HEAL ME.

i dont know what to do now.
i'm soooo sad.i'm heart sick.
frankly , i'm not despo.
but seriously , i dont know why
i dont seem to wanna let go
its been more than a year now.
i've become more sober and deep
gawwwd. that feelin again.
i hate it.it feels like..IDONTKNOW.
it makes me feel bad.
it makes me wanna cry
but the tears are gone now.
to top it all of.i listenin to emo.
HAHA like whats wrong wit me?!
i feel sooooo tired.
tired physically tired phsycologically
totally drained out.
i'm even afraid to see lizard.
i'll have to make a sarcastic remark back
im so drained out i can barely think.
i'm gettin into so much friggin trouble.
i'm like a fugitive in the school
always runnin away from teachers.
but its not my fault they see me as a rebel
assume assume. thats all they do
has it ever occured to em that
im sick of them too?!
i'm so messed up right now.
i dont know.i mean
i like you soooo much.
but im not fuck sure if you still know it
i hate this crap.
anyhows.HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

gone without much <3