hello ev'ryone , if you're not coming for PHOEBE's party , i repeat , PHOEBE's party , FUCK YOU.but i don't really blame you though since it's all last minute.anyway , I really hope you guys will come cause.Since the exams are just around the corner it's you're last chance to party hard dudes and dudettes.'sides i think the party's pretty cool since it's gonna be so sneaky and all.we're havin it at 9 cause it's actually our class party come chalet since the teachers will be leaving at 8 we're making sure the coast is clear so we can party out.I can't wait to get down on the dancefloor hard.oh wells , till then.(=

I've been bitterly stung my the queen bee. I just wanna take a lighter and burn the queen bee to death.

My life is beautiful.But I'm bored with beautiful so I'm just going to stop look up and smile , If you know what I mean.




Cause I don't really get what I'm trying say.

i'm feelin random so here's it.
i know the caption or whatever it's called is kinda screwed but , i think it's nice.it's true sarong party girlmy shit

HELLO EV'RY LIVING RETARD , THIS SECTION OF MY BLOG IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO JULIA AND EMO(=.They say my blog is boring cause all the stuff i write about are emotional stuff and it's borinngggg.dang.is it that bad??=?=/.LOL.so fine i shall talk about my situation now , i'm stuck with a really ever so crazy bitch of a retard namely , emeline chen yue xin.we're in the most big headed adorable but yet so annoyingly stupid julia's house technically , we're in her cousin's room.judging from his room he seems like a cool holy mofo and crazy emo is bored.she's like those autistic kids cant sit still from a minute and right now she just fell down just a few minutes ago , she was trying her chances at bein a movie director.but judging from her talent , i can just say , big fat juicy hope dude(=.we were just at loveland to help julia buy something, gawd knows she's really stupid she even needs help with buying something.didn't see vicky today.i feel oh-so-empty without her.LOL.i love her.i hate siewhwee and phoebe you guys can just enjoy yourself.i need a blue sky holiday.(=

I've never felt like this before.I've never been so gawd damn childish in whole entire fucking life.But it's you , you that crazy bitch of a retard.It's you who made me so fucking mad.The worst part is , I'm crying not cause of what you've done.I'm crying cause It's just oh-so-hard to let go of a friend like.oh well , i'm fallin to pieces ev'rytime.

3 words : I am fucking angry.Okay it's not exactly 3 words but doesnt it sound weird if i say 4 words?oh sweet mother of my fucking gawdd , i am a freaking sicko. how can i find humour at a time like this when i am at a point of wrath.I'm am not ohfuckingokay.

Hello, Today went by pretty fine. For the past few days I’ve been trying to keep my cool. I know it shows. But some people just can’t get use to the fact that I’m trying to be less rebellious. What the fuck. Why the fuck in the fucking world would you want be to retaliate. You crazy bitch, you’re making me sin again and again. Why won’t you just leave me alone? Anyway, I had this beautiful dream the other night. I was in love with someone I couldn’t see. We were having our anniversary or something. The memory of it is very vague. But I remember that there were candles, roses, and hot Latin music. I was in a dress. It felt so surreal. It was as if I was experiencing Latin Movie Kind of Love sort of like dirty dancing. But the greatest thing about it was, I was in love and you know what, it felt so good. The best part was, there was reverse psychology. I’ve already figured out my future, I’m going to grow up unloved and OVER-rejected. Depressing but predictable. Who in the right mind would love me right?




cause you had a bad day.

THINGS TO DO




1. Live within my means (is it spelt that way?)
2. Finish art portfolio
3. Watch more television
4. STUDY
5. start gyming dude.

oh man , there are so many things that have taken the backseat of my mind.I seriously need to take a good break from school and people maybe i should to go some mountain and get lost like in the singapore show , ' missing '.yes i know , ridiculous.gawdd marisse , get a grip. LOL

well , this month has been what you may say , happening? alot of stuff happened , really.but i can't reveal.anyhows , i've so called found a way to a brighter future.i may be able to take art , the love of my life.but i don't wanna get false hopes high and jinx it.cause i need to do up my portfolio and stuff like that and it has to go through the bird , the artist and angulia.i have alot of doubt that the bird will let me take the subject cause my art is sort of towards the dark arts.i hope i won't get all once bitten , twice shy bout' it.i hope i'd be more of , try, try and try again if i get rejected.well , god grant me strength to finish what i've started.(=

