Pinned wings , please?

I know I promise not to complain. I'll stop , I'll try harder. Maybe tomorrow , maybe next year. I'll stop soon enough. I promise not to feel , I promise not to think. But I've been going to bed with the heaviest heart and a train of thoughts. I never knew not being able to cater to someone felt this scary. I feel useless , completely useless. I don't think it's the right word but it's the first word that popped in my mind. Obsolete came after that but I don't think it's the right word either. No , stop right there Marisse. You've no feelings remember? Oh yeah.

It's 12.13 and I'm going to be late for school. Yes , yet again. Jan went pass so quickly when I think about it. I spent almost everyday with the same people I can almost not remember everything that has/had happened. I see Leslie,Bryan,Gwen,Bong,Joey,Zac,Cheryl Ann almost everyday. I'm going to be lesyanwenongeyacheraphobic! haha , it has come to the point where I think I'm clingy & disgusting and dependent. Please help me!