//Hello goodbye

Just like every single tale that she told.
She was as beautiful and bold.
from the time She sat her eyes on the above
she thought to herself, Is it love?
She lefted in a jiff all confused.
thought to herself ,whats the use?
It's not as if he cares that she's there.
The time he has is not for her to spare.
Beauty she is , not in his eyes.
In love he thinks she is with other guys.
pushing him away is why she's dejected.
It's the secret fear of being rejected.
In her mind , there's a complicated affair indeed.
What she really yearns and greeds
For love that is more near
So when he's gone these words will still be here
she just wants to ease every fear
and dry up every tear
and make it loud and clear
Is it love or Is it but a fling.
to comprehend not to cling.
She lies , she lies to herself
when she knows it's reverse phsycology the size of an elf.
So she sits on the fence
In fully arm with self-defence.
he's created the cold hard bitch.
and now ,I'm going to listen to finch :D

FLICK


The party was fabulouso :D
I went with very little people
I mean , compared to Fling.
Underaged parties are actually nicer than the real thing.
I mean maybe it's cause I go to all the sleazy places
at MS , fuck my age :D(I just wanna grow old!)LOL.
Went with tehknee and V who btw , is at my house now :D
Met up with hannah melissa jewel and vanessa!
And also Akira and Jism head with some other guys.
We also met up with cia ,one of the co-org.:D
And soon after Kelly Charlene Sexy and beat came!
We partied all night long.
And of course , at every party there's the big
socializing factor LOL so we made friends with
Shawn or Sean , the old man , tiffany , jia en and the
"fine , ignore me guy" LOL.they were really nice people
S can crib walk really really well and they've got charisma
Made friends with this malay guy too can't remember his name tho
The music at one point was horrible but I guess it was alright
Cia asked them to change it.Jill's dancing was awesome :D
We met derick , yet again , at Flick.
Bottomline is , it was fun.
I'm drained , g'night folks


peace be with kelly and akira :D

you think you're so darn special.


I've been crazy over howlin pelle for exactly 2 days now.
He's so hot! He has the to-die-for eyes.yeap , no more Ian.
Well , at least for now.Anyway , beside my current craze.
I have another love with V , we have a current fascination
with none other than , techno music.
NO! , we do not listen to it instead , we make it
with the sounds coming out of our oh-so-lovely mouths :D
It irritates ner though haha but at least that's how
we get her to change really quickly in the dressing room
Yes , like almost every other girl that's in love with shopping
We were at mango today , I bumped into jism head's friend
Her name is Joanna if you must know.
Anyway V and Ner got their pants and stuff
met ah lian on the way , we all ate and stuff
before that , I had lunch with aleesha and celest
Yes , it's been 2 months , It was great I guess.
Went with them to work at Dan ryan's
No , they worked , I went with them there to
I don't know why either and It's their first day
anyway , I was left alone after that.
Lucky me , It was tanglin so there were alot of artsy fartsy places
They were beautiful , as in the art stuff.
Anyway after walking around and spotting cool party stuff and
Cool mary jane's at head to toes which cost 249 bucks
I went into this art gallery called , goddess? haha
The paintings there were awesome!
Oil based painting most of them
and there was this other shop with beautiful abstract.
Anyway at goddess , I was so mesmerized by the paintings
the way they were painted's actually really interesting
and then the lady had to ask , are you a arts student?
DAMN YOU!I'm not.I would very much love to be one.
but I didn't get it.ok that's not what I said
I said no , I just love art alot.
I felt like crying , emotional of my lose.
it's not fair that I don't get the chance to do many things
anyway then I went to barang barang , attracted by the paintings
and candles and the 250 couchy chair! hahaha.anyway , enuff said.
I'm going to sleep now , need to wake up at 11 in morn :D



Such deceit and betrayal.

the beach is sunny place for shaddy people :D




The only rain or shine day I love , christmas


Serangoon , where I live!


























swell time , thank you for loving me , V ner Gwen and Val :D

not a pretty face but , what beautiful legs.



spasms in the mind.
we watched the planes fly
and made did the unexpected
ate till we nearly blew up
snapped a private moment
and I killed them all :D

Untitled at the 13th hour.


I want to tell you exactly what's going through my mind.


SHOPPING
CHRISTMAS
MONEY
ME GOING BROKE
:D

Model: shazana
photographer: natasha
incase you're wondering , I have no idea who they are.



Photography is wonderful :D

stole this off some girl's friendster her name's natasha :D

I don't know what to say.
I can't face myself anymore in the mirror.
I stare at the sun and hide under a killing moon.
g'night folks.I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

the repitition of a loney soul


Yesterday , I fell asleep crying.
I've been letting myself down too much.
My nights have been turning black and white.
All the mistakes I've made keep repeating in my head.
It plays like a flim without a sound.
The words , " I don't want to turn out like him"
keep flashing in my mind like a warning sign.
life's been pretty fucked up for me.
I want to take the sleeping pills
to cure me of my insomia , It's very bad.
I clearly cannot sleep untill it reaches 4 or 5 in the morn
It's horrible , I'm getting eye bags.
I don't want get uglier than I already am.( yes , superficial)
I need to lose fucking weight but I wake up so late
I gets me all lethargic untill it's like 11 or 12 at night
I'll get all energetic but by then , the fucking gym's closed.
So I stay home and watch tv or get emo.
I wanna move out of the house although
I won't do too well on my own either.
I want to take sleeping pills so I can sleep at 8 pm
wake up the next day at 8 am , eat only one meal a day
go to the gym and the rest of the time's for me.
but the side effects are I might get addicted or worse
go insane , which is bad.cause I'm not sane as it already is.
I don't want to be a drug addict but I feel like I need to
My life's so fucked up right now.
And I have some friends who put me down.
It hurts me when they get too insensitve.
I know I seem like an unemotional freak at times.
hello ? I'm still human I can get sad and hurt or offended too.
But these fuckers , don't give a shit do they.
Damn it , I hate getting angry it always leaves me emotional.
not a great way to start your day aint it?
but still it started badly anyway.
with my mum screaming her head off in the morning.
My friend being vindicated , me the accuser.
I feel like a total bitch of myself.
I think I need to run and hide under a big rock.
cause I'm big so small rocks won't hide me.
I'm big fat and ugly. hoo-raahh


off the read of kurt now.

yes mummy , be proud of me.I've become so good at being random.

An afternoon shot my day with the best friend :D

chill out macdaddy day.

