With every girl you touch



It was a one-sided story
you were in pants that seemed so flowery
things got complicated
you love seeing me agitated
we should've skipped the part
where I fall for you
where I get used
jumped right to the part
where you break my heart
I sit infront of the sliver screen
my tears in a picture that turns green
I'll see you soon , It'll be the last
which after you'll become part of my past
beads of salty water rest of her smooth skin
as oblivious as she may seem
it was an act of denial that would soon leave her dim
dim , like the light of a lava lamp
beautiful but it makes your room cramp
it's a piece of beautiful trash which beholds
its beauty makes up with ten folds
if I, never see you again,
what a shame it'll be to know that,
Your lips I'll never kiss again
And if this story, its only a piece of my life
why does it feel like I've known you all my life
it's not as if i want you to be there
just give me your dramatic stare
I'll love just the way you are
even though just the way you are is the phrase that's far
from the thin line I'm walking on
just cut it off , and I'm gone.
I hope you'll live in regret
for saying I'm fucking fat
baby , open the bloody trap.


love her when she's gone.

things are sort of different now
there's no saying why or how
the night shifts into the break of dawn
and when I wake to find that you're gone
the symphony of the breaking of hearts
the pain caused by a thousand darts
Is Incomprehendable like a dozen stabbing knives
knives that bleed of hundreds of lives
living in your skin is beneath me
these empty nights are lonesome and free
wings at the side of your eyes
that float so freely in deceitful disguise
the views absorb like cold hard cash
that instant turns into thrash
In your eyes , things are not the same
all the girly girls will not be a match to the plain jane
that has caused markers and breakers to stay
so before the lids groove to the music baby , I'd pray




I'd stay awake with the sound of your voice

romance romance

smells like teen spirit.

your personalized oasis


Help me understand , pls?

Jesus , tell me is this gonna be worth my time.
It's too late to be saved by his charm.
I'm never going to get this right am I?
I'm a fool again to have hoped in him.
mg,I can't believe this is happening all over again.
All the oh-so cliche phrases are going to be popping out of mouth
like popcorns in a pan.spilling and spilling.
once again , my heart is bleeding.
Is this too much to ask for.
I never really asked for anything
ok , maybe I did.
I suppose I don't deserve it am I wrong to say that?
Your words have become cold.
And the comfort of his voice is draining away.
Oh! is it love?Apparently not I guess.
I'm going to party the pain away.
g'bye my lover g'bye my friend
you have been the one for me
It was , just a ride

JESUS PROTECT ME , she cried :)

I'm tongue tied
Waiting
Hoping
And praying
Lying
Beside you
Longing
To touch you

But this feels like the end

So tired
We are
Drifting
Too far
Eyes closed
Tightly
Thinking
There might be
Some way

But this feels like the end

What went wrong
I need to know
I can feel
You're letting go
Though there is
So much to say
I'm tongue tied
Tongue tied
Waiting

I'm tongue tied
Waiting
Hoping
And praying
So near
Yet so far
Alone
Together

Still this feels like the end
Feels like the end


thank you gwen , akira , jism head , xiaolong look alike for today
and most of all , my trusty wallet :D

say please do not go , oh you will oh you will , maybe so.


merry kressmezz everybody and happy birthday Jesus :D


The first hour or so of christmas was spent the bird's nest.
It was awesome , as usual , how can I say it's not.
The second hour was spent swimming.
swimming during christmas , isn't that lovely
I was wearing a dress shirt so It seemed so shakespear to me.
V and I were playing our usual game of 5 people this
and 5 people that we raced on our toes , literally.
bottomline , we had fun we even got to see blondie.
After that I went to meet only two and xy we had supper
and talked a little bit it was getting late so they left
I reached home at 5? I slept for a measly 6 hours
and off the church I went for christmas mass :D
Oh how I love christmas with mummy
After that I took the bus down to see my father
I took a little while to warm up to him
well , it HAS been almost 6 years darn it.
We went for lunch and talked alot.
I found out alot of things about the divorce
which is good I guess I mean , hey not every
kid from a broken family gets to know the whole my story
your story and slove the whole thing.
well , let's just say , everything I found out has to
be thrown into a 8 ft deep whole dugged by yours truly
Anyway so I got home and went to sleep for another 2 hours?
Gwen (= came over we headed to the esplanade to our mini oasis
we hung around for about 2 hours and went for supper with akira.
the walk home was really awesome the whole bottle thing was mad.
Gwen had to had home so I accompanied akira.
I found out alot of stuff about the dear boy which is good.
now , I can actually understand his nonsense =D
had fun talking , we hung out for 4 hours , just talking?
It was good though anyway so now , home sweet home.


let's face it , I'm boring :D

Oh christmas is a pisser but why does it have to be so beautiful.
an oxymoron like beautiful disaster would be perfect for this.

oh sweet love :D


I Keep Forgetting The Things You Tell me About Love

The iridescent glow of the words
that slipped and slid from your lips,
that caused the air to carry an ambrosial perfume
that flowed between the bars
of this beautiful cage
And drained into oblivion.

You smoked in the rain
As my reflection broke a glass
And threatened me in silence

I went away that day

Derided children
Played their games
While mountains sighed in rue.
The waters
eternally froze
For lily-white beings
To glissade in to the horizon.

And a simple quiescent dream
Of a glass castle
faded to a minim
in the back of my mind.
I was conquered.

