Sins Will Happen

2007-05-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

I'm switching to livejournal for a while

getting sick of the yellow

http://lollipopsichord.livejournal.com

2007-04-29T20:16:00.000-07:00

If I could be anything in the world right now , I'd be an airplane

2007-04-29T09:25:00.000-07:00

misconduct , misbehavior
I have no idea what's going on
I have no idea what I'm doing
But I have found a place where I can seek solace

sorry Alicia , I'll see you soon
the next time I see you , I promise you'll be happier.

2007-04-28T11:55:00.000-07:00

blogging ally's style haha ( sorry ally if you read this , i'm lazy )

-trella
-theresa
-joyce
-cheryl ann
-lynn
-nadia
-chloe
-kenneth
-leslie
-bryan
-maddy
-gwen
- ok , everyone who was there damn it I am fucking lazy
-vicky's play
-cheez
-boyfriend
-bird
-happy birthday zoe
-leezord cause we're fucked up
-tanny being fit
-emeline
-everyone who was fucking there
-super tired
-brain died

the bravery is love

2007-04-25T20:23:00.000-07:00

Before

After

credits : Mr william ( my photography lecturer )

we're having photography lessons now .
learning photoshop , learning how to put colour into B&W pictures
photoshop is the shit yo! ;)

my classmates and I have turned into hippies
my name's poppy haha we have flower names now
super cool , it's the new 'in' thing
so anyway , today I've decided to retreat to my cave after school
well , let's leave the planning for later.
I mean I hate going home to my room anyway
it was nice like a week or 2 ago
now all the wallpapers are falling apart , I've shifted the coffee table into room
due to some unforseen circumstances namely , my brain fits.
yes , It appears to me I do have a brain!
sadly , it's almost useless
kind of like your mum's favourite vase.
you know it helps make the house look 'nicer'
but it's useless otherwise.
actually I never really got the idea why they had to choose the vase
why can't it be like bra or nailclipper or plucker ( my mum always screams at me cause of her 'sacred plucker' )
why vase , mannnnn sometimes I think we live in a really lame world.
it should end , like now or something

going off for my break now!
peace out A town

2007-04-24T11:16:00.000-07:00

In need of desperate inspiration.
If only we could buy actors , log lines & inspiration of the classified ads
watching films make me feel a whole lot better.
I guess it's cause it blocks the things out.
I just watched a good year. It's a must catch film , really!

girl : ( says can I take your order in french )

boy : yes I think so

girl: sure you don't need more time?

boy: no , I know what I want

girl: you sure?

boy: absolutely

girl: now what is it to be?

boy: I'll have the soup

girl: the soup is finish

boy: my job

boy: the fish?

girl: we've ran out of it

boy: just like me with excuses

girl: don't waste my time choose what you want

boy: I would like a lifetime spend with an irrational and suspicious goddess. some short-tempered jealously on the side and a bottle of the wine that taste like you and a glass that's never ending.

boy: (wisphers into girl's ear) pardon my lips , they find pleasure in the most unusual places

I hate to say this but , awww.

2007-04-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

I'm sorry , I have to stop here
I'm sorry , I can't do this
I'm sorry , that you don't know
I'm sorry , that you do
I'm sorry , If I have to pretend
I'm sorry , If I made it obvious
I'm sorry , that I can't control myself
I'm sorry , that I can
I'm sorry , that I had it all planned out
I'm sorry , maybe it's the lack of a script

I'm sorry ,

where's the actor & the logline
& what the fuck's my treatment?
I'm sorry if I don't fit in.

fuck the apologies , I'm out of here

X
at my worst

love you till my dying day tris , see you this Saturday

2007-04-22T16:45:00.000-07:00

YES JOEY LESBIAN

there's no question why we're best friends! lol

top of the morning to you sunshines!
I never really got that line actually
what's so 'top of the morning' when you have to get up early
I'd rather it be 'top of the afternoon or even better evening'
I can still hear the bloody alarm clock ringing at the back of my head
or maybe it's still ringing. like the other time when I met rese for breakfast
I thought I was hearing my phone beep at the back of my head
but turns out , it had been ringing for 3 god-damned hours. haha yes I know , fool!
breakfast that day was fucking awesome
haha , running around hougang green with pallet guns(?)
rese if you see this , some time again soon please? =/
so anyway , it's already 7.52 and I've this gut feeling that I'm going to be late again shit , bryan's going to be early so..bon voyage!

2007-04-21T12:03:00.000-07:00

CUT

DJs Elias & megahollytron

they kind of strike the lottery

goblok lynn & dear god , miguel? hahaha

no eyes dear! ok , lame haha

TRELLA!

we all know what holly's favourite colour is haha

Zac is really secretly gay

miss kitten fo' real yo!

cut , drained , trella , battlefield , caracal , cheryl , chloe , lynn , holly , maddy , priya , saf , bong , zac, joey , bryan , leslie ,kenneth ,mossie , andy ,brendan , martin , beatrice , brenda , irwin , avery , paolo , leon , rese , ally , donn , miguel , jade , nicole

i hope i didn't miss anyone out , it was nice seeing you today

my gosh , what a day!

happy birthday xuebs! sorry I missed your party >:0(

2007-04-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

LOOK WHAT I FOUND

SAF'S GOING TO BE THE NEXT BIG THING IN THE PORN INDUSTRY! HAHA

ok la , bong & maddy look good tho! haha ;)

Hello Leslia , why so cute? hahaha!

hahahahahaha , sorry maddy made you kiss everybody.

warner bro

delirious! ( inside joke )

zac , don't kill me. hahaha

ps. saf enjoied ev'ry minute of it. I swear!

no no no no , bong was actually kissing my other friend

who wore the same outfit as leslie her name's lyla.

after they passed the thing.

leslie couldn't resist zac and went right in for a frenchiexzsxz hahaha , honest!

and zac thinking leslie was lyla made out with him for an hour.

stoned & retarded
who wants to see joey smile more? I do! haha
attagirl & lynneffect. cheryl , I see you joining forces with the enemy. why!
the day I didn't ask to do something.
I'm the luckiest girl ever! haha

prison break at leslie's. I love you gwen
her name's Isabel
they laugh at , EVERYTHING.
hello rai , are you high?
JB hommies!

Was bored & about to sleep but felt like posting random photos up.
My school vacation was pretty good I guess
cause at least I did leave the country
and got to see almost everyone I care for.
so many things have happened
I need to stop , breathe & register what has happened.
the 3 weeks went by too quickly.

2007-04-20T02:05:00.001-07:00

Read the life paper today , after a long time
I think the media's stupid but decided to give it a chance
and stumbled upon a photographer
Leslie Kee is the shit , only 35 and singaporean and has made it as a photographer.
I aspire to be like him , fat hope marisse! hahaha
let me live in denial for a while please?
thanks much

2007-04-18T21:29:00.000-07:00

ripped it off gabriel's DA

British

[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total:5

Australian

[ ] you wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flip-flops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard Barbie.
[ ] You know a Barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the Beach
[x]Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[half an x?] You're a sports fanatic.
[x] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something
Total: 3.5

Italian

[x] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5’10’’
[ ] you know what an Italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[sometimes] You talk with your hands. (does flipping the bird count?)
Total: 6

Spanish

[ ] you say member instead of Remember.
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos. (Taco Bell FTW)
[ ] You TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x , slow most of the time hahaha] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 5

Russian

[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4

Irish

[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y. (ends with a "y")
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x ,not more than red tho] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde or red hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
[ ] You Irish Dance
Total: 3

African- American

[x] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x]You like chicken
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 4

Asian

[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[x] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[HAHAHA] Most people think you're Chinese. (weirdly, most of them don't )
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 4

German

[x] You like bread.
[ ] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2
Total: 3

Canadian

[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[I can say I love you and what're you staring at , cunt? does that count?!] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ HAHA , i just find this funny] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched Degrassi.
Total: 1

American

[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at Wal-Mart. (wtf is this an option?)
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

Scandinavian

[ ] you have a bouncy accent
[ ] you're a thrift freak
[ ] You're really shy
[ ] Santa Lucia not Christmas
[ ] You have blonde hair
Total: zilch

I'm Italian , HAHAHAHA pause not

ok , class over
see you in the afterlife! ;)

2007-04-18T20:56:00.000-07:00

having photography lessons now

we're playing with photoshop.

which I'm actually really bad at , honest!

haha , my computer's down

so I can't recieve the files from mr william

check out his gallery yo! www.waiaung.deviantart.com

best fucking lecturer for photography so far.

well , in my school to say the least

so , i'm editing my own crap.

it just hit me how demoralizing DA can be.

ps.

akira please don't kill me , thanks. hahaha!

