my sweet serenity

I would love to escape to a place like that.
Maybe after I'm sec four I'll go to another
country for alone for a week or something
and do some self reflection.
I'd really love that , it'd be even better
If I had someone to experience it with :D
Have you ever felt like that there was
actually some hope in your most bitter life.
I mean there's actually someone there that
might actually have some meaning in your life.
but you're not entirely sure about it
cause you feel like they don't have the guts
to admit it and you don't want to admit either
cause you're both afraid of the rejection factor.
It's almost melodramatic , almost.
actually I like to question myself alot.
I mean I'm only short changing yourself if
you don't give it a try right? I know that.
Which is really ass man.
and you're starting to feel like
you're day isn't complete without talking to them
I know It sounds crazy.
Imagine that , you guys even had an imediate connection.
It's absolutely crazy I might just ask Vick to slap me.
I can almost say I've never been this excited in my life.
Oh my gosh! haha this sounds like I'm copying lizzie's entry
but heck no! I'm just agreeing with her that my whole life can
be related to songs man.music plays a big part of my life
that was random but true! music makes me lose control
even that phrase sounds cliche all of sudden!
Today I had alot of fun! I spent the entire day with ner and vick:D
We cooked ( maybe marvick did that) we watched movies talked nonstop
and else you have we danced we I don't know what else to say
but the bottomline is , It was awesome (once again , very alyssa woo-hoo!).
I have so much to say and so little time and so little space
and what have you so I need to take a chill pill , love! (=