yesterday went for MrS tnG'swedding.u looked b-e-autiful.but so chor lorcan?!haha.but cant help it she is after all a P.E. teacher.haha.had fun there.but the pastor was so long winded can.just like mrs lee.haha.-whatever-ms ng's hubby ears are really big.haha.i mean they are huge!but i think they go really sweet together.ms ng looked so nerdy den during sec. skool.so sweet can?!they've been togeda for soooo long.haha.oh eah forgot to say someting ms ng..can u...just..GROW UP!!!haha.what are the two me to you bears doing in the front of the damn car?!haha.




after that..


abi,siew,wen,si and i went to the beach.so fun we pick up seashells.i was looking out for high tides.there was once i said high tides and i stood the what a complete idoit of me.then the water went up my skirt.haha.so sick can!?.i found this seashell that looked like a shark tooth.so cool right?!hah.-whatever-


later on..

si hui's dad dropped me,siew n wen at heartland mall we ate dinner there at KFC.den we walked aroung heartland now nicer cuz got print club.shOoOO nicE.haha.can take neo's there from now on..


finally..

I went to jas house..to give siew ting a present cuz she is finnally 1 month old.soOo cuTE!!haha.den we went central to get her bandage but in the end the pharmacy was closed so went to the cc..played untill 10 plus..haha..jiaxin tio lor.cuz she so dua bai..haiyaz..lee chin lar. so stewpid!!help her tio cuz the guy tio her.but actually is her fault cuz she keep on suaning him.of couse he tio lar.she hac to stop acting duA!!ha.anywaez.i watched -paycheck- with my momma.very nice.anywayz.later on i went to my granny's place.yea.haha.den sleep lor.


this morning...

i woke up with a splitting head ache.woosh.missed ballet.i hate it.no it.the teacher.haha.-whatever-now nth to do.i think i am going gwenn's housey.yeaP.buhbyE~

well this is my life..

When i was P5..
I had my first crush
I started doing badly
I started pontanging
I drew anime
I joined floorball[untill they closed it down]
I did many things.*crap

When i was p6..
I had my first boyfriend
I joined badminton
I joined choir*haHA
I still drew anime
I din noe my prilimes were here.
I started playing bball

when i was sec 1
I cut my hair!!*cRy
I joined netball
I became even more into bball
I started cutting my hand
I admire/crush a girl
I became so tanned
I became so wild
I drank vodka
I got 3rd in class

NOw that i am sec 2
I am A bbAll wacchO in my skOOl
I stopped cutting my hand
I told *him i liked him
I got rejected
I cut my hand again
I became so so wild
I almost smoked[but i was really depressed den.]
I dropped in my studies

yesterday..

I answered back to a teacher
I got lectured by the Dm
I got suan by lizard again
I cried cuz i was just sad
I slept at 9 [veri early liaoX]

today..

I went out with stacy
I took picX wif a cigg.[hah.not lighted lar]
I went to the gym
I scolded Mr. thomsan
I had morning training
I had fun

tomorrow..

I am gonna buy Ms ng wedding gift.
I am leaving this empty cuz god has plnned my path


10 things about me

1.I am still hurt by *u
2.I Love basketball
3.I hate backstabbers
4.I love hagging out with my friends
5.I love my kor[tric]-i want hurt to heal from her pain
6.I love my jiemeix
7.I am really a jack of all trades
8.I lurvee pink
9.I sing alot
10.This i will leave blank..cuz i am always changing*





Dear *u..

