I miss these two dumbfucks hahahaha

stop killing me over & over again. I understand now , I am truly a screwed up son of a gun.

thank you haze for giving me the best gift you could ever give me in the world , asthma.
it's really been the cherry on top of a fucktastic week.It's killing me slowly but surely.
can someone help me buy a bag of life and a packet of health please? it's my major exams
this week & I really need to GETTTT SOMEEE. okay , I'm off to see the docs.

hello life , where've you been lately?
you weren't suppose to leave me just yet

this is my favourite shot from ava okay , I'm off again (:

I've got AVA's too! but anyway , this is caracal

gabriel , martin , field , kc & chris

went for the gigs yesterday , it was at the gas haus.which we had a hell of a time finding,we made a big square around the world.after the caracal gig headed down to town for ava's gig with stacy,alicia,rese,kc,gabriel,martin&chris.met akira & joey at the gig.my life is boring

bye

I

need

a

break

(:

I won't be updating for a week I think due to the exams

so , goodnight world & well have a wonderful week ahead

The X game

I'm bored & am at ah lian's place

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends
( )been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten sushi
( ) been skiing
(x) been at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
( ) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x)made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat/kangaroo
(x) won a contest
( ) run a red light/stop sign
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car crash
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast/third person
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x(cause of the song dancing in the moonlight ahha)) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you looked
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x(it's fucking singapore man!)) been on the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 5 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x) scared to watch a scary movie alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
(x) gone doorbell ditching
( ) played gay chicken
(x) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(x) told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
( ) french braided someone's hair
(x) gone skinny dipping in a pool/hot tub
(x) been threatened to be kicked out of your house or been
kicked out of your house
(x) loved someone so
much you would gladly die for them


there you go again

I want this baby , as soon as I raise 2 ,588 buckaroos.

someone kill me.

I'm being irritated by everyone around me beyond belief
maybe it's cause only now , I've learned to become irritable
that I notice every single fucking thing around me
every single fucking negative thing around me that is.
I am failing myself , my photos are coming out ugly
I am in need of inspiration of all sorts
In need of divine intervention
exhausted + cranky + psychotic mood = Marisse eating a lot
which in turn , gives a very very depressed fatter than
already is am are marisse.

TransAmerica

I feel like shit ,

I had a bad day

have you ever been in a situation where you know you're going to be in a bad situation & you know there's nothing you can do about it?

I feel like that now .

now , isn't there a words for it?

There is a tide in the affairs of men
Which takes out the flood
leads on to fortune
but who made the voyage of their lives are bound to shallows and miseries
and such a fall see every now a float
and we must take the crime when it serves
or lose the ventures before us

who knew I'd repeat it all over again

thank you dear fiance for today :)

take you to where the love is real
a face you don't recognize ,
put me inside
cause I keep the world in the dark
don't pay the ransom
we are non-existent nor are we real.
this is my verbal diarrhea
well , who knew

yesterday I woke up 2 hours into the evening and wasted my life oh well , at least I woke up to a new guitar & a new television one day I'll wake up to find a new father or new family or even better , a new planet or maybe even waking up to realize I've been sucked into a total different time lapse.I've been so exhausted my head feels like there's a 100 overactive jumping bean & maybe a mini earthquake in there. Well , on a lighter note , my mum said that we might go to Spain for real but for just 3 weeks on vacation , so much for living there ( I want to bring home a husband haha or a kid ok , I'm joking!okay , not funny marisse! ) today while shitting , yes shitting haha , I saw this travel guide to the Philippines on the rack and decided to take a look and gosh , it's so gorgeous there knew? I thought it'd be more of all poverty there & annoying maids & the only normal people would be my relatives there , I'm so bias. Have you ever felt like you can't say something cause the whole matter has blown over?

