heys `


went shopping with phoebe the other day.
bought loads of stuff spent a bomb.haha.
nxt day went to watch KFH with her n stacy.
ate at suki sushi.
TODAY.


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!~

hmms did nth much
went to town to stone
could hav done that at home.
damn.
went to cc for the dumb countdown.
but there were fireworks that was nice.
yeahhs.
kinda bored.
so gonna go.
-gone

my new year's resolution


*dont eat at macs.

*study harder.

*do more sports.

*insult less.

*lose weight

*stop hiao-ing too much

*eat enough

*slack less

*want less

*compliment pple more

*don't 'gush' too much

- heex.=))


PULAU BUKOM TRIP


it was alright.
yeah.
it was kinda fun
although the toilets were freaky
HAHA.
when we got there
i swam with HANNAH JEWEL TREEESSHHHHHHHAAAAAAAA
jeremy tiara and geneva.
from the names you can tell that
JEREMY WAS THE ONLY GUY!!!
AHAHAHAHA.
just for the record.
I HATE TITA MALU!!!.
mothafuckerish BITCH.
quit think i wanna eat would ya.
FUCK YOU.
anw. the pool was so fuckin deep.
jewel drop my shirt in
we had a hard time gettin it up.
but we eventually did anw.
thank GOD.=))
anw.am bac now.
so fucking tired.
HAHA.
gonna go sleep soon or smth. yeah.
` ya dig ?

-gone

CHRISTMAS DAY

yesterday was my uncle's wedding.
HAHA.i've got more relatives now.
HAHA.*crap.
anw.got loads of ang poh.
which means another shopping spree fer me.
HAHA.anw.


MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION.


1.criticise less.
2.eat enough.
3.be more active and enthu.
4.gossip less.
5.be less superficial.
6.get over you.
7.
SHIT
gtg
another day..
-gone

NETBALL OUTING.

day started out bad
but turned out fine.
went to beach at sentosa.
walked for ages looking for them
was so friggin pissed.
lucky saw jenny n siewhwee
Haha.
nvm.
anw.played volleyball.
was alright
so tired and worked up
yeah.
tmr.
-gone

heys `

SHOPPING.


went shoppin ` wit
phoebe su pris siew,etc.
HAHA.
went to town.
bought clothes
ALOT of clothes.
tw0 shoes.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
the hol` r alright so far.
tmr is genevas ` burfdae.
gonna hav fun.
anw.watched alot of movies too.
so bored.
gonna sleep.
-gone

CANT BREAK THROUGH.



YOU dont know ME and YOU NEVER WILL.


its not the rejection that hurts me most
its the fact that when I get to know you better
its really hard for me to break through
and the fact that you dont know me
and sadly,you never will.


people are superficial.
EVERYONE is.
so dont you fucking lie.
I'm BIG FAT and UGLY.
but hey do I care.
i'd be lying if i were to say no.
I hate me.
If anyone were to fall in love with me.
it would be a miracle.
I think i'm gonna be a spinster.

tsk.


-gone.

heys `

watch without a paddle
its real nice
gtg.
peace out.
hahas.


-gone

my ' so called ' week.


monday.

sec4 fourwell.


as i predicted.
i screwed up.
but i hope the seniors still enjoyed it.
can hear the sec 3s at the side
with those retarded remarks for example.
lizard :' R[a] ah.
HAHA.
anw.am i cranky?juniors said.
thanks fer bein' sucha cranky senior.
oh man ya guys broke my heart.
tt's gonna stick with me fer a long long time.
HAHA.just playin wit ya.
mum bought me USHER's CD.
i bet she's up to smth.
HAHA.




tuesday.

cant really remember though
HAHA.
i think i just stoned at home the whole day.



wenesday.



hannah slept over.
watched sing. idol
and..
WOOOHOOOO!!
taufik won as i predicted.
iiimmmmmmmmm phhhhyssiccccccc.
HAHA.
mum said to call two times
but i call twenty times
couldnt resist my temptations.
sinful am i.
well heck.
its fer taufik anw.
HAHA.
hannah n i were like sooo whacked.
HAHA.
i started callin pple n laughin at em'
fer callin fer sly.
its not tt i hate him
but i think taufik is hot
n of course not to forget.
versatile.
HAHA.



thursday.


HORROR.
i went for waxing n threadin
hannah said i look nice wit my new eyebrows.
but i look evil.
oh man.
HaHA.
i was soar tt day from the wax.
went to phoebe's house at 1.00am
HAHA.
did nth much.
but we kept laughin.
like retards.
her air con broke down.
it was steamin
but i forced myself to sleep
woke up at 8.12
went over to my house
to..
sleep
HAHA.
we took a cab to my house to sleep.
HAHA.
woke up at 1.00
HAHA.




friday.



when we woke up
we did the usual things
ya' noe
bathe eat.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
HAHA.
anw.
went over to cici's house wit jiaxin.
we played BOARD GAMES.
HAHA.
and card games too.
but surprisingly
i had fun
HAHA.
we coundt sleep.
its 0816 now.
but i still cant sleep so decided to blog.
so till then.
peace out.
-gone.

heys `
HAPPY BURFDAEE!!!
GRACE AND STACY!!
HAHA.
had loads of fun
with my partner in crime
*TADA*
phoebe
ok
i know
-______________-'' right?
HAHA.


grace's parteh______________


it was great
her house was great
pple were great.
the cake was great
it was just
GREAT!



stacy's parteh_______________

her animals were so cute
Oh mY gAWD
the cats the dogs the rabbit and chinchilla
sooooo cute.
but sadly there wasnt any cake
but at least it was fun
pple were fun too.



yeah im outta here.






-gone

back to yesterday.
TWOheartPOUNDINincidents
ok make that 3
MAN.this ain't workin fer me.
think i'm gonna die young.
HAHA
first offff
i saw PUG JELLY
in PS i'm sure of that.
then I HAD NO PAPER.
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT!!
HAHA
second of all.
i saw *you.
i totally made a fool of myself online
i mean what was i thinkin
saying that to you
GAAAWWWWD.i cannot be BORED.
phoebe just had to make it worst.
MAN.we can me the idiot sistas or smth.
HAHA
lastly.
ESMOND made me feel like some fool
mr-ASSmond.hahas.
felt like flushing his brains down the toiletbowl.
WELL.it WAS running around.
HAHA.
HATE YOUUUUUUU
HAHA


_______________________________________



TODAY


was alright i guess.
OH YEAH
HAHA
we hav this new club called.
the lil' borin old club.
OK
im just playin.
HAHA.
went to skool early to realise
NOT a single SOUL was to
BE FOUND.
HAHA
anw
so I decided to go to sihui's house to look fer her
when i was walkin there
i SPOTTED HER.
tough shit.
HAHA
anw.
had lunch wit sihui fangs lizard amirah n CARIN.
HAHA.
my personal PRIVATE joke.
HAHA
what spasm
anw
then we went back to skool to practice
then we went over to sarahs house to watch MOVIES.
hahas
dogdeball was great
HEY EVERYONE
it's BYOTCH not BIATCH
hahaha
watch mean girls fer the seventh time
sick.
hahas
OF IT ok? OF IT
hahas
gtg
peace out

gone_________________

heys `
TODAY is OFFICIALLY my
UNLUCKY DAY
with the capital U.
HAHA.
like WHADDAHELL.
gtg.
bye
another day.

