A very good evening to everyone who's reading this and minimizing the loneliness in my heart haha, I've been pretty much home all day and it's my off day.how depressing! But I'll get over it within the next 2-3 minutes of this song I'm listening to. But there ain't nothing like spending your Sunday with your bestest friends in the whole wide world.God , I feel like I'm eight again. So today was the whole usual routine of going to mass with Theresa(and my mum) and mope about how it's always only the two of us and stuff.(WOULD ANYONE LIKE TO JOIN OUR LITTLE LONELY CLUB?WE'D BE HAPPY TO RECRUIT,REALLY! NO NEED FOR AND AUDITION EVEN!) then we had lunch at the usual place everything was so 'usual' but except the part where I spent say an hour or two? Reading(alone again , naturally)at the coffeeshop after Theresa(and my mum) left for home.Met up with phoebe and she finally got her hair cut and we spent the day watching the OC and youtube-ing for a while. My life is so exciting! haha please note the sarcasm.

okay , with that said. I've got no plans tomorrow! I turned Julia down and I don't know why but I thought maybe just maybe I'd spend one of my most favourite 'holidays' alone and this holiday would be halloween.oh well , I'm not going to attempt jumping into my pool of self pity and find myself at the end of the night drowing in my tears.tears , self pity definitely a big no no to end my oh so wonderful Sunday aye? haha , I have no life but well , I'm going to try to keep being happy cause this 'stay happy' plan isn't so bad after all! At least I've learned how to numb myself again. Okay , starting tomorrow one meal a day from now on it's time I did something for myself though the phrase ' I talk about myself a lot ' is such and understatement. Okay this ego thing and this babbling shit thing has got to stop. Good night cruel worldddddd haahahah!

sometimes I wish I was the both of you.