Woke up from a satanic dream at 11
Went to back to sleep cause
I told myself It was too early
and there's nothing to do
So I woke up again at about 2 or 3
stonned around the house.
Called up gwen to hang out
we went to bugis street to try a pancake
then to suntec to share our favourite
ban mian(sp?) then went to get some
yoghurt thing next to candy empire to get
a wonka bar and chilled at esplande with
lovely jazz music at first by the river
next to this old cute couple
whom we secretly took photos of
and the our next destination(yes corny)
was the roof where we chilled at a corner
behind all the architecture(sp?)
and we took lame candid(literally) photos
and talked all night and went to get
coffee ( technically hot chocolate)
at mrs fields and then we headed home!
I'm beat , night!

Amsterdam , somewhere I'd love to go.



I have been staying home all day
The only time I got out of the house
Is to buy my fucking top-up card.
I'm am now very convinced that I need a line
I've topping up my card almost every week
and it's killing me cause even when I don't
use it for a day.It cuts of 60 cents
That my friend is a anal prober.
I've been staying home alot alot.
I love it but turning down two friends
and having nothing to do is stupid.
well , the good thing that came out of today is.
I read a few chapters of heavier than heaven.
oh kurt , my beautiful DEAD grunge superstar :D
I threw up my lunch and my dinner's fine.
I smell really good due to the reccent change of soap.
my entry is really lame so bye. =/

can life get any lamer?!

my sweet serenity

I would love to escape to a place like that.
Maybe after I'm sec four I'll go to another
country for alone for a week or something
and do some self reflection.
I'd really love that , it'd be even better
If I had someone to experience it with :D
Have you ever felt like that there was
actually some hope in your most bitter life.
I mean there's actually someone there that
might actually have some meaning in your life.
but you're not entirely sure about it
cause you feel like they don't have the guts
to admit it and you don't want to admit either
cause you're both afraid of the rejection factor.
It's almost melodramatic , almost.
actually I like to question myself alot.
I mean I'm only short changing yourself if
you don't give it a try right? I know that.
Which is really ass man.
and you're starting to feel like
you're day isn't complete without talking to them
I know It sounds crazy.
Imagine that , you guys even had an imediate connection.
It's absolutely crazy I might just ask Vick to slap me.
I can almost say I've never been this excited in my life.
Oh my gosh! haha this sounds like I'm copying lizzie's entry
but heck no! I'm just agreeing with her that my whole life can
be related to songs man.music plays a big part of my life
that was random but true! music makes me lose control
even that phrase sounds cliche all of sudden!
Today I had alot of fun! I spent the entire day with ner and vick:D
We cooked ( maybe marvick did that) we watched movies talked nonstop
and else you have we danced we I don't know what else to say
but the bottomline is , It was awesome (once again , very alyssa woo-hoo!).
I have so much to say and so little time and so little space
and what have you so I need to take a chill pill , love! (=

Isn't she a beau.


I've been rather odd lately.
Just a moment ago , I was sitting at the christmas tree
and staring at lights wondering what am I going to do
with my life.I even started comparing my life with
kurts , very similar I must say
I mean if you minus the drama and a little
be less exaggaration.You get the formula
of a kurt cobain.I'm not saying it as a form of flattery
really , I mean dream big live small.
my life's like all about that right now.
I'm so afraid of whats going to happen in the future.
My life's not making much sense to me.
I feel quite lost.
Lost , in my words my thoughts my dreams.
It's all not tallying up.
As I go on typing , I don't even know what
I'm saying anymore.Help me please?
I'm starting to love being introvert.
but I know once school starts
I'd have no choice but to socialize
cause without my friends
school would be meaningless to go for.
But right now , I love alone time
All i need's a Mp3 and you'll get a whole
new marisse isabel A. caine K. that's my name btw.
I've planning alot of alone outings.
Once I get my laptop and Mp3 , I'll be an introvert
for sure.No more saturday nut outings.
more off the stay home or go to punggol to
be alone.Ok , I know I'm just saying this right now.
cause I'm being weird.So please don't take me seriously.
I need help and I admit it.

Chilling in the sun with myself.

internal suffering.


I've been home for almost the whole day
I only left the house for an hour and a half or so.
and it was to the gym alone.
I spent one dollar and fifty cents on nothing
fuck my period.I had very bad cramps.
partly cause my body's weak from not enough rest
thanks to my lovely momma and secondly cause I
didn't eat anything but a banana.
I felt under pressure to lose weight
My mother.Joey and whoever.
I mean I'm really alright with it
you know how to the lunar rhmythms get to you
And apparently , I tend to overthink things.
So I didn't eat , now I feel like a bimbo.
It's not something I would do.
cause it's fucking hell stupid.
damn it.I'm not going to try that stunt ever again.
Who cares if i'm fat man! you guys love me cause
of my personality! yeap it's the ego talking.
I watched alot of TV today and I read alot too.
I hope to finish heavier than heaven asap.
It's a really nice book.I now know that
kurt cobain lost his virginity at 16 :D.
I watched the real world(paris).
Alot of intersting shit going on.
bottomline is , make love not war!
I've got to get to bed now.
The sandman's waiting to bomb my eyes with teardust.
damn that's a fucking cheesy figure of speech.



Daria , I need you.

Morning Beautiful.


What an awful day to start out my day like this
I've been sleeping at 5 in the morning
consecutively for the the past week or so.
I've totally screwed up my body clock.
Maybe I should fly to the states and stay there
and maybe get blown up by them.
I mean It isn't the people of afghan's fault
I mean If you thing about it.
I think they were simply misunderstood.
I mean suffering like them 24/7
obviously there must be alot of rage in them.
They curse to the sky in great dispair.
Why do THEY have to suffer so much
and those bloody americans ,
having the whole 'lifestyles of the rich and famous'
not all of them mostly the whites.
don't get me wrong.I'm not being racist here
hey I love the ang mohs.
Most of the music I listen to are by them anyway.
How contridicting anyway
as I was saying , I've been sleeping at ungodly hours
of the morning.I woke up to this mad woman screaming at me
famously known as , 'marisse's crazy mum!'.
I love her alot , really.d-oh.blood ties dudes.
but she can get really childish and anal.
oh wells , i guess it's her characther trait or smth.
Anyway , I gave town a skip today.
I'm staying home maybe put up the christmas tree.
I'm going to the gym to lose weight
People have been calling me fat man.
I need to be dragged of my seat.
I'm going to do art too.
I'm going to be home by 8.30 to watch tiramisu.
yes , very aunty indeed.I guess it's cause I miss poks.