just watched jersey girl
it was a great show.
i'm stonin ` at home today.
sooo bored.
gotta go to church later.
i'm so glad the netball dance thing is done
coulda died coulda died.
but nonetheless it was great.
yeap.the things we came up with.
are so Lame with a capital L.
oh man.i'm talkin` like im some bim.
hahas.anw.TAUFIK RAWKS!!
i'm sure he'll fine the whole damn thing.
hahahs.he has my FULL support.
hahahas.i compose a new song.
its called.umm.dear you.
its about this girl who just broke up.
with this guy.its nice. although it didnt` happen
ta me.but it doesnt matter.as long as it is nice.
right?RIGHT?hahas.whatever.
gtg.
*peace out.

heys `


JIA JUN


HUI FANG


LIZARD!



i can cook!!!


i just cook alfredo.



ahhas.





out-

Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, What's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus:
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
And she can't find her place
She's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh
She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh yeah





just love her.just love this song.
What great lyrics.

i've been kinda happy
for the past few days.
since the day i had fun
doing? NOTHING!!
haahas,anw.
deepavali.or however it spelt as.
SINCE i'm multi-racial.
I celebrate it too
i went to my grans.
had fun.
went fer sing. idol.
yesterday the netballers met up
we tot of some steps.
NICE steps of course.
not lousy boring stiff ones.
hahas. today?
hung out wif my old frens
from the neighbourhood.
had loads of fun.
hahas.
we put make up on
as in those like.
fake blood n all tt crap.
took photos it was simply.
FUN.
hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

lookin' back at the fun i had.hurrs.

milk n oreo.ain't they cute?hahas.but their gone.

[from right]:me,esther,alyssa
[below]:sherylene n sarah.
DO WE LOOK NICE OR WHAT!!

[from right]:zai,me and jas.
zai'a a princess.isnt she cool.hahas.long story.dont ask.

[from right]:me,esther,sarah,alyssa.

[on top]:me,stacy
[below]:serene n calista.
those were the days..hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

yesterday..
i went fer the sing. idol thing.
it was kinda fun.
queue so long my legs almost melted.
hahas.TAUFIK RAWKss!!
hahs. anw.dont feel like typing so much.

Had fun today.
doing NOTHING.
hahas.dont believe me?
ask fangs lizard n jun.
dont ask carin.
she's always doing something.
hahas.she's plain weird.
i asked her what sub she taking next year
she said.NOTHING.
hahas,RETARD!!
cause she heard it as THINKING.
dumbass.
hahas,dont blame her.
SHE'S JUST BORN THAT WAY.
poor gurl
anyway.woke up late.
AGAIN.
suppose to wake up at 9
cause suppose to me sihui they all
anw.i woke up at 11.
hahas.
but i still went anyway.
we thought of smth.
BUT ITS GONNA BE KEPT A SECRET.
hahas.
anw.the main team had training.
SO.sihui gave us the keys to her house.
we went to her house.
me,fangs,jun,lizard n carin.
we went there to do simply NOTHING.
hahas.anyway.
we EVENTUALLY got hungry.
hahas.so we decided to get a drink
we searched the kitchen fer like
HALF AN HOUR.
we found milo eggs tuna bread baked beans.
hahas.so we drank milo and cooked eggs.
no LIZARD COOKED EGGS.
hahas.she is really bad at it.
or maybe its just the lousy pan we used.
i cooked too.
it was doing fine.
till the pan caught fire.
hahahas.YEAH FIRE.YEAH THE PAN!!.
hahas.like how retarded is that.
to extinguish it
i quickly put it in the sink.
GUESS WHAT!!
the fire got bigger!!hahas.
when i was criticising lizard for her bad cookin
i said cannot cook when the pan is wet.
i go put water on the pan.
hahaas.how dumb of me!!!
hahahahas.this shows pride comes before a fall.
hahas.anw.after that.we went to hav dinner.
the rest had to go home.
so me fangs lizard
went together fer dinner.
we were talkin about the crazy pple in our skool.
hahas.n other stuff.
anw.it was so retarded.
anw.i gtg.
so.
till then..

to whoever that is reading my blog.

LIZARD IS a VERY BAD COOK!!!!

i've not been ballin' fer like
2 months.
Oh man..
i feel sooo sinful.
hahas.
my today was whacked manx.
hahas.
cause i PAAARRTTTEEHHEEDDDDDD!!!
hahas.ok it was a
class parteh.
key word *PARTEH.
but it was great.
hahas.
first off.
i came to skool wearing
filp flops.
hahas.
how dumb of me.
well.cause i just had to forget.
just when i saw
cumar.
i remembered
im not suppose to wear it.
hahas.
ass luck right?
BUT.
GOD saved me.
there was tt canteen thing there.
ya know
the one where we put our dishes in
i hid behind it.
*phew.
she didnt see me.
hahas.
THEN.
the vice-prefect or smth.
had to appear outta nowhere.
LUckily
there was a toilet next to me.
i ran in quick.
hahas.
talk about luck.
hahas.
anw,i walked through the canteen.
THEN.
i saw mrs lee talking to mrs tay bee kee
[ya noe,ollinda's neighbour]
at first
i didn't even know it was her.
i walked somewhat
across her from the canteen
then i realised it
WAS her.
hahas.
then i ran quick to the..
BASKETBALL COURT.*TADa~
then i cut across the grass area
near the D&T room.
and GUESS WHAT!!
IT WAS MUDDY!!
like.ewww.
hahas.
but anw.
at least i was safe.
hahas.
had fun at the parteh.
i kept dropping stuff.
hahas.
i even drop a whole lot of chickens
when i was like BBQ-ing.
hahas.
how retarded.
hahas.
anw.
the presentation thing
was like ok.
the skit.
OH MAN.
dont remind me.
COULDA died there.
hahas.
THE SINGING
sounds like will. hung
only a lil' better.
but it was overall.
alright.
rushed home to watch.
THE CHAMPIONS!!
hahas.
anw.
gtg.
SO.
till then.
*peace out.

i'm like sooo bored.
i'm cashless.
i'm so sad.
-out-

i hate you
i really do.
i dont know.
i'm



sad..
cause i know i'll never get you.


hurt..
cause i'm lost without you.


depressed..
cause i'm bleeding inside


devastated..
cause i love you like.



there's no tomorrow.


your my eye candy.
your the one
i know it
i just know it
its like were meant to be.
but do you care?
i doubt so.
i guess its no use
i'm screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do.
god must hate me.
maybe you should pray for me
im breaking down.
and there's no one there to save me
its scary everytime i think about it
what if i wake up one day regretting
every little thing i did fer you.
Fucking hell.i wanna freak out and let it go.


i'll be waiting here fer cause i dont wanna miss a thing.





perished n burned alive is what i actually feel inside.
i wanna say i'm here fer you.
no matter what u do.
livin life to the fullest.
is how things work fer you.
im bleedin deep down inside.
next time i'll be the one to say move aside.



