mY today was ruined..by my mum..
 

we went to the beach n i wanted to write songs but my mum was being childish spoilt brat n ended up spoiling my mood n we went home..hai..so sian..i shall blog another day

i feel sad and weak inside.I hate miss tan!I hate her I her!!shEs is such a skank.i feel like yelling at her.i do i really do but u noe what?i cant cuz i will get DC.i hate her.I hate Mdm chong too.i think she is a mdm cuz her husband divorced her.i hate dem!i hate ana.i hate her.i was suppose to hav tuition today.i thougt she was cuming at 7.30.but no she was coming at 8 and i hav tuition at 8.hai..dun feel like toking..so sad

jaY-mE n mE haV thiS new DictioNary of words.haHAh.okok.not exactly dicTionarY.we made wOrds liKe respIc[[retarded-spastic]].HAahHA.nVm.gtg-

we waited fer serene fer like so long.
haHaha.another semi-queen!haha.
anyway den we went swimming again.
den lights went off at about 10.30.
I canT belive i missed nip/tuck.!!!.
haha.anyway after the lights went off we did many cannonballs.
haha.so farni!wahAhHAha!
cuz there was on part where i forgot to blow out.
den all the water went up mynose*ouch.
and i just kept screaming and messing with my head
I was so retartded!
aniwae..den we went to the place where stacy slapped hannah
we were sharing ghost stories..
but i just turned everything into a joke
got kinda bored so smsed esmond
since he is [i hav to admit]
ENTERTAINING
haha-whatever-but den my hp low batt.
KNS!hahHA-so i just listen lor
hahah.matthew dunno how to tell ghost story wan
say untill so sian
hahah
we went home about 4 in the mornin.
we walked home!!!
^@#$%^&**&^%#^!!!
cuz jiaxin dun wan to chip in money for the fare
den not not enough cuz gwen no money
go home den so tired slept straight away
got up early fer piano
den slept again
so we [me and gwen]woke up about 2
hahHA.so laTe.sOOo.ate lunch wif gwen
she was going sports bra shOpping wif jiaxin
Hhaah!!*grins.but den i no money so din go lor
i played captains ball at bethesda wif jas n jay
saw weilyn[semi-queen#1] n christabel
den we went to cc
they were havin some function
so i went over to their house
anyway i went to my gransgrans at punggol
so scary almost got lost
den i prayed den found my way
thank GOD literally
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din go skool yesterday cuz of my highlighted hair
dye 3 time liao
so i had to dye it back lor
anyway on tues i went out wif calista stacy n serene
to find a job fer calista
yea..n we did
hahah!-whatever-
today i went to skool had fun den
i went home wif alyssa n esther n sarah
i went home ta sleep
went to mac wif jay to study
*phew so tired
den had piano n tuition
-whatever-
i slapped phoebe today by accident
the morning was bad
anyway i wanna go off soon
till then

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F E E L I N G P H A T H E T I C W I T H O U T Y O U




I never like someone so bad
I mean if u were like not special i would have forgotten about you
but did i?
NO
When i think of you i feel sad
cuz i noe i cant get you
i wish i could tell it to u to yer face
but i dun hav the guts
so well..
yea..
I'll wait fer you
oR *sighs
NevErmind
who cares right


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mY feeLing right now?mixed up.I wanna cry
but no i m a strong girl right?*shrugs


My mum is ruining my life but i love her.
My Dad is not in my life if he wants to be a part of it
why hasnt he come home for quite sometime
*sighs.My heartaches like someone pierced my heart
I m insecure I love my friends fer being the fer me.
I m sad now.gotta go n cry.



u left me outside in the cold
u pushed me into the water i u gave me ur hand


anyway this song is old but its how i feel wen i see you or whatever

its called [the way] by clay aiken

1st verse:
There's something about the way you look tonight
There's something about the way that I can’t take my eyes off you
There's something about the way your lips invite
Maybe it’s the way that I get nervous when you're around
And I want you to be mine
And if you need a reason why

1st chorus:
It’s in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight
It’s in the way that you hold me
And in the way that you know me
When I can’t find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh you feel it in the way

2nd verse:
It’s something about how you stay on my mind
It’s something about the way that
I whisper your name when I’m asleep oh girl
Maybe it’s the look you get in your eyes
oh baby it’s the way that makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they may change
But what I’m feeling stays the same

2nd chorus:
It’s in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight (tonight)
It’s in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When I can’t find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh you feel it in the way

Bridge:
I can’t put my fingers on
Just what it is that makes me
Love you, you baby
So don’t ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside
Just thinking about the way

repeat 2nd chorus (2 xs)

It’s something about the way you look tonight
There is nothing more to say than I feel it in the way



i asked esmond fer an opinion whether does he think i'm pathetic.so now i noe how u feel wen i tok to u.I'm sad now.I'm a girl but i cover up my insecurities by critisicm.If i scold u or anyone.i hope u guys will understand.I LOVE YOU.there i finally said it.got it off my chest.i wanna scream now!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!




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