ALL ALONE




and so i told you
this is how i drown my sorrows
crying my eyes out , totally givin in
i don't want this shit anymore
get outta my mind , get outta my life
i'm paranoid is it me or does everyone
just want a piece of me
i never thought life would be this harsh
never thought i'd be alone
this life just needs throne
a throne one would wanna be on
a place no one would wanna be marooned on
but ain't got no choice
just had to be.
i hurt , i hurt alot
sometimes i wished you'de just spare a thought
you are my misery , you are sucha mystery
why does this life hafta be so bleak
sometime i wonder what is it i seek
i know this sounds cliche
but here goes
although i may be surrounded by a thousand
i feel alone , i stand alone
and will walk alone i wish
you would have never left me alone.




SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE.

Soon yer gonna realize there ain't no place like home



back from camps
church camp and sec 3 camp
had lunch wit hwee phoebs su
lizard and eunice. ((X
had fun the whole week.
but durin the church camp
it was a lil' depressin
cause there was this guy
who realleh looked like you*
he had sucha familiar face.
his build was like yers too.
the way he talks was like you
he seemed so you.
durin the sec 3 camp
the other camp was playin
true , by ryan cabera.
it was sooo depressin
it was at nightt too.
the stars were out.
everythin was so DEPRESSIN
i cried when no one was there
they were all takin their
stuff from the tents
i'm listenin to it now.
feelin emo now.=/
'you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
i'm afraid to move
i'm weak
its true
i'm just scared
to know the ending'
its sooo true.
i'd do anything to be wit ya.
i dare not pray fer reverse phsycology
i dare not wish fer it too
its as good as black magic
to me that is.
its as good as forcin ya to lurvee me.
sometimes. i dont even dare ta hope for it
but what the fuck am i suppose to do.
wait!? i've waited toooo long.
i'm stuck at this stage which realleh sucks
the process of healin is back to square one
i hate this shit i realleh do.
i don't trust my hopes anymore.
i've always wanted to go to yer place
tell ya everythin
but i dont have the guts.
so i stay home and cry
i wanna cross the line.
i dont wanna hide anymore.
but i can't
no guts no glory.
gonna go fer the
meet-the-parents session
to add to my depression.




GOD , GRANT ME STRENGTH

today was GREAT!
i had a TRIPPIN` good time.
shall blog tmr.
damn fuckin tired now
heh heh heh
i somehow miss ya'll
hahaha,as in
julia siewhwee fangs
eunice lizard phoebs.((X
LIZARD AND PHOEBE
TOGETHER FOREVER ((X
BLEAUGH .

just got off the phone wit
jenny julia lizard and kye
went late fer trng this mornin
i woke up at 6.35
prayin for it to be 5.35
yesterday was my grandma's burfdae.
she passed away bout' 12 years ago?
anyhoos,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!! ((X
anyhoos,
i realleh hope tomorrow will be fun
kinda lookin forward to it ((=
today i went to town
went wit phoebs lizard hwee fangs ((=
had fun though.lizard is sucha fool
lizard and phoebs and the umbrella crap
was realleh realleh funneh!! HAHAHA
ohhs.nvm lets lizard some face yeahhs?
found out some weird stuff.
damn weird.DISGUSTIN
i mean how can you-know-who go wit her?
LMAO.tt's not hot atall'
sides' why her?she's not even popular?
what a person she used to spike ---. =/
damn.i miss ya'.i hate it yer kinda
draggin meh down.cant seem to move on.

today was pretteh borin i guess.
side` the fact i was almost
a period late fer class.
and 'pick on xiaolong ' crap
and 'laugh at phoebe ' crap.
pretteh nothin much happened
oh yeahhs. almost forgot.
sorreh lizard sorreh kye.
its all our fault.damn.
english man ENGLISH.
i dont know but
when i have fun the day before
an exam i wont be able to cocentrate.
yeahhs.anyhows.
HERES MY PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MDM CHONG!
i'm sorreh for stickin my tongue at ya
it was an act of impluse.
you were provokin me wit
yer dumb fuck face.
i'm sorreh fer laughin at ya
like , all the time.
i'm sorreh fer mockin ya ` wit
OTHER classes.
i'm sorreh for always askin ya
whats wrong with ya `
cause ta me smth ain't righht boutcha
i'm sorreh for laughin at
yer tatoo-ed eyebrows


-prolly cause ya` shaved it off.
-maybe cause yer gettin old.


yer ugly dressin


-prolly cause yer alrdy an ah-lian
so ain'tcha fault.
-yer dumb fuck blind
yer lips


-prolly cause you don't know
how ta wear lipstick.tsktsk
-maybe you wear lipstick in the bus
-or maybe you use crayons.
-maybe you have spastic hands.
-maybe yer an alien.