-gone-

catching a fallin leaf can bring you good luck.
hahas..hmm..
i cant belive me n phoebe were so bim
to try to catch one for two hours!
anw.been swimming alot lately.
GOSH when did become such a beach bum!
hahas.anw.i got this bloody tan again.FUCK
now when i play hide n seek.
ican just lie on the damn road.
Got caught in the hall fer taking
like is tt a fucking crime now.
hello?!im human.fuck this shit.
anw,i was playin wit jiajun i wanted to see her wallet.
just for that..
i had to clean the whole hall.
with some other pple.
plus,i had to do it with pple i cant click with
i mean please their not even in my year.
incase yer wonderin they are.
lizard.jeanne.natalie.i think yolanda or smth.
anw.how fucked up is tt?
its not like i hate them or anthin
but i just dont know them well enough.
to you know.be RETARDED.
anw.went swimming again.
i swam 12 laps.
when i was in the water.
i kept imaginin things like.
how im gonna die.
n some other retarded stuff.
I feel so BLEEK.
i dont know I feel sad.
i dont know why i guess its cause
i havent tok to *you in like months.
i think im gonna die of my toxins.hahas.
im sad.confused.devastated.

heys `
lurvve my blog
yeapx.
love 1985.
anwww,
had training yeshterdae
webt home and slept the whole blardee day
till todae.
wahahas.
anw.
so bored.
cheryl, sulynn ,phoebe
are at my house now.
anww,
gtg entertain my guest.
*grinz* yea right..
write anader day.



-out-

its OFFICIAL today is GOD-MUST-HATE-ME day!!
it started in the morning with mum.
she sucks!hate her `
i had to get a dumb hair cut.
now i look like SUPER-NERD.
the superhero that saves nerds.
hehs.
anw,after tt.
i got caught fer my uniform
like hello?
i was gonna go up on stage.
DUH!?
of course i would cry.
its like the end of my social life.
haha.ok.i'm just being hysterical.
but anw.i was long high n tight.
I look like a walking fucktard.
like if i walk around pple will walk around n point at me n yell.
FFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKTTTTTAAAAAAARRRRRDDDDDDDDDD!!!
*crap.
anw gtg.
fuck this

OMG!!
am i dreaming?
did I,marisse.
actually go fer the alicia keys concert.
it was unbelivable.
her voice is fantastic.
Her vocal range is good.
she plays the piano well[the keyboard player too.]
OMG!
the concert was rockin.
altough i went wit my mum.
but her frens were great.
they were very very spunky
AND UNLIKE MY MUM
they like OUTKAST!.
hahahahaah.lOlx.
anw.im tired now.gonna go sleep.
see ya.

heys `
trying to sign up fer that dumb photobocket thingie.
damn.must sign up at 2.so fucked up.
anw.sulynn,cher and phoebe just left.
I'm rotting again.
I cant believe i wasted 3 bucks on tt damn show.
DAMN!shit show.SOUL.what a lame show.
Im not even freaked out.
Anw.Exams now.so easy.
Just abit nervous fer tmr.MATHS.mrs tng surely set until damn hard.
anw.diane more lil' gurl.all tt serene's fault.tt lil' biatch.
anw.I shall not butt in.hehs.wa lao.
tt mdm chong really really sucks lor.
I HATE HER!May she burn in her lipstick.hehs.
what i just said doesnt even make sense.haha.
Anw.Our Clique's name is right click.like..
WWWWHHHHAADDDDAAAHHHHEELLLLLL!?
haha.thanks to shalini.haha.LMAO.anw.
We are going out after the exams gonna watch
Art of the devil and whitechicks.they dun even mix.
haha.anw.So fucked up lor.damn the fucking exams.
haha.OH YEAH!!you know the song by simple plan!!
WELCOME TO MY LIFE?its like sooooo nice!!hehs.
its so matches me.listen to it.ANNNNIIWWWAAEEE`
i feel so fucked up without *you.YEA.i haven gotten over u
I'm breaking down.FUCKING HELL.and my mum.she's so stressin me
its not like she's takin the exams.fucktard.anw.at least ..
I'm going fer the alicia keys concert.YES.I'm proud of it.
I'M GOING FER THE ALICIA KEYS CONCERT!!
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!
my mums like so bugging me to learn singing from her.
she's crazy i tell u!she's yellin vulgar.like how?
how?am i suppose to sing with anger.
Hate her.
anw.im proud to say my voice has to grown.HEARD TT ESMOND?
.dotx.
oh yeah.WHY CANT I.Its a really nice song.sO devastatin'.well.wth.
hears the lyrics.


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

But this just the beginningWe're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about youI
t's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginningWe haven't fucked yet, but my head’s spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'Out of this that
we can't control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you




nice.yea.i know.anw.i gotta go.till then..




-out-

I lurvee ` my new blog.anw.gotta run.mums yellin`.cya.



-out-

my mums turning the extra room into a studio.*cool

I just quarreled with esmond.I hate him!I hate him!just because things r not going well with him n *someone.anw,things are ok now.My today was weird.Not a very good day either.had no mood to ball.so weird right?well,tt's the things work for me.haha.whAteveR.its been about 8 months since i told u i like *u.why does it have to be this way?why?i really like *u.love is a really strong word for me.I hate my life.i hated the NDP.I hate alot.do you know that?murder is said to be the most disgusting and unthinkable cause how could think about even doing right?well,have u ever thought what went through the murderer's mind...but here's another kind of murder thats far more fearful,far more harmful.and far more common than physical cold-blooded murder.ANGER.anger is far more terrible because many pple do not realize how evil it is.We see murder cases once in a while but pple get angry with each other all the time!how den can we be saved from the burnin' fires of hell?But need not despair God promises us his grace.Lucky me.haha.cause i get angry at pple all the time.i get angry with lizard n jenny..all the time..at least during training.i mean why must they bother me?i dont even talk to them tt much.Bitches.i dont even noe them their just my seniors?I get angry at myself.I mean nobody is perfect right?I'm definitely not.I'm not good enough for u.Your outta my leugue.do U actually even noe how much i like u.I cant seem to get over you.its been 8 months.like hello?tt's long maNxXx.I dont always have to do everything right.I wanna walk around with my hands up in the air like i dont care anymore.I wanna live my life different.I cant seem to let go.I wanna close my eyes.I wanna tune you out.But i cant.The more i think of u.i freak out.this sucks.but like i can do anything about it.I wanna stop crying my heart out.I dun wanna keep inside anymore.I wanna shout it all out.I dont wanna compromise.I hate love.It sucks.Arrgh.just like today.just can't.

love is troublesome

Dreams for sale and fairy tales.

i wear a mask of a thousand faces.but none of them are me.gonna let go n take it off.soon.........................

-out-

always treasure your love ones.read this story it made me cry.maybe i'm sensitive.but its really nice.

