With every girl you touch



It was a one-sided story
you were in pants that seemed so flowery
things got complicated
you love seeing me agitated
we should've skipped the part
where I fall for you
where I get used
jumped right to the part
where you break my heart
I sit infront of the sliver screen
my tears in a picture that turns green
I'll see you soon , It'll be the last
which after you'll become part of my past
beads of salty water rest of her smooth skin
as oblivious as she may seem
it was an act of denial that would soon leave her dim
dim , like the light of a lava lamp
beautiful but it makes your room cramp
it's a piece of beautiful trash which beholds
its beauty makes up with ten folds
if I, never see you again,
what a shame it'll be to know that,
Your lips I'll never kiss again
And if this story, its only a piece of my life
why does it feel like I've known you all my life
it's not as if i want you to be there
just give me your dramatic stare
I'll love just the way you are
even though just the way you are is the phrase that's far
from the thin line I'm walking on
just cut it off , and I'm gone.
I hope you'll live in regret
for saying I'm fucking fat
baby , open the bloody trap.


love her when she's gone.

things are sort of different now
there's no saying why or how
the night shifts into the break of dawn
and when I wake to find that you're gone
the symphony of the breaking of hearts
the pain caused by a thousand darts
Is Incomprehendable like a dozen stabbing knives
knives that bleed of hundreds of lives
living in your skin is beneath me
these empty nights are lonesome and free
wings at the side of your eyes
that float so freely in deceitful disguise
the views absorb like cold hard cash
that instant turns into thrash
In your eyes , things are not the same
all the girly girls will not be a match to the plain jane
that has caused markers and breakers to stay
so before the lids groove to the music baby , I'd pray




I'd stay awake with the sound of your voice

romance romance

smells like teen spirit.

your personalized oasis


Help me understand , pls?

Jesus , tell me is this gonna be worth my time.
It's too late to be saved by his charm.
I'm never going to get this right am I?
I'm a fool again to have hoped in him.
mg,I can't believe this is happening all over again.
All the oh-so cliche phrases are going to be popping out of mouth
like popcorns in a pan.spilling and spilling.
once again , my heart is bleeding.
Is this too much to ask for.
I never really asked for anything
ok , maybe I did.
I suppose I don't deserve it am I wrong to say that?
Your words have become cold.
And the comfort of his voice is draining away.
Oh! is it love?Apparently not I guess.
I'm going to party the pain away.
g'bye my lover g'bye my friend
you have been the one for me
It was , just a ride

JESUS PROTECT ME , she cried :)

I'm tongue tied
Waiting
Hoping
And praying
Lying
Beside you
Longing
To touch you

But this feels like the end

So tired
We are
Drifting
Too far
Eyes closed
Tightly
Thinking
There might be
Some way

But this feels like the end

What went wrong
I need to know
I can feel
You're letting go
Though there is
So much to say
I'm tongue tied
Tongue tied
Waiting

I'm tongue tied
Waiting
Hoping
And praying
So near
Yet so far
Alone
Together

Still this feels like the end
Feels like the end


thank you gwen , akira , jism head , xiaolong look alike for today
and most of all , my trusty wallet :D

say please do not go , oh you will oh you will , maybe so.


merry kressmezz everybody and happy birthday Jesus :D


The first hour or so of christmas was spent the bird's nest.
It was awesome , as usual , how can I say it's not.
The second hour was spent swimming.
swimming during christmas , isn't that lovely
I was wearing a dress shirt so It seemed so shakespear to me.
V and I were playing our usual game of 5 people this
and 5 people that we raced on our toes , literally.
bottomline , we had fun we even got to see blondie.
After that I went to meet only two and xy we had supper
and talked a little bit it was getting late so they left
I reached home at 5? I slept for a measly 6 hours
and off the church I went for christmas mass :D
Oh how I love christmas with mummy
After that I took the bus down to see my father
I took a little while to warm up to him
well , it HAS been almost 6 years darn it.
We went for lunch and talked alot.
I found out alot of things about the divorce
which is good I guess I mean , hey not every
kid from a broken family gets to know the whole my story
your story and slove the whole thing.
well , let's just say , everything I found out has to
be thrown into a 8 ft deep whole dugged by yours truly
Anyway so I got home and went to sleep for another 2 hours?
Gwen (= came over we headed to the esplanade to our mini oasis
we hung around for about 2 hours and went for supper with akira.
the walk home was really awesome the whole bottle thing was mad.
Gwen had to had home so I accompanied akira.
I found out alot of stuff about the dear boy which is good.
now , I can actually understand his nonsense =D
had fun talking , we hung out for 4 hours , just talking?
It was good though anyway so now , home sweet home.