Chill with me Mcdaddy.

a lack of colour

How do I start?
My week has been rather stagnent so far.
Although , hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I went for a Job interview today for kelp ,
this fashion brand if you must know.
Anyhows , I sort of got the Job as in
, I was actually hired till
I told them I couldn't do full time next year.
So they said they'll call me tomorrow.
pray for me people!I need the job , really.
First , so I can get my mum off my back.
Secondly , I need to dang cash.
Anyway , Everyone's so busy now.
Juggling friends and work and other trivial shit gets kind of tiring.
I've been staying home alot reccently.
I've become quite the homegirl.
I can join tehknee and suee's club.
As far as boring entry maybe ,
I've kind of lost my flow.
So If I start talking crap please don't get any furthur.
I'm becoming really boring.
Once again , cause I've got no one to love.
But on a lighter note , It's great being a SWINGING SINGLE :D.
I've been painting and drawing alot.
I bought a book.
The tittle's heavier than heaven.
It's the biography for kurt cobain.ya' know the guy from nirvana?
yea , I figured too.
His eyes are to die for.
I couldn't help but drool over the dead man's eyes.
yes , he's dead.
It would be very controversial for me to say ,
Love makes the world go round right now.
I know alot of people for example , lizard , will debate against it.
I'm so random.
Why not try clicking on more intersting blog like leezordos'.
G'night.
The tooth fairy thing really made sense coming from a senseless person like her.=D






sweet!

hello my sweethearts. :D

My week has been rather relaxing
I'm happy to say , I don't hate anybody.
really , I'm not saying that just for saying sake
I'm so over the bitch phase.
I can actually stand proudly and say , I'VE MATURED.
I'm actually tired of bitching.
My way of dealing with things now is
Let the person get what she or he wants
leaving them satisfied with themselves
and know someday the will learn it the hard way
like how I did.I mean losing a friend like phoebe
It was sheer stupidity.I can only pray now
that nothing of that sort of shit will happen again.
I'm happy with my bestfriend.if we still are.
I doesn't matter she is to me anyway.
Phoebe , you're the one I spent most of my
happy times.The most dull parts of my life
and the whole nine yards.It's so cliche.
but friends forever?till the end , I hope.
Anyway , my style now is , compromise.
or at least somewhere along that line
I can't say for certain that I won't be the gossip folk again
I most definately will , but , I'll try.
If you find this boring , please do not go on.
Cause the fucking special shit is going to go on.
anyhows , not everyone can say they have a past
a past that had made an impact on alot of people, really.
this time , it's not the ego talking.
I mean I manage to get so many to here my story about 'us'
us as in refering to phoebe and I.
If you're part of the 'shit'
think of it my childish appetiate(sp?) for mean girls part two?
Anyway , Phoebe I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused you.
I hope this calls for new begginings cause it'd be s' wonderful
I remember us looking at other people and saying that
we'll never have a huge fight like this
and we would leave clothes at each other's house saying
we're going to see each other for the next 2 years anyway
I miss the ability to say all that without having to choke on my words.
let's start over , love you! (=
anyway , enuff of the mush mush.


boys will be boys.

Lovely.

Just like heaven

So much for the day off.I met gwen :D
We went to town didn't know what to do
bumped into treeshaaniniriripopo
and walked around and talked like
there was no tomorrow
so we caught a movie , just like heaven
It was awesome , really.
I wanted to cry but I guess I couldn't
considering I've been crying all afternoon
Due to the overwhelming reflectionatin(yes no such word)
Considering I'm such a hopeless romantic , It was really good.
I had a great time with gwen well , It has been long!
I have to say sorry to JH for being so harsh on him just now.
yeap , since I got that off my chest I feel better :)
Anyhoos ,for my so-called day off
I spent It playing the piano
Downloading songs , watching totally spice( HAHA Lizzie and suee)
I spent It crying and gettin very emo
It was really good , like therapy or smth
I feel lighther after crying.
It really helps anyhows , I'm off to sleep now
cause I have to go to church at 11.30 tomorrow.
PRAISE THE LORD ANYONE?

Hello world , sometimes I wonder whether people actually read my blog.
HAHA cause I'd be pretty embarassing cause sometimes I write stuff
that simply make no sense to other people.But obviously does to me.
Anyway , I've decided to take the day off for a day , I think
since my friend gwen just asked me out , I'm not sure I can take
the day off , ha-ha.anyway , for now I'm just going to chill out
with myself reflect on my life.maybe write a few songs.practice the
piano or just hibernate and go to sleep or maybe pamper myself
and take a really long bathe till my fingers turn pruney(sp?).
So after I reflect maybe just maybe , I might blog again.
so you if there are people reading my blog.

Stop crying your heart out

You know how sometimes people make you feel all special
For the moment , like you've never felt that way before
The person cannot stop corresponding with you
Like you're the b'all and end'all of ev'rything
but overnight you're nothing more than a friend?
You soon realise you've been nothing more than a fling
you were just used for some reasons
you kind of want to tell the person off.
but am afraid cause of the being too presumptous fact.
Oh yes , I forgot to mention
I wrote a song of my own a few days back
with a tune this time
so if you want to hear it , just ask me.
It's an emo song so If you're not into that kinda shit
please don't approach me for a demo.
cause it'll be a total waste of your time
on a lighther note ,
I went to chinablack yesterday
It was awesome! The people were great
the music was not bad , not bad at all.
We danced all night till the early morn
grinding and cribing
it was sweet!
I went to stacys' party today too.
It was alright.
I can't wait for the next chinablack party!
anyway I'm drained so , love!







But a Fling

For Vick , A simple game of copy and paste?

Rules of the game:
1) Post 5 weird or random facts about yourself.
2) At the end, write the names of 5 people whom you want to do this quiz, then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.
5 random facts about myself:
1. I like to shake my legs
2. I like to listen to loud music
3. I like my hair to smell good
4. I think I'm really cool
5. As much as I like loud music I love Silence.

5 PEOPLE I WANT
1. Vick
2. Alicia
3. Jenny
4. Bird
5.damn choices , how about the rest of the world?

Some other thing :

1. Vick
2. bird
3 alicia
4 su
5 tanny
6 lizard
7 ner
8 rachel
9 Esther
10 Alyssa
11 Jenny
12 Siewhwee
13 eunice
14 phoebe
15 julia
16 janice
17 dory
18 zoe
19 evon
20 ashley

How did you meet 13?:
Art festival

What would you do if you never met 5?
I'd probably die of dullness


What do you honestly think of 10?: She's AWESOME!

Have you ever liked 3?: how can I not love alicia tan.how can anyone?!

