today is like any other pissin day.i've sort of been stressed the whole day.maybe it's just a slight case of lunar rhythms i don't know.but i guess my regarding my situation right now , i'm a pretty scared person.it's not cause i'm a wimp it's cause of some certain reasons which i don't think is too appropriate to reveal here.it's quite personal indeed.if you wanna know , just ask me.whenever you see me in school or whatever.i've also been what you may say , cold shouldering? , a friend.haha.it's not that we quarelled or whatever.don't get me wrong , i don't hate her either.it's the fact that i can't stand her and her crazyness that's driving me totally out of my oh-so-insane mind.bottomline is , i don't wanna get angry at her.somehow , its' been going no sweat hands down , my way.i really don't wanna get my facts wrong this time 'round.so every move i make i have to do it with caution that i might hurt her.cause i don't wanna go screwing our so called beautiful friendship up.the worse thing is , i can't go acting out of impluse like my usual self.i'm not being hypocritical here and sort of backstabbin her.frankly from my perspective i'm actually sort of being thoughtful here.cause i can say this without thinkin twice that almost EVERYONE can't face the music and dance.that's what i hate about people they ask for the truth not willing to face the facts and only hoping that they'll here what they want.which to me by the way, is plain fuckin fucked up so to whoever out there , please change the way you think cause it's most likely to be screwed up.thank you.