Mae I love you?


What happened?
things happened to fast
and yet again , anger got the best of me.
I felt it , or did I.
I have no idea which way I'm going now.
I need someone to hold my hand
and guide me through this , I think.
I want nothing more tonight
but to be out there.
every now and again , I feel like
I feel like I've been sucked into this time lapse
into this place where I'd sit and watch my painful
most painful , painful memories.
It plays in black and white.
I'd be sitting there all alone and crying.
wondering why did it happen.
No matter how much hurt you have caused me
It struck me that no matter what , I'd still love you.
You left almost too soon , you came almost unannouced.
Things are moving so fast and I'm too slow to catch up
so I fall and I manage to grab onto this thin line
so thin , almost a thread that might snap anytime soon
I'm fat and heavy so It snaps and I fall.
But I manage to grab onto a hand
how lucky you may say , but the hand burns
it has torns on it
like a rose , the hand seemed oh so beautiful,
since I'm close to death , but just like a rose
It has torns that hurt me the worse part is
I'm falling so the pressure pushes the torns into my flesh
and drags down into cuts , I feel the pain
but I can't let go , It's so painful
But It's like an addiction I can't get rid off.
and I finally pass out of the excruciating(?) pain
I still fall , into the bloody pit.
it never ends doesn't it?


Spinning - Someone Else's Arms