back to yesterday.
TWOheartPOUNDINincidents
ok make that 3
MAN.this ain't workin fer me.
think i'm gonna die young.
HAHA
first offff
i saw PUG JELLY
in PS i'm sure of that.
then I HAD NO PAPER.
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT!!
HAHA
second of all.
i saw *you.
i totally made a fool of myself online
i mean what was i thinkin
saying that to you
GAAAWWWWD.i cannot be BORED.
phoebe just had to make it worst.
MAN.we can me the idiot sistas or smth.
HAHA
lastly.
ESMOND made me feel like some fool
mr-ASSmond.hahas.
felt like flushing his brains down the toiletbowl.
WELL.it WAS running around.
HAHA.
HATE YOUUUUUUU
HAHA


_______________________________________



TODAY


was alright i guess.
OH YEAH
HAHA
we hav this new club called.
the lil' borin old club.
OK
im just playin.
HAHA.
went to skool early to realise
NOT a single SOUL was to
BE FOUND.
HAHA
anw
so I decided to go to sihui's house to look fer her
when i was walkin there
i SPOTTED HER.
tough shit.
HAHA
anw.
had lunch wit sihui fangs lizard amirah n CARIN.
HAHA.
my personal PRIVATE joke.
HAHA
what spasm
anw
then we went back to skool to practice
then we went over to sarahs house to watch MOVIES.
hahas
dogdeball was great
HEY EVERYONE
it's BYOTCH not BIATCH
hahaha
watch mean girls fer the seventh time
sick.
hahas
OF IT ok? OF IT
hahas
gtg
peace out

gone_________________

heys `
TODAY is OFFICIALLY my
UNLUCKY DAY
with the capital U.
HAHA.
like WHADDAHELL.
gtg.
bye
another day.

just watched jersey girl
it was a great show.
i'm stonin ` at home today.
sooo bored.
gotta go to church later.
i'm so glad the netball dance thing is done
coulda died coulda died.
but nonetheless it was great.
yeap.the things we came up with.
are so Lame with a capital L.
oh man.i'm talkin` like im some bim.
hahas.anw.TAUFIK RAWKS!!
i'm sure he'll fine the whole damn thing.
hahahs.he has my FULL support.
hahahas.i compose a new song.
its called.umm.dear you.
its about this girl who just broke up.
with this guy.its nice. although it didnt` happen
ta me.but it doesnt matter.as long as it is nice.
right?RIGHT?hahas.whatever.
gtg.
*peace out.

heys `


JIA JUN


HUI FANG


LIZARD!



i can cook!!!


i just cook alfredo.



ahhas.





out-

Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, What's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus:
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
And she can't find her place
She's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

Chorus
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh
She's lost inside
Lost inside, oh ohhh yeah





just love her.just love this song.
What great lyrics.

i've been kinda happy
for the past few days.
since the day i had fun
doing? NOTHING!!
haahas,anw.
deepavali.or however it spelt as.
SINCE i'm multi-racial.
I celebrate it too
i went to my grans.
had fun.
went fer sing. idol.
yesterday the netballers met up
we tot of some steps.
NICE steps of course.
not lousy boring stiff ones.
hahas. today?
hung out wif my old frens
from the neighbourhood.
had loads of fun.
hahas.
we put make up on
as in those like.
fake blood n all tt crap.
took photos it was simply.
FUN.
hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

lookin' back at the fun i had.hurrs.

milk n oreo.ain't they cute?hahas.but their gone.

[from right]:me,esther,alyssa
[below]:sherylene n sarah.
DO WE LOOK NICE OR WHAT!!

[from right]:zai,me and jas.
zai'a a princess.isnt she cool.hahas.long story.dont ask.

[from right]:me,esther,sarah,alyssa.

[on top]:me,stacy
[below]:serene n calista.
those were the days..hahas.
gtg.
*peace out

yesterday..
i went fer the sing. idol thing.
it was kinda fun.
queue so long my legs almost melted.
hahas.TAUFIK RAWKss!!
hahs. anw.dont feel like typing so much.