let's face it , I'm boring :D

Oh christmas is a pisser but why does it have to be so beautiful.
an oxymoron like beautiful disaster would be perfect for this.

oh sweet love :D


I Keep Forgetting The Things You Tell me About Love

The iridescent glow of the words
that slipped and slid from your lips,
that caused the air to carry an ambrosial perfume
that flowed between the bars
of this beautiful cage
And drained into oblivion.

You smoked in the rain
As my reflection broke a glass
And threatened me in silence

I went away that day

Derided children
Played their games
While mountains sighed in rue.
The waters
eternally froze
For lily-white beings
To glissade in to the horizon.

And a simple quiescent dream
Of a glass castle
faded to a minim
in the back of my mind.
I was conquered.

I keep forgetting the things you tell me about love

poetry © 2004 Alixandra Velia G.

this is amusing and amazingly stupid extremely shallow and it's from ambercrombie and fitch.surprise , surprise.

Let there be love.


It's not pretty , but It's lovely
It's the eve of christmas baby.
Let me do my crime of being happy.
No one's going to rain on my parade
things are so weird now.
complicated has become and understatement.
I don't know whether I should.
Kissing on the envelopes , I wish you knew.
Something I don't feel ashame about.
Instead , I pass the blame.
Everybody knows that it's alright.
this is the season to be jolly they say.
So let's put our differences aside and party baby.
and of course , not forgetting the true meaning of x-mas.
which is , jesus christ was born to save us from our sins.
I sound all holy mofoic , but , It's true :D
why don't you just tell me how you feel.
Stop hiding it , I will love you all the same.
thank you , it's christmas , once again.
but this year's just not the same.
so , let there be love honey.
cause sugar , we're going down swinging
the talk of cliche.

karys's party was good (=



you know it always wins in the end.

Track 16



You left her dead , from head to toe.

Lust , V and I :D

I'VE BLOGGED 3 FUCKING TIMES IN LESS THAN AN HOUR!

Random

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die;
I am not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife!

//Hello goodbye

Just like every single tale that she told.
She was as beautiful and bold.
from the time She sat her eyes on the above
she thought to herself, Is it love?
She lefted in a jiff all confused.
thought to herself ,whats the use?
It's not as if he cares that she's there.
The time he has is not for her to spare.
Beauty she is , not in his eyes.
In love he thinks she is with other guys.
pushing him away is why she's dejected.
It's the secret fear of being rejected.
In her mind , there's a complicated affair indeed.
What she really yearns and greeds
For love that is more near
So when he's gone these words will still be here
she just wants to ease every fear
and dry up every tear
and make it loud and clear
Is it love or Is it but a fling.
to comprehend not to cling.
She lies , she lies to herself
when she knows it's reverse phsycology the size of an elf.
So she sits on the fence
In fully arm with self-defence.
he's created the cold hard bitch.
and now ,I'm going to listen to finch :D

FLICK


The party was fabulouso :D
I went with very little people
I mean , compared to Fling.
Underaged parties are actually nicer than the real thing.
I mean maybe it's cause I go to all the sleazy places
at MS , fuck my age :D(I just wanna grow old!)LOL.
Went with tehknee and V who btw , is at my house now :D
Met up with hannah melissa jewel and vanessa!
And also Akira and Jism head with some other guys.
We also met up with cia ,one of the co-org.:D
And soon after Kelly Charlene Sexy and beat came!
We partied all night long.
And of course , at every party there's the big
socializing factor LOL so we made friends with
Shawn or Sean , the old man , tiffany , jia en and the
"fine , ignore me guy" LOL.they were really nice people
S can crib walk really really well and they've got charisma
Made friends with this malay guy too can't remember his name tho
The music at one point was horrible but I guess it was alright
Cia asked them to change it.Jill's dancing was awesome :D
We met derick , yet again , at Flick.
Bottomline is , it was fun.
I'm drained , g'night folks


peace be with kelly and akira :D

you think you're so darn special.


