Well I'm a wreck. I really can't explain it but I, I hear the music when I look at you. Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment. Well, I'm so in love with you.
somedays like today I look up in the sky stare at just a single star , the brightest of course
I walk with my head up not facing anything directly infront of me
playing the game of trust with myself. ( this insanity comes from not having a sibling )
It's hard to trust yourself . Yet , sometimes we find it so much easier to trust someone else.
I love the 'weak knees' feeling I get when I walk up not being able to see forth.
But I much rather give that feeling up then have the thrill.
cause sometimes when you're not looking at what's coming at you
you fall , you get hurt & that my friends , really sucks.
I just realised that trust is overated.
okay , so marisse as you can see is feeling rather emo today. God knows why. Good Lord I mean I've almost everything I want right now in my life. I mean I am happy but my life's kinda lacking something. you know the feeling you get when you draw lots for a lucky draw and win a prize that is pretty awesome and you should be happy with it cause it's really pretty all damn cool but you realised that your friend had a prize that was way cooler and then you feel this jealousy shit surge up your body making you wish you were somebody else. well , making you wish you were her basically. that's how i've been feeling for a while.Actually , I've been feeling that way since well , I think I was sec 2 the minute I became best friends with phoebe , I knew I wasn't happy with who I am. I mean seriously , you should check her out! hahaha , I was the overtanned netballer bestfriend who was a total bitch and she on the other hand was the thoughtful , patient , oh-so-lovely phoebe lauw whose social life I ruined quite briefly. okay okay , maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit. I feel the need to exaggerate right now. well , if you knew back then I was the most melodramatic person you'd ever know. okay so from there things moved on to when I became sec 4 which was only last year and I met a lot of people and my self esteem just kept shrinking and shrinking till the point that it is now a size of a peanut. haha! But you'll never see the side of me wanting to be somebody else unless you're as close to me like theresa or vicky( whom doesn't like to hear it anw!) or smth and you know what , I'm so tired at pretending I'm okay.
somedays like today I look up in the sky stare at just a single star , the brightest of course
I walk with my head up not facing anything directly infront of me
playing the game of trust with myself. ( this insanity comes from not having a sibling )
It's hard to trust yourself . Yet , sometimes we find it so much easier to trust someone else.
I love the 'weak knees' feeling I get when I walk up not being able to see forth.
But I much rather give that feeling up then have the thrill.
cause sometimes when you're not looking at what's coming at you
you fall , you get hurt & that my friends , really sucks.
I just realised that trust is overated.
okay , so marisse as you can see is feeling rather emo today. God knows why. Good Lord I mean I've almost everything I want right now in my life. I mean I am happy but my life's kinda lacking something. you know the feeling you get when you draw lots for a lucky draw and win a prize that is pretty awesome and you should be happy with it cause it's really pretty all damn cool but you realised that your friend had a prize that was way cooler and then you feel this jealousy shit surge up your body making you wish you were somebody else. well , making you wish you were her basically. that's how i've been feeling for a while.Actually , I've been feeling that way since well , I think I was sec 2 the minute I became best friends with phoebe , I knew I wasn't happy with who I am. I mean seriously , you should check her out! hahaha , I was the overtanned netballer bestfriend who was a total bitch and she on the other hand was the thoughtful , patient , oh-so-lovely phoebe lauw whose social life I ruined quite briefly. okay okay , maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit. I feel the need to exaggerate right now. well , if you knew back then I was the most melodramatic person you'd ever know. okay so from there things moved on to when I became sec 4 which was only last year and I met a lot of people and my self esteem just kept shrinking and shrinking till the point that it is now a size of a peanut. haha! But you'll never see the side of me wanting to be somebody else unless you're as close to me like theresa or vicky( whom doesn't like to hear it anw!) or smth and you know what , I'm so tired at pretending I'm okay.
here's one to the mistakes we knew we were making.
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