't even give a fuck about me.fuck it.I am going out soon.We're gonna get birds' you-know-what and go to grapey's later.I'm going out with LEE-YAH tomorrow.I'm looking forward to alot of WEIRD fun.I HEART ALYSSA WOO-HOO!

HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY LEEZORD!

The stars that night but you weren't there with me It became just like any other night.Tell me why just one answer and you can leave , forever.

FOR THE UNDERAGED:
CHINABLACK
24TH NOV
PRE SALE 12
DOOR 15
NON ALCOHOLIC
AFTER PROM FOR SCGS AND SOME OTHER SCHOOLS
GIRLS IN BIKINIS CAN GET IN FOR FREE.
CALL VIKKI AT 93383450 TO BOOK
TICKETS ARE RUNNING OUT! SO GET THEM SOON !
PASS VIKKI THE CASH LATEST BY MONDAY.
( She is able to meet you whoever you are buying over the weekends if that's needed. )






For my lady , greensleeves.

my brains aren't functioning well enough now.
I don't know man , It's like ev'rything has got to do with me.
Somehow , seems to be revolving around the same situation.
Which is , so much reminds me of you.I've seen this all before.
Anyway , I gave school a skip today like most of my other friends.
But , I have the flu.I need a remedy man,It's fucking annoying.
I keep sneezing or my computer screen.
yogi doesn't want to let our saliva mix on the screen
yes , bad mental image.how gives a shit anyway.
I've got to have lessons with my mum at 5?
yes , how horrid It must be for me.
I'm sick and mum doesn't really give a shit.
I'm fucking depressed and tired now.
I miss you like crazy , how cliche.
It's just the imaginary you and me.
with this invisible wall between us.
I can walk through it , but I'm afraid.
Afraid of what you might ask.
I've got a whole list of afraid ofs.
But it's the rejection mainly.
I don't wanna feel it all over again.
I'm begging you for a phone call
I'm begging you for an email.
something to show me I'm in your existence.
There's no need to test my heart.
For it's clipped on to the back of your mind.
The joke's on me , really.
It's been almost two fucking years now.
In my mind , I pleaded for you not to go.
In my mind , I hoped ev'ryday that you might
Just MAYBE call me tell me
how you are tell me what you think about the yesterday.
The whole nine yards.
Schezophernia is bliss cause you're not alone (=

I am the ultimate grandmother.