I've been crazy over howlin pelle for exactly 2 days now.
He's so hot! He has the to-die-for eyes.yeap , no more Ian.
Well , at least for now.Anyway , beside my current craze.
I have another love with V , we have a current fascination
with none other than , techno music.
NO! , we do not listen to it instead , we make it
with the sounds coming out of our oh-so-lovely mouths :D
It irritates ner though haha but at least that's how
we get her to change really quickly in the dressing room
Yes , like almost every other girl that's in love with shopping
We were at mango today , I bumped into jism head's friend
Her name is Joanna if you must know.
Anyway V and Ner got their pants and stuff
met ah lian on the way , we all ate and stuff
before that , I had lunch with aleesha and celest
Yes , it's been 2 months , It was great I guess.
Went with them to work at Dan ryan's
No , they worked , I went with them there to
I don't know why either and It's their first day
anyway , I was left alone after that.
Lucky me , It was tanglin so there were alot of artsy fartsy places
They were beautiful , as in the art stuff.
Anyway after walking around and spotting cool party stuff and
Cool mary jane's at head to toes which cost 249 bucks
I went into this art gallery called , goddess? haha
The paintings there were awesome!
Oil based painting most of them
and there was this other shop with beautiful abstract.
Anyway at goddess , I was so mesmerized by the paintings
the way they were painted's actually really interesting
and then the lady had to ask , are you a arts student?
DAMN YOU!I'm not.I would very much love to be one.
but I didn't get it.ok that's not what I said
I said no , I just love art alot.
I felt like crying , emotional of my lose.
it's not fair that I don't get the chance to do many things
anyway then I went to barang barang , attracted by the paintings
and candles and the 250 couchy chair! hahaha.anyway , enuff said.
I'm going to sleep now , need to wake up at 11 in morn :D



Such deceit and betrayal.

the beach is sunny place for shaddy people :D




The only rain or shine day I love , christmas


Serangoon , where I live!


























swell time , thank you for loving me , V ner Gwen and Val :D

not a pretty face but , what beautiful legs.



spasms in the mind.
we watched the planes fly
and made did the unexpected
ate till we nearly blew up
snapped a private moment
and I killed them all :D

Untitled at the 13th hour.


I want to tell you exactly what's going through my mind.


SHOPPING
CHRISTMAS
MONEY
ME GOING BROKE
:D

Model: shazana
photographer: natasha
incase you're wondering , I have no idea who they are.



Photography is wonderful :D

stole this off some girl's friendster her name's natasha :D

I don't know what to say.
I can't face myself anymore in the mirror.
I stare at the sun and hide under a killing moon.
g'night folks.I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

the repitition of a loney soul


Yesterday , I fell asleep crying.
I've been letting myself down too much.
My nights have been turning black and white.
All the mistakes I've made keep repeating in my head.
It plays like a flim without a sound.
The words , " I don't want to turn out like him"
keep flashing in my mind like a warning sign.
life's been pretty fucked up for me.
I want to take the sleeping pills
to cure me of my insomia , It's very bad.
I clearly cannot sleep untill it reaches 4 or 5 in the morn
It's horrible , I'm getting eye bags.
I don't want get uglier than I already am.( yes , superficial)
I need to lose fucking weight but I wake up so late
I gets me all lethargic untill it's like 11 or 12 at night
I'll get all energetic but by then , the fucking gym's closed.
So I stay home and watch tv or get emo.
I wanna move out of the house although
I won't do too well on my own either.
I want to take sleeping pills so I can sleep at 8 pm
wake up the next day at 8 am , eat only one meal a day
go to the gym and the rest of the time's for me.
but the side effects are I might get addicted or worse
go insane , which is bad.cause I'm not sane as it already is.
I don't want to be a drug addict but I feel like I need to
My life's so fucked up right now.
And I have some friends who put me down.
It hurts me when they get too insensitve.
I know I seem like an unemotional freak at times.
hello ? I'm still human I can get sad and hurt or offended too.
But these fuckers , don't give a shit do they.
Damn it , I hate getting angry it always leaves me emotional.
not a great way to start your day aint it?
but still it started badly anyway.
with my mum screaming her head off in the morning.
My friend being vindicated , me the accuser.
I feel like a total bitch of myself.
I think I need to run and hide under a big rock.
cause I'm big so small rocks won't hide me.
I'm big fat and ugly. hoo-raahh


off the read of kurt now.

