ok i know i've been sorta of a sober person for the past few days i still am but i think i've sort of cheered up.well , that's cause i've been listenin to happy songs more to the swing kinda songs.if you've got exsquitsite taste you'll prolly know who's cole porter.yeah , i'm listenin to his songs.they're jazz songs but more to the swing.very beautiful music and beautiful lyrics.very witty very very good.really helps me extenuate things.eally not in the mood for tv.so i'm gonna miss my thursday routine.i think old songs are really good as in the lyrics music everything the lyrics nowadays are so explicit but i'm not sayin i don't listen to em.i do alot.just sayin how stuff use to be so , pure.i know it sounds weird.but yeah.pure.like how stuff use to be like bein oblivious to almost everything.you hate bein oblivious to things but when we know about stuff.we start thinkin how stupidity is bliss.anyhows , i'm actually kinda glad i'm kinda over the 'in love with someone' stage because i cant make sense in what you've done when i start to cry and start to run you actually didn't do anything to hurt me.no , actually you did.just by bein yerself has hurt me alot.why do you have to be so perfect.i think i was actually over you but i just really didn't wanna let go cause i was afraid and i didn't know what to do.it still hurts me when i listen to sad songs just thinkin about the past , you my dad , my mum , EVERYTHING.so for now , just look ahead and i'll try my best to smile without hiding a billion tears.(=