Let's see it's currently 3.50 am & I'm fucking akira's house
the fucking faggot is on the phone with zoe lin who looks like chevonne
I'm not making sense cause it's fucking 3. 50 am that's why I'm so
fucking vulgar , but that's no excuse. babe , I hope you're doing fine.
anyway , I was thinking why can't our bodies work like an bank like If
I sleep for 50 hours then I get to go on non-stop without sleep for the next
couple of weeks? why Lord , why! then at least I'd have much time in the
world to complete everything before I die & also cause everything will
be 24/7 and the country should fucking ban macdonalds. who am I kidding?
who doesn't love a macspicy double aye? alrighty , It's going to be the break
of dawn & I'm not asleep this really stinks cause tomorrow's going to bring acne.


pffftt , dyyamnn!

Theres poison in my drinking glass

Don't stop just sip it down

And in a swirling masquerade of sound

My body hits the ground

I'm beautiful when I'm asleep,

martini kisses land on my blistered bloody scarlet lips

the bottles in my hand

I can't wait to get the exams over & done with

school has been driving absolutely insane

till the point that I'm losing my voice

screaming the tension out of my body

somebody help me , please?

$5,573! , I went to the fair today :)

an overdose of nostalgia
talks of the otherside
musica latina
aimless running
my God , look what you've done






take a little more of me today

Pollen & Salt

here's a summary of my day ,

I had one of my N level papers this morning

tomorrow's going to be a normal school day

and I don't want to go to school

met alicia , jeremy , don & rudy today they left for tennis

then we went to meet therese , chris & KC

I had fun but I'm utter exhausted

sent lame smses to everyone

sorry for the utter disregard

haha , my brain is my camera

when it's switched off , same goes for me

no sleep no blog

good night

you're a selfish prick & I hope you know it

My bestfriend is a turtle.

hello welcome to Iamaddictedtothenet.com's chatroom , this week , we'll be talking about an overweight girl who's really quite repulsive looking with chipped toenails and has not bathe in the last say , 8 hours? and is sitting infront of the monitor at the moment & hasn't been studying reccently who's addicted to the internet.her name's marisse.alright , I'm just extremely bored and extremely marisse.marisse marisse , you've got to studyyyy.you're future's going to be decided in the next couple of weeks & you're still sitting infront of the god-damned monitor typing nonsense.well , at least get the after school odour off please? okayy , will do. This morning started out with the principal of my school making us do morning excercises cause we didn't stand up within 10 secondss. goddd , that reminds me why I hate the holidays cause I know I'll be coming back to the shit hole called school in a matter of time which makes it ohhhh-soooo amazingly depressing.okay , I've blanked out.see yousss folkssss :)

somedays , you just don't feel like talking.

gave cat class a miss this morning was too exhausted to attend it.

If I went I would've slept there anyway.

Got up at 10.50 with Nigel being a bitch on the phone cause I was late

alright , my bad and besides my mum & I only had 10 minutes to get ready for mass

which includes the 5 minute cab ride so , we ended up being late

I didn't even get to bathe before mass I must've stunk from a night ago.

ahh well , I'm not the one suffering anyway.

ohhh marisse, you selfish prick.

headed straight home after mass didn't even bother to say hello to anyone

I honestly , couldn't be fucked with anyone from church anyway.

I mean , I know church is suppose to be my second home & all.

but honestly , I think church is filled with alot of judgemental son of a guns

who think they're all that but seriously , have no idea what they're trying to be.

ahh well , fuck all that shit I couldn't be fucked anyway.

okay marisse , enough swearing for a day.

My birthday is coming in twenty days & I feel as though it's the end of the world.

not that I'm being emotional it's just the whole cliche thing.

the happy birthday song when you're not actually very happy

I mean I remember the times when I was younger

the balloons everything used to be so simple

& now all I want are god-damned cameras & well , a sewing machine

in other words , alot of cash.

but honestly , I mean 16 red balloons & 16 red daisies beat them anyday.

hee , ohh & I remember that scary clowns that perform magic tricks that resemble

some sort of a pedophile ( okay , repitition from LJ guy )

buttt , nonetheless birthdays are meant to look foward to yes?

ahhh well , with that said , did I make sense?

good night