I noe u want me to leave u alone.but i just cant because i really like u.I am hurting really bad.I cry wen i think of u.This is the first time i've been hurt so badly.untill it is till the extreme.If only you'de give me a chance.i get nervous wen i am around u.thats how much i like u.i want u to leave me alone.get out of my thought.my dreams.my everything.i noe i sound like some thick-headed bimbo.but i'm not.deep down inside.i keep all my feelings bottled up.i need to let go of it.till den.u must be tired cuz u r always running through my mind.*miss u







[* ╬ whatever ╬ *]

I'm havin lessons now in the IT lab.Its geTTinG boriNg anD colD buT heY at leasT it beaTS stayIng in THe blOoDy hOt sUn.haHAz..aniwaez.at least i get to use the com.aniwaez.the past few weeks have been so happening manxXx..staCy osO lefT her ciGGs. wiF maUII.alMOst got mE kiLLEd caN?!hahA.aniwaez.just finish the meet-the-parents session thingie.hah.i was practically giving mr. thomsan attitude lor.hah.he ask me wht i hate DNT then said cuz i hate the teachers..hahah.den he ask me whats my biggest problem then i wanted to say him.but the DM just walked past so i din.haha.aniwaez i dropped 9 positions down man.so sad..i was actually 3rd can?!haiyaz..aniwaez i gtg now teacher cuming.bye²

waoH todaY waS reaLLy weiRd.haHA.likE this daMn Vp oF daMn asS loR.haHA.shE madE stand ouTsidE thE offiCe for lIke 2 whole damN houRs.i cried.haha cuz.i was really hot.the day be4 i cried cuz i was really bored.haha.haiyaz.it was a long story aniwaez.after skool we went to eat at the primary skool.the food was nice.yea.after that went to phoeb's place to get her change so that we can go mac.kanna caught fer vandalising mahx.den after that we went to my house.so i can get change.after that went went to mac da playgroung to erase the marks.i went there and the playground damn cool.so messy.i think is YT,adora,janice and angela do one.haiyaz.what the heck so we just help out since we also vandalised abit.hah.after that i recived a call from the chars.we went for dickson's bbq party i think it was his b-dae.yea.but he left early with his fwens to catch a movie.asshole.hah.aniwaez.weplayed ball with freddy and some other guys.aniwaez. i just came back lor.kinda tired so shall go sleep now

my exams ended last week.i cant believe we celebrated in mac.so lc lor.OMG!went there with yuan ting,phoebe,stacy and siew hwee.i think cuz yuan ting wanna go see frank lor.haha.****!haiyaz,,she steal serene phone lor...she is damn fake can..haha..i like this song called a thousand miles.so nice..its so me..no actually i dunno me..sometimes i can be this bitchy bitch..sometimes.. i can get so emotional..haha..sometimes...ican be this sweet sweet innocent angel..sometimes..i can be this punk rock chick wannabe..sometimes..i can be normal average kid next door girl..yea..haha..aniwaez..after mac we coundnt take the bordem we went to town and we took multiple neoprints..haha..ok fine whatever..u noe today i cired in class cuz i was dying of bordem..haha..i was late fer skool today and got caught for my uniform..haiyaz..so suii lor..haha..whatever its spelt as..haha..another day then type sumore kinda busy now..

yEePeE!~tommorow is the last exam!!!but it is chinese and i totally suck in that o-k.*arGh* HAhaHA~ i wont give a damn anymore after that..haha..it would be totally 24/7 partying..*i hoPe*..i've been studying so much lately plus i go mac study haha but veri distracting plus the phoebe + cockroach haha..some pple would noe what i mean..haha i promised phoebe i wont tell anyone liaox..haha..aniwaez..siew hwee is a freaking pig can she pang seh me phoebe priscilla 3 times liaox sleep lar sleep sumore i poke ur eyes ah!hahHAHa..aniwaez..i gtg type another dae..


