and they say you can't hide it but I did all this while.

OH PUPPET

brace yourselves for another boring enrty by marisse caine.

well , i guess i can say that my day has been well spent
considering I've got a two new knickers
yes I love my panties I think Alicia was the one who
influenced me about the knicker obsession haha
thanks uhhleeshaa cause I take comfort into knowing
what I'm wearing underneath my pants/skirts/shorts
are b-e-a-utiful you know incase of one night stands
just playing.here's what happened at dorothy perkins.

me: hello!

russell:hello! you're alica's friend right

me: yeaaaa haha marisse

russell:so how long have you been working here?

me: errrr I don't work here hahaa

both of us : -_______-'

well, at least now I know that I look like I can work
at a fashion boutique.I'm so lame. My sunday has been pretty
good I guess yeap and I got a pair of jeans from Queen coulture
at the heeren and I checked out the gays at the haviannas
alyssa was talking about oh yea speaking of alyssa
ALYSSA WOO IF YOU READ THIS WHEN WILL WE HAVE LUNCH WITH ESTHER!?


I told my mum I was lesbian when I was in secondary one :D

I am suppose to feel pissed off right?
I mean I do have the right to am I wrong?
I don't know why I can't feel my anger fully
Why the fuck did i have to block it out
Now that I can feel I pretty much get a headache
most of the time that is. I realised that
saying sorry isn't the hardest.
It's having to mean what you said that's hard
whatever , I think I'm left speechless
I mean hello? I feel really LC right now
well , at least now I fit the bill perfectly
for my HC-GF most loved , Siva :))))
What am I suppose to say now
I wanna hear that it's been erased
and that they're sorry.
fuck you all.

AKIRA IS STUPID
STUPID IS AKIRA
AKIRA SHOULD GET SOME BRAINS
THEN HE'LL BE MORE SANE
HE'S SO LOST IN HIS PIERCINGS
HE LIKES TO PLAY ON THE SWING
BECAUSE HE'S SO GAY
WE SHOULD ALL KILL HIM TODAY
AKIRA IS A FUCKER
HE NEEDS A MARKER
FOR HIS LEGS
SO WE CAN COLOUR IT TILL THEY SMELL LIKE EGGS
THAT ARE ROTTEN
AND AFTER THE SMELL HE WILL BE FORGOTTEN
NO MORE FRIENDS WITH AKIRA
WE'RE IN A NEW ERA =DDD

let's get wild


where do I begin?
Should I start at time when you first called?
or foward to the first time
you gave me 'the stare'
I'm either reading too much into it
and am becoming melodramatic again
I look at your name and repeat to myself , fuck you
I heard that you were feeling obnoxious again.
well that's really nice to hear
at least now , you're suffering in the process
typical situation , typicial angel

HUNG-GA-REEE??

THERE'S REALLY NOTHING ELSE TO SAY AND I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT.

sooooooooo vulgar why so vulgar?

ART OR PERVERSION?
WELL ,YOU PICK.
AVIS DIED TODAY ):
DUE TO CORNFLAKES

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Hello everybody , according to my clock I've slept for more than 12 hours today.I slept at 6 yesterday and woke up at 6.35 today.But What a lovely day today indeed.Woke up feeling rather refreshed and to find that I had strawberries for breakfast and whats more , I'M FINALLY GOING TO THE DOCTORS YO! after my long wait.=D well in case you were wondering , I have a crooked spine and a clot in my eye that's why I'm seeing the doctors =).anyway , I've decided not to kill myself slowly because I think I should love myself more than other people.WOOO-HOOO THE BIMBO'S GONE. I'm going to the doctors now and to school and I've no blogging mojo so this entry is going to be a waste of space but who cares! I've got lovely photos =DD g'bye



I DON'T LIKE THIS PICTURE.

blood shot eyes , blood shot hearts

I'm going to kill myself slowly
I don't know why but I just feel like doing it
I'm sensible enough to know what I'm doing
is clearly immature.where's my fuck care attitude?
I feel like I'm here in this world to be used.
Now , that's a line you here almost everyday.
I feel so so so used.I tried you know.
I tried to make things up with ten folds.
And It killed me to be aware that you could find takers
other than me and better than me.
you had to remind me everyday what an asshole you truly are.
I do not understand what I saw in you.
I need to walk away and let go.
I've blocked my feelings completely and what did I get?
I've become a boring blob of fats
and What fate did I get on fuckentine's day.
I had to get hit by my mother and now , I have blood shot eyes.
I just wished I could curl up and die.
this sounds so I not stupid too the movie but ,
nothing I do seems to be up to standard for anybody.
not good enough , never good enough.
two pharses that constantly appear in my mind.
this isn't how it's suppose to be
life's suppose to be really nice.
I feel like shit now I'm going to block it out
after this , goodbye my I die.