I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month for now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four year old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered family ate together at the table the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth his son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess."We must do something about Grandfather," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor."So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl the family glanced in his direction, sometimes he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone, the only words the family had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four year old watched it all in silence. One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor. He asked the child sweetly, "What are you making?"Just as sweetly, the boy responded, "Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and Mama to eat your food in when I grow up." The four year old smiled and went back to work. The words so struck the parents so that they were speechless. Then tears started to stream down their cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done evening the husband took Grandfather's hand and gently led him back to the family table. For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason neither husband or wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled or the tablecloth soiled a positive note, I've learned that no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life does goes on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person, by the way he/she handles three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a"life." I 've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catchers mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.. I've learned that if you pursue happiness it will i exclude you. But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn I've learned that you should pass this on to everyone you care about. I just did!!

I hate this feeling it burns like being stabbed in the back but listenin' to this is makin' me feel better.

Incase your wondering.It's by Avril LavinGe.

[freak out]

Try to tell me what i shouldn't do

You should know by now

I won't listen to you

Walk around with my hands

Up in the air

'Cause I don't care

'Cause I'm all right I'm fine

Just freak out let it go

Chorus

I'm gonna live my life

I can't ever run and hide

I won't compromise

'Cause I'll never know

I'm gonna close my eyes

I can't watch the time go by

I won't keep it inside

Freak out let it go

Just freak out let it go

You don't always have to do everything right

Stand up for yourself

And put up a fight

Walk around with your hands

up in the air

Like you don't care

'Cause I'm all right I'm fine

Just freak out let it go

Chorus

Let it go

On my own

Let it go

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Chorus

Just let me live my life

I can't ever run and hide

I won't compromise

'Cause i'll never know

I'm gonna close my eyes

I can't watch the time go by

I won't keep it inside

Freak out let it go

Freak out let it go (x 2)

-out-

mY today was ruined..by my mum..
 

we went to the beach n i wanted to write songs but my mum was being childish spoilt brat n ended up spoiling my mood n we went home..hai..so sian..i shall blog another day

i feel sad and weak inside.I hate miss tan!I hate her I her!!shEs is such a skank.i feel like yelling at her.i do i really do but u noe what?i cant cuz i will get DC.i hate her.I hate Mdm chong too.i think she is a mdm cuz her husband divorced her.i hate dem!i hate ana.i hate her.i was suppose to hav tuition today.i thougt she was cuming at 7.30.but no she was coming at 8 and i hav tuition at 8.hai..dun feel like toking..so sad

jaY-mE n mE haV thiS new DictioNary of words.haHAh.okok.not exactly dicTionarY.we made wOrds liKe respIc[[retarded-spastic]].HAahHA.nVm.gtg-

we waited fer serene fer like so long.
haHaha.another semi-queen!haha.
anyway den we went swimming again.
den lights went off at about 10.30.
I canT belive i missed nip/tuck.!!!.
haha.anyway after the lights went off we did many cannonballs.
haha.so farni!wahAhHAha!
cuz there was on part where i forgot to blow out.
den all the water went up mynose*ouch.
and i just kept screaming and messing with my head
I was so retartded!
aniwae..den we went to the place where stacy slapped hannah
we were sharing ghost stories..
but i just turned everything into a joke
got kinda bored so smsed esmond
since he is [i hav to admit]
ENTERTAINING
haha-whatever-but den my hp low batt.
KNS!hahHA-so i just listen lor
hahah.matthew dunno how to tell ghost story wan
say untill so sian
hahah
we went home about 4 in the mornin.
we walked home!!!
^@#$%^&**&^%#^!!!
cuz jiaxin dun wan to chip in money for the fare
den not not enough cuz gwen no money
go home den so tired slept straight away
got up early fer piano
den slept again
so we [me and gwen]woke up about 2
hahHA.so laTe.sOOo.ate lunch wif gwen
she was going sports bra shOpping wif jiaxin
Hhaah!!*grins.but den i no money so din go lor
i played captains ball at bethesda wif jas n jay
saw weilyn[semi-queen#1] n christabel
den we went to cc
they were havin some function
so i went over to their house
anyway i went to my gransgrans at punggol
so scary almost got lost
den i prayed den found my way
thank GOD literally
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din go skool yesterday cuz of my highlighted hair
dye 3 time liao
so i had to dye it back lor
anyway on tues i went out wif calista stacy n serene
to find a job fer calista
yea..n we did
hahah!-whatever-
today i went to skool had fun den
i went home wif alyssa n esther n sarah
i went home ta sleep
went to mac wif jay to study
*phew so tired
den had piano n tuition
-whatever-
i slapped phoebe today by accident
the morning was bad
anyway i wanna go off soon
till then

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F E E L I N G P H A T H E T I C W I T H O U T Y O U




I never like someone so bad
I mean if u were like not special i would have forgotten about you
but did i?
NO
When i think of you i feel sad
cuz i noe i cant get you
i wish i could tell it to u to yer face
but i dun hav the guts
so well..
yea..
I'll wait fer you
oR *sighs
NevErmind
who cares right


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mY feeLing right now?mixed up.I wanna cry
but no i m a strong girl right?*shrugs


My mum is ruining my life but i love her.
My Dad is not in my life if he wants to be a part of it
why hasnt he come home for quite sometime
*sighs.My heartaches like someone pierced my heart
I m insecure I love my friends fer being the fer me.
I m sad now.gotta go n cry.



u left me outside in the cold
u pushed me into the water i u gave me ur hand


anyway this song is old but its how i feel wen i see you or whatever

its called [the way] by clay aiken

1st verse:
There's something about the way you look tonight
There's something about the way that I can’t take my eyes off you
There's something about the way your lips invite
Maybe it’s the way that I get nervous when you're around
And I want you to be mine
And if you need a reason why

1st chorus:
It’s in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight
It’s in the way that you hold me
And in the way that you know me
When I can’t find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh you feel it in the way

2nd verse:
It’s something about how you stay on my mind
It’s something about the way that
I whisper your name when I’m asleep oh girl
Maybe it’s the look you get in your eyes
oh baby it’s the way that makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they may change
But what I’m feeling stays the same

2nd chorus:
It’s in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight (tonight)
It’s in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When I can’t find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh you feel it in the way

Bridge:
I can’t put my fingers on
Just what it is that makes me
Love you, you baby
So don’t ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside
Just thinking about the way

repeat 2nd chorus (2 xs)

It’s something about the way you look tonight
There is nothing more to say than I feel it in the way



i asked esmond fer an opinion whether does he think i'm pathetic.so now i noe how u feel wen i tok to u.I'm sad now.I'm a girl but i cover up my insecurities by critisicm.If i scold u or anyone.i hope u guys will understand.I LOVE YOU.there i finally said it.got it off my chest.i wanna scream now!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!