Had fun today.
doing NOTHING.
hahas.dont believe me?
ask fangs lizard n jun.
dont ask carin.
she's always doing something.
hahas.she's plain weird.
i asked her what sub she taking next year
she said.NOTHING.
hahas,RETARD!!
cause she heard it as THINKING.
dumbass.
hahas,dont blame her.
SHE'S JUST BORN THAT WAY.
poor gurl
anyway.woke up late.
AGAIN.
suppose to wake up at 9
cause suppose to me sihui they all
anw.i woke up at 11.
hahas.
but i still went anyway.
we thought of smth.
BUT ITS GONNA BE KEPT A SECRET.
hahas.
anw.the main team had training.
SO.sihui gave us the keys to her house.
we went to her house.
me,fangs,jun,lizard n carin.
we went there to do simply NOTHING.
hahas.anyway.
we EVENTUALLY got hungry.
hahas.so we decided to get a drink
we searched the kitchen fer like
HALF AN HOUR.
we found milo eggs tuna bread baked beans.
hahas.so we drank milo and cooked eggs.
no LIZARD COOKED EGGS.
hahas.she is really bad at it.
or maybe its just the lousy pan we used.
i cooked too.
it was doing fine.
till the pan caught fire.
hahahas.YEAH FIRE.YEAH THE PAN!!.
hahas.like how retarded is that.
to extinguish it
i quickly put it in the sink.
GUESS WHAT!!
the fire got bigger!!hahas.
when i was criticising lizard for her bad cookin
i said cannot cook when the pan is wet.
i go put water on the pan.
hahaas.how dumb of me!!!
hahahahas.this shows pride comes before a fall.
hahas.anw.after that.we went to hav dinner.
the rest had to go home.
so me fangs lizard
went together fer dinner.
we were talkin about the crazy pple in our skool.
hahas.n other stuff.
anw.it was so retarded.
anw.i gtg.
so.
till then..

to whoever that is reading my blog.

LIZARD IS a VERY BAD COOK!!!!

i've not been ballin' fer like
2 months.
Oh man..
i feel sooo sinful.
hahas.
my today was whacked manx.
hahas.
cause i PAAARRTTTEEHHEEDDDDDD!!!
hahas.ok it was a
class parteh.
key word *PARTEH.
but it was great.
hahas.
first off.
i came to skool wearing
filp flops.
hahas.
how dumb of me.
well.cause i just had to forget.
just when i saw
cumar.
i remembered
im not suppose to wear it.
hahas.
ass luck right?
BUT.
GOD saved me.
there was tt canteen thing there.
ya know
the one where we put our dishes in
i hid behind it.
*phew.
she didnt see me.
hahas.
THEN.
the vice-prefect or smth.
had to appear outta nowhere.
LUckily
there was a toilet next to me.
i ran in quick.
hahas.
talk about luck.
hahas.
anw,i walked through the canteen.
THEN.
i saw mrs lee talking to mrs tay bee kee
[ya noe,ollinda's neighbour]
at first
i didn't even know it was her.
i walked somewhat
across her from the canteen
then i realised it
WAS her.
hahas.
then i ran quick to the..
BASKETBALL COURT.*TADa~
then i cut across the grass area
near the D&T room.
and GUESS WHAT!!
IT WAS MUDDY!!
like.ewww.
hahas.
but anw.
at least i was safe.
hahas.
had fun at the parteh.
i kept dropping stuff.
hahas.
i even drop a whole lot of chickens
when i was like BBQ-ing.
hahas.
how retarded.
hahas.
anw.
the presentation thing
was like ok.
the skit.
OH MAN.
dont remind me.
COULDA died there.
hahas.
THE SINGING
sounds like will. hung
only a lil' better.
but it was overall.
alright.
rushed home to watch.
THE CHAMPIONS!!
hahas.
anw.
gtg.
SO.
till then.
*peace out.