& dumbass , queers for you!

2007-04-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

OH , AND FRIENDS WHO LOVE ME AND READ MY BLOG..

MY LINE GOT CUT , YOU CAN'T GET ME ON MY HANDPHONE.

OH THIS CRUEL WORLD ! WHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYY

2007-04-18T05:49:00.000-07:00

Dear Margaret ,

Hello scissors , paper , I start to stone again.
My jokes are so disgustingly un-funny
I'm slowly losing my ability to speak properly , fluently.
I've been having mind blocks since late feb?
I take a longer time to sleep now
I always think about the same thing
My creative juices are almost becoming foreign
I now have more blonde moments compared to last year
I feel like the lack of sleep or more of too much sleep during the holidays
have kinda aggravated my brain which already had been deprived of 'brain food'
brain food meaning things that stimulate my mind haha , If I even have one.
I lose track of what I'm thinking about really quickly now.
kinda like , now.

seeya! off to do some brain excercise!

xoxo

relax jack

2007-04-17T02:51:00.000-07:00

got it from leeyah's blog

three names you go by:
Marisse
Mars(I don't know why I let people call me that)
Muriz

three screen names you’ve had:
Moorese
Muriz
Marissey

three physical things you like about yourself:
hair ( on certain days )
eyes ( when I get enough sleep )
lips ( on certain days )

three physical things you don’t like about yourself:
tummy
bad skin
I am physically repulsive

three parts of your heritage:
chindian
spanish
pinoy haha

three things that scare you:
being disabled physically
eye contact for more than 3 seconds ( it makes me nervous haha )
the art scene
( I am THE ultrasupersonicscardeycatwoman )

three of your everyday essentials:
taking a bath
food
money

three of your favorite musical artists as of now:
play radio play
the killers
death cab , always & for fucking ever.

three of your favorite songs:
Decipher Reflections From Reality
Mr Brightside
Young Folks

three things you want in a relationship:
quirkiness
patience ( people already need it being friends with me )
trust

three physical things that appeal to you in the opposite sex:
eyes
lips
jaw line

three of your favorite hobbies:
taking photos
watching films
reading

three things you want to do really badly now:
sleep
stop eating the damn fucking pringles
stop procrastinating and do my work

three careers you are considering/have considered:
freelance photographer
producer/Director
photojournalist

three places you want to go on vacation:
europe
france
japan

three names that you like:
alexia
ahlya
shane

three things you want to do before you die:
love somebody ( omg i know i sound stupid )
have a 1k per day paying job hahaha
sky dive

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
how rough I am
I always wear shoes
I don't wear make up

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
I love dressing up
being clean
I have my blonde moments

three celeb crushes:
johnny depp
adam brody
mia krishner

three things you love:
photography
music
people

gtg for dinner now ! :)

2007-04-16T14:42:00.000-07:00

ohhhh nat , you're so 'special'

you non-kaya loving dumbass cunt

much love! :)

2007-04-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

why is everyone being so arty farty?
it's fucking the life out of me ( figuratively speaking)

2007-04-13T13:37:00.000-07:00

school starts on Monday , oh boyyy.I feel a sudden urge to die.
I'm going to miss hanging out late at night with the 3 dweebs.
namely , leslie the fool , bryan the dope & joey the emotional
so anyway about 15 minutes ago , I did my toothbrush ritual.
A ritual I do to every new toothbrush ( esp. electric ones )
I walk around the house brushing my teeth for about 10-15 minutes
getting foam on the floor and all over my shirt.
I can confidently say , I feel fulfilled

we're not young and dumb anymore
not as innocent as we used to be
not as perfect as we're suppose to be

2007-04-11T10:58:00.000-07:00

hello , this will be my yet another feeble attempt to tell you about my day
with leslie blasting noise next to me , i've come to a road block in my mind.
see you theresa , I love you & please hang in there

2007-04-02T13:02:00.000-07:00

I love you both very much

2007-04-01T12:24:00.000-07:00

to be reminded everyday
there's this disease , it's kind of a social disease
but It could bring death
death of the heart
and when your heart stops , so does your mind.
It may not be really classified as a social disease
but I'd like to classify it under that
cause it usually starts when socializing
and this disease is commonly used as a topic in blogs
and actually in everyday conversations
and these conversations can consist of just a person alone.
and sometimes the conversation can take place without any verbal communication
that is if it is just a person having the conversation alone with his/herself
and sometimes it's not a conversation it's more of a analysis
and this thing I'm extremely fasicanatinated about
that is driving me on the binge of insanity by the way.
without furthur introduction in it's most commonly used term is , love.
why do we crave for it , why do we need it?
why do we beat ourselves up for it.
why can't we just be contented with being alone , why?

2007-03-28T14:33:00.000-07:00

dying to live or living to die?

2007-03-28T12:21:00.000-07:00

The newspaper spoke to me today :

why do you want to be in this situation again?
If a once-stimulating tableau feels like it is on the verge of getting out of control, take a step back.
do you really want to keep heading down this path?

2007-03-28T12:06:00.000-07:00

My city's still breathing but barely it's true
through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
sparkled with broken glass.
I'm back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know.
Will never take me anywhere but here.
The stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand,
the strangers whose faces I know.
We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say "I wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.
All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.
Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest,
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires,
new words for old desires,
and every birthday card I threw away.
I wait in 4/4 time.
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home.

2007-03-22T01:15:00.000-07:00

There's always this time of the month
where you'd have what I like to call ' emotional fits '
where by you'd lose total control of all your emotions
so much so you become an open book.
almost like having your period only less physical discomfort
and easier to eliminate if enough will power.
but like your period there are ways to tune it out.
I listen to electro to become completely dazed.
I like being locked in a daze for a long time , lying on a cold hard floor and doing nothing but breathing just breathing.
cause sometimes I get so caught up in my thoughts I forget to breathe.

2007-03-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

You have never been in love until you've seen the stars reflect in the reservoirs okay , so the photo is under exposed and well basically , pretty ugly.
but I kind of like the hand in the sky concept nonsense shit whatever you want to call it.
so we spent the morning taking photos for photography lessons
and our theme was 'love story' yes , I know! how corny right? .
haha but you know whatever the lecturer says goes.
I just got caught for wearing jeans to school 5 minutes ago.
I've to see the head later on. marisse marisse , always in trouble.
it seems like even when i'm trying to stay out of it , it just keeps looking for me.
if trouble was a person I'd stab him a million times.

My break starts on friday , I can hardly wait.
I get to hibernate , watch countless films , read and paint.
in other words , I'd be taking a major chill pill.

I am hungry , hungry for a holiday.