I had my last paper today and It was what you might say , durable?
Had lunch with Shanny and some of my classmates for 30 minutes.
Rushed down to town and took 105.
I missed a fuckin stop and had to walk all the way down
how horrid , well It wasn't so humid then so It was alright
Met the rest at Far east ( The rest:Esther, Sarah, Sher, Jean, Amanda.)
When I reached there , they started worshiping me , as if
We walked around window shopped and the whole nine yards.
Guess who we saw!I saw Sharon Treeshaniniriripopohaha and sweeying(:
I SWEAR SHARON IS STALKING ME.
I SEE HER EVERYWHERE.
There after ,we went to watch Into deep blue
Yes , you should watch it cause it was (surprisingly) nice.
And yes, Jessica alba's fucking hell hot.
After the show we went to meet Alyssa woo-hoo.
EV'RYONE! ALYSSA IS NOT BOTHERED BY THE WOOHOO SHIT.(:
ALYSSA IS LIKE A CLOUD , SHE ABSORBS EV'RYTHING
AND RAINS IT DOWN ON OTHERS.
(yes , without a doubt , alyssa IS hillarious)
ANYWAY , as I was saying , We met up with her
Then we went to topshop and checked out the stuff there
Gosh , the jackets are gorgelicious.
I'm going to try to get my momma to try to spill some cash for me.
We all tried on stuff like you know , In the movies
where all the bims would dress up
and pose around.yes , that's what I'm talkin about.
After we went to far east.
It was really fun.I'm so happy when I'm around them
Went home after that with estreee and lee-yah.
Saw two really hot dudes obsessed with girls cleavages.
But nonetheless , they ARE hot.
but looked andro , HOW GIVES A SHIT ANYWAY
It was fun hearing alyssa talk about her obsession
with the 'Itchy' sign.
Singing away and all the fat momma jokes.
It was crazy.But fun! alyssa IS adorable
After that, met up with Zoe and Vikki my baby at cafe cartel(:
Went to shop at FOX, Vikki spent at least 70 dollars today. Oh my god.
Anyway, she got herself new 3 quats, 2 new shirts and Rach her birthday present.
Anyway, Bird did not receive her sms which said to meet us at bishan, so she asked her " Are you there? " And she said ' Yes ' well, that's cause she thought she was asking if we was at Bishan.
Anyway, she took a cab down and got quite upset when she realised we were still at freaking Bishan.
So Vikki and I rushed down to grapevine.
On our way she messaged us " Hey, don't come down, after I eat I'll leave. "
But We said we were on our way down, well in the end R went to meet her. ( Vikki doesnt know if she called R to meet her earlier on or R just decided to go. )
So we reached Grapevine, and guess what, Bird was no where to be found.
So Vikki rang her and she said she was at R's place ( either that or walking her home, but you get what I mean. )
Frankly speaking, Vikki got quite ticked off. Well firstly, we rushed all the way down just to meet her cause she was all alone ( It was my fault, I know. That she did not get the freaking sms. And it was only polite to acompany lonely Bird ). In the end, we took a cab down only to realise she's not there. On top of that we were broke, so that means, no money to even SIT AND EAT.
So yeah, but you know, Bird's such a darling.
(: So Vikki was probably angry for only 2 seconds. :))
Yeah, so we walked to Lizard's house to pay her a visit.
Moo-rese " Maybe we should just ring her door bell and maybe she'll come out in her Spag top "
Vikki " HAHAHAHA. Maybee. "
( On the phone with Lizard )
Vikki " Come down now "
Lizard " Eh wait I change into my tee shirt first. "
What the hell leh!
Well, she came down whining about CSI. Saying that we're disrupting her show, but you know what, we're much more important then some dumb fictional investigation show yes?
Yes good, agree.
Talked for an hour, and then her mom called her to go home.
It was actually really fun talking to her. And I've realised that the playground's floor near her house looks like a giant dick.
Okay random but whatever.
Vikki's mother asked me to go home at 1030, but she reached hom at 1145.
whereas I reached home at 12?
Vikki and I spent 11-1130 lying on the floor, sniffing her sour socks, while listening to my ipod mini. (: Quite fun with exception of the sour socks.
After that walked home.
Heres a random thought that Vikki and I were talking about today:
Why do people think Sex is disgusting, I dont get it. Isn't it the most normal and pleasurable thing on earth, how can one say sex is gross, when yet they've not experienced it. ( I have not have sex, so yeah. But I dont find it gross ).
Tanny is a very sexual person.
She's like so corrupted or something.

Guess what, Jill loves her. (:
hahahhah I don't know why I copied that for.

G'night folks.

Tomorrow's the last paper and It's not important.
I can't believe it!The holidays are almost here.I feel on
top of the world!!
There are so many things to look foward to.
That'll talk about later.
Need to go to the doctor with UH-LEASH-SHA (=

PARTY EV'RYONE.
Jill's the organiser(don't really know her , but I'm doing this for vick)
For the underage
Chinablack
24th November
Presale ticks 12
Door ticks 15
Non alcoholic
Its an after prom for some schs
call Vick at 93383450 if you want to buy

Yes , how photography never seizes to amaze me.

Someone who threw me life away.

It's just a thought only a thought.

Yes , A picture paints a thousand words.And now , my only choice in life is the go forward.Pretend that nothing in the past still hurts me affects me in other ways.Yes the changes happen In an not so obvious way , but that doesn't mean there ain't a change.I wanna hold on to you and never let go , no matter how cliche it sounds , I don't really give a shit.The other night I wanted to call you and tell you ev'rything that has happened but I didn't cause I don't want to make things any worse.It so happens I use to vomit these words.not vomit as in literally ,fuck I think you know what I mean.If I had things my way , I would turn the clock and stop myself from telling you.Telling you how beautiful you are.Stop me from my crazy hopes and shit of dreams.But If I really turned the clock then I wouldn't have matured in ways.IN WAYS!! HAHAHA cause I know how ev'ryone will start debating about my maturity.I am matured but I think lifes more fun being young acting my age or even younger.Well , destiny has decided that I should turn away from you and I wished things wouldn't have to end this way.

Did I mention that I really loved you?

Bang Bang this shot me down.

I screwed my math paper today.It was horrible and I couldn't help but laugh at Mary(azilah).She looks weird and to top it off she tied up her hair into pigtails yes , what the fuck.Went to study at the cafe again today.Yes , I really DID study.I even managed to study a few chapters.bottomline is , My life is starting to sound boring.Sounds so last year.I can't wait to hang out with the rest again. friggin su , she's using my happy pill and I'm the spoilt brat that doesn't want to share my bag of sweets.damn I'm bored.

I danced along the sidewalks.