yer way of talkin


-prolly cause yer a typical cheena fucked up bitch




TSK TSK TSK I'M SORREH =/ BLEAUGH

outta my friggin` mind




i stuck my tongue at mdm chong
i totalleh lost control
dont blame me.
she kept starrin at me and phoebs.
so i just stuck my friggin tongue.
damn!i hope i dont hafta say sorreh
i wont even mean it.FUCK IT.
she's such an ah lian
and she has sucha annoyin face
HATE HER!!! anyhows. got donations
today.wenta study too.
sorreh vick couldn't stop trippin ya `
BLEAUGH ((X


BLAH blah BLAH

its all right with me




damn today was borin.
i should have just stayed home
maybe study or kick of the shoes
and lay back silly.=/
went to town wit siewhwee and pris
phoebs was suppose to come
but she didn't cause she wasnt dressed up.
RAHHS.anyhows.we went there as fast as
we came home.wasnt realleh in the mood.
sorreh guys if had ruined it for ya.
back home.was watch raisin helen.
damn nice.i was thinkin deep and everythin.
based on the amts of my unwritten philosophies.
has it ever ever ever occured to meh
that i am already over ya
maybe im just havin that 'old crush' flush hahas.
damn my crap.

WHATTA BORING SATURDAY MAN.
SURE it was fun.
but in a realleh borin way
anyhoos.i woke up around 12
HEH HEH HEH.YEAHHS.I KNOW.
MARISSE YER SUCHA PIG.
HEY I WAS PLANNIN TO WAKE UP AT 2
LMAO.anyhoos.
watched VCDs wit my momma
then went to mac to study wit phoebs
saw birdeh wit some other sec 2
dont know her name.=/ sorreh
i realleh studied today so weird righht?
anyhoos.plannin to study somewhere else
like grapevine or cafe cartel or smth
more studyable.heh heh heh.
went swimmin wit hwee at phoeb's place
NO LIZARD I DID NOT CAUSE A TSUNAMI ((X
swam about 15 laps.not bad ehs?((X
anyhoos.we were suppose to watch saw.
but phoebs bro kept chasin us away
his reason's cause its gon` rain
BUT I SOMEHOW DONT BELIEVE HIM
im sorreh phoebs =/
but true enough.i rained .
it rained real bad.
it was rainin cats and dogs.
LOL.when reached the mrt station
we called PHOEBE LAUW.GUESS WHAT!?
she was to lazy to come down.
ALL THE BEST MAN!!!!PFFFT
anyhoos.we called lizard.
thank god i still remember her no.
i'll just kill myself cause
me and hwee's phones are down
yeahhs. THANK YOU LIZARD!!
for lendin me the UGLY umbrella.((X
just playin wit ya.thanks cayse
i realleh needed it
i had to walk home
i was outta cash
i walked home bare footed
cause my flip flops were killin meh
got home took a looonnnggg shower.
now i feel soooo good. HAHAHA
gawwdd.i sound like some ad. =/ BLEAUGH
once again




THANK YOU LIZARD!! ((X

F LI N TY

yeahhhs.i guess tts how i feel today
i'm havin a whole lotta thoughts
runnin in my fucken brains now.
SHALL WE DANCE & SOMETHINS GOTTA GIVE
IS SO FUCKIN NICE!!!((X
it makes me sad watchin things
that some how are happenin in my life
watch as in the movies anall
i know its ' purely conincidental '
i know i'm dramatic or whatever
but gawwd, cant help but think
GOD ARE YOU SENDIN ME A SIGN!
HAHAHA.GAWDD.im hysterical.
well.tt's me.nothin i can about it
today's been pretteh weird i guess
been thinkin boutcha the whole darn day
i all outta lurvee.
i think im havin a total drain out AGAIN.
i hate it when this crap happens.
i just wanna have a lonnggg sleep
havent told vicky bout the dumb thing i said
its realleh dumb.i made a DUMB mistake.=/
i think im gonna change for the better
say BYE to marisse guys.she DIED today.
i think.=/
-gone

PFFFT.

YEOW

today was weird.
like seriously, WEIRD
yesterday i slept at 6
and woke up today at 6
i didn't come late.YES
SURPRISE SURPRISE HAHAHA.
anyhows.saw people doin jumpin jacks.
credits go ta me and hwee. * WINKS
we kept goin late fer class today.
total retardation
we were like let us all die together
HAHAHA.FUCKIN CRAP.
durin i was like i have a headache
can i go to the toilet and wash me face
like its gonna help my fuckin headache.
i just wanted to get out of the class
i have a short attention span
but its not as bad as JENNY PEK!!HAHAHA
anyhows.we kept playin volleyball today
we're officially addicted to it
today was seriously weird
i seriously have nothin to say
oh yeahhhs.HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGXIU!!
oh yeahhs.when i was walkin back
i was starin at the sky thinkin
[when im alone i tend to think deep]
i was thinkin.the sky seems so peaceful
yet it ain't i mean ..
i don't know what i'm sayin.hahaha.
-gone.