XX

2007-03-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

kinda like music that's at the back of your head.

the weeks been rather fucked up. but I'm sure it'll all turn out fine by the weekend. ( trying this new thing where by I'd be a total optimistic self-righteous son of a gun ) I spent the night with the rich man's mistress at geylang for dinner caught a movie before that. I swear she's the funniest whining bitch ever. Incase you don't know who she is , she's my mum.

the boys will be going for a roadtrip on the weeked. which means early nights for me. yayza. hopefully the daytrip with cheryl and holls pulls through next week

ok for the sake of those who want the photos so badly , I'm free after the 23rd. ask me then , I'll be a better person then with a clearer mind. haha , ask me then. ok? bong? theresa? gwen? haha

XXX

a very tired cunt.

2007-03-20T03:58:00.000-07:00

And he stole from the rich and the poor and not very rich and the very poor

here I finally am with time to speak.
But sadly , I've nothing to say.

Guards up , lips out , face down!

2007-03-20T00:13:00.000-07:00

Life is beautiful?

When I retire , I wanna watch every film ever made.

2007-03-19T10:22:00.000-07:00

Introducing the next big thing , Trella!

Bong

saf

Leon

Joey

Zac the sexy beast ( I SHOOK HIS HAND , 4 TIMES! )

I LOVE YOU BOYS! :)

2007-03-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

TRELLAISTHESEXIESTCUNTSINTHEWORD _-_-_-_-@HOTMAIL.COM

OK , so the last entry was pretty errr , pathetic.
I hate feeling pathetic so I decided to delete it.

if you had to pick between love & life , which would you pick?
I mean I wouldn't really consider love part of life in a sense.
In a sense that love kinda takes you away from reality.
but you know that's just me. I'm pretty much a dreamer.
and life well , life's just you know your career , school well to put it simply, the rent.
so , which would you pick?

I get really scared when people have faith in me.
It's just feels so foreign.
Don't get me wrong it feels awesome but , I'm just so afraid I'll let them down.
and most of the time I do and in the process I let myself down too.
and I let myself down so many times it's an everyday thing already.
just like how people let me down.
I get disappointed so often , I just do not react anymore.
I become taciturn

2007-03-11T11:44:00.000-07:00

iamboring.com.sg

my weekend
- friday with rese , alicia , chris & kian(?) at geylang was fun as usual ( transit 2 hours at nicoll hotel is 15 dollars for all you horny people out there )
- saturday with phoebe , siewhwee, pris , shanny , cheryl was good too managed to take a few photos then headed down to town to meet maddy , gwen , cheryl , zac , leslie , bryan & joey. played pool which I now totally suck at. Leslie is the shit at pool. haha

I can't remember what else I did , I'm off to watch spy game now.

for the fun of it :

TRELLA AND HYPERION @GASHAUS, 16th March!
16th March 2007, 3pm till late, 'Maximum @ Gashaus!' An excellent show of mixed genres with contrasting acts such as When Living Feels Like Dying, Trella, Hyperion and many more!
Tickets at $12 with a free drink..
Contact Bong(this effing cool dude that used to have an afro and looked like beni from city of god.he's quite a spasz but it's like a gift and he can't control it so give him a break. he's kinda autistic so take pity on him and watch trella. you don't know life till you know bong so contact him) at zokes_@hotmail.com to get yourself a ticket!

TRELLA AND CARACAL @HOMECLUB, 17th March!
17th March 2007 2pm to 10pm pre-Guerilla party featuring:
CUT DJs-Megahollytron, PCST, and Elias ,(http://www.myspace.com/comm_undies)
Indie rock superstar upstarts Caracal (www.myspace.com/caracalcaracal)
and young electrolytes Trella!
contact Holly or Bong or anyone else involved for a spot on the guestlist..
NOT TO BE MISSED! :)

2007-03-11T00:57:00.000-08:00

After much procastination , Enjoi! :)

2007-03-07T22:53:00.000-08:00

note to self : watch spy games , momento & motorcycle diaries

oh god , i've become such a movie junkie.

2007-03-02T07:11:00.000-08:00

my friend jane

my day

- spent most of my school time at the cafe with karyn & stephanie listening to indie
- cycling in the rain with cheryl , leslie , bryan & joey
- spencer's geylang tour was fucking fun
- beef kway teow is the bomb!

okay so , i didn't delete this lame ol' post but decided to add on.
since it's the season of lent and it's all about sacrifice I'm going to sacrifice a couple of things i love for instance

- hunching
- eating red meat
- swearing
-talking unnecessarily
-procrastinating

2007-02-28T14:34:00.000-08:00

saf has a twin.

2007-02-28T14:15:00.000-08:00

pseudoanonymous

when you're running out of will power to say that you're okay
and when pretending like everything's okay is not enough.
when you every second feels like a year.
when every thing you hear gets amplified ten times louder.
you know , you lack sleep. haha! gotcha there! thought i was being emo again aye?

haha , maybe.

2007-02-28T13:45:00.000-08:00

after much procastination.
okay cheryl , lynn , gwen , vicky , whoever else. I'm giving you the privillage to bug me for the photos. haha , i'll try not to procastinate again.
my sending of notebook to nat is still on the procastination list.
marisse , wtf?

2007-02-20T10:55:00.000-08:00

ok ok ok , i've been procastinating like crazy.
but i've finally decided to update because i've to wait for the fucking photos to upload.
damn it , i hate it when i procastinate cause i end up with alot of shit in my hands
kinda like when you really wanna go to the toilet and you can't find out or have something else to do and fight against the calls of nature and end up shitting in your pants like boys ( well namely joey leslie and bryan. probably bong too cause he's extremely spastic till the point that even extremely spastic is an understatement)

so anyway , point is. I procastinate. too much too often well , you get the point.
so tomorrow morning the first thing i'm going to do is send nat the notebook.
like first thing i'm going to do before i wear a bra brush my teeth comb my hair and put on some decent clothes before i brave this cruel world kinda first thing in the morning. haha ohh the things i do for love. noble noble me. i know i know , i too think i deserve an award for the most loving person in the world. haha , oh who am i kidding! both my hamsters whom i loved so dearly are dead.

so tomorrow I'm going to become a vegan for as long as I can and not communicate verbally for well , as long as I can too. haha , I don't think I'll last an hour. But well , you never know! haha , the next thing I'm going to do after this crazy antic is too change my name everyday and wear a nametag. does anyone want to join me? any takers? come on , you know you want to! haha I mean bong's already harry leslie's tom and bryan's DICK. haha , gwen's mary and I'm jane now. I mean it's a whole lot of fun.

oh yeah! did I mention I spilt milk on the first day of work and didn't cry?! ( get it? i didn't cry over spilt milk?) haha , okay at this point cheryl lynn & zac will look at me and ask me to shut up and not be lame. but come on! seriously , cheryl lynn & zac are lamer! I mean zac?! there should be a documentry made about his life. he can make sense of something out of nothing ( quotes leslia). haha , he's the biggest cock talker ever.

ok i want to shut up now.

bye

2007-02-16T00:16:00.000-08:00

we're just kids looking for a good time , so sing me some chinese techno

2007-02-15T03:47:00.000-08:00

perhaps inspiration comes from tragedies , if tragedy hadn't step foot in my heart.

i'd be always feel like a passageway waiting to happen , at least i felt more worth it.

and at least now i know what i'm capable of.

2007-02-14T16:46:00.000-08:00

2007-02-13T18:27:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's day

so I spent my first hour of v-day wishing irwin happy birthday & calling other people whom are my 'girlfriends&boyfriends' haha , you know secondary school well , more of girl schools. we have girlfriends , scandals , boyfriends , mothers , daughters , sons & good lord , husbands already! haha. Anyhooos , I also spent my first hour watching clouds making shapes with them , talking about pokemon & such and playing blind mice with the boys , again. Bryan's a sucker at oh ya pe ya sum hahaha! Man, we have no life! haha , but well at least I did have fun. Look on the brightside! At least I was out during the first hour whereas you losers had to stay in bed at home hoping someone would call you or something. haha , kidding. take a chill pill.