Now and then I ask myself, why do I keep on making the same mistakes. Why have I become that bitter pill in the box of sweets. I spill my heart for you over and over again like a stupid moronic fool. It's hard to comprehend my on going chain of blue funk. So many thoughts so little time and I've got a math paper on my list of things to do. Oh how we use to talk to each other like we've known each other forever. Time flies by and It's been more then a year and half. I must say I'm 15 now and if you're reading this, which is prolly one out of a thousand, chances that you would be, I just want to let you know what an asshole you truly are. OK OK, you are not fully to be blamed. In fact, I can only blame my presumptuous self for being so stupid and making myself believe that somehow someday, you'll know how I feel. Just to let you know, you’re not making this easy.

The only time we ever talked in this month of October : In My Dreams

Yes It's a Sunday Morning And I'm really bored.


Last person you chatted with on the phone?
Phoebe

The last thing eaten?
Some shit that I don't know what It's called

Last person that you went out shopping with?
Alicia and Jenny

Last present(s) that you received?
My Birthday Present from my Grandma?

Last website?
Friendster

Person(s) you saw?
Mum

Last call you received?
Gwen

Last thought?
This quiz is fuckin boring.HEY THE VIRGIN SUICIDES HAS FINISHED DOWNLOADING!

Last time felt so happy?
My birthday?

Last time you saw your grandma ?
Friday

Last fight?
Maybe last week?

Last electronic device used?
'sides this , the tv

Last movie watched?
you got served or I love huckabees

Who's on your mind right now?
I don't know can't really tell , either phoebe cause I wanna go shopping and studying or nobody in particular.

Where do you really wanna go to?
Shopping and studying so , prolly the mall.

Which one do you prefer..msn or ym?
MSN.

Who do you miss?
right now , nobody

Where do you usually go shopping?
town but I'd love to try bugis.

Who cleans your room?
ME , I was made to just yesterday =./

What are you feeling right now?
Bored itchy and icky.

Ever thought of dyin?
Yes.quite often actually.

Who are your enemies?
I don't like to use the term enemies cause it sounds childish but , delicia.

Do you love your friends?
ARE YOU KIDDING ME.WHAT KIND OF MORONIC IDIOT WILL ASK THIS KIND OF A QUESTION. ISN'T THE ANSWER OBVIOUS , YES!! (=

Name 3 favourite things?
I'll get back to you on this one.

Who you think sucks in your school?
Delicia?

Msn who is the last who logged in?
My mother , Calista.

Favourite colour?
Red.

What are you doin now?
This shit.

Ok marisse , you have to go study now. ok marisse (=

Fizzo got Flo.

Engla's on Monday.But I'm doing ev'rything But studying right now.I'm listening to music.I'm listening to my mum sing opera.NO , she ain't a opera singer she's a Jazz singer infact.She sings Salsa Contemporary shit too.Bottomline , she sings anything but opera.But she has a sudden craze with opera songs not that she likes it.she find it rather amusing.Charlotte church.what's with opera.I just don't get that kind of music.I mean It's so easy to sing.I don't understand why people are willng to pay a fortune to sing easy shit.Anyway she's singing the shit cause she wants to sing it to her bandmates who'll prolly find it amusing.Dude , Even I find it amusing.What more them.Anyway , My heads so up in space right now with esther. we're already thinking about partying.partying , oh how I love partying.I can't wait for the last paper to end.Then Vick and I can go to bugis and run around at the water fountain shit thing.Anybody wanna join us?You're most welcomed to anyway.I can't wait for my english paper man.I really need to do well.I need to get higher then phoebe.damn I'm compettitive but I guess It's cause so many things have happened and I'm making up for my loses in simple small ways.Dude , I've lost my mind.

Mingle & Tingle.

Fang's birthday.Sorry , didn't upload all the pictures.

How lovely , A saturday afternoon all wasted in cleanin my room. I could've study , but no , My mum just had to force me to clean my bloody room which I was plannin on cleanin after the exams , really.Then how else can you explain the fact that I wanted to go to Ikea to get some shit for my room.Ahh Fuck it.Anyway Thank you Ev'ryone for my birthday.It was really special , not quite what I expected but it was s'wonderful.Thank you ev'ryone for the chocolata cake and the durian cake.Thank you oblivions , for breakin my bed.It was alot of fun.The pillow fight the dumb stuff we did.It'll be a shit that will be in my ass forever. =.).Yesterday I went to alicia's house again.It was alot of fun as usual.I just like being around her and celest they make me happy.I like being around people who keep me in my seventh heaven.I was sort of in blue funk yesterday , But the trip home to alicia's house cheered me up like crazy.Dinner was great too.I heart ISUZU and NTUC.(private joke).anyway as you can see , I have no mood for bloggin so ,cheerios!