SOME RANDOM SHOTS I TOOK TODAY WITH BRAINTICIA :)


my mum's collections of weirdo stuff from God knows where ,
Brainticia and I,
sign from bloomington from years ago,
my living room,
my snapple collection,
my window which I scribble my thoughts on
and last but not least , my damn disgusting wall :)

Let's just hope nothing happens


well well well , I woke up this morning finding that akira didn't come to wake me up and also to find that my mother's loud device called her mouth was yapping at me about the warrenty card to my brainticia( my new cam , I just had to name her)Anyway ,Mos sucked big time.It's one of those parties you go to and hope to die.Anyhows , I'm off to camp now! till then :)

I've always wanted to go running in the rain butt fucking naked =/ hah

how about it? I've come to a conclusion that I truly am crazy.( yes , marisse! you've finally come to realise that! that took you awfully long!) But I need to ask , sometimes just sometimes well for me most of the time but have you ever gone absolutely insane over someone's certain feature or character trait or whatever else works for you?Well I have.I've reccently come to know of this boy( yea , I can't believe it's a boy) with a brilliant mind.He's awesome and he's probably to die for which most girls consider already but that's not the point.The ways of a beautiful mind works volumes compared to beautiful eyes and he comes with looks tho it's like a bonus or something for whoever who falls for him.Anyway that's totally besides the point but this guy is driving me mad and I just want to crack his mind.People have never really interested me for a long perioud but he's different and the worse part is , I don't even know him.You know how it is that only once in a while people that will create an impact in your life pop by and they only stay for a short while.People like Vicky for example ,she's probably the most matured person I know in my circle of friends it's almost amazing but I've cracked her mind so it's getting kind of boring , no offence vicky I still love you anyhows.But trying to crack someone's mind can really make time fly which is totally awesome considering my age and how much time I have in my hand and travelling home from work during the 78923678627893 hour bus ride will be time well spent if i were cracking someone's mind hahaha ok , I sound delirious.Must be the lack of sleep or something.Anyway, I bought 2 topmen shirts today and two underweears and I finally made my ezilink card.
ok nowwwwww everyone say , awesome!

Paradise city is way too far honey

well , I just got home since yesterday.
Yea yea , what a rookie I am but I've got an excuse
I didn't stay out so late in the streets yesterday
We left clarke quay at 4 which isn't so bad
cause we usually wait for the first bus
and spasz around for a while
but pris had to get home early
so we crashed at the ah lian's place
but joey , mark and suriya(?) went home ahead
so it was just akira and I nothing new.
but chilled at the ah lian's place
and fell asleep.
Woke up a few times cause of phone calls
decided to switch it to silent mode
then we woke up 12 hours later
realizing stacy already left
and she didn't wake us up.
I've never rested so much in the whole month
and on the first day I slept like a dead log
haha anyway , I'm heading to town now.
so see you'll later :D

Meet Charlene ,

Well , it's been raining all afternoon today and it's awesome! cause I love rainy weathers not only is it cooling but It's a perfect time to feel low.But I don't have time for that right now cause I've got work at five! It's been sucking the life out of me.oh well , till then!

this isn't fair cause he penetrates me with his stare.

keeping up appearences.
Fooling my selfish heart.
You say you love me , don't do it again.
I'm so confused.
Please tell me what's happening.
I want her to read me.
The blazing mind of an apple pie.
I'm lost , I'm lost.
Fall so hard , I'll never be able to get up again.
Indecipherable words I scribble on my wall.
I want to stop pretending.
I might not be able to take it any longer.
You mean I'm supposet to leave my roots on this ground forever?
Why must I do so?
Vaguely familiar , I sold my soul to work yesterday.
Maybe I'm tired but I doubt so.
I'm so scared , help?

So quiet
Another wasted night
The television steals the conversation
Exhale
Another wasted breath
Again it goes unnoticed



it's days like this I wish I'd just dissapear into thin air
run away from the world into the middle of nowhere
as the pages of this book flips and flips
another chapter of your book begins.
sometimes something happy would be nice
people get sick of being nice
sometimes I think what's the use when I get nothing in return
ok the warmth and smiles really nice but really , It just lasts
for a moment or two.Hoping wishing dreaming that someone would
do the same but it never happens and it feels so lame
I will not conform to the trends of the society.
trend whores , trend whores you wreck the minds of the beautiful
you spill your beans to the rest of your junkies
and take away the beauty of being unique.
love's a decision , love's a bitch
love's the big boss sitting and shaking his legs at the top of
the building while we all move like slave to accomodate with it
it's a pain in this , low paying job
and pay raise happiness never last for long.
so we quit and find new jobs , if you know what I mean.
oh well enough said , work was tiresome.
tomorrow's going to be another day ahead :)



hello! good evening and welcome to fish&co , my name is marisse and I will be serving you today.