yes mummy , be proud of me.I've become so good at being random.

An afternoon shot my day with the best friend :D

chill out macdaddy day.

Woke up from a satanic dream at 11
Went to back to sleep cause
I told myself It was too early
and there's nothing to do
So I woke up again at about 2 or 3
stonned around the house.
Called up gwen to hang out
we went to bugis street to try a pancake
then to suntec to share our favourite
ban mian(sp?) then went to get some
yoghurt thing next to candy empire to get
a wonka bar and chilled at esplande with
lovely jazz music at first by the river
next to this old cute couple
whom we secretly took photos of
and the our next destination(yes corny)
was the roof where we chilled at a corner
behind all the architecture(sp?)
and we took lame candid(literally) photos
and talked all night and went to get
coffee ( technically hot chocolate)
at mrs fields and then we headed home!
I'm beat , night!

Amsterdam , somewhere I'd love to go.



I have been staying home all day
The only time I got out of the house
Is to buy my fucking top-up card.
I'm am now very convinced that I need a line
I've topping up my card almost every week
and it's killing me cause even when I don't
use it for a day.It cuts of 60 cents
That my friend is a anal prober.
I've been staying home alot alot.
I love it but turning down two friends
and having nothing to do is stupid.
well , the good thing that came out of today is.
I read a few chapters of heavier than heaven.
oh kurt , my beautiful DEAD grunge superstar :D
I threw up my lunch and my dinner's fine.
I smell really good due to the reccent change of soap.
my entry is really lame so bye. =/

can life get any lamer?!

my sweet serenity

I would love to escape to a place like that.
Maybe after I'm sec four I'll go to another
country for alone for a week or something
and do some self reflection.
I'd really love that , it'd be even better
If I had someone to experience it with :D
Have you ever felt like that there was
actually some hope in your most bitter life.
I mean there's actually someone there that
might actually have some meaning in your life.
but you're not entirely sure about it
cause you feel like they don't have the guts
to admit it and you don't want to admit either
cause you're both afraid of the rejection factor.
It's almost melodramatic , almost.
actually I like to question myself alot.
I mean I'm only short changing yourself if
you don't give it a try right? I know that.
Which is really ass man.
and you're starting to feel like
you're day isn't complete without talking to them
I know It sounds crazy.
Imagine that , you guys even had an imediate connection.
It's absolutely crazy I might just ask Vick to slap me.
I can almost say I've never been this excited in my life.
Oh my gosh! haha this sounds like I'm copying lizzie's entry
but heck no! I'm just agreeing with her that my whole life can
be related to songs man.music plays a big part of my life
that was random but true! music makes me lose control
even that phrase sounds cliche all of sudden!
Today I had alot of fun! I spent the entire day with ner and vick:D
We cooked ( maybe marvick did that) we watched movies talked nonstop
and else you have we danced we I don't know what else to say
but the bottomline is , It was awesome (once again , very alyssa woo-hoo!).
I have so much to say and so little time and so little space
and what have you so I need to take a chill pill , love! (=

Isn't she a beau.