W H E N Y O U N E E D S O M E O N E I' L L B E T H E R E F O R Y O U F O R E T E R N I T Y L O V E H U R T S I T R E A L L Y D O E S

Yesterday was sHooOOo fuN ... woke up 8 plus in thE mornIng..phoeb's came over..den we went over to my gran grans..haha..to do what? cOok..the caKe i madE was a toTal disaster cuZ i duNno how to use mY uncles measuring cup.haha.we finished at 2 plus..we started the party at 4 n u noe what everyone came late!!!!accept rozand.sHE is the bEst.HAhaha..anyway when everyone came we swam..den later we went to look fer stacy,matthew n jerry haha...den we waited for serene..i countinue later fay just came over..must entertain her..till then...

woke up at 12 overslept should have woke up at 9 to meet yee ling zoey they all..to help with the dance steps..haha..so tired..must run 2.4 on monday..how?because of the extensions n my pink one dropped out on tuesday..so annoyed..sumore my moonsae over flow when i should have gone wild wild wet..hiyaz..bad hair day!!anyway so we went heartland instead to take neos n we ate at delifrance hahah did you zoey orderd milo from delifrance..hahahah!!!!lol!!!it has been fun for the pass few days..oh yea..me n stacy slept over at phoeb's place..haha..i had asthma from there so dusty lor..she really needs to get a maid..anyway..we were suppose to leave at 6 for stacy's for stacy's house but phoeb's just had to forget her phone i told her not to go back for it cause her mum was sleeping in her bro's room i saw lar...den she just had to and got caught to by her mum.*scREams..second time she screwed up our plans..how annoying!!so nVm loR we wenT homEv firsT den mEt Up at around 12 plus go stacy's ouse watch "shaun of the dead" hahah pirated mahX t was suppose to be dawn of the dead..how dumb..anyway the show was boring..oh yea..did you see yuan ting's freindster profile?!it was so sick man her nick is "sex slave" what a disgrace to girls manXxX!!*yucK.anyway stacy's house is so damn nice lor sumore have swimming pool..HiYaz if oNly i coUld liVe therE.hahhHA.-whatever-anyway..i dyed my hair brown so waste can!? cause i must dye back on sunday!hiyaz.bUt it lOoks nIce anYwaY.hehe.anyway phoebe n i r gonna start a band and of course at thsame time learn the instruments that we r gonna play i m playing the drums and keyboard/guitar..phoeb's is gonna play the keyboard/piano.anyway we both at least wrote one song already..its nice loR..haha.lol..-whatever-..anyway the song accidentally in love is shOOOoooo niCe lor..I'm aCcideNtaLLy in loVe wiTH yOu *******..i miss you you noe that?no...anyway..you wont understand the way i feel..oh yea..win a date with tad hamilton rocks!!!aHHH!!*faints so touching can that i cried.haha.-whatever-i'm a girl okay..haha i do have a soft side and i gotta admit it lar..haha.ok..aniwaez i'm havin tuition at 1.30..bye²...

i wanna change my link but i very lazy.haha.oh yea.i got my extensions!!haha.i got mY phoNe baCk!!wheEE.bUT mY olD numBer.haha.I"ve been hanging out with the SCBs alot.haha.without serene lar.haha.she went to bang!cock.haha.-whatever-woke up at 5 to go jogging but phoeb's mum said no.so weird.she actually said yes.den she threaten to make phoeb's do da laudry.siao!.haha.yesterdae din go traning cuz my momma said cannot.-whatever-.I love jermaine dupri!!his songs r so nice like 'pop that booty'.but those who dun appreciate tha jamz and hip hop.BUGGER OFF.haha.anyway.i went to watch the NYJC match on tues.against chong ghee.and obviously chong ghee won.i went swimming yesterday.so fun.haha.i am going to watch their match again later.at lorong ah soo opp. my skOol.maHa.i wanna lose weight.but no discipline.haha.MUST BURN FATS.maHa.my msn is crashing.so sad.*cRys.-whatever-.so sian gotta go for my tuition now.buh bye.





* W * H * A * T * E * V * E * R *

*piak* waHA.ijust wished gwen goodnight!and it's only 6.05. -retarded- aniwaez...fer the past few days its been really happening fer me cumin home at 8 plus. going fer bball and all that and TRAINING started already!!but at least i'm havin fun and we have our borin' but fun coaching course with our -ruru- teacher.hehe.oh yea i hav to say something. TANNY LOOKS RETARDED IN MY SS2Gs!!! -WahAh-.I hav like really weird seniors.fer example.su eats dog pee[grass]-whaHAa-.oh yea haha. the other day lizard got caught by mrs lim fer her hair.den she ran into the toilet.den me n siew hwee go n see whether mrs lim was gone oreadi.she was.den we told lizard but she didn't want to leave u noe y?b cuz mich.foo was there..WhahHA.-tok about retardation.she was acting so hysterical n stuff.haha.den after that we went swimming at phoeb's house actually we've been swimming all week.on the way home i saw des'cimal foo.haah.so retarded.actually i saw nico,xiao andy n all that den i just kept looking to see where they were going maybe to cc?den i just kept looking den when i looked away i saw at the side of my eye someone familliar den i din care den it looked too familliar so i turned den i saw him lor den wave den the bus had to move right?haha.yea.oh yea yesterday i played bball.so fun.hehe.haha. -whatever- oh yea i went queensway with jas n jay so funny cuz i dun really go ikea right n the food there is good so i was stuffing food down my throat even wen i was at the verge of throwing up.haha.
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y M E I X * ~christabel's b-dae is on thurs mi n si hui gonna get her a pressie cuz she is our nu er n my meix.haha.aniwaez i gtg now.type some other day cuz gwen n hannah iz gonna cum over.heh.*hoLlA.if i can heaR u.heHE~

yesterday went for MrS tnG'swedding.u looked b-e-autiful.but so chor lorcan?!haha.but cant help it she is after all a P.E. teacher.haha.had fun there.but the pastor was so long winded can.just like mrs lee.haha.-whatever-ms ng's hubby ears are really big.haha.i mean they are huge!but i think they go really sweet together.ms ng looked so nerdy den during sec. skool.so sweet can?!they've been togeda for soooo long.haha.oh eah forgot to say someting ms ng..can u...just..GROW UP!!!haha.what are the two me to you bears doing in the front of the damn car?!haha.




after that..


abi,siew,wen,si and i went to the beach.so fun we pick up seashells.i was looking out for high tides.there was once i said high tides and i stood the what a complete idoit of me.then the water went up my skirt.haha.so sick can!?.i found this seashell that looked like a shark tooth.so cool right?!hah.-whatever-


later on..

si hui's dad dropped me,siew n wen at heartland mall we ate dinner there at KFC.den we walked aroung heartland now nicer cuz got print club.shOoOO nicE.haha.can take neo's there from now on..


finally..

I went to jas house..to give siew ting a present cuz she is finnally 1 month old.soOo cuTE!!haha.den we went central to get her bandage but in the end the pharmacy was closed so went to the cc..played untill 10 plus..haha..jiaxin tio lor.cuz she so dua bai..haiyaz..lee chin lar. so stewpid!!help her tio cuz the guy tio her.but actually is her fault cuz she keep on suaning him.of couse he tio lar.she hac to stop acting duA!!ha.anywaez.i watched -paycheck- with my momma.very nice.anywayz.later on i went to my granny's place.yea.haha.den sleep lor.


this morning...

i woke up with a splitting head ache.woosh.missed ballet.i hate it.no it.the teacher.haha.-whatever-now nth to do.i think i am going gwenn's housey.yeaP.buhbyE~

well this is my life..