I keep forgetting the things you tell me about love

poetry © 2004 Alixandra Velia G.

this is amusing and amazingly stupid extremely shallow and it's from ambercrombie and fitch.surprise , surprise.

Let there be love.


It's not pretty , but It's lovely
It's the eve of christmas baby.
Let me do my crime of being happy.
No one's going to rain on my parade
things are so weird now.
complicated has become and understatement.
I don't know whether I should.
Kissing on the envelopes , I wish you knew.
Something I don't feel ashame about.
Instead , I pass the blame.
Everybody knows that it's alright.
this is the season to be jolly they say.
So let's put our differences aside and party baby.
and of course , not forgetting the true meaning of x-mas.
which is , jesus christ was born to save us from our sins.
I sound all holy mofoic , but , It's true :D
why don't you just tell me how you feel.
Stop hiding it , I will love you all the same.
thank you , it's christmas , once again.
but this year's just not the same.
so , let there be love honey.
cause sugar , we're going down swinging
the talk of cliche.

karys's party was good (=



you know it always wins in the end.

Track 16



You left her dead , from head to toe.

Lust , V and I :D

I'VE BLOGGED 3 FUCKING TIMES IN LESS THAN AN HOUR!

Random

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die;
I am not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife!

//Hello goodbye

Just like every single tale that she told.
She was as beautiful and bold.
from the time She sat her eyes on the above
she thought to herself, Is it love?
She lefted in a jiff all confused.
thought to herself ,whats the use?
It's not as if he cares that she's there.
The time he has is not for her to spare.
Beauty she is , not in his eyes.
In love he thinks she is with other guys.
pushing him away is why she's dejected.
It's the secret fear of being rejected.
In her mind , there's a complicated affair indeed.
What she really yearns and greeds
For love that is more near
So when he's gone these words will still be here
she just wants to ease every fear
and dry up every tear
and make it loud and clear
Is it love or Is it but a fling.
to comprehend not to cling.
She lies , she lies to herself
when she knows it's reverse phsycology the size of an elf.
So she sits on the fence
In fully arm with self-defence.
he's created the cold hard bitch.
and now ,I'm going to listen to finch :D

FLICK


The party was fabulouso :D
I went with very little people
I mean , compared to Fling.
Underaged parties are actually nicer than the real thing.
I mean maybe it's cause I go to all the sleazy places
at MS , fuck my age :D(I just wanna grow old!)LOL.
Went with tehknee and V who btw , is at my house now :D
Met up with hannah melissa jewel and vanessa!
And also Akira and Jism head with some other guys.
We also met up with cia ,one of the co-org.:D
And soon after Kelly Charlene Sexy and beat came!
We partied all night long.
And of course , at every party there's the big
socializing factor LOL so we made friends with
Shawn or Sean , the old man , tiffany , jia en and the
"fine , ignore me guy" LOL.they were really nice people
S can crib walk really really well and they've got charisma
Made friends with this malay guy too can't remember his name tho
The music at one point was horrible but I guess it was alright
Cia asked them to change it.Jill's dancing was awesome :D
We met derick , yet again , at Flick.
Bottomline is , it was fun.
I'm drained , g'night folks


peace be with kelly and akira :D

you think you're so darn special.


I've been crazy over howlin pelle for exactly 2 days now.
He's so hot! He has the to-die-for eyes.yeap , no more Ian.
Well , at least for now.Anyway , beside my current craze.
I have another love with V , we have a current fascination
with none other than , techno music.
NO! , we do not listen to it instead , we make it
with the sounds coming out of our oh-so-lovely mouths :D
It irritates ner though haha but at least that's how
we get her to change really quickly in the dressing room
Yes , like almost every other girl that's in love with shopping
We were at mango today , I bumped into jism head's friend
Her name is Joanna if you must know.
Anyway V and Ner got their pants and stuff
met ah lian on the way , we all ate and stuff
before that , I had lunch with aleesha and celest
Yes , it's been 2 months , It was great I guess.
Went with them to work at Dan ryan's
No , they worked , I went with them there to
I don't know why either and It's their first day
anyway , I was left alone after that.
Lucky me , It was tanglin so there were alot of artsy fartsy places
They were beautiful , as in the art stuff.
Anyway after walking around and spotting cool party stuff and
Cool mary jane's at head to toes which cost 249 bucks
I went into this art gallery called , goddess? haha
The paintings there were awesome!
Oil based painting most of them
and there was this other shop with beautiful abstract.
Anyway at goddess , I was so mesmerized by the paintings
the way they were painted's actually really interesting
and then the lady had to ask , are you a arts student?
DAMN YOU!I'm not.I would very much love to be one.
but I didn't get it.ok that's not what I said
I said no , I just love art alot.
I felt like crying , emotional of my lose.
it's not fair that I don't get the chance to do many things
anyway then I went to barang barang , attracted by the paintings
and candles and the 250 couchy chair! hahaha.anyway , enuff said.
I'm going to sleep now , need to wake up at 11 in morn :D



Such deceit and betrayal.

the beach is sunny place for shaddy people :D




The only rain or shine day I love , christmas


Serangoon , where I live!


























swell time , thank you for loving me , V ner Gwen and Val :D

not a pretty face but , what beautiful legs.



spasms in the mind.
we watched the planes fly
and made did the unexpected
ate till we nearly blew up
snapped a private moment
and I killed them all :D

Untitled at the 13th hour.


I want to tell you exactly what's going through my mind.


SHOPPING
CHRISTMAS
MONEY
ME GOING BROKE
:D