I've been rather odd lately.
Just a moment ago , I was sitting at the christmas tree
and staring at lights wondering what am I going to do
with my life.I even started comparing my life with
kurts , very similar I must say
I mean if you minus the drama and a little
be less exaggaration.You get the formula
of a kurt cobain.I'm not saying it as a form of flattery
really , I mean dream big live small.
my life's like all about that right now.
I'm so afraid of whats going to happen in the future.
My life's not making much sense to me.
I feel quite lost.
Lost , in my words my thoughts my dreams.
It's all not tallying up.
As I go on typing , I don't even know what
I'm saying anymore.Help me please?
I'm starting to love being introvert.
but I know once school starts
I'd have no choice but to socialize
cause without my friends
school would be meaningless to go for.
But right now , I love alone time
All i need's a Mp3 and you'll get a whole
new marisse isabel A. caine K. that's my name btw.
I've planning alot of alone outings.
Once I get my laptop and Mp3 , I'll be an introvert
for sure.No more saturday nut outings.
more off the stay home or go to punggol to
be alone.Ok , I know I'm just saying this right now.
cause I'm being weird.So please don't take me seriously.
I need help and I admit it.

Chilling in the sun with myself.

internal suffering.


I've been home for almost the whole day
I only left the house for an hour and a half or so.
and it was to the gym alone.
I spent one dollar and fifty cents on nothing
fuck my period.I had very bad cramps.
partly cause my body's weak from not enough rest
thanks to my lovely momma and secondly cause I
didn't eat anything but a banana.
I felt under pressure to lose weight
My mother.Joey and whoever.
I mean I'm really alright with it
you know how to the lunar rhmythms get to you
And apparently , I tend to overthink things.
So I didn't eat , now I feel like a bimbo.
It's not something I would do.
cause it's fucking hell stupid.
damn it.I'm not going to try that stunt ever again.
Who cares if i'm fat man! you guys love me cause
of my personality! yeap it's the ego talking.
I watched alot of TV today and I read alot too.
I hope to finish heavier than heaven asap.
It's a really nice book.I now know that
kurt cobain lost his virginity at 16 :D.
I watched the real world(paris).
Alot of intersting shit going on.
bottomline is , make love not war!
I've got to get to bed now.
The sandman's waiting to bomb my eyes with teardust.
damn that's a fucking cheesy figure of speech.



Daria , I need you.

Morning Beautiful.


What an awful day to start out my day like this
I've been sleeping at 5 in the morning
consecutively for the the past week or so.
I've totally screwed up my body clock.
Maybe I should fly to the states and stay there
and maybe get blown up by them.
I mean It isn't the people of afghan's fault
I mean If you thing about it.
I think they were simply misunderstood.
I mean suffering like them 24/7
obviously there must be alot of rage in them.
They curse to the sky in great dispair.
Why do THEY have to suffer so much
and those bloody americans ,
having the whole 'lifestyles of the rich and famous'
not all of them mostly the whites.
don't get me wrong.I'm not being racist here
hey I love the ang mohs.
Most of the music I listen to are by them anyway.
How contridicting anyway
as I was saying , I've been sleeping at ungodly hours
of the morning.I woke up to this mad woman screaming at me
famously known as , 'marisse's crazy mum!'.
I love her alot , really.d-oh.blood ties dudes.
but she can get really childish and anal.
oh wells , i guess it's her characther trait or smth.
Anyway , I gave town a skip today.
I'm staying home maybe put up the christmas tree.
I'm going to the gym to lose weight
People have been calling me fat man.
I need to be dragged of my seat.
I'm going to do art too.
I'm going to be home by 8.30 to watch tiramisu.
yes , very aunty indeed.I guess it's cause I miss poks.




Chill with me Mcdaddy.

a lack of colour

How do I start?
My week has been rather stagnent so far.
Although , hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I went for a Job interview today for kelp ,
this fashion brand if you must know.
Anyhows , I sort of got the Job as in
, I was actually hired till
I told them I couldn't do full time next year.
So they said they'll call me tomorrow.
pray for me people!I need the job , really.
First , so I can get my mum off my back.
Secondly , I need to dang cash.
Anyway , Everyone's so busy now.
Juggling friends and work and other trivial shit gets kind of tiring.
I've been staying home alot reccently.
I've become quite the homegirl.
I can join tehknee and suee's club.
As far as boring entry maybe ,
I've kind of lost my flow.
So If I start talking crap please don't get any furthur.
I'm becoming really boring.
Once again , cause I've got no one to love.
But on a lighter note , It's great being a SWINGING SINGLE :D.
I've been painting and drawing alot.
I bought a book.
The tittle's heavier than heaven.
It's the biography for kurt cobain.ya' know the guy from nirvana?
yea , I figured too.
His eyes are to die for.
I couldn't help but drool over the dead man's eyes.
yes , he's dead.
It would be very controversial for me to say ,
Love makes the world go round right now.
I know alot of people for example , lizard , will debate against it.
I'm so random.
Why not try clicking on more intersting blog like leezordos'.
G'night.
The tooth fairy thing really made sense coming from a senseless person like her.=D






sweet!