When i was P5..
I had my first crush
I started doing badly
I started pontanging
I drew anime
I joined floorball[untill they closed it down]
I did many things.*crap

When i was p6..
I had my first boyfriend
I joined badminton
I joined choir*haHA
I still drew anime
I din noe my prilimes were here.
I started playing bball

when i was sec 1
I cut my hair!!*cRy
I joined netball
I became even more into bball
I started cutting my hand
I admire/crush a girl
I became so tanned
I became so wild
I drank vodka
I got 3rd in class

NOw that i am sec 2
I am A bbAll wacchO in my skOOl
I stopped cutting my hand
I told *him i liked him
I got rejected
I cut my hand again
I became so so wild
I almost smoked[but i was really depressed den.]
I dropped in my studies

yesterday..

I answered back to a teacher
I got lectured by the Dm
I got suan by lizard again
I cried cuz i was just sad
I slept at 9 [veri early liaoX]

today..

I went out with stacy
I took picX wif a cigg.[hah.not lighted lar]
I went to the gym
I scolded Mr. thomsan
I had morning training
I had fun

tomorrow..

I am gonna buy Ms ng wedding gift.
I am leaving this empty cuz god has plnned my path


10 things about me

1.I am still hurt by *u
2.I Love basketball
3.I hate backstabbers
4.I love hagging out with my friends
5.I love my kor[tric]-i want hurt to heal from her pain
6.I love my jiemeix
7.I am really a jack of all trades
8.I lurvee pink
9.I sing alot
10.This i will leave blank..cuz i am always changing*





Dear *u..

I noe u want me to leave u alone.but i just cant because i really like u.I am hurting really bad.I cry wen i think of u.This is the first time i've been hurt so badly.untill it is till the extreme.If only you'de give me a chance.i get nervous wen i am around u.thats how much i like u.i want u to leave me alone.get out of my thought.my dreams.my everything.i noe i sound like some thick-headed bimbo.but i'm not.deep down inside.i keep all my feelings bottled up.i need to let go of it.till den.u must be tired cuz u r always running through my mind.*miss u







[* ╬ whatever ╬ *]

I'm havin lessons now in the IT lab.Its geTTinG boriNg anD colD buT heY at leasT it beaTS stayIng in THe blOoDy hOt sUn.haHAz..aniwaez.at least i get to use the com.aniwaez.the past few weeks have been so happening manxXx..staCy osO lefT her ciGGs. wiF maUII.alMOst got mE kiLLEd caN?!hahA.aniwaez.just finish the meet-the-parents session thingie.hah.i was practically giving mr. thomsan attitude lor.hah.he ask me wht i hate DNT then said cuz i hate the teachers..hahah.den he ask me whats my biggest problem then i wanted to say him.but the DM just walked past so i din.haha.aniwaez i dropped 9 positions down man.so sad..i was actually 3rd can?!haiyaz..aniwaez i gtg now teacher cuming.bye²

waoH todaY waS reaLLy weiRd.haHA.likE this daMn Vp oF daMn asS loR.haHA.shE madE stand ouTsidE thE offiCe for lIke 2 whole damN houRs.i cried.haha cuz.i was really hot.the day be4 i cried cuz i was really bored.haha.haiyaz.it was a long story aniwaez.after skool we went to eat at the primary skool.the food was nice.yea.after that went to phoeb's place to get her change so that we can go mac.kanna caught fer vandalising mahx.den after that we went to my house.so i can get change.after that went went to mac da playgroung to erase the marks.i went there and the playground damn cool.so messy.i think is YT,adora,janice and angela do one.haiyaz.what the heck so we just help out since we also vandalised abit.hah.after that i recived a call from the chars.we went for dickson's bbq party i think it was his b-dae.yea.but he left early with his fwens to catch a movie.asshole.hah.aniwaez.weplayed ball with freddy and some other guys.aniwaez. i just came back lor.kinda tired so shall go sleep now

my exams ended last week.i cant believe we celebrated in mac.so lc lor.OMG!went there with yuan ting,phoebe,stacy and siew hwee.i think cuz yuan ting wanna go see frank lor.haha.****!haiyaz,,she steal serene phone lor...she is damn fake can..haha..i like this song called a thousand miles.so nice..its so me..no actually i dunno me..sometimes i can be this bitchy bitch..sometimes.. i can get so emotional..haha..sometimes...ican be this sweet sweet innocent angel..sometimes..i can be this punk rock chick wannabe..sometimes..i can be normal average kid next door girl..yea..haha..aniwaez..after mac we coundnt take the bordem we went to town and we took multiple neoprints..haha..ok fine whatever..u noe today i cired in class cuz i was dying of bordem..haha..i was late fer skool today and got caught for my uniform..haiyaz..so suii lor..haha..whatever its spelt as..haha..another day then type sumore kinda busy now..

yEePeE!~tommorow is the last exam!!!but it is chinese and i totally suck in that o-k.*arGh* HAhaHA~ i wont give a damn anymore after that..haha..it would be totally 24/7 partying..*i hoPe*..i've been studying so much lately plus i go mac study haha but veri distracting plus the phoebe + cockroach haha..some pple would noe what i mean..haha i promised phoebe i wont tell anyone liaox..haha..aniwaez..siew hwee is a freaking pig can she pang seh me phoebe priscilla 3 times liaox sleep lar sleep sumore i poke ur eyes ah!hahHAHa..aniwaez..i gtg type another dae..


leaVin mOrErIcE [*whatEveR*]

i said this once and i am going to repeat it again i have 'A TOTAL LOST OF FREEDOM' i've been studying since 12 noon lor..tired...haiz..i think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed..so much bad luck i missed the match of nets against lakers!!ahHH!!suii arhxx..aniwaez...yesterday was so fun i mean it was crappy yesterday..haha..i lost my wallet!aniwaez..i still have feelings for him but i dun have a crush on him..actually it is pretty normal cuz..considering how long i had a crush on him..aniwaez..i think i am going to shave bald..cuz i cut my hair again i totally destroyed it..ahhh!!*sniff*..so shauii wan..aniwaez i have to go oreadi..i destroyed my life..BahahHAh..-.-'

sO tired just finish watching the playoffs miami heats against vs the pacers.morning still got the nets against ??? well i forgot..haha..tipsy..anyway... well i've been hardworking for the past few days..istudied alot well it paid of well i got 97/100 for my term two maths results..yeppEE!~hahaHHAA..but i almost flunked science cuz mr thomson flunk us all on our project lor we all forgot lor..becuz forgot lor hahahahhHAhaha!~anywayz..listening to roses by outkast..its nice ok..not it is not nice it is b-e-a-utiful..hahaha..so sian..oh yea i din say something...PACERS A.K.A. Indianna's won!!!yAy!!~87-93..i noe not veri good but it was a tough match them ok!!!must be understanding..aniwae...today was fun lor..we went to p.s. to study..thenqian zi say wanna see cafe cartel the food lar..as in the prices..wen we got there i straight away ran in and totally forgot about the prices thing..because of the chairs they were like sofas hahah..wen we got in i was like WHAT!!!!one plate 10.90!!!*jaw to the floor tongue rolls out like red carpet*haha..aniwaez i lost my wallet and my new ezilink card!!how i din tell my stewpid mum aniwaez i gtg now..

