i've been tryin for the past hour to get emotional yes , weird?but hell no i ain't weird.cause you see the thing is , i'm actually quite an emotional person.i think i get jealous easily.basically its usually cause i'm realleh not a beautiful person as in physically.mentally i dont know.people think i'm a person that never takes anything or anybody seriously but the truth is i realleh do.see you guys realleh don't know but sooner or later you guys are gonna see right through me.if you dont i'll eventually open up.i'm a realleh confused person.right now , i think i'm sorta back to square one as in not the in love square one.as in i've got nobody to love not as in i have a boyfriend i dont like anyone.its back to the days i randomly selected tricia to like and true enough i realleh fell for her beautiful side see when i like someone their flaws are so insignificant to me already.i don't know man.i realleh wanna fall in love with someone.but this time without sheddin tears like what you, the past , had done to me.i wanna realleh fall in love with someone.i'll realleh treat the person right.but well i guess , i'm just gonna grow up to be a spinster.to him it realleh didnt matter how i felt inside.this life is sucha game sometimes.just that i'm always on the losing side as in im always the one endin up hurt.love is selfish love is blind.it makes me jealous makes me go outta my mind.jealousy.tsktsktsk , jealousy.well this time its what helped me realised that things between me and him are realleh not go any furthur.well then to love , i say goodbye.i'm not gonna cry anymore or feel emotional.i'm gonna be this cold person and the party animal everyone expects me to be.ok so well , fuck you all. (=