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?: OH MY GOSH , ARE YOU KIDDIN , I'D PROBABLY CRY MYSELF TO DEATH , VICKY EH!

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?: HAHAHA.BAD MENTAL IMAGE

Do you think 12 is hot?: She's cold and she's cruel but she knows I love her.

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?:seems really wrong dude

Do you know any of 3's family members?: Yeap definately

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?: Phoebe? superficially? probably 8


What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you: I would say I KNEW IT!how wouldn't love marisse man!?

What language does 19 speak?: English, never heard her spoke chinese before.

Who is 8 going out with?: With someone on this numbered list. I dont really think they would want me to announce it in any way.

Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?: No it's twisted.

When was the last time you talked to 6?: a few hours ago.

What is 18's favorite band?: HURH!?

Does 4 have any siblings?: 2 siblings.

Would you ever date 1?: Nah, it'll just screw the whole friendship up.

Would you ever date 7?: once again , it'll screw up the friendship

Is 15 single?: YES!

What is 19's last name?: oh no

What is 3's middle name?: pei xuan right?!

What is 10's fantasy?: hot unattainable man

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?: wtf

What school does 16 go to?: my school

What school does 1 go to?: My school

Where does 9 live?: Bishan

Would you make out with 13?: I don't know

Are 5 and 6 best friends?: They're like stuck to the hip.

Is 20 older than you?: yeap

Is 4 the sexiest bitch prettiest girl alive?: HAHAHA WHAT!?

Is 17 your ex?: was hahahaha (don't take me seriously )

Do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?: you've got to be kidding

How is 2?: she's adorable!! (=


my amigos , this is g'bye.( cheese galore)

yesterday was one of those days where you'd probably regret not having a fucking camera.Once again , I would tell myself. Marisse , just let it go.It's going to be one of those memories for the mind.usually very significant.yes no? For those of you who have no fucking idea what the fuck I'm talking about , I'm talking about the netball sec four farewell.The Candle thing was awesome (yes , very alyssa woo-hoo).We made a pathway of candles from the main hall all the way to the netball court at the end of the path we made a heart and inside the heart there were the words , we love you.Ain't we just a sweet bunch of fools.I'm in deep shit now , I've been partying non-stop.It's pissing my mum off.I'm going to chinablack tonight and To some other party tomorrow and the third place gig.I really wanna go for all the crap.HELP GOD HELP! =/

I'M SELLING 4 CHINABLACK TICKETS FOR
THURSDAY NIGHT ON THE 24TH OF
NOVEMBER FOR FLING THE TICKET COSTS
$12 IF YOU WANT THEM PLEASE CALL ME ,
MARISSE AT 91947511
OR IF YOU WANNA CALL ME JUST FOR CALL LA.
HA-HA OK NOT FUNNY.
BUY THE TICKETS PLEASE.

yes , I indeed have become an extreme one.
I mean who yells out at on the dance floor
like broken recorder that It's boring.
hot damn , that's me.
We couldn't get into cheekopeh monkey's.
They said the police was havin an operation
or at least some shit like that.
any-hoos , even our bartender and bouncer friend
couldn't get us in , yes hot damn.ha-ha.
so we ended up going to desire and phunk.
which was completely boring
ok at least in my opinion , phunk is cooler
then cheekopeh monkeys BUT it's emptier.
anyway so we ended up at desire
cause the guys didn't wanna pay for the entry
at phunk.anyway , they WERE fun afterall.
That small ah beng dude was funny
I think jin huey's high
he couldn't stop blowing smoke into my face
hello? what's up dudette?!
anyway , I was sayin to the ah lian
It's so sad we didn't even get smoke on our clothes.
damn , gotta go.ALL THE LOVE (=








yes gettin wasted was a better idea , esmond you are a lucky ass!

How I would Love to speak this words , but , I don't want to make things any worse.

Oh wells , It has been a very very eventful holiday for me.
So has it been a really really boring holiday for me.
I mean , who the hell gets kind of bored from clubbing.
I have been absent from trainin for 2 weeks
Somehow , everyone wants me there for training
see, I told you I'm undeniably lovable.
Marisse Wonderland currently cost 3 dollars per flight ticket.
Ain't I just a bowl of crap to sniff?
where's the sense in that.
I've been thinkin the most random stuff
I'm startin to think like daria.
Gosh , there's nothing in my hand , am I losing it?
On a lighther note , I am going for Fling.
Cause It's with my friend's
SO that clubbing seems well , fun.
I almost died at church the other day
due to lack of sleep, caffine overdose I suppose?
hey , it rhymes!slap me with a fish and dig a hole for my head.
Went out with binky today , It was amusing I must say.
It's boring yet un-boring
well what can say , it's binky afterall
You can never hate her undenianly nice presence.
Anyway On the depressing side of the holidays
It seems like I'm at your disposal again.
Oh well , what's new.I'm like a fool to you.
11th of november which so happens to be the 11th month of the year
at the 11 minutes after the 11th hour , I was suppose to tell you
the hellos , maybes , sorrys and goodbyes. I missed it.
screwed things up again , I always seem to screw something good for me
Go away! maybe I should become a goth or smth to suit my characther.
damn it I'm a fag , so g'night and g'bye to the holy mofo
in other words , me.


It's an oxymoron ,yet again another understatement

Yesterday I got forced out of my bed to go get a job by my mum and guess what!? At the interview to smart Alec remarks came out! Thank God! Temptation was high on my side to say it was my mum! She’s forcing me to take the job! I think it turned out fine. I hope at least I mean my fine is like normal people's average I mean when it comes to terms of acceptance cause I really don't actually give a shit about anybody who don't concern but if you're my friend, you're going to feel a whole alotta loveeee.hahaha considering my loopiness. Come on everyone I am undeniably lovable! Haha. Anyway, I hung out with my thirteen long relationship best friend yesterday. Oh how I love her. Her name’s Hannah. When I wanted to go home yesterday my card had no money! I was stuck at plaza damn it! Apparently, I had no money either yes everyone say, LOSER! I had money, but it was at home. I didn’t want to wait for a cab any more cause 10 empty cabs went past me like what the fuck. Anyway Stacy came to my rescue so all was fine we went to orchard towers with Joey Jin Hui and their friend to look at ho’s to see how they actually look like. Damn cool. Haha.anyway I may be writing a book but I don’t know what’s the title going to be. I sound crazy, I know. But It was my friend’s idea from church since I’m always talking about Ian, my imaginary boyfriend If you must know. He’s Hot! He’s perfect and He’s not real (damn the world) oh wells. What do you think of the perfect boyfriend as a title? A little too cheesy? I think so too. Unless you beg to differ, tell me! Love!