I'm just a phone call away , I say over and over again.

Hello dearies , Today was my first day of work at fish & co at suntec city.All of you are most welcome to pop by and say hi to me cause it'll probably make my day since you know work's all about the pressure , pressure brings pleasure I suppose.hah.And thank you to those who came down to see me work.hah.Feels like I'm some sort of rare speciment and was never meant to work or something.But work was pretty much awesome.Everyone there was extremely nice and I have a dyke manager how awesome is that?I'm so dead now , I can barely think.Maybe it's the 5 hours Akira took from me for talking on the phone not saying it wasn't enjoyable , of course it was.that's why i stayed on the line.I need sleep as you can see , I've been pretty much dreaming of sleep.I have work tomorrow again from 5/6 to closing another day ripped away from me cause of money and no friends.friday's going to be extremely tiring.I want to sleep in , help?While working as the greeter of the retaurant I had to smile like 24/7 which was seriously a pain in the ass , since I'm burning like the sun on the insides.But It actually feels good when people smile back.It actually makes my day.It's the simple things that goes really far if you realise.Oh well , I can't wait for june , more flexibility.Ok , gotta run and catch up on some beauty sleep , love! :)


I'm missing out on so many things , please don't forget me.

I'm fooling my selfish heart and going through the emotions like how the wind blows.


hello world on my penis just that I don't have one dot com.hello bloody faggots who read my blog and judge me and don't understand me.pardon me , I'm just busy getting depressed and acting like I'm part of the non-conforming crowd.Why does it always have to rain on me?Life is fucking yo-yo.I fucked twisted cannot be unwind even with kerosene lousy brand from the mama shop yo-yo.I listen to loser rock , wanna be my friend?And I've been dying to reach out to all of you.How has your day been everybody?I had a great day today , I played block catching after dinner with Akira , Mark , Siewhwee and Pris :)



cause the world's gonna want to turn you into everyone else.


XOXO

ok , I've finally absorbed the fact that you're gone.

bye bye beautiful.today someone who connected with me before died.he's my mother's band mate and I haven't really spoke to him in awhile but you know how some people just affect your life in a way even if its so subtle that you don't really notice that it's even there and when the person is gone you realise , hey! you've affected my life and I want to thank you for that but , he's gone.Sometimes We all wonder , why can't God just take to bad guys away why does he always have to take the good ones.but soon you realise that their time on earth is over.They've done their part to affect you life and they never really die because they still are very much alive in our minds be it vaguely , subconciously or vividly.But there's also the why God why?! what about me?I'm suffering so badly without him and that just goes to show how your suicide/death will kill alot of people emotionally so why make the ones around you suffer.akira , don't kill yourself.this summer is going to bleed my heart dry and I know it.I'm going to be emotionally ready for it and I can't believe I'm lying through my teeth again.It's going to kill me.I want you to lead me on.Please don't go stay , please?things like death & love will never change.Once its done it'll forever be there in our hearts like I've said , vaguely , subconciously or vividly.And Death & love a like , they're unpredictable.There goes another eye-lash wish dedication going to you.I feel like I've known you all my life.If we talk , we'd probably talk all night about the rest of our lives and when you're down I'll never leave.Please don't let me crumble on my kitchen floor , cry and realise that you were never meant for me , please?


and there's another guardian angel watching over us.

HELLO I'M FROM BOOB WONDERLAND! :D

THREE AMAZINGLY ABNORMALLY RETARDED BUT INTERESTING BLOGS I'VE READ TODAY :

V ; simply retarded

Michelle ; the american life to be.

Zoe ; Pangsai at Longkang :)


I'm falling for what is wrong and will never be meant for me.



Could you be my answer
Could you tell me that I am
The perfect one for you
You're the perfect one for me

Could you be too faithful
Could you show me anymore
It's the perfect thing to do
It's the perfect thing for me

On and on I see you
The life that comes together
To see that we're forever
On and on I see you
The times we've spent together
The times that last forever

And now we will find our way
It's the way that we'll find this day
And I know you belong to me

Could you lead me on?

the photo's not awesome but it's worth the memory :)
power rangers here to save the day before bed time.
happy gaypride/pangsai day!



we will , we will , gay you like a man whore
never let you say no more
we will , we will , gay you like a drag queen
pierce your nipple with a pin
wear a strap on do the swing!


THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME HAPPY!

saturday was awesome , time well spent with my friends.
as always I'd mention the people I hung out with
and they are V , Ah lian , Akira , Zoe ,
Mark , Joey , Sexy(R) , Chunky(Ju) , Nana , Jacky
and hell lot of other people at eme's party
I had a hell of a time dudes! thank you guys for that.
Thank you Akira and Mark for spending 3 consequtive days
with Me and yes , I know I'm a pain in the ass.
so thank you for putting up with me and my stunts.
it has been 3 crazy awesome days and you know what!
I still have 2 papers! ahahahah someone slap me please?!
first it was the throwing of wax which we got from the
nativity church.well , Akira , Mark , Siewhwee and I
got some dried wax from the churches' prayer thing
and we went on the overhead bridge and threw it at cars
that drove pass.I'm sorry If you happen to pass there.
You know boys will be boys yes , I'm not a girl.
well , that's in akira's and mark's world.
anyway , I had an awesome time.
then it went on to the next day at pangsai party
which was suppose to be at the maple park longkang
but shifted to emo's house.
and everyone looked well downright , replusive.
but it was sweet! hahaha anyway , then sexy , baby biggay,
chunky , Zoeee the angel and I went on to have our
gay pride at town in our crazy outfits.
yea , us and our crazy antics.
we even came up with our own anthem for our gay pride! :D
I had an awesome time and I went for the vertical rush gig
at the esplanade with Baby Biggay(V) , Zoe the angel , Ah lian ,
Akira , Mark , Joey and some guy.Awesome shit!
I like the song angels by vertical rush.
Ok , I should stop getting emo , it's tiring.
Jesus , Send me someone to save me from my misery.


Wounded angels still smile and these roots will never leave the ground.

Meet Tony Ward , He's Awesome!

[edited]

In need of someone to pull me off the computer seat.Marisse Caine has been seating infront of the computer for nearly six hours I guess it's true , I'm a computer addict and a photography whore. haha , I photoshopped for about two hours straight then I went on to watching one tree hill haha yes , yet another thing to get addicted to g*d Marisse , what the fuck is wrong with your brains are they running around? Anyway , Sometimes I wonder if people actually read my stuff or they just come here to view my work and other people's work of course.I've got to give credit to all the awesome photographers out there.It doesn't really matter cause It's flattering both ways.So here's what has been going down with me.


Friends;

Due to the current exams (well , it's sort of over for me cause it's just practical) I've been neglecting some of my friends and I haven't really been deep talking with anybody and getting to know how the other person's feeling anyway , It's about time I started hanging out with V and the rest again and probably re-connect old friendships since june's just two or three weeks away like how I'll be going out with Hollx , Jas and a few others.I also want to make new friends I mean cause every holiday calls for new 'adventures'.I mean really ,when I was sec one I hung out with my basketball friends and the netballers and then it went on to sec two when I hung out with stacy ( yes , and had my ah lian phase ) and phoebs and then it went on to being sec three and that's when I hung out with V and the rest and then on to Akira and the rest and it's all just a big bunch of friend connectivity haha.whatever sometimes its so complex I can't be bothered to think well ,not that I'm a bimbo or anything it's cause I just really can't give a flying fuck.Maybe I have a sense of fear of what I'll be doing this summer but nonetheless , I'm looking forward to it and not to mention I'm going out with liying too :) someone I've never hung out with in my life haha.


Family;


I've been hanging out alot lately with my mum and now with her extra spice of lunar rhythms , she is pissing me off daily.So I think I would like to stay away from her for awhile and well , the fucker man finally emailed me after four months of being away since his last visit but he says he's becoming stable well , its about time.and the grandparents , their awesome as usual but a little exhausted cause of the little bugger Leon he's been quite the pain although of course there's a kick to it I mean babies , their God's gift and of course christbel's growing up and the rest of the family's doing fine.I just need to spend a little more time with them :D


Religon;

I'm catholic christian and I've been attending church religously.haha what's more to say? And yes , I've already mentioned in my past entry that I'm going for a mission trip on the 3rd to 5th of June.Well , I hope nothing much changes when I come back cause well , I don't want to miss a thing.


last but definately not the least..

Myself;

Haha ok , as you can see I'm quite the bomb in my own world haha I mean if you know me personally.but whatever , everyone's a narcissit sometimes.Gosh I haven't used that word in awhile haven't I.I used to use it all the name with phoebe when we were like sec two or smth? haha Ohhh , those were the days.My love life has been rather stagnent cause you know everyone's getting involved nobody very appealing to me that's single and available and even If they appeal enough I probably won't appeal to them since I'm a disgusting piece of lard haha. My grades have been improving surprisinly.I've made new friends.My hair grew and tummy grews as well and I haven't had my period in awhile.Haha ok that information was unnessacery and obscene haha but you know , whatever works for me. Yes , I will be going to the stupid MOS party cause I want to let loose and dance but of course there's the 4000 over people are going factor which actually stinks cause I don't want to have a 30 cm to 30 cm dance floor if you know what I mean.Anyway enough about myself I'm over estimating my self-importance again as usual.Ohhh deaaarr , I feel accomplished now.