hello my sweethearts. :D

My week has been rather relaxing
I'm happy to say , I don't hate anybody.
really , I'm not saying that just for saying sake
I'm so over the bitch phase.
I can actually stand proudly and say , I'VE MATURED.
I'm actually tired of bitching.
My way of dealing with things now is
Let the person get what she or he wants
leaving them satisfied with themselves
and know someday the will learn it the hard way
like how I did.I mean losing a friend like phoebe
It was sheer stupidity.I can only pray now
that nothing of that sort of shit will happen again.
I'm happy with my bestfriend.if we still are.
I doesn't matter she is to me anyway.
Phoebe , you're the one I spent most of my
happy times.The most dull parts of my life
and the whole nine yards.It's so cliche.
but friends forever?till the end , I hope.
Anyway , my style now is , compromise.
or at least somewhere along that line
I can't say for certain that I won't be the gossip folk again
I most definately will , but , I'll try.
If you find this boring , please do not go on.
Cause the fucking special shit is going to go on.
anyhows , not everyone can say they have a past
a past that had made an impact on alot of people, really.
this time , it's not the ego talking.
I mean I manage to get so many to here my story about 'us'
us as in refering to phoebe and I.
If you're part of the 'shit'
think of it my childish appetiate(sp?) for mean girls part two?
Anyway , Phoebe I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused you.
I hope this calls for new begginings cause it'd be s' wonderful
I remember us looking at other people and saying that
we'll never have a huge fight like this
and we would leave clothes at each other's house saying
we're going to see each other for the next 2 years anyway
I miss the ability to say all that without having to choke on my words.
let's start over , love you! (=
anyway , enuff of the mush mush.


boys will be boys.

Lovely.

Just like heaven

So much for the day off.I met gwen :D
We went to town didn't know what to do
bumped into treeshaaniniriripopo
and walked around and talked like
there was no tomorrow
so we caught a movie , just like heaven
It was awesome , really.
I wanted to cry but I guess I couldn't
considering I've been crying all afternoon
Due to the overwhelming reflectionatin(yes no such word)
Considering I'm such a hopeless romantic , It was really good.
I had a great time with gwen well , It has been long!
I have to say sorry to JH for being so harsh on him just now.
yeap , since I got that off my chest I feel better :)
Anyhoos ,for my so-called day off
I spent It playing the piano
Downloading songs , watching totally spice( HAHA Lizzie and suee)
I spent It crying and gettin very emo
It was really good , like therapy or smth
I feel lighther after crying.
It really helps anyhows , I'm off to sleep now
cause I have to go to church at 11.30 tomorrow.
PRAISE THE LORD ANYONE?

Hello world , sometimes I wonder whether people actually read my blog.
HAHA cause I'd be pretty embarassing cause sometimes I write stuff
that simply make no sense to other people.But obviously does to me.
Anyway , I've decided to take the day off for a day , I think
since my friend gwen just asked me out , I'm not sure I can take
the day off , ha-ha.anyway , for now I'm just going to chill out
with myself reflect on my life.maybe write a few songs.practice the
piano or just hibernate and go to sleep or maybe pamper myself
and take a really long bathe till my fingers turn pruney(sp?).
So after I reflect maybe just maybe , I might blog again.
so you if there are people reading my blog.