Hot damn , Ian.

Hello ev'ryone , I'm sick.

Yes , I've not blogged for a very long time.
It seems everytime I'm about to blog
Something comes up and I've to close the window.
oh wells my week has been very eventful.
From the last day of school till today.
Friday , After I lefted school with caishan
I met up with siewhwee and bekkah
we went to prissy's house we died our hair
It was really fun we stayed up and slept and about 5 am.
I left the next day and I went to the gym with bird
spent the whole entire day with cause I waited
for my fucked up group of friends that cancelled the
farewell party for azilah at the last minute.
Time , 11.30 pm.yea , what the fuck man.
Anyway at birds house it was like a romantic comedy
marathon or something we watched alot like love
then love actually and something else
television was stupid and boring.
but I loveeeee alot like love!
the song by *qu*lu** was really good.
Anyway then on sunday I missed bible studies
So I went for the 11.30 mass at christ the king.
Went to bishan with mum to get some stuff and have lunch
after that I was beat so I went to sleep
I woke up at 8 or 9 then met up with vicky
went to her house we did the usual stuff
then went to have coffee
we got stalked by this crazy indian man
so we followed this chinese couple home
we watch daria ( my current addiction)
I heart trent he's so hot and he's cartoon
then my mum ordered me to go home
although the initial plan was to sleepover at vick's
on monday , it was halloween
went to vick's house at 2 i think
then we watched daria , yes yet again
we went to sleep got dressed and went to indochine
I could get in but the rest couldn't
so we looked for a place to crash at
the initial plan was to crash at SPG's place
but decided not to cause it's not very nice
and the leather priest didn't want us to fuck things up
so we went to cheeky's at mhd sultan
clubbed till 3 or 4 am
then vick came over to my place
we smelt like fuckin shit
so we tooked a bathe
we talked nonsense till 5 then we turned in
we woke up at 12 or 1
I cooked breakfast for us
vick went to meet vicktour at plaza
she wore my clothes which
surprisly looked great on her
well party cause burberry shirts are universal
after she lefted I slept till 8 again
then I met up with stacy
and spread God's word to her
we hung out talked to jiaxin
then i went home cause of my mum
then I slept till the next day
I went to vick's place again
then went home then met up with stacy again
then we bought some old school shoes
and i went to my grannys' the usual( ev'ry wednesday)
I got extremely sick and rest till
the next day at about 4 then went home
then met up with jen jen JENNY (=
then she had to leave then I went home
then met stacy and her two 'cute' friends
then we met up with their friend
then we waited till 11?
then we went to cheeky's
siewhwee and bekkah were suppose to come
but they didn't have cash
oh wells ,met up with charis bird rachel michelle and leslie
son was suppose to come but some stuff happened
she couldn't make it so we went on without her
the club was the usual i'll update later about it
I need to go to the doc's
see you

Notice the amount of thens?

It sucks living life knowing you could've done something better.Yes , I'm talkin about the everyday perfectionist , me.I wanted it to end that night.But you wouldn't give me a chance.I even wondered whether my words even got to you.You were never meant for me, yes I know that.But at least let me clear things out.Why do I care.You don't even give a fuck about me.fuck it.I am going out soon.We're gonna get birds' you-know-what and go to grapey's later.I'm going out with LEE-YAH tomorrow.I'm looking forward to alot of WEIRD fun.I HEART ALYSSA WOO-HOO!

HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY LEEZORD!

The stars that night but you weren't there with me It became just like any other night.Tell me why just one answer and you can leave , forever.

FOR THE UNDERAGED:
CHINABLACK
24TH NOV
PRE SALE 12
DOOR 15
NON ALCOHOLIC
AFTER PROM FOR SCGS AND SOME OTHER SCHOOLS
GIRLS IN BIKINIS CAN GET IN FOR FREE.
CALL VIKKI AT 93383450 TO BOOK
TICKETS ARE RUNNING OUT! SO GET THEM SOON !
PASS VIKKI THE CASH LATEST BY MONDAY.
( She is able to meet you whoever you are buying over the weekends if that's needed. )






For my lady , greensleeves.

my brains aren't functioning well enough now.
I don't know man , It's like ev'rything has got to do with me.
Somehow , seems to be revolving around the same situation.
Which is , so much reminds me of you.I've seen this all before.
Anyway , I gave school a skip today like most of my other friends.
But , I have the flu.I need a remedy man,It's fucking annoying.
I keep sneezing or my computer screen.
yogi doesn't want to let our saliva mix on the screen
yes , bad mental image.how gives a shit anyway.
I've got to have lessons with my mum at 5?
yes , how horrid It must be for me.
I'm sick and mum doesn't really give a shit.
I'm fucking depressed and tired now.
I miss you like crazy , how cliche.
It's just the imaginary you and me.
with this invisible wall between us.
I can walk through it , but I'm afraid.
Afraid of what you might ask.
I've got a whole list of afraid ofs.
But it's the rejection mainly.
I don't wanna feel it all over again.
I'm begging you for a phone call
I'm begging you for an email.
something to show me I'm in your existence.
There's no need to test my heart.
For it's clipped on to the back of your mind.
The joke's on me , really.
It's been almost two fucking years now.
In my mind , I pleaded for you not to go.
In my mind , I hoped ev'ryday that you might
Just MAYBE call me tell me
how you are tell me what you think about the yesterday.
The whole nine yards.
Schezophernia is bliss cause you're not alone (=

I am the ultimate grandmother.