Alrighty I've got piano in 25 minutes got to go take a bath , till then!

happy v-day whoever's reading this , you probably mean alot to me cause you're reading this cause you care , right? haha , who am I kidding! <3!

2007-02-11T08:33:00.000-08:00

My weekend.

2007-02-11T02:56:00.000-08:00

all these feelings I shouldn't have
all these feelings I thought I'd never have

so this is what it's like to feel ,
wrong page sir , wrong page.

I'll lie through my teeth
I'll fake going to sleep

I don't want to wake up to another thought of you.
it's too hard , much too hard.

having to worry , having to erase.
it's just much too impossible to erase.

if you're listening , tell me.

2007-02-07T23:05:00.000-08:00

I am having lessons now & I am extremely bored. will delete this later. haha

Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s)
until you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this, choose five people to do this.
1.theresa
2. bryan
3.leslie
4. bong
5. cheryl ann
6. lynn
7. joey
8. zac
9. akira
10.phoebe
11. vicky
12. stacy
13. gwen
14.siewhwee
15. alicia
16. rese
17. martin
18. brendan
19.nat
20. saf
How did you meet #14? netball haha in school
What would you do if you didn't meet #1? I don't want to know
What if #9 and #20 dated? HAHAHAHA AKIRA & SAF?! AHHAHAAH
Would #6 and #17 date? HAHA it might work out haha, sorry guys i only speak the truth
Describe #3 haha , leslie? LOL he looks like a girl acts like a girl loves picking a fight with me but is an awesome friend? haha
#8 attractive? of course , handsome sia zac! haha
Describe #7 hahaha joey aaahahahaha loves jojo he's retarded and should get a life and should stop stilling my lines. haahah ummm he's awesomee? haha
#12 family members?ljerry stacy's mum stacy's dad haha
What would you do if #18 confesses to you that he likes you? HAHAHA , I LOVE YOU TOO? HAHAHAHAHAHA i wouldn't know hahahah
What language does #15 speak? Human
Who is #9 going out with? HAHA , SCANDAL THERE. you'd never really know.
how old is #16? 18 on the 21st!
When is the last time you spoke to #13? this morning
Who is #2's favourite band/singer? Hahahaha err i really have no idea , caracal? hahaha
Would you ever date #4? why not!? hahaha i mean besides the fact i'll probably squise him and annoy him to death and he'll probably die of me on the first date and have unending amount of problems , why not? haahahahahahahahahaha
Would you ever date #1 ? Definately..not! we're already married! ahahah
Is #19 single? Single hahaha
What's #10's last name? Lauw
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11? I most certainly would , she's amazing
School of #3? St Gabs? Privates? getting results tmr? haha
Where does #6 live? Hougang
What's your fave thing about #5? She's funny and an amazing friend shit that's more then 1 thing , how? haha
Have you seen #2 naked?OMG NO THANK NO OMG HAHA YUCK HAHAHAHAHAH
Okay, here are five UNLUCKY people to do this survey,
1. NOBODY
2. WOULD
3. DO
4. THE
5. FUCKING QUIZ

Rules of the game:
1) Post 5 weird or random facts about yourself.
2) At the end, write the names of 5 people whom you want to do this quiz, then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

5 random facts about myself:
1. according to my friends i speak/look like I'm high
2. I talk really loudly and I really can't help it
3. I love the feeling of laughing so hard till i get out of breath
4. I love indie
5. I love chuck palahniuk's diary & think it should be made into movie

5 PEOPLE I WANT
1. I
2. really
3. can't
4. decide
5.damn choices , how about the world?

Some other thing :

1.theresa
2. bryan
3.leslie
4. bong
5. cheryl ann
6. lynn
7. joey
8. zac
9. akira
10.phoebe
11. vicky
12. stacy
13. gwen
14.siewhwee
15. alicia
16. rese
17. martin
18. brendan
19.nat
20. saf

How did you meet 13?:
I met her at stair case trying to save her from being friends from this neighbourhood bully hah ohhh noble me.

What would you do if you never met 5?
I would die of boredom

What do you honestly think of 10?: She's AWESOME! She's my bestfriend hahaahah

Have you ever liked 3?:hahaha leslie? hahahahahahaha like as in like-like?

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?: OH MY GOSH , ARE YOU KIDDIN , I'D PROBABLY CRY MYSELF TO DEATH , THERESA EH!

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?: HAHA , vicky would die of bryan but actually it might work out. haha

Do you think 12 is hot?: SMOKING

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?: HAHA , ACTUALLY MAYBE. HAHA

Do you know any of 3's family members?: Hahaha no

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?: 10 lah 10 i have to be bias(?) she's my bestfriend

What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you: I would say I KNEW IT!how wouldn't love marisse man!? hahaha jokes.

What language does 19 speak?: English?

Who is 8 going out with?: Cheryl ann on Vday haha

Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?: Hahaha I wouldn't know , maybe? hahaha

When was the last time you talked to 6?: last night

What is 18's favorite band?: HAHA I don't know! Mae? HAHAHA I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA

Does 4 have any siblings?: allison haha

Would you ever date 1?: HAHA WEIRD , LIKE I SAID WE'RE MARRIED

Would you ever date 7?: HAHA , the whole relationship would be us asking each other can we do something and telling each other we're bored. haahahahahahah

Is 15 single?: single but unavailable haha

What is 19's last name?: Liew

What is 3's middle name?: hahaha but his surname's phua hahaha maybe it's chu kang? haha okay , lame sorry haha

What is 10's fantasy?: SHE'S ONE BIG DREAMER.

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?: wtf hahaha if nat was lesbian hahaha

What school does 16 go to?: SJC

What school does 1 go to?: PLMGSS

Where does 9 live?: Hougang

Would you make out with 13?: Hahaha ERR OMG NO?!

Are 5 and 6 best friends?: They're like stuck to the hip well , sorta

Is 20 older than you?: nope!

Is 4 the sexiest bitch prettiest girl alive?: HAHAHA WHAT!?BONG MAY BE FEMININE BUT HE'S NOT A GIRL AHAHHAA

Is 17 your ex?: HAHAHAHA WTF

Do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?: HAHAHA WHY NOT! HAHA STACY & BRENDAN ARE COOL ENOUGH FOR ME. AHHA AND THEY BOTH LIVE AT GARDENS MAYBE THEY SHOULD DATE. AHAH OK , SHUTUP MARISSE! ahaha

How is 2?: in need of serious brain theraphy!

HAHAHAH TURNED OUT SERIOUSLY RETARDED!

2007-02-07T20:52:00.000-08:00

6 degrees of seperation.
and the world still amazes me with every passing day , how things change and evolve. well , basically everything.

all at once it seemed so easy
the way to make this right
just to let myself feel these things
and say what's on my mind
so i let my guard down
and it seems not for the best
i guess i do the right things
at all the wrong times
and stand to pay the price

shagagraf's the sex! no shit! check him out
- shagagraf.deviantart.com
I love his work. haha , I can almost get stendhal sydrome. Everytime I view his pictures I feel overwhelmed with this weird emotion I can't seem to put my finger on. haha , or maybe I'm just such a fucking pussy.

2007-02-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

Pinned wings , please?

I know I promise not to complain. I'll stop , I'll try harder. Maybe tomorrow , maybe next year. I'll stop soon enough. I promise not to feel , I promise not to think. But I've been going to bed with the heaviest heart and a train of thoughts. I never knew not being able to cater to someone felt this scary. I feel useless , completely useless. I don't think it's the right word but it's the first word that popped in my mind. Obsolete came after that but I don't think it's the right word either. No , stop right there Marisse. You've no feelings remember? Oh yeah.