well today was pretty messed up.well.haha.this person called "me" tagged on my board saying to bugger of des.well i buggered off him a long time ago.haha.cuz i totally gave up.i mean i cannot wait for him all my life rite?there are many fishes in the sea anyway.though i was really crazy over him till the extent that it got scary.haha.like cutting my hand and stuff like that.aniwaez..i watched this concert last night and it was so cool.the drummer is gawd gawd cool ok.hahaah..the thing that SHE i mean she is a girl drummer plus she is really strong..can play very very very very very very well.BAhahHAa.shela e. she's spanish like thats cool.cuz i'm spanish too.hahahaa..aniwaez..u wanna noe go n look up on her then u will noe what i mean.hahahh..i am so bored right now i can probaly die of bordem.aniwaez i gtg now..blog another day..╬chillIn╬

i'm at home now getting fatter.haha.freakin pissed with everyone my dad my mum my friends except my grandparents.i cried just now why cuz i am being bitched arond by my friends like who i shall not name.i am angry sad pissed .i think one of these days i might just walk out on my mum.she is making me lose my friends and my dignity.I cant breathe easy these days.exams are around the corner.*stressed.i am also angry with my dad i have not seen him for 2 years 4 months 12 hours 30 mins 60 secs and it goes on very specific huh.yea tts how much i miss him.not as if i am forcing him to come back or something but i really want to see him.i am crying again just think of him makes me sad.sometimes i wish i could just die.why couldn't i be born in someone elses shoes?why?i wish i could just runaway with a 100 million dollars.start a new life.change my name to marissa or something.dad,i wish u could come back to mum.everytime mum says bad things about u i side with you.cuz i dunno hu is telling the truth u both tell me different sides of the story.i miss you.i still have mum but mum is different now she is always angry.my life is messed up.does true love exsit i dun think so cuz if it did someone out there should love me right?but i dun thnk anyone does.dad do u think of me sometimes?do u?does it make u sad?no i dun think so if not u would have came back long ago right?its always either cuz of work or food poisoning.come back please i wanna see you.grandma and grandpa are not exactly fit right now come back and see them.please come back soon.den i will be able to sleep well.when u come back can u stay longer.or stay forever.i.i can still remember how u left my n mum u guys were quarelling at night when i woke up in the morning u left me this felix the cat pillow on the sofa in our old house.i want u back in my life. miss you.god bless you always.*sad

herE is a poeM its callEd smIle


She smiled at a sorrowful stranger
The smile seemed to make him better
He remembered past kindness of a friend
and wrote him a thank-you letter.
The friend was so pleased with the thank you
That he a large tip after lunch
Th waitress, suprised by the size of the tip
bet the whole thing on a hunch
The next day she picked up her winnings
and gave part to a man on the street
the man on the street was grateful
for the two days he'd nothing to eat
After he finished his dinner
he left for his small dingy room
On the way he picked up a shivering puppy
and took him home to get warm
The puppy was grateful
to be in out of the storm
That night the house caught on fire
The puppy barked the alarm
He barked till everyone woke up
and saved everyone from harm
One of the boys that he rescued
grew up to be a president of the united states
All this because of a simple simle
that hadn't cost a cent



okay okay maybe it wasn't a poem but its nice right?*sniffs*hahHAah lolxXx..aniwaez.well today it was okay but well HahahahhHAAH i played ball right whats nOt to liKe hahHAah.weLL aniwae this sec 1 girl played ball with me well She travelled she made three steps den obviously it was a foul rite?the she kept insisting that she didn't well okay fine then she said "hey i am a newbie and i also noe"then i was like whatever because she said she was a newbie rite exactly why would she noe betta?I'm nOt likE *wOah* good aT ball buT i should noe the basic rules right?arggh weLL aniwaez HAha i played ball with xiuwen,weilin,siewhwee,beatrice,diane.HahahHA..diaNe was GoinG nutS.hahHAah.jkjK.aniwaez today we had lessons at the lab cool huh?uh-huh thats thE waY i liKe iT!~hahHA.lolXxX.we pRactically suRfed the neT the whOle day.aniwaez i din nOe that xiuwen could play the drums well tts cool ..hahah.. pretty good for a no. 1 loser haHAhah.the only reason i called her that is cause she is fun and when we lose we start the ball [tts how we play in skool loser start the ball]she would rush to start hahHAha bouncing rabbiT.haHHAHaha~well it was fun aniwaez i bought this months lime and orlando bloom is on th cover AwwWw!!he is so hoT !!melts!!omg!omg!omg!omg!gawd gawd gawd hot hot hot!!*melts haHAHah aniwaEz sulynn said i very updated and i almost said like duh!? but instead i act humble HAhah lolxXx.oK aniwaez i kinda tired now from playing so much ball so gonna sleep cause later must go see nanyangs musical synergy concert ..buh bye~

I aM having a crusH on This gUy oK maybE nOt havIng moRE likE havE beeN i Dont nOE whY OK weLL u seE If i lIKe a GUy N he LIkeS reJEct ME oR whaT i wOnt gIve a shIt eveN as smaLL as a decimal pOInt okay BuT thiS gUY i duN nOe i meAN he iS likE aLmost PErfECt..WhEn i sEE hIm i geT so tense up I wilL starTing ruNnInG likE the wInD*shY maHX*haHAhaha..anIwaEz...HoW what to DO heY yoU shaLL nOt saY YeR naME sO i woNt desTRoY yer Rep. whaT shOUld i DO huH caN yoU likE teLL me??haIyaz...SumOre i LosT my pHone My baBY OK!!!it was OnLy oNE moNtH oLd *cRys.!!x(( !!3200 lOr !!wa LAo EH!!*WOopZ*hEhe!~aniwaez i gtg NOw Buh byE..*beaMS iN TEaRS thaT sweLL my eYE!x((

HaIyAz.My schOOl is FreaKIng weiRd i meAN likE they Ask Us to deLetE our BlogS thaT tt haV to dO wIF ouR sKOOls anD all tt..haiZ whAteveR!!anIwaEz..I doNt waNNa thiNK abOUt YOu..AniwaeZ...HAppIe bIRtHdaY deSnIquE a.K.A. DesMOnd fOO!!

i goT a nEw meIx!!shE isH soOoOo cUTe!!~hahHAhaha~i seE her likE 6 timEs a weeK..i was lIke OmG..i wILl get siaN of YEr facE lIAox..haha.*craP..haHAa..todaY ms nG madE mE sIt oN a stooL IN CLAsS LOR CAUse i roCked the ChaIR tTs not Fair Right..sO i thOUght bUt acTuAlly it turnEd Out tO verY comfoRtablE..HAha.I wanNA sIt on It agaIN!!hahHA..HaIyAz todaY i sOOoOo saUIi loR i meAN i ask Cheryl foR claSs keY in thE haLL the preFect saY can deN i ended UP staNdiNg in forNt of THe whOle sChOOL on staGE for "tokIng"..WTH lor..haHAha..sO paI seh caN?
haiZ what to dO ..haiZ..aniwaez i GTG now ..tyPE agaIn another daY~

HaIyA PasT feW daYs aH..*arghz*VerY trIed lOr.cUz netBall traIniNg startEd deN plUs we jUSt haD a reCEnt NAPFA test haIZ...*TirEdeD*acTuaLLy IHaVE loaDS Of thINgs ta saY but nOW i aM outTa WordshaIyAz i duNNo y i LOvedoIng tHatHaHA.anIwaEz SeeyOU

*argh!*pissed off and tired!!!aniwaEz.i m here jUst ta wriTE mauII soNg.iTs niCe okaY!






what is the reason.