Stop crying your heart out

You know how sometimes people make you feel all special
For the moment , like you've never felt that way before
The person cannot stop corresponding with you
Like you're the b'all and end'all of ev'rything
but overnight you're nothing more than a friend?
You soon realise you've been nothing more than a fling
you were just used for some reasons
you kind of want to tell the person off.
but am afraid cause of the being too presumptous fact.
Oh yes , I forgot to mention
I wrote a song of my own a few days back
with a tune this time
so if you want to hear it , just ask me.
It's an emo song so If you're not into that kinda shit
please don't approach me for a demo.
cause it'll be a total waste of your time
on a lighther note ,
I went to chinablack yesterday
It was awesome! The people were great
the music was not bad , not bad at all.
We danced all night till the early morn
grinding and cribing
it was sweet!
I went to stacys' party today too.
It was alright.
I can't wait for the next chinablack party!
anyway I'm drained so , love!







But a Fling

For Vick , A simple game of copy and paste?

Rules of the game:
1) Post 5 weird or random facts about yourself.
2) At the end, write the names of 5 people whom you want to do this quiz, then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.
5 random facts about myself:
1. I like to shake my legs
2. I like to listen to loud music
3. I like my hair to smell good
4. I think I'm really cool
5. As much as I like loud music I love Silence.

5 PEOPLE I WANT
1. Vick
2. Alicia
3. Jenny
4. Bird
5.damn choices , how about the rest of the world?

Some other thing :

1. Vick
2. bird
3 alicia
4 su
5 tanny
6 lizard
7 ner
8 rachel
9 Esther
10 Alyssa
11 Jenny
12 Siewhwee
13 eunice
14 phoebe
15 julia
16 janice
17 dory
18 zoe
19 evon
20 ashley

How did you meet 13?:
Art festival

What would you do if you never met 5?
I'd probably die of dullness


What do you honestly think of 10?: She's AWESOME!

Have you ever liked 3?: how can I not love alicia tan.how can anyone?!

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?: OH MY GOSH , ARE YOU KIDDIN , I'D PROBABLY CRY MYSELF TO DEATH , VICKY EH!

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?: HAHAHA.BAD MENTAL IMAGE

Do you think 12 is hot?: She's cold and she's cruel but she knows I love her.

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?:seems really wrong dude

Do you know any of 3's family members?: Yeap definately

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?: Phoebe? superficially? probably 8


What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you: I would say I KNEW IT!how wouldn't love marisse man!?

What language does 19 speak?: English, never heard her spoke chinese before.

Who is 8 going out with?: With someone on this numbered list. I dont really think they would want me to announce it in any way.

Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?: No it's twisted.

When was the last time you talked to 6?: a few hours ago.

What is 18's favorite band?: HURH!?

Does 4 have any siblings?: 2 siblings.

Would you ever date 1?: Nah, it'll just screw the whole friendship up.

Would you ever date 7?: once again , it'll screw up the friendship

Is 15 single?: YES!

What is 19's last name?: oh no

What is 3's middle name?: pei xuan right?!

What is 10's fantasy?: hot unattainable man

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?: wtf

What school does 16 go to?: my school

What school does 1 go to?: My school

Where does 9 live?: Bishan

Would you make out with 13?: I don't know

Are 5 and 6 best friends?: They're like stuck to the hip.

Is 20 older than you?: yeap

Is 4 the sexiest bitch prettiest girl alive?: HAHAHA WHAT!?

Is 17 your ex?: was hahahaha (don't take me seriously )

Do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?: you've got to be kidding

How is 2?: she's adorable!! (=


my amigos , this is g'bye.( cheese galore)

yesterday was one of those days where you'd probably regret not having a fucking camera.Once again , I would tell myself. Marisse , just let it go.It's going to be one of those memories for the mind.usually very significant.yes no? For those of you who have no fucking idea what the fuck I'm talking about , I'm talking about the netball sec four farewell.The Candle thing was awesome (yes , very alyssa woo-hoo).We made a pathway of candles from the main hall all the way to the netball court at the end of the path we made a heart and inside the heart there were the words , we love you.Ain't we just a sweet bunch of fools.I'm in deep shit now , I've been partying non-stop.It's pissing my mum off.I'm going to chinablack tonight and To some other party tomorrow and the third place gig.I really wanna go for all the crap.HELP GOD HELP! =/

I'M SELLING 4 CHINABLACK TICKETS FOR
THURSDAY NIGHT ON THE 24TH OF
NOVEMBER FOR FLING THE TICKET COSTS
$12 IF YOU WANT THEM PLEASE CALL ME ,
MARISSE AT 91947511
OR IF YOU WANNA CALL ME JUST FOR CALL LA.
HA-HA OK NOT FUNNY.
BUY THE TICKETS PLEASE.

