the last day.

when will it come.
i miss you like crap
the feelin is fadin
i should be happy right?
but i feel like crap
i dont want the feelin to fade.
i wanna see you
and when i do
im all outta words.
the other day when i saw you
as in to pass you the gift.
i felt like vomitin seriously
i felt like cryin seriously
i think i was realleh nervous
like now, my hands are tremblin
i dont know why. just hopin
you'de get to see this.
i'm tearin up inside.
in retrospect.i wish i never met you.
i wouldn't have loved you
i wouldn't have hurt so much
i wouldn't have cried so much
i wouldn't be so emotional
i wouldn't have changed.
i'm cryin again just typin this crap
well. lookin at the brightside
at least i loved deeper
at least i have loads of songs now
at least i got to know someone
that's almost perfect.WHY!?
i tell everyone i'm over you
but the truth is , i never got over you
sometimes i realise
i don't have anyone to realleh talk to.
i'm tryin so hard to get over you
sometimes i wonder.
was there ever reverse phsycology?
cause you were always there
when we were still talkin-talkin.
i feel so lost. i feel so bad.
yes, i'm still in lurvee with you.
i wanna let go cause. i dont wanna hurt
i dont wanna let go
cause i know yer worth it.
but i should let go cause
you're outta my leugue.[heck the spellin]
its been a year and half now.
fuck im so caught up.
-gone

FRIDAY. YADA YADA YADA.

seriously, i've nothin much to say
just felt like bloggin
came late fer school again.
i'll have to do 100 jumping jacks
on monday or tuesday. - LAUGHS
gonna look like some fool.
anyhows. was late fer maths.
mrs thurai kept naggin.bitch shutup.
she kept hinting me she was gonna
send me to ms gan. i was like
WHATEVER MAN. like i friggin ` care.
i just kept on readin archie. -LAUGHS.
i was practically engrossed in it already. - LAUGHS
anyhows. the clique has a sudden obsession wit
volleyball.HAHA.we're even plannin on
going to the beach on labour day. - LAUGHS
i think my mommas gonna slash my fucken brains out
i'm goin out fer the whole weeken which mean
SPEND SPEND SPEND. SOMEBODY STOP ME AND SLAP ME!!
HAHA.anyhows. the whole days pretty good.
after school went home to get ready fer art fest.
phoeb's came too. then went over to her place
met up wit lizard.she's damn retarded pls.
anyhows.we took a cab down to school.
when we were there we were like.
OH MY FUCKIN GAWD. we are so over dressed. -LAUGHS
we looked like we were gonna go to town pls. HAHA.
met up wit jenny then hwee and fangs.
lizard kept runnin away from ms gan lar.
cause of her fuckin hair. HAHA.
anyhows.we went in the hall for the concert.
then we met up wit su cher azilah and eunice
saw the others too. ahahas , damn funneh. argh nvm
pretty drained out now.
lizard is damn mean lar.
she was like LOOK at THE BIRD! - LAUGHS.
she said it so fucken loud pls.
even the mrs goh wannabe turned around.
after that went for supper.
me hwee phoebs fangs jenny lizard and eunice.
we crappin like fuck
we were bored like fuck
and we didn't wanna go home.
damn but im home now.
- gone

