internal suffering.


I've been home for almost the whole day
I only left the house for an hour and a half or so.
and it was to the gym alone.
I spent one dollar and fifty cents on nothing
fuck my period.I had very bad cramps.
partly cause my body's weak from not enough rest
thanks to my lovely momma and secondly cause I
didn't eat anything but a banana.
I felt under pressure to lose weight
My mother.Joey and whoever.
I mean I'm really alright with it
you know how to the lunar rhmythms get to you
And apparently , I tend to overthink things.
So I didn't eat , now I feel like a bimbo.
It's not something I would do.
cause it's fucking hell stupid.
damn it.I'm not going to try that stunt ever again.
Who cares if i'm fat man! you guys love me cause
of my personality! yeap it's the ego talking.
I watched alot of TV today and I read alot too.
I hope to finish heavier than heaven asap.
It's a really nice book.I now know that
kurt cobain lost his virginity at 16 :D.
I watched the real world(paris).
Alot of intersting shit going on.
bottomline is , make love not war!
I've got to get to bed now.
The sandman's waiting to bomb my eyes with teardust.
damn that's a fucking cheesy figure of speech.



Daria , I need you.