I had my last paper today and It was what you might say , durable?
Had lunch with Shanny and some of my classmates for 30 minutes.
Rushed down to town and took 105.
I missed a fuckin stop and had to walk all the way down
how horrid , well It wasn't so humid then so It was alright
Met the rest at Far east ( The rest:Esther, Sarah, Sher, Jean, Amanda.)
When I reached there , they started worshiping me , as if
We walked around window shopped and the whole nine yards.
Guess who we saw!I saw Sharon Treeshaniniriripopohaha and sweeying(:
I SWEAR SHARON IS STALKING ME.
I SEE HER EVERYWHERE.
There after ,we went to watch Into deep blue
Yes , you should watch it cause it was (surprisingly) nice.
And yes, Jessica alba's fucking hell hot.
After the show we went to meet Alyssa woo-hoo.
EV'RYONE! ALYSSA IS NOT BOTHERED BY THE WOOHOO SHIT.(:
ALYSSA IS LIKE A CLOUD , SHE ABSORBS EV'RYTHING
AND RAINS IT DOWN ON OTHERS.
(yes , without a doubt , alyssa IS hillarious)
ANYWAY , as I was saying , We met up with her
Then we went to topshop and checked out the stuff there
Gosh , the jackets are gorgelicious.
I'm going to try to get my momma to try to spill some cash for me.
We all tried on stuff like you know , In the movies
where all the bims would dress up
and pose around.yes , that's what I'm talkin about.
After we went to far east.
It was really fun.I'm so happy when I'm around them
Went home after that with estreee and lee-yah.
Saw two really hot dudes obsessed with girls cleavages.
But nonetheless , they ARE hot.
but looked andro , HOW GIVES A SHIT ANYWAY
It was fun hearing alyssa talk about her obsession
with the 'Itchy' sign.
Singing away and all the fat momma jokes.
It was crazy.But fun! alyssa IS adorable
After that, met up with Zoe and Vikki my baby at cafe cartel(:
Went to shop at FOX, Vikki spent at least 70 dollars today. Oh my god.
Anyway, she got herself new 3 quats, 2 new shirts and Rach her birthday present.
Anyway, Bird did not receive her sms which said to meet us at bishan, so she asked her " Are you there? " And she said ' Yes ' well, that's cause she thought she was asking if we was at Bishan.
Anyway, she took a cab down and got quite upset when she realised we were still at freaking Bishan.
So Vikki and I rushed down to grapevine.
On our way she messaged us " Hey, don't come down, after I eat I'll leave. "
But We said we were on our way down, well in the end R went to meet her. ( Vikki doesnt know if she called R to meet her earlier on or R just decided to go. )
So we reached Grapevine, and guess what, Bird was no where to be found.
So Vikki rang her and she said she was at R's place ( either that or walking her home, but you get what I mean. )
Frankly speaking, Vikki got quite ticked off. Well firstly, we rushed all the way down just to meet her cause she was all alone ( It was my fault, I know. That she did not get the freaking sms. And it was only polite to acompany lonely Bird ). In the end, we took a cab down only to realise she's not there. On top of that we were broke, so that means, no money to even SIT AND EAT.
So yeah, but you know, Bird's such a darling.
(: So Vikki was probably angry for only 2 seconds. :))
Yeah, so we walked to Lizard's house to pay her a visit.
Moo-rese " Maybe we should just ring her door bell and maybe she'll come out in her Spag top "
Vikki " HAHAHAHA. Maybee. "
( On the phone with Lizard )
Vikki " Come down now "
Lizard " Eh wait I change into my tee shirt first. "
What the hell leh!
Well, she came down whining about CSI. Saying that we're disrupting her show, but you know what, we're much more important then some dumb fictional investigation show yes?
Yes good, agree.
Talked for an hour, and then her mom called her to go home.
It was actually really fun talking to her. And I've realised that the playground's floor near her house looks like a giant dick.
Okay random but whatever.
Vikki's mother asked me to go home at 1030, but she reached hom at 1145.
whereas I reached home at 12?
Vikki and I spent 11-1130 lying on the floor, sniffing her sour socks, while listening to my ipod mini. (: Quite fun with exception of the sour socks.
After that walked home.
Heres a random thought that Vikki and I were talking about today:
Why do people think Sex is disgusting, I dont get it. Isn't it the most normal and pleasurable thing on earth, how can one say sex is gross, when yet they've not experienced it. ( I have not have sex, so yeah. But I dont find it gross ).
Tanny is a very sexual person.
She's like so corrupted or something.

Guess what, Jill loves her. (:
hahahhah I don't know why I copied that for.

G'night folks.

Tomorrow's the last paper and It's not important.
I can't believe it!The holidays are almost here.I feel on
top of the world!!
There are so many things to look foward to.
That'll talk about later.
Need to go to the doctor with UH-LEASH-SHA (=

PARTY EV'RYONE.
Jill's the organiser(don't really know her , but I'm doing this for vick)
For the underage
Chinablack
24th November
Presale ticks 12
Door ticks 15
Non alcoholic
Its an after prom for some schs
call Vick at 93383450 if you want to buy

Yes , how photography never seizes to amaze me.

Someone who threw me life away.

It's just a thought only a thought.

Yes , A picture paints a thousand words.And now , my only choice in life is the go forward.Pretend that nothing in the past still hurts me affects me in other ways.Yes the changes happen In an not so obvious way , but that doesn't mean there ain't a change.I wanna hold on to you and never let go , no matter how cliche it sounds , I don't really give a shit.The other night I wanted to call you and tell you ev'rything that has happened but I didn't cause I don't want to make things any worse.It so happens I use to vomit these words.not vomit as in literally ,fuck I think you know what I mean.If I had things my way , I would turn the clock and stop myself from telling you.Telling you how beautiful you are.Stop me from my crazy hopes and shit of dreams.But If I really turned the clock then I wouldn't have matured in ways.IN WAYS!! HAHAHA cause I know how ev'ryone will start debating about my maturity.I am matured but I think lifes more fun being young acting my age or even younger.Well , destiny has decided that I should turn away from you and I wished things wouldn't have to end this way.

Did I mention that I really loved you?

Bang Bang this shot me down.

I screwed my math paper today.It was horrible and I couldn't help but laugh at Mary(azilah).She looks weird and to top it off she tied up her hair into pigtails yes , what the fuck.Went to study at the cafe again today.Yes , I really DID study.I even managed to study a few chapters.bottomline is , My life is starting to sound boring.Sounds so last year.I can't wait to hang out with the rest again. friggin su , she's using my happy pill and I'm the spoilt brat that doesn't want to share my bag of sweets.damn I'm bored.

I danced along the sidewalks.

Now and then I ask myself, why do I keep on making the same mistakes. Why have I become that bitter pill in the box of sweets. I spill my heart for you over and over again like a stupid moronic fool. It's hard to comprehend my on going chain of blue funk. So many thoughts so little time and I've got a math paper on my list of things to do. Oh how we use to talk to each other like we've known each other forever. Time flies by and It's been more then a year and half. I must say I'm 15 now and if you're reading this, which is prolly one out of a thousand, chances that you would be, I just want to let you know what an asshole you truly are. OK OK, you are not fully to be blamed. In fact, I can only blame my presumptuous self for being so stupid and making myself believe that somehow someday, you'll know how I feel. Just to let you know, you’re not making this easy.

The only time we ever talked in this month of October : In My Dreams

Yes It's a Sunday Morning And I'm really bored.