I SEE DEAD PEOPLE

a'rightts. i don't.
but i want mrs thurai dead.
nahhs.she can't YOU KNOW WHY?!
CAUSE SHE'S SATAN!!! SHE IS!
SHE BLOODY FUCKING HELL IS!!
She drives me FUCK NUTS.
today i was bein so pessimistic
my instincts told me she was gonna
scold me today.AND SHE DID.
oh wells.i'm not exactly psychic cause
i know she'll get me for everyhing i do.
I HATE HER!! I HATE HER!! I HATEEEE HER!!
right at the start of the period.
i just turned around to ask fer a friggin marker
and she said.STOP DISRUPTING THE LESSON.
LIKE WHAT THE WORLD IS FUCKIN WRONG WITH MIND.
I STARTED ANSWERIN BACK. I WAS LIKE 'I'M NOT'
she said ' then why is yer book not on the table'
what the fuck it was.is she fuckin blind!?
she's already wearin glasses for cryin out loud
i was like ' HERE! HERE! CANT YOU SEE IT !? '
and she threw me her dumb fuck look
and i was like ' whatever '. HAHA.
then she said
' everyone has is doin their work but me '
GO FUCK YERSELF BYOTCH.
no one was doin their fuckin work
not even VAL! SHE'S JUST A FUCKIN BLACK FOOL!!
HATE HER !she's so fuckin biase
i swear i think she's out to get me.
anyhows. then sulynn was like. 'NOT EVERYONE IS'
then she was like sayin smth to ME.
then i was like ' i didn't even say that '
she was like ' but yer actions show it '
like what the fuck.that's sucha lame excuse.
for her dumb assness.
she's makin me sinful.byotch!
anyhows. then she was like sayin some stuff
that were dumb fucken out of point
then i told her.'yer so out of point'
she asked me to repeat it 3 times.
what is she that fuckin hell deaf?
then she said my attitude was out of place
out of point again.
then she just count. her lesson
then i purposely irritated her again HAHA.
i slept !! HAHA. then she was like
' what is yer problem ? '
i was like ' allergy '
i wanted to say allergic to you!HAHA
but somehow fuckin forgot
then she said ' im allergic to you '
i was like ' im allergic to you too '
then she was like ' one more excuse out you go! '
i was prayin fer her to send me out of class
at least then i can study smth else
or wonder around or go fer my own recess.HAHA.
anyhows.aft school suppose to go to the gym
but ended up playin in school with hwee.
we played baseball. damn lame. HAHA.
then we ate. i bought milo wit PEARLS.HAHA
then AW came she drank up alot my pearls.
till i didn't even wanna drink it no more
so started playin wit the drink
i poured away the milo filled it with water
i looked like barley. then started askin pple
whether they were thirsty. damn funny fuck shiat.
HAHA.anyhows.
hwee and i went to sit at the table
wit su lizard eunice and beacon. damn funneh lar
they cant stop singing.
lizard's face so damn fuckin
CONSTIPATED.HAHA. anyhows. went home. slept.
YADA YADA YADA.
HAHA.I KNOW WHO LIZARD LIKES.
FINALLY HAHA.
knew it damn long ago
but she kept denyin it.
BITCH.HAHA.KIDDIN.
anyhows. tsktsktsk. - gone

HEAL ME.

i dont know what to do now.
i'm soooo sad.i'm heart sick.
frankly , i'm not despo.
but seriously , i dont know why
i dont seem to wanna let go
its been more than a year now.
i've become more sober and deep
gawwwd. that feelin again.
i hate it.it feels like..IDONTKNOW.
it makes me feel bad.
it makes me wanna cry
but the tears are gone now.
to top it all of.i listenin to emo.
HAHA like whats wrong wit me?!
i feel sooooo tired.
tired physically tired phsycologically
totally drained out.
i'm even afraid to see lizard.
i'll have to make a sarcastic remark back
im so drained out i can barely think.
i'm gettin into so much friggin trouble.
i'm like a fugitive in the school
always runnin away from teachers.
but its not my fault they see me as a rebel
assume assume. thats all they do
has it ever occured to em that
im sick of them too?!
i'm so messed up right now.
i dont know.i mean
i like you soooo much.
but im not fuck sure if you still know it
i hate this crap.
anyhows.HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

gone without much <3

WELL WELL WELL XX))

the past few days hav been realleh fun
KINDA FORGOT what happend recently
guess its cause im drain out already
or maybe cause lizard drain me out of
my sarcasm or maybe the past hangin
out with those so called ah bengs
made me so tooo cheena to think
and no , that doesnt make me an
AH - lian no offence. yeahhs.


GONE and DRAINED -

what more thang.

DIE PEOPLE DIE

INNER CONFUSION.

don't know whats goin on wit me
for these past frggin days.
i mean.i've been so high
but seriously, deep down inside.
i keep thinkin and thinkin
about so many stuff
i'm so CONFUSED.
i don't know.i LOVE you.
but i don't know if you know it.
so shitified. BOO HOO YOU!!HAHA


-think think THINK!!

gone

FRIDAY.

i think i practically
spent the whole friggin day in school
anyhows, it was pretteh fun.
LIZARD has to STOP CALLIN PHOEBE
AH LIAN.[ can ya see the msg?]HAHA.
she isnt.seriously.ah lian just
ain't gonna fit in her friggin style.
yeahhs.anyhows.wenta the concert
it was pretteh radical man!!.
WOOHOO.did'nt realleh expect much
outta it.anyhows.i think that
velvet roses ain't so bad yeahhs?
but BITTER LIBRETY ONE AUTHORITY AND SURREAL.
REALLEH ROCK!!OHGAWWDDD.
the eye candys were realleh CANDY.
HAHA, i know am not makin sense but
HELL CARE ANW. =)) - high
went to the concert wit
SARAH.FANGS.HWEE.PHOEBS.CHARLENE.KELLY
didnt miss anyone out right?HOPE NOT!
we met up wit a few peeps there
like su.alyssa.cant realleh remember
but i remember JESSLYN.HAHA.
SHE'S SERIOUSLY RETARDED.-LAUGHS.
after that went fer supper
then HOME SWEEET HOME =))