It's 12.13 and I'm going to be late for school. Yes , yet again. Jan went pass so quickly when I think about it. I spent almost everyday with the same people I can almost not remember everything that has/had happened. I see Leslie,Bryan,Gwen,Bong,Joey,Zac,Cheryl Ann almost everyday. I'm going to be lesyanwenongeyacheraphobic! haha , it has come to the point where I think I'm clingy & disgusting and dependent. Please help me!

2007-02-05T09:16:00.000-08:00

Joey has an exploding heart for annoyance

so my week has pretty much started out really fucked up , extremely fucked up

I always open this window with alot of things to say but when the minute my fingers touch the keyboard it's like all my thoughts dissapear , I become a robot. Maybe I should bring a keyboard around with me 24/7 and soon enough , I'd be as brain dead as bryan or cheryl or bong or well , the list goes on and you the get it already , I know.So anyway,I can't wait for this friday! The anticipation is killing me already. I've it all planned out. I seriously truly am a weekend warrior! And during the week I walk around as stoned and rock hard as maybe say , concrete? Hello I am concretegerxzsxz90 want to be friends?

yeah I figured.. alrighty then! I leave you here! :)

2007-02-04T08:45:00.000-08:00

I have no comment , not anymore.

I look like a guy , I know.

I have so many things to get off my chest right now.

but I know it's not the right time , I got the load off once and let my guard down. look where it got me , I lost someone so dear to me. I'm not ready for that drama again. I think I never really was. But anyway , I pretty much prefer to play pretend. But sometimes pretending is hard when you've lost too much. I think I'm ready for mission : silence .

Cause friend if you've been looking for a passageway , you've come to the right place. Right here , with all my heart.

2007-02-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

I decided to delete the last entry because it was to much of an eyesore.

and since everyone has sorta gotten their photos i might as well just post one.

alrighty then!

2007-01-30T18:48:00.000-08:00

falling asleep to the starlight video on the couch is the last thing I remember about yesterday.It was my mummy's birthday yesterday! We ate at prego & laughed so much I felt like vomiting. We were laughing at how unlady like I am & how weird she is. hahaha , my mother has the thickest skin in the world! I swear , she can continue talking about things that do not concern me & me , obviously not giving a shit to what she's talking about will start humming tunes and she'll just continue when she can tell I'm totally not paying attention. She'll go on till the point where I stop what I'm doing and go wait , she's still talking?! And burst out laughing and say mum , you're damn retarded. Okay , yeah I know. Retarded again right? GOD! I need to start reading the dictionary again. Yes again. hahaha phoebe & I used to read to dictionary and we'd compete to see who knew more English words. God , we were so....Retarded? Alrighty I leave you here! :)

I miss pam already.

2007-01-26T22:48:00.000-08:00

okay yes , I look like shit everywhere. bahaha but i don't care the food looks good & the oreo frappe's awesome yo! :)

2007-01-26T21:41:00.000-08:00

I traded the sunrise for the sunset

I miss the B&W in all areas of my life.

2007-01-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

Let down your defenses

I have no idea what's going on with my life right now.I feel like an outsider watching this stranger ruin her own life and I can't do anything to help her cause it's pretty hard , because you're a stranger too. haha , yeah call me emo throw rocks at me cast me out from the tribe whatever else you've got I really can't care anymore. I think I'm becoming numb again. And feeling numb's the best feeling I've felt this year.

thank you gwen , for everything :)

2007-01-24T16:21:00.000-08:00

Chloe's so pretty her photo doesn't even need to be edited :)

I't 4 minutes to 8.30 and I've to reach school by 9
okay , so according to gwen my livejournal link is wrong
but I'm to lazy to edit it so it's just without the www haha
today's just one of those days I wake up before the alarm clock
and feel like I'm late for school. have you had one of those days before?
I woke up breathless actually. damn the stupid weather!
Anyway so today's just of those days you want to wake up and listen to mogwai.
it's one of those ' i want to listen to mogwai ' days. okay okay I don't make sense
today's also one of those days you feel like listening to those old songs you once had
hahaha , so i've uploaded usher & avril lavinge into my ipod! hooray okay! see you bye

2007-01-24T07:50:00.000-08:00

okay , I guess I'm better now. I've a livejournal but it's for school but I want to use it too I'll switch once I get the hang of it , it's www.lollipopsichord.livejournal.com I post pictures there so my lecturer can grade it. anyway , I hope all is well for the rest of you. :)

2007-01-19T12:39:00.000-08:00

Goodbye for now cause the way I feel right now is beyond comprehension.

2007-01-15T11:29:00.000-08:00

Well I'm a wreck. I really can't explain it but I, I hear the music when I look at you. Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment. Well, I'm so in love with you.

somedays like today I look up in the sky stare at just a single star , the brightest of course
I walk with my head up not facing anything directly infront of me
playing the game of trust with myself. ( this insanity comes from not having a sibling )
It's hard to trust yourself . Yet , sometimes we find it so much easier to trust someone else.
I love the 'weak knees' feeling I get when I walk up not being able to see forth.
But I much rather give that feeling up then have the thrill.
cause sometimes when you're not looking at what's coming at you
you fall , you get hurt & that my friends , really sucks.
I just realised that trust is overated.

okay , so marisse as you can see is feeling rather emo today. God knows why. Good Lord I mean I've almost everything I want right now in my life. I mean I am happy but my life's kinda lacking something. you know the feeling you get when you draw lots for a lucky draw and win a prize that is pretty awesome and you should be happy with it cause it's really pretty all damn cool but you realised that your friend had a prize that was way cooler and then you feel this jealousy shit surge up your body making you wish you were somebody else. well , making you wish you were her basically. that's how i've been feeling for a while.Actually , I've been feeling that way since well , I think I was sec 2 the minute I became best friends with phoebe , I knew I wasn't happy with who I am. I mean seriously , you should check her out! hahaha , I was the overtanned netballer bestfriend who was a total bitch and she on the other hand was the thoughtful , patient , oh-so-lovely phoebe lauw whose social life I ruined quite briefly. okay okay , maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit. I feel the need to exaggerate right now. well , if you knew back then I was the most melodramatic person you'd ever know. okay so from there things moved on to when I became sec 4 which was only last year and I met a lot of people and my self esteem just kept shrinking and shrinking till the point that it is now a size of a peanut. haha! But you'll never see the side of me wanting to be somebody else unless you're as close to me like theresa or vicky( whom doesn't like to hear it anw!) or smth and you know what , I'm so tired at pretending I'm okay.

here's one to the mistakes we knew we were making.

2007-01-12T12:47:00.000-08:00

My week in less than 300 words but more than a thousand pictures, haha!

I've had an awesome week! I hope this doesn't mean I'm going to have a horrid one next cause you know , change is constant. haha ,rese just said that to me the other day.we finally met up and went to see ally. ally has the nicest house in the world! spent the whole week with the boys , well almost. Beat was awesome today & so was caracal. Sorry Kinda brain dead now.

but , thank you boys for the awesome week :)

The other day after I came home from bong's place , I made a last minute decision to dash out in the rain at the playground. I made sure I was drenched before going home again. rese , I wish you were with me! I had to play games alone. I played the 'look up into the sky and try not to get to rain in my eyes' game. I love the rain.

I realise I have 5 different kinds of soap in my toilet.I use the Lux one when I'm lazy to bathe. I use the T3 one when I feel insecure.I use the bodyshop one when I feel good. I use the stives one when I remember I have it . & I have another one which I don't use at all. Haha , okay that was random. niteenite ! :)

2007-01-08T16:01:00.000-08:00

One week , that's all you have
what're you going to do when she leaves you then?