i'm like sooo bored.
i'm cashless.
i'm so sad.
-out-

i hate you
i really do.
i dont know.
i'm



sad..
cause i know i'll never get you.


hurt..
cause i'm lost without you.


depressed..
cause i'm bleeding inside


devastated..
cause i love you like.



there's no tomorrow.


your my eye candy.
your the one
i know it
i just know it
its like were meant to be.
but do you care?
i doubt so.
i guess its no use
i'm screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do.
god must hate me.
maybe you should pray for me
im breaking down.
and there's no one there to save me
its scary everytime i think about it
what if i wake up one day regretting
every little thing i did fer you.
Fucking hell.i wanna freak out and let it go.


i'll be waiting here fer cause i dont wanna miss a thing.





perished n burned alive is what i actually feel inside.
i wanna say i'm here fer you.
no matter what u do.
livin life to the fullest.
is how things work fer you.
im bleedin deep down inside.
next time i'll be the one to say move aside.



-gone-

catching a fallin leaf can bring you good luck.
hahas..hmm..
i cant belive me n phoebe were so bim
to try to catch one for two hours!
anw.been swimming alot lately.
GOSH when did become such a beach bum!
hahas.anw.i got this bloody tan again.FUCK
now when i play hide n seek.
ican just lie on the damn road.
Got caught in the hall fer taking
like is tt a fucking crime now.
hello?!im human.fuck this shit.
anw,i was playin wit jiajun i wanted to see her wallet.
just for that..
i had to clean the whole hall.
with some other pple.
plus,i had to do it with pple i cant click with
i mean please their not even in my year.
incase yer wonderin they are.
lizard.jeanne.natalie.i think yolanda or smth.
anw.how fucked up is tt?
its not like i hate them or anthin
but i just dont know them well enough.
to you know.be RETARDED.
anw.went swimming again.
i swam 12 laps.
when i was in the water.
i kept imaginin things like.
how im gonna die.
n some other retarded stuff.
I feel so BLEEK.
i dont know I feel sad.
i dont know why i guess its cause
i havent tok to *you in like months.
i think im gonna die of my toxins.hahas.
im sad.confused.devastated.

heys `
lurvve my blog
yeapx.
love 1985.
anwww,
had training yeshterdae
webt home and slept the whole blardee day
till todae.
wahahas.
anw.
so bored.
cheryl, sulynn ,phoebe
are at my house now.
anww,
gtg entertain my guest.
*grinz* yea right..
write anader day.



-out-

its OFFICIAL today is GOD-MUST-HATE-ME day!!
it started in the morning with mum.
she sucks!hate her `
i had to get a dumb hair cut.
now i look like SUPER-NERD.
the superhero that saves nerds.
hehs.
anw,after tt.
i got caught fer my uniform
like hello?
i was gonna go up on stage.
DUH!?
of course i would cry.
its like the end of my social life.
haha.ok.i'm just being hysterical.
but anw.i was long high n tight.
I look like a walking fucktard.
like if i walk around pple will walk around n point at me n yell.
FFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKTTTTTAAAAAAARRRRRDDDDDDDDDD!!!
*crap.
anw gtg.
fuck this

OMG!!
am i dreaming?
did I,marisse.
actually go fer the alicia keys concert.
it was unbelivable.
her voice is fantastic.
Her vocal range is good.
she plays the piano well[the keyboard player too.]
OMG!
the concert was rockin.
altough i went wit my mum.
but her frens were great.
they were very very spunky
AND UNLIKE MY MUM
they like OUTKAST!.
hahahahaah.lOlx.
anw.im tired now.gonna go sleep.
see ya.

