i'm at home now getting fatter.haha.freakin pissed with everyone my dad my mum my friends except my grandparents.i cried just now why cuz i am being bitched arond by my friends like who i shall not name.i am angry sad pissed .i think one of these days i might just walk out on my mum.she is making me lose my friends and my dignity.I cant breathe easy these days.exams are around the corner.*stressed.i am also angry with my dad i have not seen him for 2 years 4 months 12 hours 30 mins 60 secs and it goes on very specific huh.yea tts how much i miss him.not as if i am forcing him to come back or something but i really want to see him.i am crying again just think of him makes me sad.sometimes i wish i could just die.why couldn't i be born in someone elses shoes?why?i wish i could just runaway with a 100 million dollars.start a new life.change my name to marissa or something.dad,i wish u could come back to mum.everytime mum says bad things about u i side with you.cuz i dunno hu is telling the truth u both tell me different sides of the story.i miss you.i still have mum but mum is different now she is always angry.my life is messed up.does true love exsit i dun think so cuz if it did someone out there should love me right?but i dun thnk anyone does.dad do u think of me sometimes?do u?does it make u sad?no i dun think so if not u would have came back long ago right?its always either cuz of work or food poisoning.come back please i wanna see you.grandma and grandpa are not exactly fit right now come back and see them.please come back soon.den i will be able to sleep well.when u come back can u stay longer.or stay forever.i.i can still remember how u left my n mum u guys were quarelling at night when i woke up in the morning u left me this felix the cat pillow on the sofa in our old house.i want u back in my life. miss you.god bless you always.*sad