I think Olivia & I are the burger queens! & Caroline needs a road map for vivo! haha!
Kim , Olivia & I went for mass then headed to gardens for dinner then we headed to the swing. Then we headed to my place. Olivia had school so she left pretty early. Kim & I got bored and bong was the first person who popped in our minds must be cause we saw him after mass or something. We decided to head down to his place to meet the boys instead of watching me make my feeble attempts at walking my hamsters. Good Lord , Thank God! hahaha , we watched hard candy & played blind mice at his place. I was pretty stoned but it was all fun though! Bryan is the most hardcore blind mouse I've seen in my life! hahaha! I'm starting to think that Leslie really actually is a girl & Bong well , Bong hair's big! ( but it's his mojo anw! :D ). Joey well , Joey's a moron. We all headed to the prata place for breakfast. Where I saw some string action coming out of one of the prataman's nose. An image that will be forever stuck in my mind sadly. okay , I'm beat good morning folks!

Again! Again! hahahaha :D
Bong if you read this ,
you're going to get sick of me soon.

2007-01-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

My weekend

spirit of the victim was a comedy really.

today I went with princess mary to visit narnia. we rode on horses and flew kites at the same time. we had lunch with the king kong and then later on went to sing K-box with bill gates.

okay, so today I went for post con in the morning with bong & tris then went for mass with an additional grandpa bong. He's super cool yo! He's westside yo! He's pimping in the crib yo! He's cooler than scooby doo. okay , what the fuck marisse. After mass we went to eat lunch with the rest. It was so fun , we got to see the main attraction of the coffee shop , this ass crack guy. tris , zac , bong , rese & I headed to town after lunch but rese went to work. The rest of us when to meet the rest. and the rest of them came at the rest of the time of the day we watched the rest of the movie at rest of the cinemas and went to the rest of the arab streets to smoke to the resst of the sheesha ( mostly on their part ) I was laughing the rest of the time to the rest of their jokes if i spent the rest of my reminding hours I would've died of the rest of the asthma. okay , goodnight the rest of the world.

(omg , I will delete this later)

thank you tris , bong , zac , cheryl ann , leslie , lynn , mady , joey , bryan , safith for today.

2007-01-04T09:37:00.000-08:00

so much for telling

always eager , never ready.

taken back hearts , is this the end?

Thank God it's Friday ( not )

2007-01-04T09:16:00.000-08:00

Just a minute's all I need & It'll all be over , Please?

so I finally got my ass down to the gym today telling myself I'm worth it , worth the effort and all. haha , but I only did about 20-30 minutes. but at least I went felt so good about it i decided to eat a double cheeseburger after that hahaha damn marisse , you are a moron. oh wells. photography lessons were pretty good today. The thursday bunch is much more lively. The wednesday slot's dead as disko yo. haha , I am going to be the photoshop guru yo! That'll be my new years resolution! hee-haw. Caught a movie with my mum after that we watch the queen! Pretty good shit! I swear my mum's psycho! haha , she expects her boyfriend to be there for her 24/7 that's why she broke up with me. crazy bitch , thank God I'm a girl I won't have to deal with girls like her! hahaha! she thinks he's an emergency hotline. poor guy. and just so you know , my parents are divorced so it's totally fine she has a boyfriend. it's not like she's having an affair and i'm keeping it from my dad or any of that jazz. Will be seeing theresa tomorrow , finally. she has dissapeared on me then gwen later on. I guess tomorrow will be good day. Looking foward to it yo! okay , I should stop yo-ing. I can't stop this westside shit. Must be from all my friends having their fits. I was rapping to this song at church totally freaked kim out. heh. see ya'll later. Peace from the middle east! ( we're not even the middle east. but who cares! )

Hey Love , I'm ready to be heart broken.

2007-01-02T09:05:00.000-08:00

loney thoughts meet pretend.

alicia's the best cook in the world & rese is going to marry me.

I was looking through my old photos and found these 2 I kind of like them.

I'm beat & boring. niteenite worldo.com

stop it marisse.

2007-01-01T11:50:00.000-08:00

2007-01-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

I left the posting page open for about 3 hours.
thinking about what to say about 2006
but I realised that there're too many things to say about it.
well , to sum it all up , 2006 was a year full of surprises.
I can think about almost 10 different situations , smile & say who knew.
I made a lot of mistakes this year more than I've ever made in the past 15 years of my life.
But this is really cliche but , I do not regret making them cause everything happens for a reason, right? If you ask me , sometimes I think God's this sick dude up there sitting infront of this computer of higher power playing the sims
and yeah , that's right!we're the people in the sims.
I mean we're said to have free will but then again they say ' God has a plan '/'it's the will of God'
so is it God knows we're going to make a mistake or did God plan the mistake.
makes you think aye? If it doesn't well , you're either a cunt whore bitch or a taoist.
But still , I thank God for everyone I've met and already know in 2006.
Cause you all make life worth living. I wake up hoping I'd get a call from all of you.
One of the reasons I thank God for another day instead of my usual , ' fuck! I'm alive!? God! '
so 2007 , here I am & here I come! hahaha! :)

I spent new years eve at stacy's depression party / countdown party
the dress code was all black. I felt like I was going for a funeral
If only it was MY funeral. Everyone was getting high & stupid.
I felt like shooting my brains out sitting next to caishan.
she is by far the stupidest human being I've met.
sorry to be frank , but it's sadly true.
I spent most of the time with Gwen , thank you babe for everything
we escaped from the party to play at the swing & mime to skater boi
cause that's the song we both know. we bumped into a couple of people
well , it is gardens and everybody knows everyone well , almost.
I ended my new years eating breakfast at macdonalds.
I couldn't really appreciate my meal cause I hadn't slept for 4 days.
I could go on for one more day but decided not to cause I felt a pimple.
yeah so what , I am a girl okay! hahaha , we headed back to the party after a while
we all talked through the morning. well , not all. only with the sober once left.
we drew and spray painted a very drunk soorya. chaotic but I was happy to see everyone.
Thank you stacy , although it was kinda boring& stupid I still love you to the highest power!
Happy new year everyone :)

by far , the best new years eve ever!

2006-12-30T13:54:00.000-08:00

a vacant affair

finally got to see the girls again.
finally got updated about what was going on in their lives.
finally got to see phoebe in another set of clothes
finally finally finally , I've missed you guys dearly!

'Moshed' with Tris&Jessy, Bong&friends , Alicia&Rese :)
It was nice seeing a lot of familiar faces like markooo , Melanie , mayyin & the list goes on.
Cheryl Ann, Lynn , Tris & the float( which is I ) got to hear our favourite song prizelist( haha! ohh Cheryl )I haven't slept for almost 3 days , only cause I don't want to screw my body clock.
ironic aye? cause I don't want to sleep 4 in the morning waking up the next day
to find that the day's almost over. Besides , I want to be healthy again!
to the gym marisse , to the damn gym!

Anyway , after the gig we all headed down to gardens in qi an's(?) car not to worry he drove!heh
We were all packed in the car like a can of sardines. hahaha! There were 8 of us in the car!
Rese , Nat , KC , Gabs , Chris , Egan , Qi an & I hahaha! Yeah , we were trying to get into the Guinness world of records for most idiots squashed into a car or maybe the police records for dumbfucks. There was even this point of time where we were driving behind the traffic police totally freaking out. haha , okay! Maybe I was the only freaker outer but it was really fun! hahaha! After we reached gardens we headed to mackers & bumped into Leon. I think he's really funny. Sorry , I know I'm totally boring you but it was really fun. Qi an drove us all home that poor boy. Anyway , I'm beat. Happy New years eve. I must say , my NYE has had a good start let's just hope it'll remain that way.