heys `
trying to sign up fer that dumb photobocket thingie.
damn.must sign up at 2.so fucked up.
anw.sulynn,cher and phoebe just left.
I'm rotting again.
I cant believe i wasted 3 bucks on tt damn show.
DAMN!shit show.SOUL.what a lame show.
Im not even freaked out.
Anw.Exams now.so easy.
Just abit nervous fer tmr.MATHS.mrs tng surely set until damn hard.
anw.diane more lil' gurl.all tt serene's fault.tt lil' biatch.
anw.I shall not butt in.hehs.wa lao.
tt mdm chong really really sucks lor.
I HATE HER!May she burn in her lipstick.hehs.
what i just said doesnt even make sense.haha.
Anw.Our Clique's name is right click.like..
WWWWHHHHAADDDDAAAHHHHEELLLLLL!?
haha.thanks to shalini.haha.LMAO.anw.
We are going out after the exams gonna watch
Art of the devil and whitechicks.they dun even mix.
haha.anw.So fucked up lor.damn the fucking exams.
haha.OH YEAH!!you know the song by simple plan!!
WELCOME TO MY LIFE?its like sooooo nice!!hehs.
its so matches me.listen to it.ANNNNIIWWWAAEEE`
i feel so fucked up without *you.YEA.i haven gotten over u
I'm breaking down.FUCKING HELL.and my mum.she's so stressin me
its not like she's takin the exams.fucktard.anw.at least ..
I'm going fer the alicia keys concert.YES.I'm proud of it.
I'M GOING FER THE ALICIA KEYS CONCERT!!
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!
my mums like so bugging me to learn singing from her.
she's crazy i tell u!she's yellin vulgar.like how?
how?am i suppose to sing with anger.
Hate her.
anw.im proud to say my voice has to grown.HEARD TT ESMOND?
.dotx.
oh yeah.WHY CANT I.Its a really nice song.sO devastatin'.well.wth.
hears the lyrics.


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

But this just the beginningWe're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about youI
t's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginningWe haven't fucked yet, but my head’s spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'Out of this that
we can't control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you




nice.yea.i know.anw.i gotta go.till then..




-out-

I lurvee ` my new blog.anw.gotta run.mums yellin`.cya.



-out-

my mums turning the extra room into a studio.*cool

I just quarreled with esmond.I hate him!I hate him!just because things r not going well with him n *someone.anw,things are ok now.My today was weird.Not a very good day either.had no mood to ball.so weird right?well,tt's the things work for me.haha.whAteveR.its been about 8 months since i told u i like *u.why does it have to be this way?why?i really like *u.love is a really strong word for me.I hate my life.i hated the NDP.I hate alot.do you know that?murder is said to be the most disgusting and unthinkable cause how could think about even doing right?well,have u ever thought what went through the murderer's mind...but here's another kind of murder thats far more fearful,far more harmful.and far more common than physical cold-blooded murder.ANGER.anger is far more terrible because many pple do not realize how evil it is.We see murder cases once in a while but pple get angry with each other all the time!how den can we be saved from the burnin' fires of hell?But need not despair God promises us his grace.Lucky me.haha.cause i get angry at pple all the time.i get angry with lizard n jenny..all the time..at least during training.i mean why must they bother me?i dont even talk to them tt much.Bitches.i dont even noe them their just my seniors?I get angry at myself.I mean nobody is perfect right?I'm definitely not.I'm not good enough for u.Your outta my leugue.do U actually even noe how much i like u.I cant seem to get over you.its been 8 months.like hello?tt's long maNxXx.I dont always have to do everything right.I wanna walk around with my hands up in the air like i dont care anymore.I wanna live my life different.I cant seem to let go.I wanna close my eyes.I wanna tune you out.But i cant.The more i think of u.i freak out.this sucks.but like i can do anything about it.I wanna stop crying my heart out.I dun wanna keep inside anymore.I wanna shout it all out.I dont wanna compromise.I hate love.It sucks.Arrgh.just like today.just can't.

love is troublesome

Dreams for sale and fairy tales.

i wear a mask of a thousand faces.but none of them are me.gonna let go n take it off.soon.........................

-out-