Life is full of contradictory. Today was a pretty depressing for many people who’re close to me. This morning a friend of mine was crying obviously I went to comfort her and found out she got heartbroken by the same person again. She said she’s sort of getting use to getting hurt. Honestly, in my opinion, no one in this world can ever get use to hurt. It’s just not very human to get use to hurt. Hurt can come in different forms like love, hate or even kindness. Anyway, this shit hasn’t got anything to do with what I’m actually talking about. Back to the main point, the same person hurt her more than twice. That’s what happens when you really love someone, you suffer. You’re the one always getting hurt, don’t you find? I compared her situation with mine and realize that there ain’t much of a difference cause you see she has really fallen in love with this person and is willing to wait for her. She’s been waiting for her for about a year now and she suffers in silence. I mean cause sometimes when you love someone, you do crazy things. Like, self inflicted pain or sometimes when you see the person you get all tongue-tied and when you think about the person you start to cry. He or she has always got you feeling low. You’re train of thoughts is running uncontrollably. Sometimes you can sit in front of the computer thinking what to write about him or her. When you decide to start letting go, it becomes so extremely hard it’s already been a year. You’ve seen too much of the person’s beautiful side. It’s already too late when you realize that you’ll never be with him or her. Then the stage of jealousy appears, when you see him or her with someone else happy, you feel like it’s the end of the world. You just can’t stand seeing him or her with someone else happy you become sort of possessive, which is completely wrong cause no one owes you a living. By the time you’ve let go, you become empty. You realize, it’s all been a wild goes chase and decide to bury a hatchet with the person within.

I LOVE MY BREASTFRIENDS AND I SAW DELIRIOUS.LMAO (=

to find out what happened during the 3 days of FOP , please refer to lizard's blog , matt_.blogspot.com.thank you.i'm going out with my woman in 7 minutes and i havent even gotten ready yet.she's gonna kill me and i'm not gonna do anything about it though cause i really feel like bloggin.although i know this entry will be lame cause i don't have much time.so yes i leave with 6 words , that sweet sly come hither smile.(=

I THINK EMOLINE IS WEIRD.(= well hello there angels from my living nightmare.what a weird entrance you might say but that was simply random.I'm so tired.I'm so tired that my eyes feel so dry as if they're about to crack as if there was a drought in my eye sockets.anyhows , today was great?yes , i think that's the word.did the usual thing school blah lunch blah home blah skipped trng cause it was PT.went to lunch with alicia eunice shanny sulynn and cher.we laughed we ate we did it all.headed home to get dress for FOP.went to meet jenny went to her house.met up with julia and lizard.went for FOP.it was really fun.it was what you say , coolio my foolio?i'm beat.i think i'll talk shit another day.g'night bitches and bastards and take care (=

ok , so days are just getting so lame.duncha think?the way i deal with things now is pretty weird.i'm becoming more frank then usual.lunar rhythms?prolly not cause my ' that time of the month' is already ending , thankfully.i'm trying this new thing which is not judging people before even knowing them cause it's just plain wrong.cause in the end you're the one that's at lost of making a new friend and you're the one at fault for being so fuckin hell judgemental.anyhows crazy fuckin mum i gtg.another day.(=

Well well , so today started out with me waking up to the killers.did the usual Monday stuff.school , training ,home with jillian.i love going home with jillian it always cheers me up from my crazy depression.unlike me , she's the white in black in other words means she's special ,she's what you say a happy pill?haha.school today was a big toilet bowl.i had alot of flushes today.where do i start?how do i begin?i have so many things to say but somehow , i'm havin this huge mind block.i can't think, i don't know how to put it words.i need to slow down my train of thoughts.i'm not even sure of what i wanna say.well , have you ever felt like as if you sort of liked someone but you didn't want to that someone.but you actually really really really wanna like that someone.but you don't wanna jeopardize the friendship by sayin something so stupid like , i love you.and it's like you think of that person almost 24/7.and everytime you're with him or her you feel like you're on top of the world and everything he or she says to you suddenly seems so significant and you're holding on to the promise you made to him or her but when actual fact , he or she has already forgotten about it.he or she hurts you so bad just by being him or herself and it drives you crazy when he or she gives you the cold shoulder but only for awhile cause they might be havin lunar rhythms and when they laugh at you're jokes or simply seem intersted in what you're talkin about you get all nervous and start spooning a lil and can't stop laughin cause you're really nervous.when he or she smiles at you , you will feel a ever so strong flush and you're only hoping and wishing that he or she'll notice the big change in you but truth is , it will never happen.well , if only you knew.