Thank you Everyone (:

2006-12-29T13:05:00.000-08:00

There are two greatest tragedies in this world ,
one is to lose your heart's desire & one is to gain it.

bring it on tragedy! (:

2006-12-29T12:47:00.000-08:00

I think stacy's a doll.

Hello! It's about 5 am right now & I can't sleep again.

Once again I've completely fucked up my body clock! haha , I am a loser.

I had fun today/yesterday( whatever.) with Gwenie , Stacy the moron & nana.

I bought knickers again! hahaha! I bought 4 pairs already this week. Gosh!

Stupid Topshop sale. hahaha well , on a lighter note I've been feeling a lot happier

( rese if you read this , I'm not lying!heh )

I guess it's cause I've been behaving like such a spasz.

well today/yesterday(whatever.) for instance

when Gwen & I went to visit rese at her workplace I wasn't so hyped up yet

but when we started walking around to buy stuff

I started getting hyper like extremely hyper Gwen thought I was losing it.

But then again , It could've been the coffee starting to kick in.

Thank you Gwen & Stacy the moron for tolerating my horrible singing and having sudden outbursts of screamo then the opera. hahaha.

I think I'll do that more often I feel so free like a bird ( omg so gay I know )

Pardon me , I've no brains right now.

Oh wait , I almost never have brains.

Kinda like how I came up with malia malia black dahlia today/yesterday ( whatever.)

I was singing maria maria then I suddenly remembered that

chinese people say malia not maria then

I was/am going to watch black dahlia then I realised that they rhyme

and so I came up with malia malia black dahlia.

okay , enough Marisse. Goodnighto stupidos.

2006-12-26T09:18:00.000-08:00

Got this from leeyah's blog

List ten things you want to say to ten random people, but you know you never will say these things to them. Dont say who the comment is meant for, and use people only once.

1. I hope you're not using me , please prove me wrong

2. I hope I mean a lot to you cause you mean quite a lot to me.

3. Sometimes I get tired of you but I hope you know you mean a lot to me.

4. Walk me home?

5. Do you know? Cause , pick me.

6. I'm sorry , I'm sorry for all the times when I tell everyone how much I hate you & how much of a loser you are. I really do love you.

7. I love you and I mean it everytime I say it

8. I really hoped that it'd last forever.

9. I want you to get over what you're doing but still stay the same

10. I think I'll be better than you. Please get over yourself.

Bungna's party was pretty good actually cause I got to be around my friends
and that's what mattered. knowing that I've been spending my christmas with the ones I love
& the ones whom I know love me back for just the way I am :) Thanks guys so much for making me feel like by just being myself's good enough sorry I haven't been as lively as I was in the past , just a little down that's all. okay , I think I've had one to many warheads. hahaha , my tongue's numb. okay I'm going to try to sleep early tonight so I can wake up early to read & gym or smth :) Good night world!

2006-12-25T13:14:00.000-08:00

( Click for better view )

Christmas felt like any other day just with a more expensive taxi fare.

2006-12-24T14:16:00.000-08:00

Don't read , I'm being emo.

It's currently 6.30 am & it's christmas
so Happy Christmas Everyone & well , good morning.
last christmas was spent with the bird's nest & then later on with akira.
It was my first christmas with vicky
& the first time I ever hung out with just akira alone
we talked through the morning getting to know each other
him being the ah beng he is told me all his adventures
haha , I really enjoyed myself then. who knew we'd be best friends.
I had a lot on plate during this year. All the drama , serious drama
and it's following through the next year. & next year's just in a week's time.
Akira says I've changed so much this year & I couldn't have said so better myself.
But change is good I guess cause from the change I've learnt so much.
I almost lost myself , whatever myself is. haha , but I guess it doesn't matter.
so anyway , I had the whole mood cycle within the first few hours of christmas.
from being totally bored then to annoyed then to pissed then to embarassed
and then to happy and then to amused and then to sad and then I'm here.
woah , that's a lot of and thens. hahaha , but no hard feelings bong.
I guess it was my fault for not calling. Sorry I made you guys walk out.
& thanks Baby Biggay for answering the phone , I had fun.

I sat on the kerb & cried
& I felt better than I've been feeling for the whole december
It was good finally letting out my fustrations.
& thank God I was alone :)
I was pretty dissapointed with christmas
I guess it's cause I was pretty much expecting a lot.
All the plans I made dissapeared and crumbled in my own bloody hands.
maybe I'll go visit SPCA( I'm thinking of adopting a cat & a rabbit )
or maybe I'll just sleep through the afternoon.
God , I hate mondays.

heavy hearts & christmas tears.
Once again , Happy Christmas.
I miss you theresa.

2006-12-23T13:56:00.000-08:00

I got up early today and thankfully not on the wrong side. I went to my grandmama's house for lunch then went to meet leeyah.We looked for a non-existent photography gallery then headed down to home for the gig. caracal was good as usual & surreal was omgxzsxzsxzs! amateur takes control sounded like mogwai , they were really good. I had fun bopping my head to the music with leeyah alicia rese ally & nat.
thank you for the company , it was great seeing alicia & rese again. It's been really long considering the last time we hung out we talked through the morning & then they dissapeared on me.But it was great seeing them anyway. I mean , why wouldn't it be ? Those two pretty faces ( Okayxzsxz sounding really lesbian thanks.) Leeyah & I headed home before the rest we almost got lost. But thanks for the company once again I'm glad you could make it Leeyah :) How could I ever miss out on all the ' I don't feel like dancing ' & ' I left my heart in san francisco ' hahaha! Anyway , Happy Christmas Eve.

Marisse is going to spend her christmas day at home alone cause she has no money &
she doesn't have any plans so she'll be reading & watching movies unless you guys ask her out * hint hint ( okayxzsxzs so gay ) and she'll go running cause every will be out partying hard and there'll be no one at the stadium to watch & pressurize paraniod old fatso Marisse Caine thanks :)

Show some love ya'llllllllllllllll ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

God! I'm so going to delete this entry when I wake up , IF I WAKE UP.

2006-12-22T08:51:00.000-08:00

yesterday once more , please?

listen to trella! :)

I love you bestfriend :)

I went to the esplanade library today to catch up on some reading on my own
went to meet tris paolo and daniel at clarke quay mrt station shortly after
I am so out of shape walking there felt like 2.4 hahaha! Back to the gym marisse!
we went to meet the rest of them at homeclub to watch trella play! Trella's accoustic set was awesome! Bong looks adorable when he sings! hahaha! really!
after the arpee set ( they were fucking awesome )we went to eat at macs
it felt like one of those excursions there were so many of us.
tris holly chloe cherylann pammy evelynn lynn bong paolo leslie leon joey kenneth daniel zac(?) i think there were more actually. too many to remember hahaha!
felt like an excursion. but I had fun! Tris & I were having fits in the train.
more photos to come! niteenite world.

dumbass you suck! haha !

2006-12-21T11:08:00.000-08:00

RIGHT BACK AT YA BIGGAY.
I set my turtle stuart free today

I'll be praying for your safety

( like you can read this you stupid turtle )

I love you , I had fun today girlssss haha

2006-12-20T09:26:00.000-08:00

Hello Photography lessons were awesome.

I met a one eye blind cat. she's really pretty.

I had an awesome day by myself :)

2006-12-20T09:22:00.000-08:00

Oh Hello Love.

2006-12-20T00:20:00.000-08:00

went out with leeyah yesterday , it was nice
to at least be out of the house.
I can't believe what your dad's doing to my mum L
she's been crying since we left the fucking station thanks.
I know I crashed the car but it's still not fair I have to bear full responsibility
look , we don't have a car & the last time we went on a holiday was a thousand years ago.
correction , the last time we were happy seemed too long ago.