yes , I indeed have become an extreme one.
I mean who yells out at on the dance floor
like broken recorder that It's boring.
hot damn , that's me.
We couldn't get into cheekopeh monkey's.
They said the police was havin an operation
or at least some shit like that.
any-hoos , even our bartender and bouncer friend
couldn't get us in , yes hot damn.ha-ha.
so we ended up going to desire and phunk.
which was completely boring
ok at least in my opinion , phunk is cooler
then cheekopeh monkeys BUT it's emptier.
anyway so we ended up at desire
cause the guys didn't wanna pay for the entry
at phunk.anyway , they WERE fun afterall.
That small ah beng dude was funny
I think jin huey's high
he couldn't stop blowing smoke into my face
hello? what's up dudette?!
anyway , I was sayin to the ah lian
It's so sad we didn't even get smoke on our clothes.
damn , gotta go.ALL THE LOVE (=








yes gettin wasted was a better idea , esmond you are a lucky ass!

How I would Love to speak this words , but , I don't want to make things any worse.

Oh wells , It has been a very very eventful holiday for me.
So has it been a really really boring holiday for me.
I mean , who the hell gets kind of bored from clubbing.
I have been absent from trainin for 2 weeks
Somehow , everyone wants me there for training
see, I told you I'm undeniably lovable.
Marisse Wonderland currently cost 3 dollars per flight ticket.
Ain't I just a bowl of crap to sniff?
where's the sense in that.
I've been thinkin the most random stuff
I'm startin to think like daria.
Gosh , there's nothing in my hand , am I losing it?
On a lighther note , I am going for Fling.
Cause It's with my friend's
SO that clubbing seems well , fun.
I almost died at church the other day
due to lack of sleep, caffine overdose I suppose?
hey , it rhymes!slap me with a fish and dig a hole for my head.
Went out with binky today , It was amusing I must say.
It's boring yet un-boring
well what can say , it's binky afterall
You can never hate her undenianly nice presence.
Anyway On the depressing side of the holidays
It seems like I'm at your disposal again.
Oh well , what's new.I'm like a fool to you.
11th of november which so happens to be the 11th month of the year
at the 11 minutes after the 11th hour , I was suppose to tell you
the hellos , maybes , sorrys and goodbyes. I missed it.
screwed things up again , I always seem to screw something good for me
Go away! maybe I should become a goth or smth to suit my characther.
damn it I'm a fag , so g'night and g'bye to the holy mofo
in other words , me.


It's an oxymoron ,yet again another understatement

Yesterday I got forced out of my bed to go get a job by my mum and guess what!? At the interview to smart Alec remarks came out! Thank God! Temptation was high on my side to say it was my mum! She’s forcing me to take the job! I think it turned out fine. I hope at least I mean my fine is like normal people's average I mean when it comes to terms of acceptance cause I really don't actually give a shit about anybody who don't concern but if you're my friend, you're going to feel a whole alotta loveeee.hahaha considering my loopiness. Come on everyone I am undeniably lovable! Haha. Anyway, I hung out with my thirteen long relationship best friend yesterday. Oh how I love her. Her name’s Hannah. When I wanted to go home yesterday my card had no money! I was stuck at plaza damn it! Apparently, I had no money either yes everyone say, LOSER! I had money, but it was at home. I didn’t want to wait for a cab any more cause 10 empty cabs went past me like what the fuck. Anyway Stacy came to my rescue so all was fine we went to orchard towers with Joey Jin Hui and their friend to look at ho’s to see how they actually look like. Damn cool. Haha.anyway I may be writing a book but I don’t know what’s the title going to be. I sound crazy, I know. But It was my friend’s idea from church since I’m always talking about Ian, my imaginary boyfriend If you must know. He’s Hot! He’s perfect and He’s not real (damn the world) oh wells. What do you think of the perfect boyfriend as a title? A little too cheesy? I think so too. Unless you beg to differ, tell me! Love!






Hot damn , Ian.