honestly , do I really want to walk away?
is it that obvious to say..

hello discipline , where've you gone to? You've once again left me late for school as usual. I need to get out of my hair. I know I've said this over and over again from time and again but , I want to run away and start a new life.This one's too confusing I want to take the back seat in my social life. Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to hard like I'm not being myself but what is myself if I'm someone else and maybe the person I was was somebody else and so as a result , I'm still no one and an image of the invisible. But I don't want to walk away and leave the people I love behind because I know my emotions will repeat in another place cause feeling to scar deep. so it goes back with me being stuck in my stagnent water in other words , my life. I'm passing through the atmosphere like smoke but not light smoke but rather thick black smoke the kind you get from an explosion. Ahhh Marisse , dear diary dear diary. I need to spend a day alone soon. maybe to somewhere far away like to my destination beautiful ( ohh i love mae! aha ) ok , gotta run for a confession!

xoxo

cainemarissemarissecaine