Last person you chatted with on the phone?
Phoebe

The last thing eaten?
Some shit that I don't know what It's called

Last person that you went out shopping with?
Alicia and Jenny

Last present(s) that you received?
My Birthday Present from my Grandma?

Last website?
Friendster

Person(s) you saw?
Mum

Last call you received?
Gwen

Last thought?
This quiz is fuckin boring.HEY THE VIRGIN SUICIDES HAS FINISHED DOWNLOADING!

Last time felt so happy?
My birthday?

Last time you saw your grandma ?
Friday

Last fight?
Maybe last week?

Last electronic device used?
'sides this , the tv

Last movie watched?
you got served or I love huckabees

Who's on your mind right now?
I don't know can't really tell , either phoebe cause I wanna go shopping and studying or nobody in particular.

Where do you really wanna go to?
Shopping and studying so , prolly the mall.

Which one do you prefer..msn or ym?
MSN.

Who do you miss?
right now , nobody

Where do you usually go shopping?
town but I'd love to try bugis.

Who cleans your room?
ME , I was made to just yesterday =./

What are you feeling right now?
Bored itchy and icky.

Ever thought of dyin?
Yes.quite often actually.

Who are your enemies?
I don't like to use the term enemies cause it sounds childish but , delicia.

Do you love your friends?
ARE YOU KIDDING ME.WHAT KIND OF MORONIC IDIOT WILL ASK THIS KIND OF A QUESTION. ISN'T THE ANSWER OBVIOUS , YES!! (=

Name 3 favourite things?
I'll get back to you on this one.

Who you think sucks in your school?
Delicia?

Msn who is the last who logged in?
My mother , Calista.

Favourite colour?
Red.

What are you doin now?
This shit.

Ok marisse , you have to go study now. ok marisse (=

Fizzo got Flo.

Engla's on Monday.But I'm doing ev'rything But studying right now.I'm listening to music.I'm listening to my mum sing opera.NO , she ain't a opera singer she's a Jazz singer infact.She sings Salsa Contemporary shit too.Bottomline , she sings anything but opera.But she has a sudden craze with opera songs not that she likes it.she find it rather amusing.Charlotte church.what's with opera.I just don't get that kind of music.I mean It's so easy to sing.I don't understand why people are willng to pay a fortune to sing easy shit.Anyway she's singing the shit cause she wants to sing it to her bandmates who'll prolly find it amusing.Dude , Even I find it amusing.What more them.Anyway , My heads so up in space right now with esther. we're already thinking about partying.partying , oh how I love partying.I can't wait for the last paper to end.Then Vick and I can go to bugis and run around at the water fountain shit thing.Anybody wanna join us?You're most welcomed to anyway.I can't wait for my english paper man.I really need to do well.I need to get higher then phoebe.damn I'm compettitive but I guess It's cause so many things have happened and I'm making up for my loses in simple small ways.Dude , I've lost my mind.

Mingle & Tingle.

Fang's birthday.Sorry , didn't upload all the pictures.

How lovely , A saturday afternoon all wasted in cleanin my room. I could've study , but no , My mum just had to force me to clean my bloody room which I was plannin on cleanin after the exams , really.Then how else can you explain the fact that I wanted to go to Ikea to get some shit for my room.Ahh Fuck it.Anyway Thank you Ev'ryone for my birthday.It was really special , not quite what I expected but it was s'wonderful.Thank you ev'ryone for the chocolata cake and the durian cake.Thank you oblivions , for breakin my bed.It was alot of fun.The pillow fight the dumb stuff we did.It'll be a shit that will be in my ass forever. =.).Yesterday I went to alicia's house again.It was alot of fun as usual.I just like being around her and celest they make me happy.I like being around people who keep me in my seventh heaven.I was sort of in blue funk yesterday , But the trip home to alicia's house cheered me up like crazy.Dinner was great too.I heart ISUZU and NTUC.(private joke).anyway as you can see , I have no mood for bloggin so ,cheerios!

The exams are approximately 172 hours and 35 minutes away.And I'm on the computer blogging.Now , can anyone tell me what the fuck am I doing on the bloody computer.hurry now , please raise your hand.If you don't you are going to stay back for detention.Marisse , please understand that you've rebelling against mrs thurai for the longest time and now that you guys are smooth , it's going to be a little be hard now don't you think considering you've apparently NOT BEING PAYING BLOODY ATTENTION. show me the money and rub my tummy.

I'm an emotional wreck inside.

Due to the current influences from pantat.I'm starting to not be such an alien in the music genre shit.Anyway , I went out with my mum yesterday.It was great considering she's one of the coolest mum you'll ever know and you'll prolly ever want.We went Shopping and went to the museum to see the vatican exibition and boy was it a blast dude.I'm in school and all I can fuckin hell say now is I'm so bored.The first thing I did when I entered the lab was read my bible and It was intresting.I love the bible it's probably my favourite book.I mean I didn't even know originally we aren't suppose to eat pork.Shitpeas, I'm so fuckin bored my brains are barely stimulating.G'bye.3 more days morons 3 more days.(=

You've got the Blues.


My years in PL have been rather queer.I've gone from that really really queer netballer to totally psychotic sec 2 retard to a rebel and to whatever you can think of.I use to be so emotional and now , I'm almost emotionless.I've gone from becoming the girl who cried herself to sleep to the girl who made people cry to sleep.well , ok not to sleep but you get what I mean.And now , I've become quite the holy mofo.I tore my heart open just to feel.And now that I've felt it , I kinda wished I hadn't then I wouldn't have gotten so hurt.As much as I want to close my eyes and with a blink of an eye forget ev'rything that happened.But I can't.Cause no matter what , the past will always be real.It's so hard sometimes.Somedays I go to sleep thinking to myself.Dang.That really happened to me.He did that to me.He let me feel the hurt that , sometimes enjoy not cause I'm a sick pervert.It's cause I can write songs when I get the 'feelin'.It makes you feel like you've got difficulty breathin and you feel like screamin.FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKK.but you just can't then when you cry, you can't stop crying.The world feels so fake sometimes.I remember when I was sec 2 I use to really afraid of yes , leezord and all.but really , they couldn't give two fucks about me.They're so narcissitic anyway.no offence.BUT they're really nice anyway.My birthday is nine days away.I don't really feel the excitment though cause I've nothing much to look foward to.Cause life for me use to when ev'ryone's celebrating with their families , my mum's giggin and the man , as usual , is MIA.but it's alright cause I'm sort of gettin use to it.When I was young I use to psycho myself into thinkin maybe she'll come home and surprise me but , I was always wrong.