SATURDAY

went out wit delicia.phoebs.paul.=))
it was mad fun.altough i was a lil ` pms-y
sry guys if i destroyed the mood.
tuition my kuzzin first before going ta town
the pacifier was some funny fuck man!HAHA
i'm soo lurvvin the show.
anyhows.we were like sooo retarded.
we were suppose to go ta somerset rightt?
but we ended up going to paragon
and posed wit all the statues from the
fashion show.some funneh shiat man.=))
anyhows.then we went str8 home.
DEL.MEH.PHOEBS. dropped at serangoon
poor paul had to go kovan.sorreh GF.
dont be sad no more ok? LURVVE YA.


TODAY.


todays pretteh alright
wenta cat class in the morning
then went str8 to this parteh at the church
so friggin far away though
but it was all simple fun i guess.
anyhows.it was a missionary i think
anyhows.i was infested wit bees.
but din get stung by em `
yeahhs so i guess it was alrightts.
then went fer mass.
it was so friggin hot
i felt soooo lethargic.[spell?]
ahahas,when were suppose to say
PEACE BE WIT YOU.
everyone was like PEACE!!
then they did the hiphop sign
so retarded pls.
then we sang the easter song
the part which were suppose ta sing
ROCKS AND HILLS.
they were like " ...rocks and RILLS."
ahhas.retarded pls.
anyhows.went str8 home after that
nice bondin wit momma.=))
anw.just woke up from a pretteh long slp

-gone

" insert title "

today was pretteh fun
yes , pretteh fun indeed.
I WORE FLIP FLOPS to school.HAH!
anyhows , the NAPFA part was
realleh FUN!!! kajsdndjkasd
who the fuck would'nt agree
accpect the help tini part.pffft
anyhows , the helpin part was pretteh ok
but HOLDIN THE UMBRELLA PART WAS FUN!!!
ms chan and ms hazelin are sooo nice
SUP IS SOOOO LAME.
what's with the HAZELINSNOWCREAM crap.
HAHA.anw we played ball after that
it was FUN. we won.i realleh did'nt expect that
to happen it was so unpredictable.HAHA.
anyhows , after SU fell [ CREDITS GO TO QY ]
we all sat in a corner me , hwee , fangs
lizard , su , MEL , mari..OPPS. i mean grace
and suying yeahhs we were all talkin about HER*
* cause don't wanna hurt anyones frggin feelins.
yeahhs.i'm SOOOOOO nice pls.HAHA.
anyhows , then we started talkin and talkin
yadayadayada.
then we also talked about
YOU KNOW WHO abt her perverticness.
HAHA.i had loads of fun i guess
anyhows , kinda lost my 'flow'
i think my blog needs re-vampin

- gone

WE'RE GONNA GIVE LIZARD A PAN!-LAUGHS

WHATALOTTALURVEE.

NETBALLCAMP.
i hate to admit it but.
THE CAMP WAS VEREH FUN.
i think we got alot closer.
there's no doubt about that.
see.i dont even mine lizard's.
DUMB comments anymore.HAHA.
my group didn't sound so fun at first.
but in the end i was wrong.
ONLY WICKED PPLE JUDGE.-guilty
anyhoos.amazing race was fustratin.
but then again realleh fun.HAHA.
our group could'nt stop laughin
sometymes we'd laugh fer no pratical reason.
HAHA.i got to know alot of pple in group better.
for some i did'nt even know exsist.HAHA.

KIMBERLY -full of funny shiat.
SHABANA -no comment.HAHA
AMANDA -crazeh fuck that could'nt stop laughin.
ISABELLA -she's like amanda's long lost twin.
CHARLENE -pure sweetness with alota lameness.
LINETTE -she's realleh deep in a freaky way.

I'M NOT JUDGE-IN AND NOT SHOWIN FAVOURTISM.
linette.seriuosly is freaky i mean.ohhs.nvm
wanna know?just ask me why.
shall harp about it another day XXD


AVRIL CONCERT!!!!

WOOHOOO
lurvve it.it wass totalleh rockin.
she's so damn friggin pretteh.
she's so damn friggin sweet.
you can tell.and PUG JELLY
was the openin act.
so FRIGGIN COOL.
the rawkked.
left the place.
SAW MASASHI.
got his autograph
wrote a song.
HOME SWEET HOME =))
-gone