I'm really cranky right now. Just got back from con camp. stupid confirmation's on saturday. no one's coming I suppose besides theresa.but who cares. whatever. prom sucked. I need a job. night






please prove me wrong.

with more to come , look at my pretty krezzmezz tree! :)

It's gotten late and now I want to be alone.
All of our friends were here, they all have gone home.
And here I sit on the front porch
watching the drunks stumble forth into the night.
"You gave me a heart attack, I did not see you there.
I thought you had dissappeared so early away from here."
and this is the chance I never got
to make a move, but we just talk about
the people we've met in the last five years
and will we remember them in ten more.
I let you bum a smoke, you quit this winter past.
I've tried twice before but like this, it just would not last

Don't ask me why caracal's so tiny and why my pictures don't rock like timothy wee's.

I had a great time , a really really great time

aiyo , theresa damn pretty lah!

Hello Barbara, I gained alot of weight and my face got bitten by a mosquito!

rese&chris , you're right the lights are beautiful ! it was nice seeing you guy

Hello Dick ,

haha , dick. What an awful name. Anyway , playground didn't turn out so bad afterall I mean the gig was awesome as usual. haha , you know caracal , never let's you down. Great show boys! :) Anyway , and great spy experiment was great too! I mean hello! Indie music! But this indie show wasn't as fun as home clubs. I mean how to spasz without the whole world looking at you cause the dancefloor at the live room was so bright! haha , but they were great anyway! We went home early cause we could catch a ride with theresa's parents. I swear I love her family. They're so retarded. Okay , I mean like mine's no better but damn , her dad having the same imagination as I did. He's a bit not right up there! hahahaha. I mean putting sparky(her dog) on a leash outside the car and driving it is a way too insane imagination. haha he even said ' sparky will run faster than the car! ' . haha , what on earth man! And God , Timo/Sparky. Where do I begin?First of all ,he blinks as much as the number of stars in the milky way. And the rest well , let's just not go there. hahaha and Theresa? OMG! Let's REALLY not go there. haha , but I love you la babe. Anyway , So V & I woke up feeling like shit from sleeping on the couch. ( Mum if you read this. Please fix the aircon already! Remember how I got my crooked spine?! Yeah. Fix it please! ) It was nice seeing every there though I didn't get to see a few people like rese & ally. But I got to see Alicia , Nat , Bong and whole other bunch of people. Okay , I'm getting bored with the post already. Good riddance(?)!



toilet roll's are like haikus
take me home tonight
things grow and things die
elevator


They're not even funny marisse!

Hello Sally ,


I was doing this quiz yesterday which I gave up half way through cause I couldn't think of 7 people I trust and believed in at that moment and I couldn't think of 7 things that make me smile or 7 ways to win my heart haha ( but you know who would want to win my heart.It's rotten) then I looked through my camera , and I found two :)





I left your number inbetween pages of books at the library, hoping someone would call you and tell you how much you've affected me.

Hello Norris/Phil ( couldn't decide I don't really like both names )


today sucked shit balls , I hate mondays. They seem to fucking piss me off.
(note: I'm just angry and I need to take it out on something
so I take it out on my non-exsistent friend namely , monday/norris/phil )

Fuck you all.

Hello House , I ain't your bitch! why'd you lock me up all day like that?!
why the fuck did you only wake me up at 2 to find that I can't go to SPCA anymore.
well , at least I did the krezzmezz tree. but I haven't read nor have I done my walls.

God! I'm such a freaking procastinator. haha , oh wells I'll do it all tomorrow.
I'll be doing my walls/going waxing/reading/going to spca/and going to momo!
haha , how ambitious. I know like totally! I doubt my plans will fall through! :D



I fear

[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[x]being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] black cats
[half an x? haha i just afraid for their shit] birds
[] fish
[x] ants
[] driving
[] flying
[] flowers or other plants
[] being touched
[] fire
[x] dark water
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad
[] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom
[] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] cotton balls
[] cemeteries
[] clowns
[] large crowds
[x] crossing bridges
[x]death
[x] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibility
[] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[] shots
[] friday the 13th
[] poverty
[] ghosts
[] halloween
[] school
[] trains or railroads
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[x] growing up
[] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[]needles
[x] blood
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] someone you love or care about hurting you
[] love

toilet roll , you're are always on my mind

damn , I just gotta make you mine

I think I'm running out of time

and in my pocket I've only got a dime

( yeah okay , I suck. I know! =D )

Hello Betty ( I'm going to name my 'diary' names now like Anne frank super coolio yo! )
for those of you who don't know Anne frank she was in my class last year she seats two rows behind me. If you'd like to know her please call 1900-912-imaginaryfriend.

Marisse Isabel A. Caine K.'s Monday

go the spca in the morning for fun

go for waxing ( no it's not very painful please stop asking )

do up my walls

read fight club

put up the Christmas tree

go for mass ( pass father JJ the damn CD )

go take photos at lido (optional considering I'm such a wimp)


okay , so I'll be pretty much alone the whole day and I need to get up early so I can join the get up kids cause I'm so lame and I need to get a jokebook badly. I'll be depressed , lonely and cutting my wrists so please call me and save me from this cruel world or I'll have to start writing poems/haikus about toilet rolls and obsessing about eggs again and I'll have no friends cause everyone will know how weird I really am. Please save me.



dear toilet roll

cornflakes and milk belong in a boll

my life is so cold.

DELETE ERASE DELETE ERASE DELETE ERASE DELETE!

Hello Sky , How'd you get this beautiful.

I've officially fucked my body clock.
I went for my triathalon(?) training today
and boy , those fucking flippers will be the death of me.
I'm very bored right now so I'm going to make a list of things I wish I had
to remind me why I hate my life , just for fun :)

I wish I could draw extremely well like those cartoonist
I wish I could hate food
I wish I was able to speak really really good english
I wish my brains were cool ( that just had to come out! )
I wish the OC on youtube wasn't in such lousy quality
I wish whoever's reading this would ask me out
I wish I had 'the zoom' for brainticia(my camera)
I wish someone would fall in love with me ( I am really bored.)
I wish I didn't have to type so many I wishes
I wish I owned HMV
I wish theresa , stacy , siewhwee , phoebe , alicia (the list goes on) would stop wanting to lose weight
I wish I had the talent to paint like V
I wish I had BellZ as my best friend ( how gay I know )
I wish my mum would stop farting
I wish I could stop talking to myself

okay , If I keep this up I'll be up till tomorrow.
oh wait , it is tomorrow! niteenite all ^^

this is the shit , hahahahaha , i think = /

HELLO SEXY!! AHAHAH

It was nice seeing you guys again! :)I had fun running away!

I HAVE THE PRETTIEST SWEETEST PATIENT (THE LIST GOES ON)BESTFRIEND IN THE WORLDDDDDDDDDDDDD :)

hello, I find myself here wondering again If I have done anything fruitful with my week but I really can't think of anything.I need to get a job , badly. I was thinking when I say , I have no life what do I really mean? haha I have no idea myself! I mean what is the definition of life actually?If I were to search on the wikipediea i'll end up with a whole lot of scientific bullshit haha and on dictionary.com there were more than 20 definations! haha. Is life all about having a life? and in having a life does it mean I have to have the best social life in the world? haha , I really have no idea.can anyone tell me please?! haha

that night was the longest night of my life
and although it was painful ,
I never wanted it to end
just so , I could see your smile.


no guts no glory.

stole this from zoe's blog , I guess this will cheer me up for a while.