HELLO I'M HERE IN THE DU SU GUAN WITH WANCHUNG CALISTA AND MY HIGH-CLASS GIRLFRIEND , SIVA.MY BIRTHDAY IS ON SEPTEMBER 29 EV'RYBODY.(siva asked me).This is one of those random entries you'd really nt wanna read cause it's sort of a waste of your time.I'm currently revising pythagaros theorem and trigonometry.which is , SUCHA BORE.but it's for the good of my own well-being.listen up ev'ryone , MURIZ IS STUDYING (=

MY SHOE SIZE IS EIGHT


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL =) , my morning started out bad.Met up with the rest at white sands.Our destination , Escape theme park. Had fun with the rides.Met a bunch of lowbrow fools in other words , uncultured people.surprise surprise , I did not stoop to their level.Went into the so called ' haunted house' pa-lease , haunted.sure it was scary at first cause of the darkness.It ended full of laughther there were only TWO GHOST OF HEAVEN'S SAKE.The rules stated no touching of the walls or ghost.I guess you can consider us rebels then.I pushed of the 'ghost' with the mask and he fell down.poor guy.I pulled of his mask. I pulled the other guys cape.WHAT SM AH!?I was literally playing tug-o-war with the guy with his fake hand.hahaha.It was fun.I heart sherylene weilyn sarah and last but most diff. not least , CHERYL.i'm beat.


I KNOW MY FEET ARE BIG.

My birthday is coming ev'ryone and I'm very deprived and going to live on the streets very soon.I really need to get some stuff please donate to the save marisse from the streets fund.

Red faded chucks
Black striped high cuts
Fox jacket
Fox shorts
Beadie stuff
red and black high stripey socks
fish nets
more canvas shoes
red dunks
that old school bag
those other dunks
jeans
that green and white circley printed
sling at that ah lian shop next to converse at J8
mango pants
the mango jacket
alicia keys first cd
crazy shades.
actually anything red and nice
anything la emeline
i'll love you anyway. (=

Did you know

My name is so cool.

Marisse means of the sea it origins from the latin name Maris and it means of the sea.It also means Mary in french ,it also means star of the sea or Saint Jerome associated the Virgin's name with the Latin phrase stella maris. Other possible meanings are (Hebrew) wished-for child; rebellion; sea of bitterness.

Isabel origins from spanish and latin it means Elizabeth in hebrew and elizabeth means god's promise.

Caine comes from the hebrew name cain which means Something produced or spear.Cain, the firstborn son of Adam and Eve, killed his brother in jealous anger and spent the rest of his life as a wanderer in exile.Caine also comes from the irish and gaelic name kane which means little battler.It also was Anglicized form of Cathán, derived from "cath" meaning "battle." Kane (kah-NAY) is also a Japanese surname meaning putting together or money.

went gyming with Jen Jen.We bathed there for hours.oh wells.

I stand outside my pretty house
I light a match and watch the fire
I call the cops
I run and hide
You watched me fall
like new york in an earthquake.
Oblivious I run and cry
Wrath builds up within
I suffocate you and watched you die.
I won't forget the day
I felt god through a kitchen knife
there wasn't any pain
With ev'ry passin moment
It just seems getting worse
The walls are gettin smaller
and so I'm here to say
I'm so inflicted with unnecessary pain
I dream at night about a dance
With someone I can't seem to see
We'd dance all night till dawn
And We can't seem to stop the beat
We're so in love
both sides not hurt.
roses , candles and game
we twist and turn
The love I yearned.
So much's been saved for.

I just came back from the airport went to welcome back vick and the rest.It was fun went with leezord and kelly met ann na there.yea it was fun.if you wanna know what happened ask me cause i'm not in the mood to type.hahaha.anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA!! (=

Who said we can't go back to how things were before.What happened today and yesterday shows that nothing is impossible.I spent two whole days with my bestfriend like before , before all the conflicts and people coming into our lives.It was great.It was like the old times , yea the old times.We went to town looking like auntes and we were behaving like aunites.we went to raffles to check siewhwee out at her workplace , soupspoon.when we got there , siewhwee was havin her break.The devil treated phoebe to a bowl of soup , more like a bowl of sin.I ate out of the bowl of sin anyway.yummy yummy yummy there was alot of food in my tummy.we walked to suntec to see what i could get for alyssa after walking a thousand miles we went to carefour we walked around we ended up sleeping on this swing thing at carefour the furniture section and ev'rytime someone walked pasted us and shot us a look twice , we'd do the peace sign.I really do want world peace.LOL.anyway I got alyssa her gift from aistoria or something like that then we went to the candy empire and we bought junk and HOME SWEETERS HOMERS (=

What's my excuse for not studying? I WANNA BE DIFFERENT!

Why do i Speak through the wind in hope that you'll be able to hear what I'm thinking.Hello , I'm the walking idiot.I seriously need a digi cam , SERIOUSLY.I have so many ideas for photography so I can put them in my portfolio.dang.anyway , I've reccently read the bible the part on the revalation.It's so captivating I even painted about one of the topics in it.The one about the city of God.(=

hello wello yellow

sunday - the netball carnival
It went surprisingly great , really.
monday - Ah-lians day out
The most boring outing of my life.But at least I finally got to hang out with Stacy.
tuesday - Family day
Came home from the grandparent's house went out with my mum to get my art stuff from bras basar(spell?) went to church headed to city hall went grocery-in met up with phoebs siewhwee and yenchuen.
today - homegirl day
Woke up missed training , dreadfully , went to mac to meet the 3-o yesterday for breakfast went home did my portfolio spray painted my cupboard and shoes and now I'm just chilling.

how do you do that?make me feel special again?make me feel like a love sick puppy chasing you around again?make me feel like an oblivious idiot again?it's incredible that you can still mesmerize me after all this time.you're impressingly perfect and i guess i sort of , still love you.(=

hello wello , yesterday we were all being so melodramatic when we were sending vick and the rest of the china . when in fact , they were coming back in just a week.we acted like they were going of , FOREVER.anyhows , just read the papers , well , sort of , the one about the mayhem in the US , namely the hurricane.Its utterly dissapointing how selfish people can be.Now , the end of the world is the B-all and end-all of ev'rything.Catholics are being laidback about it cause our faith is strong.Christians are being ,"OH YOU MUST REPENT" about it now.well , which is good i guess.I always say better to be pessimistic then optimistic.oh wells, i gotta meet phoebe now.till later.(=