leaVin mOrErIcE [*whatEveR*]

i said this once and i am going to repeat it again i have 'A TOTAL LOST OF FREEDOM' i've been studying since 12 noon lor..tired...haiz..i think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed..so much bad luck i missed the match of nets against lakers!!ahHH!!suii arhxx..aniwaez...yesterday was so fun i mean it was crappy yesterday..haha..i lost my wallet!aniwaez..i still have feelings for him but i dun have a crush on him..actually it is pretty normal cuz..considering how long i had a crush on him..aniwaez..i think i am going to shave bald..cuz i cut my hair again i totally destroyed it..ahhh!!*sniff*..so shauii wan..aniwaez i have to go oreadi..i destroyed my life..BahahHAh..-.-'

sO tired just finish watching the playoffs miami heats against vs the pacers.morning still got the nets against ??? well i forgot..haha..tipsy..anyway... well i've been hardworking for the past few days..istudied alot well it paid of well i got 97/100 for my term two maths results..yeppEE!~hahaHHAA..but i almost flunked science cuz mr thomson flunk us all on our project lor we all forgot lor..becuz forgot lor hahahahhHAhaha!~anywayz..listening to roses by outkast..its nice ok..not it is not nice it is b-e-a-utiful..hahaha..so sian..oh yea i din say something...PACERS A.K.A. Indianna's won!!!yAy!!~87-93..i noe not veri good but it was a tough match them ok!!!must be understanding..aniwae...today was fun lor..we went to p.s. to study..thenqian zi say wanna see cafe cartel the food lar..as in the prices..wen we got there i straight away ran in and totally forgot about the prices thing..because of the chairs they were like sofas hahah..wen we got in i was like WHAT!!!!one plate 10.90!!!*jaw to the floor tongue rolls out like red carpet*haha..aniwaez i lost my wallet and my new ezilink card!!how i din tell my stewpid mum aniwaez i gtg now..

well today was pretty messed up.well.haha.this person called "me" tagged on my board saying to bugger of des.well i buggered off him a long time ago.haha.cuz i totally gave up.i mean i cannot wait for him all my life rite?there are many fishes in the sea anyway.though i was really crazy over him till the extent that it got scary.haha.like cutting my hand and stuff like that.aniwaez..i watched this concert last night and it was so cool.the drummer is gawd gawd cool ok.hahaah..the thing that SHE i mean she is a girl drummer plus she is really strong..can play very very very very very very well.BAhahHAa.shela e. she's spanish like thats cool.cuz i'm spanish too.hahahaa..aniwaez..u wanna noe go n look up on her then u will noe what i mean.hahahh..i am so bored right now i can probaly die of bordem.aniwaez i gtg now..blog another day..╬chillIn╬

i'm at home now getting fatter.haha.freakin pissed with everyone my dad my mum my friends except my grandparents.i cried just now why cuz i am being bitched arond by my friends like who i shall not name.i am angry sad pissed .i think one of these days i might just walk out on my mum.she is making me lose my friends and my dignity.I cant breathe easy these days.exams are around the corner.*stressed.i am also angry with my dad i have not seen him for 2 years 4 months 12 hours 30 mins 60 secs and it goes on very specific huh.yea tts how much i miss him.not as if i am forcing him to come back or something but i really want to see him.i am crying again just think of him makes me sad.sometimes i wish i could just die.why couldn't i be born in someone elses shoes?why?i wish i could just runaway with a 100 million dollars.start a new life.change my name to marissa or something.dad,i wish u could come back to mum.everytime mum says bad things about u i side with you.cuz i dunno hu is telling the truth u both tell me different sides of the story.i miss you.i still have mum but mum is different now she is always angry.my life is messed up.does true love exsit i dun think so cuz if it did someone out there should love me right?but i dun thnk anyone does.dad do u think of me sometimes?do u?does it make u sad?no i dun think so if not u would have came back long ago right?its always either cuz of work or food poisoning.come back please i wanna see you.grandma and grandpa are not exactly fit right now come back and see them.please come back soon.den i will be able to sleep well.when u come back can u stay longer.or stay forever.i.i can still remember how u left my n mum u guys were quarelling at night when i woke up in the morning u left me this felix the cat pillow on the sofa in our old house.i want u back in my life. miss you.god bless you always.*sad