I HATE CANDICE HO!!!HEH HEH

SUCK MY TOES.

today's like any other day.
i went to kovan to study.
bought mother's day gift.
took neoprint.
gawwdd,i feel like some
typical cheena fucked up bitch.=/
anyhows.bottom line is.
TODAY WAS BORING.
cleared up some stuff wit xiurong.
so we can be friends. HAHA.
got some donations from richie and wan yi.
THANKS A MILLION DUDES. oh yeahhs
not forgettin janice and ai ping[ spell? ]
ohs wells.i saw ah-hems. yeahhs.
i literally felt like pee-ing. HAHA.
and so i did. i was TREMBLING
I FREAKED OUT.I REALLEH DID.
I BECAME VEREH COLD.I LOST TOTAL CONTROL
ALL THE BEST MAN.HAHA.
today was reall borin i think. hahas.
anyhows. i miss you so so much
the more i see you
the less im whole.
-gone

utter madness.

thursday was fun.aft school was walkin around with hwee and pris disturbin pple.hahas.but it was fun kept bullyin shiyun altough she bullied me too. hahas. =/ she's so frggin mean lar!! hahas.anyhows.went to town with fangs birdeh hwee pris grace siva and mel. =)) hope i didn't miss out on anyone.=/anyhows. vick and ner[realleh weird but heck] were also i town.but they went to ps.we went to heeren and cine. we were suppose to watch house of wax but they didn't have it at cine but at lido.and were all pretteh lazy to walk there.so we had lunch and a hole lotta fun.went home aft that.


friday was GREAT.went out to sentosa with the autistic family.hehs, originally we were suppose to be called the FBTs.sounded pretteh weird.HAHA.so we kept changing it and stuck with the zi bi family.[ autistic family ].but phoebs lizard and eunice didn't come.so it was me charlene julia jenny kelly hwee fangs and pris. =)). had fun didn't we?! we kept crappin but ALL THE BEST.ALL THE WAY.and BLAH blAH bLaH.HAHA.we were damn friggin crappified.we saw esther's clique,rozand's clique.stacy's clique there too.alotta pl pple.anyhows. we swam and played volleyball.yeahhs.anyhows.there was this guy who kept on followin us.he was FREAKY,we touched kelly's boobs.prolly by accident but better to be safe than sorreh so we told the life guard.he was damn sick.he was bleedin and we were like , hey you're bleedin and , he was like you know dracula?then we were like , yeahhs. and he was licked his blood.like,EWW.sicko.anyhows. he got the hint initially.so whatever.lazeh to blog already. so yeahhs. FUN FUN FUN. -gone

TRAGIC STATE.

yesterday's letter is DAMN NICE.
thanks LIZARD =)).
so emo now. FUCK THIS SHIAT AGAIN
i'm so messed up right now.
the joke they played on me
its not funneh , no
not lizard and eunice.
but juping and all.
my heart literally pounced.
i cant be that i..
NO.NO WAY.cause
i'm still in lurvee wit you!?
i cant forget you.
i cant let go of you
i'm trying so hard to hide my pain
i think of you so much. till
there isn't any space fer studies
in my fuckin mind.
FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKK.
i feel so stressed out.with what?
you.studies.home.lurvee.EVERYTHIN!
do you see all the pain yer givin me?!
its killin me slowly.im dying
im puttin on weight LOADSSS of it
do you even know how much pain i feel?!
I FEEL ALOT OF IT.AlOT!
sometimes i just wished i never met you
sometimes i just wished i never had emo
sometimes i just wished i never LOVED YOU.
SPARE ME WOULD YA?! I GOTTA MOVE ON
BUT eveytime im on the verge of a break through
i just have to see you. or get reminded of you
YOU! YES YOU!! GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!
i'll be lookin forward for this friday.
need a holiday and time away. from the world.HAHA
- gone

I GET AROUND.

HAHA.today was great!\i guess.
went to town with phoebs siewhwee
lizard kelly charlene and eunice. =))
had fun yeahhs? altough i PMSed awhile.
sorreh guys if i destroyed the mood.=/
jenny and julia were suppose to come
but jenny's mum didn't let her outta the crib
cause she slammed the door by ACCIDENT!! LOL
we were suppose to catch a movie. coach carter.
but we didn't cause we didnt wanna sit infront
there weren't any nice movies too.
talk about this crap tmr.
but before i go,

CHECK OUT LIZARD!! HAHA. MOLEY MOLEY MOLEY!! HAHA