as you fuckers can see in the below entry , i've officially become boring.yes , boring like how thing were before , BORING.'sides the friends factor that is.you know wanna know what to do when the one you love is with somebody else , technically he ain't but its realleh obvious he's still loves jayne.what do you do when there's nothing you can do about it.its plain easy.its actually common sense.3 words.deal with it.yeahhs.the way i deal with things is by running away.yes RUNNING AWAY.its just always like that.and after running away from the problem situation shit thing whatever.i'd start reminiscing bout it and be filled with regret like , why didn't do this the other time or that or whatever.i'd ponder on it and the more i do the more fucked i get.whatever , the word most commonly used in my vocab.thats what you guys know thats all.you guys think whatever means i'm running away but i'm sorry to dissapoint you but your fuckin hell wrong and neither does it mean its a no strings attach kinda whatever.my whatevers always have a meanin behind it like , case senario one , yes it sounds like some scientific shiat.bear with me alright?so anyhows , example when eunice and or or lizard are teasin me bout my skin colour or whatever when i say whatever i means its either so cliche cause they've said it a billion zillion times and its not funny anymore or it really has hurt my feelins and i'm just smiling and sayin i'm ok when truth is i was then , hidin a million tears.yes , i do have feelings.i know i'm fat ugly dark and fully indian or whatever but i do have feelings.well, cause you see the thing is you guys realleh don't know me.you guy never did still dont and will never know me.unless i tell you guys that is if i'm drunk or something.which apparently will never happened.when i tear its either cause i'm tired or emo.if you realleh know me you will know when i'm actually crying which you guys obviously will never be able to tell apart the tears.and this time 'round will never get the chance to cause after my last cry , i promised myself i'm never gonna ever forever as long as i can cry.