Chill out,lazing around all day
Thats what I've been doing
since the day
that you darling left me
and said get away from me
now I'm losing my mind
In no time
honey~


What is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the pain.
I'm going through
what is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the hardships
thats coming my way





last night I went you house
I was planning to surprise you in an hour
but you had another girl sitting on your lap
and that made me feel really all so mad.
Now I have no idea
what's my mistake.
wow~yea

What is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the pain.
I'm going through
what is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the hardships
thats coming my way

The other day you told me
Sugar pie will you go out with me
I said babyboy sure I will
Now i Know what a bimbo i really was.
To have fallen in love with you
Icant stand being bitched around.
I thought that love makes the world really go round.



What is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the pain.
I'm going through
what is the reason
for what you've done
you have no idea
about the hardships
thats coming my way


then fades~



HAhahHAh.so whaT dId ya think .AHaha.

dada is that u?hahahAHah~whaTEver~morOn~this is stuPid buT i gotta go meet gweN buh BYE~HEeCkz

eHH..so siaN..need enliGHtmenT.BAHahHAhah~

HapPy aprIl fOOls!~wEll fer dA past 3 daYS thiNgs Hav beEN getTinG haYwireD feR me..LIke wE aS in da Whole B' dIV Got pUnisHEd cUZ oF stUff liKE afTEr da cAmp alOt oF uS diN haNd in oUR woRk anD alL tt aND da jUNiorS cOmplaINed THaT we PuniSh Them feR JAy-cHOuinG[jaY walIkng]wE gaVE theM 100 pumping on da spot BUt we alsO dO tt bUT nOT as IF we DIn geT puNIshEd too~AniwaEZ.da daY aftER thaT waS boRIng VerI boriNg buT P.E. was fUn we plAyed BBall!!~bUT dEn afTEr we haD shUttlE rUN.I -luVE- it.hHA.cUZ i waS so LAzY.haHA.anIWaEz.WheN i goT hOmei pRActiCAllY hibErnaTEd fEr da whOLe afternoon.Haha.yea.fER liKE 4 hoURs.wHEn i goT uP i waS like rushIng fer skOOl buT it waS onLY eiGHt @ nigHT deN mY maiD waS likE marisSe yOu are ReaLLy bEYonD CraP anD i waS likE err,o-k.Haha.i noe.sEe i Am tokIng crap agaIN.gEttIng tipSy agAiN.deN todaY waS o-k laR cUz we had tO dO stanDinG brOad juMp aND i haTE iT!!haha.aND i waS okaY untilLL i fouNd out thAT we haD to Do naPfa teSt togethER as IN the whOle neTBall teaM so mAlU.AHH!!haHAh.lolx.dEn afTeR skOOl i weNt to thE coM laB tO waIt feR esthER weIlyN alySSa they all.deN i heaRd thE chaIR moVE dEN i lookEd thERe i DIn see anionE so creePy!dEn i quiCklY goT ouT of thERe.HahaHah.deN wheN i weNt dowN.i saW cherYl.i waS actuaLlY orEAdi kiNDa piSSed haha.Den sHE caLLed me Fat bitch Or something deN i wenT uP to heR AnD saiD u hAv totaLLy nO riGHt tO caLL me Fat cUz u r fattER den ME.HAha.alYssa gave me a ^5.hah.WhoosH.@ Da sciEnCE laB Me, PhoebE,QiaNzI and suLYnn weRE tokINg abOUT jamIe..haha.i plAyed a praNK oN heR i took a MEns. paD anD Put fakE bLOOd on it And stuck it oN her chair.haha.veri farni lehX.heR reaCtion.den i pLaYEd maNY othER prankS too.aniWaez i gTg now.and finger tired frOm tyPIng sO mUCh.*beaMS

P.E. waS fUN toDay!!duh!?we plaYEd bBaLL~untill we needed to do shuttle run..haha.cuz i was lazy cuz yesterday we got punished by our coach we had to run for an hour.*sighs...so tired.i practically hibernated fer da whole afternoon.haha.i slept since 4.oopm.haha.tomorrow is apirls fool`yeppe~i hav a bunch of pranks planned just hope i dun get caught~haha~aniwaez today i was practically dying during lessons becuz i din eat during recess.yea.afther skool.me,esther,weilyn,sarah,alyssa and sheryleene all zhao.haha.aniwaez on friday da chao ren family and bao family going to far east fer shopping i just cant wait!i gtg now aniwaez.i miSs yOu~u noe hu u r[haTta hatta haha]~*beaMs

tOK abOuT sIansaTioN maNxXx now iN skU waiTing fER maUII fweNS doiNG nth.plaYEd bbaLL oReadI.hAiz..hUngRY aNd tIreD whaTchINg a bbALl maTCh @ NYJC.shaLenE,miCheLLe,jeaNIe,racHel aND kimBErlY are gonnA be dERE..KEwL!!!~~haHA..AAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!~da Com lAB sO cREEPy i toT i hEArd da cHAir moVE whEn i lOOK dERE nO onE waS thERe!!*shrugS*hu cares~ACtuaLLy~I DO!!!AHHHH!!saVE mE thIS gEtTin creePY i thiNK i aM gonnA go nOW..hE²cKZ!~

heRE goEs.whaTEver saY goEs.siTTinG doWn hERe tyPInG agaIn[groUNdeD]>[CryINg][conFused].i feel like i lost my freedom again.weLL look on thE briGHtsiDE.we haD traininG todaY.YEeaPPee~aniwaEz.heY u yeS u Ya noE hU u r.coMe baCK to mE i neeD u.I wanT yOU buT u donT sO u reaLLy waNT me tO get oN wiF mY weiRd n coNfusiNG liFE.yea?its okay i undeRstand whY weLl...at leaST i stilL haVe mYselF[i think].-the way-go listen to it thats how i feel about you.[crying]the reason why i haV more girl friends den guy friends is because girls are more understanding because they are not so racist against ur colour and they understand the situation ur going through.u see i come from a broken family.the only pple i can turn to is my mum and my friends.i love my friends.the problem is do really love my too or are they all very two faced.if u were in my shoes u would fell lucky yet sad.likE at least i still hav u guys but.Why did I haV haV to bE borN in mY shoes.whY coundnt i just be rebORn intO someOne elses shOes liKE weLL actUAlly i duNNo either.caUSe i hAv freNs wiF alSO proBlems likE me.yea.leT thE raIn faLL ---i'm comin clean.