What am I to you?

it just hit me that I'm about to be officially 16 in exactly a month's time

yes , big deal but it's usually this time of the year I see how much I've actually grown

both in size and in my mind.

It hit me how many phases I've been through

from the cheena ah lian basketballer to the bitch to the I must be emo phase

and now , I'm just marisse , plain marisse.

I've done so many stupid things in my life I can probably get the

guiness record for stupidity.

from going vandalizing to taking drugs to going crazy over caracal to not giving a shit

about every single living thing on earth to almost killing myself this year.

the year's going pass so fast I can hardly grasp hold of the fact

that it's nearly ending and I'm about to leave the sheltering walls of PL.

Which of course , I'd dearly miss.

all the running away from teachers like some sort of fugitive to rebeling against them

with all of my friends from different levels and to having a beautifully built up

bad record in the school which I'm sort of proud of in a very twisted way

cause it goes to show how different I am from everyone else haha , in a twisted way.

I'm not a sheep.but then again it'll wreck my chances of getting into a good school

which I'm hoping for apparently.I think I'm too complex to handle

and I'm not saying that as a compliment.It get's kinda tiring

when almost everyone around you is/are going to give up on you.

and worse of all , you on yourself.ahhh well , what a year I've had indeed.

from hanging out with different people meeting new people like the balai people

to mark ambrose to nat to lots of other people but in the end , I can really say

the past is not to be regretted , the present has been unexpected and the future will get better

it always has , and I know It will.

be well , 2006 :)