I've photography lessons later I don't want to go home so early
I think I'll probably head down to peninsula to collect my jeans then go photo taking.
hello God , I'm at your disposal now. What exactly do you want from me?

Dear Santa ,
I know I've been bad for the past year.
Please let me curl up & die for Christmas
then I won't be bad again.

xoxo
Marisse

2006-12-17T14:56:00.000-08:00

I FOUND AN OLD POST:

hello akira , you are a fucker.

and it still cracks me up. hahaha! Thanks for the talk akira :)

2006-12-17T00:21:00.000-08:00

My Saturday with love and silhouette friends

2006-12-16T23:56:00.000-08:00

So there we were laughing wildly at jack black in the cinema.
I repeat , laughing wildy at jack black not with jack black
Ohh Alyssa , I had a lot of fun watching the holiday with you.
not quite I expected though , I expected it to be a cryfest
but it was good all the same. I've yet to catch little miss sunshine
would anyone like to catch it with me?... Yeah thought so
I guess I'll go borrow it at some rental shop and watch it all alone & mope
oh! oh! oh! And the oc season 3's out on DVD already! yayza , I'm up for it
yes I know , call me slow but at least I found out soon enough
after I pay for my fines , my bills & Christmas presents ( if I even have money for that)
I'll buy the whole season , or I'll just settle for borrowing.
I'm sorry everyone I doubt you'll be expecting anything from me this year
maybe valentine's day next year. So in other words , you don't have to get me anything
and please don't cause I'll feel really bad , like a free loader.
ahhh , I see my Christmas spirit disappearing into thin air! haha
Anyway , So after hanging out with awesome Alyssa I went to meet awesome Alicia
we went to meet joyful jade & nice Nicole ( LOL I couldn't come up with better words)
we went for the already closed flea market at homeclub then we met up with Chris
nic & jade had to leave earlier so the 3 of us headed to kovan for supper
took a nice long walk to alicia's place then headed home.
okay , that was pretty much my Saturday.

what am I doing now? I think I'll go read. See you folks!
My phone's down & I'll be with V & the rest
love love!

2006-12-14T14:08:00.000-08:00

[Edit]

Theresa's probably having the time of her life right now in Malaysia
If I had cash I'd be on my way to Malaysia without parental permission
escaping for this hell hole. Oh don't mind me I'm just being grumpy
I sleep more than 12 hours a day and I exercise now and I'm still so tired
I've no idea why! It's getting so annoying!

I finally went for my triathalon training and I only ran 4 rounds
I was too tired to run and I had no water and there was no vending machine!
correction , there WAS a vending machine only it was all chained up
what's the point in having one when you're going to lock it up?
those sick sadistic people working at the spe
they must know that there are people like me who forget to bring water
so they purposely put a machine there so we can die of dehydration
staring at the 'goddess'( the machine )
I bet the guy who owns the place is the murderer in saw
okay , that was so lame
sorry , I caught Cheryl foo's stupid.

Anyway , I finally finished reading
fight club by chuck palahniuk. Finally! haha awesome book I must say.
Any recommendations for a new book I should read?
I'm off to read choke now! ^^

I miss Theresa , really!

2006-12-14T12:08:00.000-08:00

Midnight Escapades with the dear clutz , I love you :)

2006-12-14T11:08:00.000-08:00

BRACE YOURSELVES FOR THE MOST EGOISTIC ENTRY EVER!

check out my mum's sexy legs!

My mum's beautiful aye , I mean sides' the hair. ahha

You see that girl with the orange hairband?

she's butch now. You were so pretty trish!

Best Birthday EVER! hahaha

Te Amor Tito Aik!

HAHA , that's the ugliest jumpsuit ever. Hello Granny! <3

<3!

Ohh mummy

SLUT!

My mum told me to smile with my teeth.

STOP TELLING ME TO SMILE WITH MY TEETH!

Everybody wanted to be the pink ranger haha

Yeah , Go away you pedophile

This was my WTF face.

Hello Hannah , I love you very much

& every girl in that picture loved the boy in red very much too hahahahhahahah!

Yeap , I was deranged already

2006-12-13T05:32:00.000-08:00

Sorry , Only one shot of caracal (KC).

TRELLA

2006-12-12T00:36:00.000-08:00

Hello there , there'll be more photos up! But , Cause blogger's really fucked up it'll take some time! ( not like you care! ) :D

2006-12-12T00:20:00.000-08:00

SOD

2006-12-07T10:44:00.000-08:00

I'm going to pin your wings down butterflies.

Hello Emo Ol' Marisse won't be going for sonic bang for a lot of reasons
one of them's the lack of cash due to an 'unfortunate incident' with my mum.
hey , I think I kinda like the times font I wonder why I didn't like it in the first place.
hmmmm , maybe it's cause our teachers always forced us to use it during assignments
ever since I was in OL. I mean miss constance tan is the most anal teacher ever.
and you know how marisse is , she likes to do things that's against the will of nature.
( haha , yeap getting a little dramatic here ) like letting your hamsters run about like cats
forgetting they're their size and it's really hard finding them back or ...
you know like crashing a car? hahaha.
Yesterday night was great , thanks alicia & rese for well , everything.
sorry , I can't join you guys for sheesha later , was looking foward to it. oh wells.
It's nice not being home. I really hate being home.
All the drama & all the 'you must show your emotions'.
I'm not quite comfortable with the showing your emotions thing.
used to be , not anymore. I mean blogging about how you feel is one thing
but showing it to other people can be quite difficult after a while.
I mean sure , the whole world might be reading your blog.
but who cares! as long as you know that they won't see you emo on the outside
and the fact that your parents don't read your blog.well , my parent at least.
Good lord , I'm starting to have a problem expressing how I feel
& it used to be my forte. this is karma , I swear!
okay , enough said. I just want to sleep & escape from reality for a while.

I used to be so happy. well , at least I thought I was.

2006-12-07T10:10:00.000-08:00

click for a better view.

listen to caracal , go for audiorojak :)

Woke up at 3 something today , went for mass then the gig. well , that pretty much sums up my whole day. hahaha , gosh how I hate getting up late. Thank you theresa , yvonne , bong , leon , avery , joey err , i kinda forgot the rest of the people's names. so yeah. , good night world

I will not make the same mistake again.

2006-12-05T00:38:00.000-08:00

My life is over. No , really.

I might actually finally go running tonight. Since I can't go for the party. I'm grounded

I'll always lack confidence.
I give up , I give up on everything.

2006-12-04T00:47:00.000-08:00

meet retardo & stupido my new hamsters.

2006-12-03T06:09:00.000-08:00

contact very very very hardcore bong for tickets : 97293352

2006-12-02T23:51:00.000-08:00

I'm not serious but I damage , I create serious damage.

2006-12-02T19:39:00.000-08:00

this is me depressed , really.
completely stoned at the monitor
in a total trance to the killer's everything will be alright
how I feel right now is beyond comprehension
I never thought it would really happen to me
I've sort of 'felt' how It would be.
everytime I watch the television , I 'feel' the pain
but thanks to the third passenger we didn't get hurt.
though , sometimes I wish I died.
Retardos , we'll get through this.
I hope we'll still be friends
cause not being friends is what I'm most afraid of.
so I guess this is goodbye ' merry Christmas '
all I can do not is pray until something happens.
thank you everyone who's been here for me.
now everytime I wake up I kinda wished I didn't
cause when I'm asleep I don't have to face the music.
God , I'm such a sinner.

2006-12-02T19:34:00.000-08:00

okay , that's about it

2006-12-02T19:29:00.000-08:00

2006-12-02T19:23:00.000-08:00

blogger doesn't allow me to post a lot of photos at a go

2006-12-02T19:19:00.000-08:00