once again , I'm running away

emotionally incapable of handling : you.


lost in confusion
not knowing which way to return
to the person you know
this trepidation makes you
take it out on someone else
you forever
everybody wins
i don't think so

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

not your opinion
sounds like you learn it from a show
it appears you have lost
so sick of marching in your lonliness parade
stay together underneath a giant tidal wave

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

your imatated
ordinary life

is one that you can't break free of
you take a chance as you let it go
happy without the words you'll never know
no way to lose when you made the game you're playing
a no decision forfeit home
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely soul
no one is safe inside your zone

TOUGH BREAK , SO MUCH STILL REMINDS ME , I SMELL A HORRIBLE WEEK AHEAD.

Spinning - Mae - Sun

WON'T YOU BE MY FUCKENTINE;

the uncut version
as the tree branches become silhoutte
against the window plane
I realise I've been a mess.
I read V's blog about feeling.
And I realised that I've made myself vows like that
probably a thousand times but you know , they never work
or at least they never took action.
destination , beautiful.
maybe someday It'll come back to us
We'll head towards the sun and flood our lights with daylight
I don't know you know so many things happened so quickly
This is probably my one sided story.
well , tonight I'm about to promise myself only one last night
one last night of indulging in wallowing in self-pity.
I feel pathetic , used and angry.
Tomorrow , If I have the time for myself will be the last night.
It's so close but we're so far away.(MAE)
It kills me to know that you can find takers other than me ,
better than me (EMERY).
So now I vow this vow to myself never to feel for as long as I can.


maybe I'm just tired...




YOU had so many chances to make it a fairytale , oh wells.

spinning - SUGARCULT - bouncing off the walls again

perfect colouration don't you find?


party up , don't fall down


The players & swingers party was horribly bad
It was by far probably the worse party I've ever attended
even more worse than the private party at the american club
well , but It was still quite fun
considering I spent almost the whole night dancing on the podium
judging people for the way they dance
seriously dudes out there , if you can't dance
please please please , do not club
and If you want to please do not dance on the fucking podium
and block my fucking view.
I can honestly say the underage parties are definately better
because first off , everyone there is young
so they don't know what they're doing
and they don't care if people are looking at them.
Church was Fine as usual feast for the eyes
being bored to tears but still having fun.
complicated shit I guess but still praise the Lord =D
oh wells , I'm beat and I've got tennis later



give me a grapefruit and I'll tell you why I love sundays.



I swear this is not a fetish for ballons hehe =D

I want to wear this to the prom this year :D

Marisse Isabel Caine ;

hello world wide web dot blogger dot com
Some people say if you can't blog
just post pictures so here are a few =)
I've officially found a new girlfriend and her name is ,
excercise :D went over the biggay's house yesterday night
and I bought ice cream for the kid and emo we ended up
mixing it with cornflakes milk and milo powder and yeap
it tasted uber uber good but there's alot of fats in that shit.
I ended up falling asleep at the kid's house.
Woke up the next morning(today) had a banana and went for a swim
I saw tehknee on her way out with her crazy mum peering through
the window yet again.The water was icy cold but I went for a swim anyhow
I swam ten laps and went back to the kids house for a bath
we chilled around ate some weird nice shit and I went off to the gym
I excercised for about an hour plus? pathetic ain't I.
Oh wells , I feel rather accomplished now.
Yesterday , the sec 4s got their results and I'm happy to annouce that
I've got no school on V-day so won't you be be fuckentine?
I'm going to club tonight so much cardio excercises pretty good aye
oh god! I'm becoming fitness freak! excercise has strip me of my
craziness oh well. haha.where's my bloggin mojo man.

Just a random question : Are thongs common in singaporeans?

you don't have to answer me haha =D

WHATS UP.

DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.DEPRESSED.SICK.ANGRY.
CONFUSED.DISORENTATED.
DISORDER.DESPERATE.
SUPERFICIAL.
FULL OF SHIT.
LOST.SAD.PATHETIC.FAT.
UGLY.LOST OF WORDS.
INDECIPHERABLE.EMPTY.
EXHAUSTED.FUCKED.
COULD BE YOU.COULD BE ME.
LOST OF INSPIRATION.
CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY.
TOO MANY THOUGHTS SO LITTLE TIME.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.
SO FUCKING ANGRY.

THAT I WANT TO CRY , BUT NOT THIS TIME...




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