I just quarreled with esmond.I hate him!I hate him!just because things r not going well with him n *someone.anw,things are ok now.My today was weird.Not a very good day either.had no mood to ball.so weird right?well,tt's the things work for me.haha.whAteveR.its been about 8 months since i told u i like *u.why does it have to be this way?why?i really like *u.love is a really strong word for me.I hate my life.i hated the NDP.I hate alot.do you know that?murder is said to be the most disgusting and unthinkable cause how could think about even doing right?well,have u ever thought what went through the murderer's mind...but here's another kind of murder thats far more fearful,far more harmful.and far more common than physical cold-blooded murder.ANGER.anger is far more terrible because many pple do not realize how evil it is.We see murder cases once in a while but pple get angry with each other all the time!how den can we be saved from the burnin' fires of hell?But need not despair God promises us his grace.Lucky me.haha.cause i get angry at pple all the time.i get angry with lizard n jenny..all the time..at least during training.i mean why must they bother me?i dont even talk to them tt much.Bitches.i dont even noe them their just my seniors?I get angry at myself.I mean nobody is perfect right?I'm definitely not.I'm not good enough for u.Your outta my leugue.do U actually even noe how much i like u.I cant seem to get over you.its been 8 months.like hello?tt's long maNxXx.I dont always have to do everything right.I wanna walk around with my hands up in the air like i dont care anymore.I wanna live my life different.I cant seem to let go.I wanna close my eyes.I wanna tune you out.But i cant.The more i think of u.i freak out.this sucks.but like i can do anything about it.I wanna stop crying my heart out.I dun wanna keep inside anymore.I wanna shout it all out.I dont wanna compromise.I hate love.It sucks.Arrgh.just like today.just can't.

love is troublesome

Dreams for sale and fairy tales.

i wear a mask of a thousand faces.but none of them are me.gonna let go n take it off.soon.........................

-out-