i dont know whats wrong with me.i think i'm a freak.why does it feel like there's an earth quake in my head.idon't understand.
to think i wanted to know you.i tryin my best to let go ya' know.but its so hard.i was thinkin maybe it'd be easier if i had
someone else to like as like what lizard said , ' friends with potential '.but somehow there ain't anyone i can love , as in
if i wanted to turn crook it'd be so hard cause ya see the thing is everyone i know has someone to love example , eunice-princess,
bird-rachel,lizard-you-know-who,tanny-jeslyn,alicia-i dont know,phoebe-haojie,and the list goes on.i mean i want to ask anyone to spend like 2
weeks with me i just wanna know how it feels like to really love someone again.the last one wasnt counted cause it was in primary school
which was stupid goes to show you shouldn't have relationships when you dont understand love yet.anyhows , i realleh wanna know who does
it feel to love someone else treat the person right,i swear i'll be the sweetest thing ever , not bein thick skin.but yeahh.i'm realleh sad
cause i ain't got anyone to love.i love you still but thats different cause i'll never have you.i'm tired of runnin after you.jealousy just
slapped me in the face like that.its hard for me to get this over with and let go.in simple words , i cant break through.i need someone to
love i sound desperate but yeahhs.i really do.i wanna do things i've always dream of doing and no , not SEX.i know i've said this before but
i wanna give a person my all and make the person love me for who i am and break up with the person so i can hurt him or her.but i know i'd
prolly love the person cause i'm really not that kind of person.cause i know whats it like to be hurt.and you know whats the saddess thing
ever , its the fact that you still dont know me and never took the chance to and i never really got to know you well but from all i've heard
yer the greatest thing ever.but if i look on the brightside thanks to you i've matured alot over this period of time.which i would realleh like to
thank you for.




it's not that bad , you're just the best i ever had