It's been awhile , call me for coffee. Please ?

what you guys look foward to:






here's another weather dedicated to the anthem of our dying lives.


make this right , as fast i can


during our mother tongue exam today there was a fucking bee flying around the exam hall and it go everyone freaked out and well , we started seeking shelter under our tables which was fucktarded anyway , then it got me thinking about this one time when i took photo of a this almost exact same bee and I got really close to it not feeling a sense of fear from the little prick.so here's the thing how am I able to stand so near to the damn thing and hide under the table when its flying when its the exact same thing.well ,this is just random but maybe its cause there was a sense of security coming for the bee.and thats what we all are looking for.the exit , namely a sense of security be it coming from a person or a thing or a talent and talent meaning so that you have a identity and that's what everyone is striving for.but you know , having a constant identity is pretty tiring well , that's my opinion.so I have this disorder called the ' i wanna be different from the whole g*d-damned world' syndrome. ok , i'm speechless with myself.


sins will happen , go figure.

you threw the purple on the floor and my heart fell.
no doubt , pain is love.



so here's the deal , there's this blood related person called mum
who brings you here and up in this well , pretty complexed fucked up
full of shit son of a gun it's the end of the world i hate myself and
want to die and maybe do a few good deeds so i can get vip passes to
heaven cause God must hate me for knowing me painful life.
and then at an exam that you were obviously not ready for cause of the
tremendous amount of pressure and physical abuse and verbal dirrohea your
so called mum is throwing up in your face.well , don't get me wrong its
not that she ain't cool or anything like that but she's just well , a S.O.B.
anyway ,so at this exam you freaking screw up and end up having to go to a
well extremely lousy stream and end up giving up at the first year cause of
well being rejected in the end when you thought hey why not try and make the
best out of the situation but no , you had to get rejected didn't you
well , cause I'm never good enough for anything.So this time round , you're
already secondary 4 and you have a chance to take the right path.so don't screw
it.so it sums up to this marisse , don't fucking screw up you bitch.
anyway , sins will happen. so it all comes down to this , you stay at home
your mind bitches well , not exactly bitches more like fucks with you(figure of speech).Sometimes I'd rather chill at the sunny beach with the shady people.If you know what I mean.ok this is a follow up to alyssa's blog , yes alot of people are becoming 'artistic'.Ok , if you really like photography and all that shit.Do it and mean it not like its just another trend.because its not a trend its a fucking sickness.Being able to look at something or someone and knowing which angle it will look beautiful in.ok whatever let's not get deep here.


note to self: no one wants to hear you complain and I'm sick of you talking about yourself you self-absorbed bitch.

hokay , time to shave my legs now , till then!

extinguished;


my friday was awesome!
first the lunch with mrs goh and ms chan
and then the retardation excursion with
Akira Ahlian Mark and Aunt Camel :)
this kinda fun happens once in a while
but I hope it'll happen again soon.
My saturday was terribly boring.
but you know whatever works for him!


sundays sundays , here I come! :)

I choke back each tear and bleed.

There is a tide in the affairs of men
Which takes out the flood
leads on to fortune
but who made the voyage of their lives are bound to shallows and miseries
and such a fall see every now a float
and we must take the crime when it serves
or lose the ventures before us


DOES ANYONE HAVE ONE TREE HILL? =/

29th , my lips will be of service

I made a bet with my friend that I will not talk to him for a month
well , everything is going smoothly , that's if I screw up.
Which I doubt for I am capable of doing anything If I put my mind
and soul into it well , at least that's what the counselor said.
haha no , I'm not mentally retarded or disturbed.
I just get into a lot of trouble for a hundred and one reasons
I feel like lizard sometimes , a fugitive
It might feel like shit some days but I know leaving this school
would be one of the last things I wanna do
cause of the people and being able to get away easily with the
crazy shit ass stunts I pull in school daily.
anyway , school started out pretty shitty and my eyes were painful
looking at Ms kok(no pun intended) and my head felt like a mine field
but I rest at the sick bay for about 4 hours talked to lying , S and J
and the sick bay for awhile before falling into deep slumber
even the sounds coming from PAP couldn't wake me up
I had a sick dream , It was pretty weird , not worth revealing here tho:)
I came home and slept again and had tennis and now , I'm here
you know how sometimes you realise that n.e.r.d?
well , I got this from listening to the radio
that the band's name actually stands for no one ever really dies.
ok , I know I'm slow and all but no need for rubbing in here! haha
Its pretty cool when you think about it.
I mean you may pass away but a part of you has always affected someone
else's life which to me is , pretty cool shit :)
anyway I'm going for a mission trip from the 3-5 of june
and I guess I'm pretty excited cause I get to spend time with some
orphan kids and yes , I really really love kids.
I'm even planning on not marrying and adopt 2 kids
one from spain and one from cambodia hahaha.
ok , I'm getting brain dead.
till then! :)



that's all that matters pretty pretty